how long has it been

i've been sick for the most part of this week, which caused me to be away from work for 2.5 days hayy sweldo. not a good sign for a probi struggling to make progress with her tasks on hand. haaay java. when will i ever understand you. such a bogart. thank God i'm feeling much much much better now, ready for tomorrow i guess? whew, but can you believe it... the dread is back. i'm feeling deadly jitters all over again since this afternoon... i have sooo much to make habol with i don't even know where to start... there's work, then there's yearbook, then there's the dark matter... you know, the unaccounted mass responsible for making me feel this worried. Loord!!! kinakabahan akooo! and i think it's because i'm afraid of work! i'm afraid of not being able to deliver, to LEARN stuff they expect me to. my head isn't even at the verge of explosion due to information overload... more like it's at the verge of shrinking for not being able to absorb ANYTHING. gawd why. my head is full of air. this is so frustrating because time is running out fast and i've still got loads to learn. learn. learn. why is it so hard to study. >XS

jitters still intact. i cry nao. >:'S

Puerto del Sol Beach Resort & Hotel RAFFLE SCAM

If you're curious you can read on, but basically the title has everything you need to know. :)

last sunday when my boyfriend and i came to Manila Ocean Park we were asked by one of the exhibitors there to fill out a raffle entry for free. the prize? free hotel and beach resort accommodation for 3days and 2nights! Since it was free and all i had to do was fill out a small form, i did it hehe

then yesterday, i was surprised to receive this text message from an unknown number:

• Sender: +639198504651 
• Msg: GOOD DAY! This is from the office PUERTO DEL SOL BEACH RESORT & HOTEL. Pls. Call today, ASAP at (02) 6362883/6361860& look for MS. APRIL NACIS. This is w/ regards to your participation at (MANILA OCEAN PARK) Your name has been selected as one of our recipient entitle to have gift certificate of 3days & 2nights free hotel and beach resort accommodation. Not only in our very owned resort PUERTO DEL SOL but you can also choose among other 6 destination either BOHOL, BORACAY, CAMSUR, CEBU, DAVAO, PALAWAN. The choice is yours & valid for 1year upon claiming, if interested to redeem, CALL us NOW ASAP.3796612 

 I was excited at first, who wouldn't be? 3days and 2nights free accommodation at awesome places in the country? i admit i was hell excited! but looking back at my scam pointers:

how to know if the service being offered is scam?

1. if it's too good to be true, it is 
2. if you had to ask if it's scam, it is. 

so before i bite the bait, i did my research and confirmed that it really is scam! based from other bloggers' experiences i gathered that... once you come to their office to claim your prize, they're gonna interrogate you and blah about your job, your salary range, your age blah blah blah and offer you a timeshare (you becoming some sort of a stockholder of their company), only then will they give you the prize in full. but if you decline, they're going to ask for a Php 5,000.00 deposit (which will be refunded after your visit) for the gift certificate they'll give you which is consumable within 30-days ONLY. sucks right? 

so there, you have been warned.

shortly after my research, someone from the bogus company called and informed me about my luck! she explained everything about the prize and started asking a few questions too, also inviting me to their office... i just nodded on the phone like "uhuh, uhuh, yup, yup, uhuh.." then i cut her in and said, "excuse me, i did quite a bit of research and found out you're scamming me. sorry but i can't push through with your offer." and she said, "aaah okay." and the call ended. not even a slightest bit of defense. she like totally acknowledged my findings that she's a scammer and just put the phone down. i pity these people. nakakainis lang. why would people want to work for a company that deceives people? where's the dignity there. hay buhay.

if you guys really want that 3days 2nights vacation, just pipe in at www.metrodeal.com hahaha so many cheap vacays! my boyfriend and i got our discounted Manila Ocean Park tickets there >:D

still not sleepy but should sleep anyway

// i just finished 4 pages for the yearbook LOOOOOL more to go but that's okay! i just have one worry though, i designed everything in RGB and it would be disastrous to change everything to CMYK. it just came to me cos i remember on our site visit at Covers and Pages, their giant ink tanks are all CMYK though duh... regular printer cartridges are also CMYK. i'm just worrying you know! need to confirm this. huhu

// by the way! i just realized how huge Lenovo S880 will be at 5 inches, that's like a Samsung Note pala haha. and with palms like mine i don't think i'm gonna enjoy that! sooooo... i'll go back to dreaming about owning a Lenovo P700 instead!

// hey hey hey have i shared this yet? i just cashed out my earnings at ChurpChurp! lol i'm too anxious to get it, i'm cashing out the minimum! can't wait to get the check so i could flail all around saying "it's leeegiiit!" come on November! yeheyy!

// it's 4am. seriously? Zagu's pearl milk tea is such an extreme upper. >8D still wide awake! aaaaand hungry!



// well i didn't really think i was that kind of person but it's flattering to hear it from someone you look up to! though i have this inkling suspicion that he goes around saying uplifting stuff to everyone to uhm, boost their morale or something. you know, that's what bosses do, don't they? anyway, after that i thought i shouldn't have known about it or something. uhm for the most part, i hardly care about the good things i do naturally so it doesn't really matter if it gets noticed or not. and since it just did, it feels good and awkward at the same time. i mean, ayon. one moment i wished i was complimented for being good at the technical aspect of my job instead BUT PLEASE! with all due honesty and humility... anyone who would do that would be outright lying to my face and i'm frakking serious. hahaha now i just don't want to wish for that kind of thing. i know deep down to the roots of my heart that i'm never getting that. and i don't want to because for some reason, it'll make me feel worse. haha anyway, whenever stuff like this happen, i always put my expectations down. like, "oh i can't be the only one". and like, "that's probably the only strength he saw in me so better stress it out!"

k. are you annoyed now? HAHAHAHA i'm not really in denial cos i know myself more than anyone else and i confirm what he said was true. i'm just not sure how to respond to it. can't google that.

coming soon: Lenovo S880 - 5 inch dual-sim Android 4.0 ICS

meet Lenovo S880, with specs similar to their flagship P700 only bigger (5 inches) and with smaller battery capacity (2250 mAH). For 14,999 will this be worth the wait? i'm saving for the the P700 then i saw this and idunno what to do!!! it's white! it's bigger! almost like my dream Samsung Galaxy S2 (but with dual sim features!) and well, i could pass with the 250 mAH difference... i want this phone... but it's almost at pricey as the HTC Desire V. haha

lol idk. anyway, expected time of arrival in the Phils is around September so yeah, let's wait and see! >:D

Merry Christmas!

wishlist alerttt!

in no particular order

1. wacom bamboo connect pen tablet (medium will do! haha)

2. white musk from the body shop (regular price - php895)

3. lenovo p700 (srp php10,900)

4. and if you're kind enough you could also throw in a Nillkin hard case (RED!) >;) not available in the Philippines though

will add more soon!  hahahaha

back to back awesome movies!

this is it, yearbook and work to juggle at the same time... somebody help meeee stay interested (and awake too)! haha i miss blogging! i really do... there are so many things i wanted to blog about but i hardly have the time to do so! so many pictures in my phone waiting to be featured BUUUT i'm too lazy to upload or i'm too unimpressed with the quality of the picture HAHAHA crappy phone camera lol. haaay

haha yesterday's meeting with the yearbook committee was crazy (as usual)! i can't wait to layout. i'd rather be stressed about the yearbook than about work. this is the stress i enjoy. the right hemisphere of my brain likes this kind of pressure. so what we did was set deadlines, delegates tasks, eat chicken and spaghetti, learned photoshop and the best part... browsed the pictures together... via projector. it was fun (you know what i mean!) seeing everyone's photos and talking about shiz and this and that. crazy day!

after the meeting jeckie came and we watched two movies together seeing that the projector and stuff is ready... we watched coach carter and 3 idiots! back to back awesome movies! i learned so much from those two movies that i'll probably tend to forget anyway, so i'll mention them here. 

from those movies i learned that (cos they somehow touch the same theme...)

- educational institutions are designed to fail us in real life (and this goes to the rest of society). 

that is why it's important to constantly challenge the system and in the process impose inconvenient changes, all for the mission of honing individuals whose life doesn't end at senior year. 

when coach talked about this, i remembered how easy it was for a lot of professors at school to adjust their standards so that majority of the class will pass the subject. i think this in unfair no matter how much it worked for me in the past. in the end i didn't get pride in getting a streak of high grades cos i know somehow i didn't deserve it, that our grades were adjusted. it's hard to take pride in something you can't prove in real life. we may have passed the subject, but we could just be on our way to real failure. 

what use is an institution who tolerates mediocrity, who doesn't care what happens to their students after graduation, who claims to want us to excel but doesn't believe we can? who serves degrees but not education to its students? if the learning is truly up to us, then we can learn any way we want. 

joke. hahahahaha

this is the point were i partly lose track of what i'm saying. haha basta yon. >:)

another thing though...

i kept thinking about life as a multimedia artist, and i can't help feeling regretful that i'm nowhere near being one. that i'm confined to just my ballpens, scratch papers and a wacom intuos 4 (IN MY DREAMS LOL). i thought that it doesn't matter what you study, if you study hard, you're gonna understand it eventually and appreciate it. then i realized there has to be a limit to the things we pursue, sure we can learn everything but lest we learn something we love, only our brains get fed while our heart withers. emo thoughs brought to you by yet another huhu-i'm-not-cut-out-for-this-job drama.

sure you can do art on the sides (walk. joke haha) but thinking about doing it for a living excites me. this is probably why i get easily envious of my friends who have higher paying jobs. it's like whenever i learn of a better job opportunity, i shift my mind to it and think of ways to resign and apply there. only the salary matters. i can easily trade off this spot for a better offer... simply because this is not where i envision myself to be. i keep telling myself that it takes time, i'll get used to it. but it's just a state of MIND. i also need to get my heart in shape. i thought maybe if i was doing a job i truly loved... something that involves art (the art i love)... i'll be at peace. it wouldn't matter if i'm not the best (cos duh i know i'm not), as long as it's something i love doing, i'll be happy. i'll stay.

yeah right! yeah right! wanna bet? i'll be a programmer for life. that's how much i suck. >:|

black as the pit from pole to pole

whatever. random line from some poem i read some time ago.

lol i have a very big problem staying awake at the office during the morning. but i have an even bigger problem keeping my consciousness during meetings. someone tell me what to do! i'm wasting hours on my desk drooling off and not being productive. >XS hayy.

 //people problems [semi-resolved]

 from now on, whenever i get a bad first impression about someone, i'll keep the person in my "People-to-get-to-know-more list". It's to help me decrease the harnessing of evil thoughts about someone and also to give the person the benefit of the doubt. recently, i met someone who at first contact insulted me indirectly. since then, i kinda vowed never to talk to her or even try to befriend her. it's pretty simple really, i have a "don't like? don't mind" mindset against people i hate. the less i interact with them, the less my mind is filled with evil thoughts. then just recently ulit, i kind of grew closer (in terms of proximity) to the person because of a project and as much i hate the idea of it, i had to live professionally LOL. eventually, the irrate feeling turned to sincere friendship (yuck parang anlalim agad ng pinagsamahan eh no) and i felt sorry (deep inside) for being so quick to judge. kkkk nung isang araw pa to eh nakalimutan ko lang ipost haha

 //i woke up from a bad bad dream this morning

 here it goes... i was headed home from SM with my sister and we rode a lagro jeep. i was carrying a bag with a laptop and i saw a suspicious looking man eyeing my bag. he looked like a thief so i kept throwing dagger like stares at him while clutching tighter to my bag. a young boy was also with him, probably a thief too. then suddenly, they moved to get my bag! whoa no! i rose from my seat and tried to make bugaw them away. ang tapang ko grabe. but deep inside i was frakking scared, but right there i looked like i was ready to fight the goon and a half-man with whatever fighting skills i have (screaming maybe?).

 then the thief went down the jeep and made motion na parang naghahamon and i was like , seriously? i can judo** you! but then, i was really scared so uhm, i dunno what happened next. i think the jeep left without him but he kept chasing me so di ako mapakali. i transferred jeeps along the way and sat near the driver and ducked on the floor to hide, but when i raised my head to check, i saw the thief's face on the jeep next to us and he saw mine too and he had a lagot-kang-bata-ka-sakin look on his face before coming down and chasing me agaaaain! i went off at fcm and hid inside the mall, and when the coast was clear i went home alone.

 when i came back, i texted terai to ask where she was cos i almost forgot i was with her pala on the jeep! when she came back, she was crying as she said, "tinali nya kaya kami!" showing the rope the thief used to tie her hands (and others too). so back there they were taken as hostages pala to get my LAPTOP what the heck. and she remembers one of the passengers saying she'll try to contact me for the laptop so he an release them. then terai also said the police caught him naman. hahaha

 now that i'm telling you, it sounds funny pala. hey and you know what, i can clearly remember the man's face although he's a total stranger to me! he looked like a shorter and bald version of jess lapid.

like that! but younger and a bit thinner, and with less facial hair. grabeee hahaha