A very personal blog


I haven’t figured out how to write a year in review post, so as usual, I’m gonna go back in time by visiting my 2016 posts to see how it has fared.

To be honest though, 2016 started out really dull and slow. 2015 was still one of the best I’ve had, I’m considering it a quarter-life reward lol, the so-called crisis I have yet to encounter, not that I’m looking forward to it hehe.

So what happened in 2016? The first few months I was still in the US and for the most part I dreaded coming back. Sure I missed my family, my boyfriend, my friends… but you know, life in the US (at least in Minnesota) was so chill. I mean, it’s a place I wouldn’t mind settling down into. Another reason I didn’t want to go back (yet) was that I haven’t saved enough money for my parents. I promised I would save up a certain amount for them but my overspending at Amazon took my promise away. Also, I haven’t lost all the weight I gained (20lbs) since I left, and I didn’t want to face anyone with my obesity. Arg.

So March 19 of 2016 I was headed home. It’s not like I can extend my stay, my visa was only good for 6 months and I’m already a month (and a day) short of overstaying, so I really had to go home. In fairness I took a lot with me lol. Apart from the FOREX box I shipped to Manila, my total check-in luggage weighed 80lbs, and my hand carry luggage weighed 20 lbs haha. For someone who came in with only 28lbs of stuff, I sure packed a lot! In my defense, there were two vacuumed sealed stuffed toys in my bag, and winter coats are heavy okay?

And just like that, I was back. 

No more cold winter air, no more shoveling the driveway when it snowed, no more Amazon, no more free flowing brewed coffee in the office, no more snow, no more cheap steak, and most importantly my salary is back to Philippine peso.

But it’s not all bad. When I came back, I was greeted with a new car! I may not be able to save that much, but I’ve saved enough to get a new car for the fam so I thank God! 🙂

The months that came after are quite uneventful and unlucky though,

☢ I got a driver’s license, and with it followed three accidents – one with a motorcycle, another with a truck, and one with a freaking parking post. Have I mentioned I’m writing as a ghost right now? Kidding. So yeah, put those three plus a couple of minor (I mean stupid) bumps here and there and I can only curse at how much I’ve spent on car repairs already. But still, if it weren’t for insurance, I’d be dead poor right now.

☢ My US visa application got denied. I wrote about it here. I already felt greedy for wanting another US stint right when I just came back, but well, an opportunity presented itself so I’m more than free to hope for the best right? Sure.

Those were the blows, add the fact that I’m not getting my pre-US weight back, midway into 2016 and I’m all about concluding my star sign has lost alignment and I’m out of favors with the universe. I don’t even subscribe to the horoscope anymore.

Until my birthday came, and my boyfriend of 5 years proposed to me with a sparkly black ring that I so love. That was the only highlight I can think of (plus the new car), and man was it fleeting.

The thought of finally living together, moving out, starting a family – oh Lord, my life has finally started moving again.

Except it’s not that easy.

Weddings are a fuss. People don’t really care about it unless they’re the one getting wed, or they work as a coordinator. Even when Jeckie and I have been talking about getting married someday, I never really looked into what goes into a wedding and all that. It’s just a ceremony, as he says, it’s the marriage that’s more important. I agree.

It doesn’t make it less expensive though. Saving for it is crazy. Looking for a cheap and nice gown is hard. Losing weight is a hassle. Flowers are expensive. Imagine spending ₱1,000.00++ per head just for food? I’m not even that generous with my close friends lol. I’m quite concerned because it’s going to be my biggest expense yet, and divided into two, it’s still the biggest we have to save for. Anyway… not to turn this into a rant, all my wedding blahs can be found here.

But it’s all good. Life is good. My life is moving in the right order.

Becoming an adult, nobody really prepares for it, it just happens. If you told me five years ago I’d be paying for a car, a condo unit, and would soon become a wife, I would’ve laughed at you real hard. That’s too much, then I’ll cringe. But here I am, doing all the exact things a 21-year year old me wouldn’t even dream of doing. Paying amortizations, saving for a wedding, buying investment plans, and for some reason, despite all my rants, it’s not too daunting as what I had imagined it to be.

I don’t really have a wish for this year. I just want to be able to carry on our wedding without getting stressed out of our wits (and broke). Actually, last night I dreamt of our wedding day, I was walking down the aisle and noticed that there were very few people in the venue. Then I realized, oh Lord I forgot to send out the invites.

Que horror.