the cheater that i am

[CGN Diet] - Week 1 Day 4

i'm out of stocks! no more pineapple juice, lettuce, soya milk, chicken hahaha so i believe i kinda ate less today. every supermarket we saw on the way was closed... i just had to note this though,  North EDSA looked so dark when SM is closed. hahaha >XD so tomorrow, i'm off to bit of grocery shopping. i really don't have any money with me so i'll just buy a few items huhu



breakfast: chauchard tea, chicken, choco oatmeal, soymilk, lettuce/pipino/tomato caesar salad
lunch: lettuce/raddish/kamatis caesar salad, chicken, pineapple, chauchard tea, brownies (just one), dark choco (oh sorry)
snack:  none cos i already ate my dark choco for lunch and i have no peanuts at home hehe
dinner: fish, pineapple juice, saging na saba with cheese

i still weigh the same

[CGN Diet] Week 1 - Day 3

maybe it's too early to expect anything from this program... i'm only on day 3 and my food for this day was blessed with so much salt... i like salty. i dunno if it's good to shower my food with too much salt hahaha but it helps me appreciate the taste better. not that it's bad naman haha

hey but for some reason, since day 1 i never craved for rice! even if my family is feasting on fried rice and fish, i never even craved. this is kindofa milestone for me. hahaha

breakfast: chauchard tea, ground chicken with tomato and onion, choco oatmeal, soy milk, lettuce caesar salad
lunch: lettuce salad with tofu, homemade beef patty with onion/celery/carrots, cheese, chauchard tea
snack: apple, dark chocolate
dinner: lettuce salad, fish, pineapple juice, tea

weight: still 62 kg

feeling healthy. still heavy

[CGN Diet] Week 1 - Day 2

i dunno, but i feel like i'm cheating so much with this diet! haha i do believe that dieting is not about starving yourself but eating just the right foods for your body. but well, i think i'm eating the right foods naman... just the wrong amount... i uhm, eat a lot of servings! specially the main courses like chicken and beef. and instead of the recommended homemade vinaigrette, i use caesar salad dressing hahaha eh ansarap eh. haha anyway, here's what i ate yesterday haha

breakfast: scrambled edd with onion, choco oatmeal, soy milk, lettuce/pipino/tomato caesar salad, chauchard tea
lunch: steamed carrots/kalabasa/sayote, beef steak, pineapple juice, green tea
snack: peanuts, dark choco
dinner: caesar salad, green tea, moniegold chewable tamarind candy on the sides

[CGN Diet] Week 1 - Day 1

i knew the program was supposed to be started on a Monday but i was too anxious to start! e kasi naman kakasweldo lang kahapon so shempre gabi na ko nag-grocery.

my first impressions of the program were: too expensive and too time consuming.

that was before i started preparing and blah. for some reason, it was kinda easy naman pala to prepare food. shempre there's ate wilma who helped me with the little dishes like poached eggs and steamed vegetables but hey! i did the major part, my lunch! my own version of their "marinated chicken skewers" (sans the skewers) blah. i bought chicken breasts from the supermarket, careful to get just the right amount cos i have trauma sa mga wet areas the supermarket eh, every gram costs a freakin lot haha eh i'm diet on a budget nga diba haha. when i got home, i marinated it with whatever citrus fruit i found in the ref (dalandan), salt, pepper, magic sarap, and mckormick turmeric chuva. in the end it smelled like curry lang naman pala kala ko kung anong pausong gourmet dish eh.

anyhow. i know some of you guys are annoyed with people who always always always update their social networking hubs with what they eat up to the last bite... like people actually care... but let it be clear that my purpose for such uhm, vanity (if i must say) is to create an abode for my so called "weight loss journal". haha

so here goes. almost all of my meals are substitutes cos i can't afford the exact stuff they want me to buy haha

breakfast: hard boiled egg, instant oatmeal, soya milk, pipino with apple cider vinegar, chauchard tea (or simply anise + rosemary + thyme tea). all the herbs are c/o mckormick haha
lunch: marinated chicken blah, steamed carrots sayote kalabasa, cheddar cheese, green tea
snack: apple, dark chocolate, green tea
dinner: take out KFC chicken caesar salad, pineapple juice, chooks-to-go chicken whites (basta walang balat huhu), chauchard tea
water: 0.8 liters

weight: 62kg as of this morning before breakfast

odiba? busog! HAHA di ko nga alam kung diet nga ba to eh. kanina napapaisip ako kung papayat ba talaga ko dito o ginogoyo lang ako. according to the person who developed this diet, it's imperative to eat the right foods at the right time and on the right intervals. his suggestion was to eat each meal set every 4 hours since breakfast. phase 1 deals with detoxification daw, so it's more on protein and vegetables and blah... then on the succeeding phases, the meal sets will be customized to gradually introduce the right food for my so called "chrono-geno-type"

what really won my "heart" with this diet is their claim that their program offers a fast, healthy and permanent way to lose weight. odiba kung di ka ba naman mabentahan ng ganyang pangako? madami na rin kasi akong na-try... specifically:

1. biofit tea aka biofit-tae
2. bigguerlai aka the bigger lie
3. maggie fitness essence tipong maggie-gising ka sa sakit ng ulo
and finally
4. lipo 6 black hers ultra concentrate aka lipo sucks black hers ultra concentrated sa hindi pagpapa-tulog sayo and ultra concentrated din ang presyo sa mahal

and well, they worked! except that totoo nga ang mga haka haka, pag tinigil mo, doble ang balik. and they weren't really the type na healthy. i remember nung kasagsagan ng addiction ko sa senna tea products (1 & 2), i suffered from acid reflux huhu

nos. 3&4 are the types to work on suppressing your appetite. which is wrong kasi hindi naman undernourishment ang habol ko kundi sexiness diba. at pag walang laman chan ko sumasakit ulo ko ng bongga hay.

okay balik sa CGN diet...

overall, i'd say it was a good start? except that i fail so much with my water intake. was supposed to eat tuna for dinner eh kaso may chicken sa bahay eh birthday kaya ni mommy andaming pagkain HUHUHU.

So Undercover: a special screening for Nuffnangers

My second free movie treat from Nuffnang! Thanks a lot to Adidas Neo too! was able to bring my boyfriend this time hehe

the movie was funny to some extent but there were a couple of points i felt the jokes were too awkward and trying hard. haha not a miley cyrus fan but the movie is nice naman. i mean, generally i'll consider this a flop. the story was bad and i didn't see a lot going on. hehe nonetheless, free movie is free! no free popcorn and drinks this time.. aww.

just a few pictures under the cut >:D

Chrono-geno-nutrition diet blah

in a desperate attempt to lose weight, i kinda bit into this deal i saw at www.cashcashpinoy.com hahaha

i'm planning on starting this monday but i realized i'm too broke to afford the meal plans they recommended for my "chrono-geno type". i don't even know if i can afford the entire thing. and i found that i can download an almost exact diet plan FOR FREE, if only i just searched around the web before falling into this trap. haynako.

i appreciate the entire plan. in fact i believe it really works. but i guess they forgot to consider asking in their surveys (yes they let you fill out a survey which will determine the diet plan that best suits you) two of the most crucial things any "dieter" would consider in taking such a deal...

1) they didn't ask HOW MUCH MONEY someone is willing to shell out in order to follow their diet plan. a groceries worth for their meal plans cost 1-2k already. AND I FRKN DON'T HAVE THAT MUCH MONEY FOR FOOD. if that's the case i could just starve myself to my desired beach body but heck i already tried and it didn't work. haha

2) they didn't ask HOW MUCH TIME someone can dedicate to preparing all those crazy recipes. crazy in a point of view of someone who doesn't regularly cook and is unfamiliar with the entirety of the plant species available at the grocery. see, the only time i allot for breakfast is 30 minutes and that consist of eating alone. 

yes yes. i'm complaining right now cos i feel like i just wasted 990 pesos for something i can't even put my head into. i'm too busy and poor.

yeah right yeah right. i'll see what i can do. i wonder if replacing almost 70% of the ingredients with cheaper and more common ones will help. >:P

gawd, i wish i just enrolled myself in a sports clinic though. grr

i just probably need some motivation right? like money? >:7

passion talk

there's a trend happening in my life right now and it's getting me really confused. you know how i'm all about discovering my REAL passion and wondering how to live it to the fullest without compromising my state of wealth? i haven't got a solid resolution to that. i already know what my passion is and it's actually quite spot-on in my case because you know, it just shows.

during "the search", here are a few pointers that helped me...

you know you're passionate about something when...

• you love doing it
• you're good at it. you don't have to be the best. you just have to be good.
• you can do it for food. haha who cares about money, you just need to be alive. hahaha

if you're still unsure, just think of your passion as something you love doing so much such that when you STOP doing it, someone will hurt more than you do. you're passion is probably a place where you're most appreciated. it's a comfort zone where you can build your own world.

then i came about listing down stuff i do, regardless of whether i love doing em or not... as long it's a major part of my life, and here they go:

1. my nine to five - programming

- i don't love it. unless you consider html/css as programming languages then maybe there's a chance i love it like 60%. otherwise, no. nada. urgh.

- some say i'm good at it, my classmates and college professors believe i'm good at it. BUT I DON'T. you know, there has to be an agreement between you and the world before you can admit you're good at something. and i'm breaking that balance. confidence is a big thing huh?

- somehow i do it for food cos technically, i'm getting paid a steady amount of income. but i definitely won't go around the streets looking like a hobo, carrying a sign "will program for food". the horror man. the horror.

joker said that if you're good at something, never do it for free. but i daresay that if you're doing something you don't like for a living, charge higher. eventually you'll need the buffer on mental and emotional stress medication.

and finally, if i ever stopped programming, i'm pretty confident that NO ONE WILL CARE (well, HRs are default). in fact, I WON'T.

whew. how come this item is so easy?

daily news flash? i'm at the wrong path buddies! that, or i just need some kind of motivation or something or NOT.

2. writing - blogging, reviewing, freelancing blah

- i love doing it. period!

- i think i'm good at it. not really good, but good enough to still be able to feed this thing since 2004 hahaha. writing for me has a lot of perks... so far my writing has rewarded me a lot already... lemme go through them... boxes of coffee, movie ticketsssss, cash, paypal funds, gift checks, invites...etc! and all of them made me soooo happy. >XD

- can i do it for food? definitely! i don't know why, but i think i can live off as a poor writer or something. WAHAHAHA i'm imagining if ever it happened, i'll dedicate myself to publishing this one twisted story i have in mind. running and pleading over publishers to take a look at my story and invest! hahahaha

if i ever stopped writing i know not even a fraction of the world will be affected. direct effects only reflect on my paypal funds hahaha but it's gonna be extremely hard for me to give writing up. even though i've gone 9 years without establishing a steady readership, in the first place, i never wrote to please anyone. this abode is all for myself apparently and and, it will hurt so much if it goes down. huhu

with that i could say i'm 70% passionate about blogging, and 30% passionate in blog monetizing. hahaha >XD

3. drawing, illustrating, designing, blah

- i super duper love doing it. even though i don't draw as much as a write, i guess i can say i never draw mindlessly? or something. hahaha

- i'm good at it! i know i'm good at it. and i believe i have a lot of my friends' support on this. i'm good. and i want to be better.

- heck i can do it for free. but it woudn't hurt to charge. haha >XD

if i quit this. i might as well die. i'll never be more appreciated anywhere else.

this is it goys. this is what i want. what i love. what i want to pursue (in my dreams). i want to be a great illustrator, artist, layout designer. art makes me feel alive! wherever i go, it seems like i'm always being remembered as the artist. and it sucks that until now, i'm still not the artist that i want to be.

here's the sad part though. i don't think i can pursue it anytime soon, for practical reasons. yeah right. yeah right.

sucks right? i mean, if i want to land on a pot of gold in this field, i have to invest a pot of gold as well. and right now, i only have a pot. arts, baby.

ah the trend? i feel like the relationship between passion and income is indirectly proportional. hahaha it's like, i can program for a hundred bucks, write for food, and draw for free. see that? haha