A very personal blog

linkin park rocks! \m/

weeee… i love linkin park… i’m rockin wit them 2day! haha… wala lng… funny.. i’m slowly getting into the radical punk type… haha dun want that to happen… i’m just depressed… i need to take this out…

why does it feel like i’m about to die?
every night i feel this same agony that’s torturing me less during the wee hours of the day but it’s pulling itself to the extreme every night when i sleep..hmmm…

it’s like i’m being kulam-ed. LoL… the pain concentrates on my left chest… ok.. breast.. or maybe the heart itself.. i dunno but it freakin hurts… like when i breathe… it would be a labored kind and i can’t continue heaving a deep sigh because the pain is triggering… like a nerve would explode and i’ll faint.. and i’ll never wake up.

ok.. i’m dead!

and when i’m dead… i’ll go either up or down.. but first… i’ll do a little freak to those people who made my life either happy or sad… i’ll chat… with those people i wanna say a formal goodbye to and i’ll also chat to those people who fuckin ruined a day or two in my life and scare them to hell.

i’ll post in this blog… my last post explaining gratitude to those i love and apology to those whom i’ve hurt.

do you know what this means?