Day 17 - Your highs and lows of this past year

that's 2010!

highs - grades! HAHAHA
lows - madaming puyat. madaming iyak. madaming selos. walang pera. and well, madaming panget. >:|




fuego. seryoso. buong araw syang nasa utak ko. hinahanap ko nga sa school eh, kahit look alike man lang. HAHA may crush na ko dalawa! yung isa kilala ko na! as in kilala na rin nya ko. last tri ko pa crush yun hohoho God is good! yung isa wala tinatanaw ko (pa) lang, freshman e. chinito lahat yesss! >XD and well, hindi ako sanay na may resource person pag nagss-stalk e kaso walang FB tong crush kong to e! tsk! kainis! at may girlfriend pa! hindi pwede! >:(

Day 16 - Your views on mainstream music

when i think of mainstream (as of 2011 2nd quarter) i think of lady gaga, katy perry, justin beiber and all those popular contemporary artists. i'm familiar with them but i don't really dig them. >:) the only time i enjoyed mainstream music was when it was jason mraz and linkin park on the spotlight. >:D

anyway, i think mainstream is just the same all throughout. i mean, The Beatles were mainstream during their time and now they're a classic. so you see, mainstream is just pertaining to the current popular music... and it changes. though i could hardly imagine lady gaga being a 'classic' after 50 years... yknow, by virtue of the conventional definition of 'classic' haha. >:)

with regards to music though, i enjoy jason mraz, a fine frenzy, yiruma, sungha jung, andy mckee, and instrumentals...and i grow easily fond of OST's (mapa anime, movie or series pa yan) hehe




this day was tiring. i was at school the entire day. awgahjvasdyudgihsidu hmmmmmm and we finally made up like crazzzzyyyyyy. or more like, i finally freed myself from all the guilt. JOKE. i even bought her chocolates, and i picked the one she mentioned before cos i know it's her favorite. peace offering ganun. well it can't be helped na naiinis parin ako paminsan minsan but at least, i'm trying to, hmm pano ba, look on the brighter side? mahirap kasi. i'm tying yknow. i'm tryinggggg. at kinikilig parin ako kay fuego. hay. haaaaayyyy jusme. nagpapantasya na nga ako eh! iniimagine ko na mag-eenrol sya sa fern at marerecognize ko sya as fuego at i-eentertain ko sya (well that sounded wrong haha) sa enrollment at magiging girlfriend nya ko at isasama nya ko sa isa nyang battle makikilala ko si anygma!!!! at makikita ko si abra!!! at si apekz!!! pero sya parin boyprend ko ang kapal lang talaga ng muka ko minsan no. oh well. wala pa kong tinitira nagi-ilusyon na ko. this is how i idealize men and get crushed when i finally get to know them for real, haha. iniisip ko kasi na may sense syang kausap at madami syang alam at magaling sya mag-english at matalino syang ka-diskusyon at corny sya. well muka naman syang corny e, ok lang tatawanan ko naman sya mahilig naman ako tumawa kahit di ko gets e. ayoko na nga kalokohan na to e!!!! >XS haaay Lord, lakas tama e! love knows no bounds na talaga. chossss!

uhm, i have one crazy professor. seriously, she's crazy. ewan ko ba, it's gonna be a harder trimester for me. simply because i have a lot of minor subjects and it's hard, as a senior stud, to give a good impression on these profs who don't know me. leche mahirap kaya magpa-impress amidst all the first years! first struggle is to get out of the stereotype that graduating dudes are delinquents. and yknow, the profs don't know our curriculum at all. they see seniors in a freshman class and they think these guys are second takers. le shiz. and our crazy prof is every bit annoying. she's not funny, though she's trying to be. and she's like, "why did you transfer? maraming kang singko ganon?" and i was like, "yeah" in all smiles pa ha, and her face just distorted like crazy. ang sarap isampal ng scholarship ko sa kanya e. sorry. sorry talaga.

anyway, it's just the first day. i'll have the entire tri to prove myself. i like her subject pa naman. pero narealize ko, wait lang haaa! parang na-take ko na tong subject na to eh! it's totally SOSC1 in elbi! bakit hindi ko narealize yon!! aaaaarggghhhhh. sayang pera! sayang units!!! >_<;

challenge accepted.
we'll see, we'll see.

good night fuego!

omgeeeh sorry hahaha

Roman Fugoso aka FUEGO of FlipTop Battles

BWAHAHAHA pwedeng kiligin? maka-ilang ulit ko na kasing pinapanood tong laban nya kay Batas eh. Ang cute nya, ang talino pa. I actually rooted for him in this battle because he caught me with his wit, that's when i started liking him and err stalking him. It took me some videos to catch his real name. Just like with Abra (Raymond Abracosa), his name was mentioned once eh nakalimutan ko na e so ginoogle ko agad for a possible verification. LOOOOL among my FlipTop crushes, i like him the best cos he's more wit than humor. yeah i like him even more than Abra and Anygma (well they kinda tied somehow but Fuego's got more exposure so i can't really say haha) ! His losing streak isn't even a turn off point. Ang cute pa nya! aaaargh. yeah i'm a sucker for smart guys... na chinito... at magaling mag english.... pero sana hindi adik hahaha.

rapper, gamer, drummer, skater, oh and did he mention he wasn't really Chinese? whatever. chinito ka parin.

Shout out to FUEGO. ehem, if you're some kindofa vanity googler and you happen to stumble upon this page, COMMENT NAMAN DYAN O. HAHAHAHAHA wag lang tripper ha? >:)

i dunno why i'm staying this late. school's up tomorrow! goodnight Fuego! ew, this is like level 1 of my growing obsession. creepy ba, sorry. i'm much decent in person. >:D

Day 15 - Your favorite Tumblrs

naah. i don't have any. useless entry! haha

classes will be starting tomorrow! can't say i'm looking forward to it, i just wanna see my friends na! yun lang! i'm probably killing myself with my schedule, 24 units plus 16 hours SA. but yknow, when you start working and earning moolah yer never lettin go of it. oh material attachment is such a sinful virtue. if there's one thing i learned in economics during highschool, it's that your earnings are proportional to your expenses. when you start earning bigger, you also start spending bigger. i purchase a lot when i have a lot. ohwell. >:| peraaaa. i need you.

yesterday was extra scary, my last task for the day was to post room schedules on the doors. 4th floor was the creepiest. i was hearing a weird bird with some weird chirp so to entertain myself i imitated it by whistling and blah. for awhile it was cool until the chirp got louder and the bird actually flew in front of me like an agitated bat. it scared the hell out of me so i ran. bwisssettttt. >:|

i got home really tired and when i was about to sleep my mom asked me if i already have a special guy or if anyone's courting me. i said none yet, then she suddenly went, "bulaga!" and being the ever nerbyosa girl, i was startled like crazy and she too was shocked! parang tanga talaga, we were laughing the whole time. she did that 4 times before she finally climbed to her own bed to sleep cos i was crying her out of it already. oh, she did me a bit of pep talk too. but the only things i got were, 'LOL why the limitations?' 'that's not gonna work!' 'that's useless yer never nvr gna have a bf' 'hahahaha you know nothing' thank you mommy you're far too kind! wait til i get a latin honor and you'll be thanking me for chucking boys out of the list. >:) i know it's in our genes. i'm so sure of it. i'm soooooooooooooooo sure of it. >:)

meanwhile, i'm tryna stalk some ROMAN FUGOSO aka FUEGO of FlipTop. stuff i have to confirm tho.. number 1 is if he's really from Ateneo (super plus points. it's the Ravenclaw of Philippines whatever), and his age. he was 19 during a 2010-uploaded fliptop battle. i dunno how old that video is so whatever. haaay ♥ it's devastating having to watch him in a losing streak but my regard for him never changes. i still think he's intelligent! + + + + points! ♥ ♥ he's cute when he smiles! dsfnakdsh actually he reminds me of one of my elbi crushes, sherwin. hahaha

Day 14 - Your earliest memory

that would be when i started kindergarten 2. i was 4 i guess. my k2 memories include having 2 close buddies, kelvin and jordan. kelvin was my classroom buddy, we like to tickle each other anlandi lang hahaha we were seatmates kasi. hehe jordan was my after school playmate, we would sneak into the classrooms and stamp ourselves with those star-shaped stamps so when we get home we'd look like bright kids hehe. we also used to play with the monobloc chairs by piling them up and climbing on top of them. i remember one time, jordan fell on one of those and had his forehead stitched. haha no one blamed me of course, i also don't remember how i reacted when he fell. >X| ayun, i have very few memories from kindergarten school. that's all i have. >:D



argh Wall-E >:''''(((( nakakiyaaaakk huhu

this afternoon, i did that err one step to reconciliation. i apologized. i know i couldn't do it personally cos i'm such a cow and on top of that there's still a bit of hate and insecurity in me that i couldn't bring myself to beat my pride. i wasn't really hoping for anything but when my phone vibrated, my heart rejoiced. i almost cried. i wanted to. but heck im pushing around a cart at puregold. so yeah. i want to see her and hug her and cry and give her cadburry fruits and nuts. asijdhgabsdsagd. it's not really a message of forgiveness or something but it's safe to assume we're fine now. i probably can't stand being in a dispute with someone for too long, either i try to bring back the friendship or if my resolve to break all connections is dead solid, i'll grow apathetic and let things be gray.

which is yknow, bad. i think so? i know there's still one thing i need to fix but everytime i think of it, i just want to forget about it. push all memories away and pretend nothing ever happened. i'm growing indifferent by the minute. and it's weird cos i feel guiltless. my guilt is my conscience... it's a flag of goodness for me. cos every time i feel guilty i confirm for myself that i'm still aware of my wrongdoings. which is good. it's one thing to still be able to distinguish good from evil after living 21 years in an evil world.

i have two friends. the left and the right. the angel and the devil. parang ganun pero hindi, i'd like to think they're both angels haha. when i'm in bitch mode i go to my friend by my left haha cos with her it's totally okay to bash people and be utterly judgmental. i enjoy being with her because i get to be honest with my feelings like toooootally. on the other hand, if i wanted to do the right thing i'll go to my friend by my right. well, it's also ok to fool around with him but i don't think he's tolerant of evil things so it's awkward for me to be completely honest with him. >:| too much goodness is toxic rin ano. humans are evil and to force yourself to be good is an injustice to human nature. it's good to be bad, once in a while. but generally you have to be good. haha ewan.

2 days ng masakit ulo ko. ang hirap magsorry a leche, hindi ko kasi hobby yun e. askgjskdhlasl

Day 13 - Somewhere you'd like to move or visit

i wanna visit LB! yun.

sakit ng ulo ko. asdjhatsdgasbhlasn

parang gusto ko nung Huawei IDEOS na yun! cheapest android i spotted so far. and and, the Huawei E5! pocket wifi router! Lord!!!! >XD owell, said ako ngayon. i'm helping out on daddy's hospital treatment expenses. >:| and i've got 2 bills plus one obligatory bill to pay so yes, gotta satiate myself with online window shopping for a while! i'll get my cyberzone fix when school starts. or yknow, whenever i get enough money. haaaay. i'm so very super much thankful cos even with our messed up finances, everything's going well. i just saved 18,000 worth of tuition because of my scholarship. amennnnnn!

hahaha! ewan ko ba why i always think we're out of cash, e hindi naman! siguro kasi sapat sapat lahat dala ko araw araw? ewan basta. mahirap talaga ang buhay ngayon.

loaded trimester ahead! i had to rearrange my schedule for the nth time just to maximize my working hours. they've omitted working lunches and it sucked a lot for me. from 18 hours, i was down to 12 hours, so i did a few changes with my schedule and now i have 16 hours. yeheeyyy! anyway, that's the best i could work on. sobrang haggard na nga nung 24 units with 16 hours SA eh, but we'll see. balak ko kasing patayin sarili ko e. hihi >:)

Coffee Twist

picture from spankyenriquez.blogspot.com via google images

jusme. last monday, i got two bottles of hazlenut (yellow) for lunch. i like it cos it's cheap and it's like molten XO! bwahaha ang saraaaaapppp >XD the next day i got a bottle of classic (red) and a bottle of hazlenut for lunch, and i liked the classic flavor better cos it's like iced nescafe classic! ang saraaaappp leche and it's mejo bitter pa so it's perfect for me. then yknow, a couple of hours later my ever so nervous nervous system got extra nervous and my heart started pounding like crazy. i was getting sick of nervousness literally. cold hands, cold sweat, a brewing heartburn. leche talaga i've never been that nervous my entire life. then i also took 2 cups of tea. i dunno if it would help (parang hindi!) but it was warm hahaha. haynako. antagal. antagal talaga humupa ng kaba ko. when i came home at 9, tinulog ko na agad.

pero until now i'm still nervous e, pero onti na lang. sdkfgaskfjgabfjksdskyt hay Lord. >:|