Oh I don’t know

My eyes are literally struggling to open, It’s almost 9am, I’m out of sleep and about to embark on a whole day ISO training my manager signed me up for.

It’s 33°C this morning and while I have the fan on full blast the air is still so hot. Urgh.

I already had my coffee but it’s not working because I haven’t slept.

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It’s past 3pm now! I’ve had short naps during breaks but still not fully alive.

I don’t even know what they’re discussing right now. I’ll just dig into the slides when they send it to us. Makes me wonder if I can ditch the whole class since they’re giving the slides anyway.

I’m so exhausted.

Hey Monday

 

Daily writing prompt

What makes you nervous?

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Oh I get nervous a lot for various reasons. But there’s one thing that always gets me nervous and that’s answering calls from grab food lol. I never want to take calls from them because I’m afraid they’ll tell me they can’t meet in the lobby or that they’ve been waiting for too long. Most of the time (if not all) I give my phone to my husband whenever he goes down to fetch the food so I don’t have to take any calls from them. But yeah, that’s one thing that always makes me nervous. I don’t even know why, it just makes me anxious. I think I don’t want to feel rejected that they won’t meet me in the lobby despite my instruction and that I’d resent them for lying that they’re not allowed in the lobby cos that’s happened a lot.

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Anyway.

It’s a Monday and I’m in the office. I just had dinner at Pancake House. Had House Special Set A, which was the same set I got last Friday lol. I have a new found appreciation for their fried chicken. It has a tang to it that I love, reminds me of Chooks’ fried chicken. 😀

Out of curiousity I bought Krispy Kreme’s 3 new doughnuts – the Ruffles, Doritos, and Cheetos coated ones. I have very low expectations for them because they already look weird to me but I’m also very curious haha. Will try them with my husband when I get home.

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I’m still not done reading a A Little Life. Halfway through the book I was feeling very empathetic about Jude cos he’s got a boatload of trauma he can’t seem to get over with. But eventaully it gets frustrating because he doesn’t seem to want to get better. I’m starting to hate him. But who am I to judge right. What do I know about coping with physical and sexual abuse as a child? Oh well. Still holding on to the hype and the promise that it will make me bawl like crazy.

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I kinda want a new office chair. One with a headrest and footrest that I can comfortably lounge around. My Ikea Alefjall feels too stiff? Or maybe my posture is just wrong. Hehe.

Happy Friday

It’s been a crazy week but glad it’s coming to a close.

✱ My IF pattern isn’t working for me. And I guess I know the reason why. I’m not entering a calorie deficit despite eating only during the 8-hour window because I EAT A LOT. Of course. Goddammit. So I figured, it doesn’t matter what time I eat, as long as I get myself into a deficit I’d lose weight. The reason why IF worked for me before is because I’m actually eating less and eating only during the window. I guess I’ll just go on a regular diet then. I’m 75kgs right now it sucks. That used to be my weight after coming back from the US, and the PH heat easily melted it off. Oh well, wish I had the same metabolism as 8 years ago.

✱ I ordered a new dashcam on Shopee to replace our old one, which died at 6 years, and I’m having doubts about it. I got the DDPAI Mini Pro which is really cute because it’s very small, and doesn’t have a screen. But I’m having trouble mounting it on our windshield cos I couldn’t get it centered. The electrostatic sticker won’t stick cos of the dots on the frits are too rough. Because of that I’ve wasted its original adhesive and I bought a new one which unfortunately sucks because it doesn’t stick as good as the old one and it’s white so it’s very obvious from outside. I hate it. So I just ordered a new adhesive from the same store, so yeah hopefully I get a good quality one and don’t fuck it up. It’s very frustrating. And also the power on sound sounds so cheap it says “HELLO DING DING PAI” which is cringe but also funny so I don’t care anymore. In hindsight I should’ve just bought the same dascham so I wouldn’t have these problems. Oh well.

✱ Jeckie and Koomi are both recovering already thank God. The vomiting (Koomi) and diarrhea (Jeckie) have stopped and they’re just finishing their meds. It’s really not so difficult taking care of my husband cos he’s just lying down groaning in pain all day. The hardest I had to do was give him a sponge bath to lower his fever but generally that’s it. But Koomi is a freaking workout. He’d vomit in several places and I had to clean up quickly after him before he steps on the bloody puddles and makes a bigger mess. It was exhausting. And it’s so hard to give him medicine because he wouldn’t swallow his pills and doesn’t like the antacid syrup. I have to bury his tabs on a banana or squash just to get him to ingest it.

✱ I’m currently in the office thinking of what to eat. I have my brain set on Japanese earlier but I don’t know if I should look around BHS for other options. I want A Mano. Or maybe Jollibee. Idk. I’m heading out.

Worse

So I started the other post saying my husband and my dog is sick. Next thing I know I’m driving them both to the hospital after excusing myself from work.

Koomi has some sort of infection. After a CBC and X-ray he was prescribed an antibiotic, antacid, and something to protect his stomach. He was injected with anti-vomit too and we were discharged soon after. The vet mentioned something abnormal with his hip after looking at his x-ray. A sharp bone like thing protruding from the hip. Says it’s generally harmless but should be careful when sittin down or moving as it may cause pain or early arthritis. This is probably the shortest vet visit we’ve had so far. There was no waiting line. We were out in an hour.

My husband is still in the hospital. I’m already sleepy but I want to wait for him so I can fetch him. At this rate I won’t be able to attend rehab tomorrow. Again. I’ve been missing a lot of Tuesday sessions lately. Hay.

I’m exhausted. Hope they feel better soon. ♥

Oh I’ve been busy

Jeckie is sick, Koomi just vomited three times and I’ve just finished stowing away our groceries and marinating pork for dinner later. I have yet to take a bath and do an alcohol sponge bath for my husband to help cool down his fever. I fed Koomi banana and bread, not banana bread hehe, to ease his stomach. He didn’t eat much last night so that figures. Half of our 13th month just came in, and I just realized I made the mistake of eating a lot and buying so much stuff online that I could only hope to save even half of what I got today. Our dashcam finally broke. It’s been acting up for a while, so I quickly ordered something new. We’re driving out of town this weekend so it’s essential to get it fixed. Overall I feel a bit productive this early in the day (it’s almost 6pm), but not completely because I haven’t done anything work related. I decided to work from home today because everyone’s sick. Looking forward to dinner!

Heya

// Happy for our condo community. They’ve been fighting to get residents elected on the board because our PMO is incompetent and DMCI reps can’t be trusted. Condo’s been operating on a ~50M deficit without a solid recovery plan besides increasing the association dues and collecting special fees. I really have no contribution to this win because I chose to be a bystander. I’m renting through an agent to it’s difficult to get a proxy, plus my landlord isn’t in good standing so there’s that. Hopefully our condo improves. I just really want the elevators to be faster.

// I have a lot of gripes about Citi moving to UB but there’s a feature I’m enjoying right now and that is the ability to download your credit card statement into an excel format. Makes it easier to cross-check my expenses from another sheet that I maintain. ❤

// We finally got the car back today. The damages have been fixed and we paid 2k for participation. We were supposed to get the sidemirror fixed as well but we couldn’t wait til Friday for it, right when there are 2 holidays this week. We badly need a car. Didn’t realize we were so car dependent haha.

// I’m tired trying to fix the template of this site. For the life of me I can’t figure out why the single post looks different in mobile vs desktop. I thought it was just a cache issue but I’ve already cleared it and nada. It’s frustrating. I’m happy to have reached a point where I’m okay with however it looks. It’s just that I know I’d be bothered by it sooner or later lol. But till then, whatever.

// I’m in the office right now for my weekly RTO. Was supposed to be on PTO today but Jeckie didn’t manage to get a leave so I figured I’ll just work then.

// I’m way past my fasting window, it’s been 18 hours, but I can’t decide what to eat. Alright I’ll just go out and see what catches my attention.

Changing themes

I give up. My site just randomly changes its default colors and I don’t understand why. I’m using the Stewart theme which originally has maroon as the primary color. I was able to change that but just recently it’s been crazy.

I’m changing themes and hoping for the best.