first pic was during my first (or second?) piano recital at UP abelardo hall, i was grade 2 (or grade 3?) hehe i don’t remember. next pic was JUST A PHOTO OP at Makati Shang during my mom’s awarding. note that i don’t play that much anymore. i missed playing the piano, seriously. haaaaay MIDTERMS…

i thought i’m just afraid of getting into a relationship. but i realized, any form of attachment scares me as well. i don’t just accept responsibilities as they are. it’s the fear of screwing up that’s screwing me today. you know what, sometimes i feel like i can live on my own, without my parent’s…

— so yesterday, i excused myself from work to attend my mom’s awarding at makati shang. i commuted from home and had only ice breaker for lunch. oh, i also went down at the wrong mrt station — buendia — supposed to be ayala haha. they were both undergound, so i got confused. i wasn’t…

— i have never felt this special, as a friend. after an hour on the phone she said it’s okay if she loses all her friends, as long as she has me. awww nakakatouch. i couldn’t possibly say the same cos i never looked into the possibility of losing all my friends (and i never…

wow. here’s goes fucking insecurity. i’ll try to be nice. but damn. the problem is, i’m always nice. you’ll hardly notice if i actually hate you. i hardly hate people anyway. i just get paranoid a lot… threatened is the right term actually, and insecure. HAHA what. what do i need to change? i miss…