where's the rush?

i still believe this blog is a bit cursed such that if i put a to-do list here, chances are none of them are getting done anytime soon HAHA. but in an effort to fight the, uhm, curse...

1. study for profeth

gather notes from people who has them and engage in a serious power memory session later

2. study for opesys

survey people on what they think is the real COVERAGE for the exam tomorrow. no one knows legit shizzzz

3. write 3 reaction papers

one about the socncul field trip

one about contraceptives

one about The Net starring Sandra bullock, which i am yet to research on

4. pray that this crushing (not the happy crush) feeling will end like, NOW NA! arghhhh what. insecurity kills! assurance is all we need! but.

5. write an intent letter for my last assignment as a student assistant. >XO

okay! time to //study

Circle of Lights!

// i don't remember when this was but it's one of my favorite nights! >:D the entire family went to qc memorial circle to, ano ba, exercise? more like food trip! grabeeee the fountain and monument lights were so awesome, even my low def phone cam was able to capture it decently. that's how awesome it is. we haven't been to Circle for a looong time so it was surprising how it has changed so much and became more beautiful! yehey! and grabe the food, they're everywhere! terai and i totally marveled at it! ice cream! corn! isaw! lugaw! buko juice! it's a really super duper quality cheap place!

// random plug: Papa John's will open on SM Fairview on August 31, 2011! YEHEY for a more accessible Pizza Margarita!!! >XD

// by the way! i haven't been able to blog so much because uhm, nahihiya ako! WAHAHAHAHA for the past few days or weeks i only wanted to blog about one thing (plus a few street shots) but i can't. anyway. i'm in love! yun lang! and i'm happy! who's not when they are? it's cool when it's two-way! thank you Lord!

// so far, with the way school is going, i have to double my effort on accounting and thesis! fuuuudge. tsk. whew. >XO

// wow. ever since this semester started, i have lagged way toooo far behind my reading list that i'm actually considering (YET AGAIN) selling my books! i probably have like 10+ pending books to read and more than a hundred newsletters stacked in my inbox. my Paulo Coelho and Bo Sanchez labels on gmail are filled with unread mails when before, as soon as i receive em, i read em and file em! ugh. it sucks cos i know i'm not the most organized person and then suddenly i accept jobs like wonder woman.

// my anime watch list hasn't grown since vampire knight cos i'm out of good hetero recommendations! hahaha

// sometimes i wonder if i have to limit my happiness cos it may turn into bad karma in a snap and put me in sorrow next! Lord, wag naman! >XO

// next problem, OJT! where to work? who to work with? i so badly want to work someplace i'll ACTUALLY LEARN and at the same time be with my friends! options Lord!

// another problem, and it's the biggest. i'll be jobless for the entire year starting second tri!!! >XO which means i'm out of funds to pay the internet bill! >XO work work, i need to freaking wooooork! >XO

scholastic wreck

wow i'm in such a pit. whoever among my multipolar consciences told me it's okay to handle this much load could die now. and i'm serious. i'm flunking like crazy. here's how and imma break it down per subject

philhis - i could probably get a fairly high grade in this but definitely not a 4.00. too much memorization involved and my last quiz sucked, plus my attendance has already been tarnished with tardiness! argh. imma teacher's pet here but i don't think it's gonna pay off. too strict.

socncul - my quizzes sucked but i managed to get exempted from the finals which is a good thing. but my freakin quizzes are a wreck. i'm also looking forward to my being a teacher's pet to pay off, hopefully!

acctg1b - this is totally hopeless. my quizzes and exams are all faring below 90 in average. iyak nako.

english4 - i'll do whatever it takes to ace this one. this isn't a very problematic subject but it's something i have to focus dead on into so as to make sure it'll help raise my average at least! huhu

arintel - no problem. except for this ultra chever expert system we're asked to create as a project. freakin clueless!

opesys - the project!!! c++ what?! 

thesis1 - biggest hurdle of all hurdles in a track field. i'm preparing my eyes for saturday cos i know (as usual!!!) i'm gonna cry!!!! bwahahaha

profeth - no problem? maintain!

HAHAHAHAHA so after all, i'm exaggerating. but you see, in thesis1 and accounting, FOR SURE, i wouldn't get anything higher than 3. so Lord, let it be 2.75 at least. please? and socncul too, no greater than an already disappointing 3.25, promise.

i swear i'm going to cry if i lose my full scholarship. and i'm gonna lock myself in my room and avoid my friends and everyone. i'm gonna live like a hermit and leave everything behind. imma leave ICON, CBS, FCLC and SAship. and. just. die.

weh joke lang. arte arte kasi e no. me pa blog blog pa, pwede naman kasi gawin yung project muna diba? HAHAHAHA

wanna bet pakbet? it's joketime bwahahahaha.

hindi ako si darna.

pretty girls!

yesterday i saw tae kyung at school! >XO and guess what, she's a junior from holy. what the hell. she still sports the same beiber hair but now her gender is finally identified because of the familiar brown fugly uniform. last time we saw her, she's too boyish. hahaha i don't want to be reminded of how holy has been turned into a lesbian pen over the years. during my stay there, the ratio's probably a safe 5 out of 200. now, i dunno. society has twisted everyone's mind into accepting homosexuality as a safe, non-evil cause to be fought for greater equality but no. why. why?! i don't understand how the equality we fight for has become so literal. asdghashjfsdqsc

hello thesis where the fudge are youuuu?! >XO srsly! my groupmates and i are so freakin lax i dunno what's gonna happen to us this shatterday. lol we're literally 0% on the program code. BWAHAHAHAHA what happened to me. >X| bad vibes. bad vibes. i'm seriously considering abandoning this. but of course, i'll try not to let shift happen. but it can't be helped! i have like 3 days to learn a programming language that is a complete alien to me. and i'm hating the other classes for having uber simple theses about webdev! grrr

nakakatawa. nakakatawa. pero sige dun na to sa kabilang blog. hahahahahahaha

i have so much to blog about! every time i go out and take photos on the streets or anywhere, i always think of blogging about it here kaso fuuuudge. waley ng time! tsk >X(

wew

the competition isn't even tight so don't go around thinking you're that good. props to your efforts anyway, you deserved it... seriously and sarcasm aside. i knew it was good, i had faith in it but you failed to keep your mouth shut. what you let speak for itself, instead, spoke about yourself.

let's see. most people kinda don't understand what an organization is. typically, school organizations should be self sufficient, charges on members are usual, contributions are compulsory and sponsorship is essential. it is money that makes the organization work. it is utterly ridiculous to propose activities that are entirely FUND CONSUMING. we are not a charitable institution. we must raise funds. an organization who outflows cash more than it earns it not quite an impressive organization.

hopeless

i feel so frakking hopeless! >X'O i was literally in tears bawling about the probability of what i could possibly lose by taking this much load. Lord, help me. >XO i feel depressed and shaken and crap and blah but i don't wanna let go of anything. like srsly. arg. socncul and that friggin thesis!

hay Lord. thank you. God bless us tomorrow and the following days to come!

masyadong masaya! >XD

why do i have a feeling that this cannot be? like i can't be too happy cos all of these could be taken away from me in an instant. >XO i can't be too lucky cos the universe demands balance and i could be robbed of equal luck the next days. anyway, why talk about luck. this isn't luck, these are blessings! and i'm just reaping them right (i guess?! or am i harvesting too early? >XO)! these are gifts, right. not something i actually traded anything for. e pano nga kung ano! waaaah. Lord, wag mo muna ko bawian. i need more of your blessings! thank you so much.  my golly, i wanna cry na. You are so good, and i am so blessed.

bye! >:D

PS. i wish i could be less nega yaknow. like. kainis eh. >XO pano kasi.