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Monday, May 31, 2010

hello endorphins

i don't remember why this day feels happy, but it does so thank you Lord! >:D BWAHAHAHAHA i must've eaten too much banana over the time i was sick, and wait, i ate banana for lunch too. that must've been the cause why i'm not snotty over the irritating humidity.

first day of school and work... for me, at least. school was fine, work was... err, fine, same old tedious typing job and a shocking amount of freshmen in the lib. it was the first time i saw the library that full. yeah, the school population most probably grew by more or less 40%. that's a lot man. and they all want aircon. that's a freaking loooot. oh yes, shocking news, i thought i'm gonna be reunited with my old SA friends me-an and christy but no, they're all gone. no news whether they transferred to the basic ed. or quit working or whatever, i miss them. and i'm going to find out soon what happened. haaay.

so yeah, new people to work with. i only started february this year and now i'm like a senior employee already cos i'm the only one left to teach them. but they're a fun bunch i guess! BWAHAHA and JM said he's going to work at the library too but i'm not crossing my fingers on it cos mam michelle said she stopped accepting applicants already sayang tuloy. now that my feelings have faded away, to me he seems like a normal friend already, someone i can talk to casually na. actually level up nga e diba pero no special feelings. haha ganon talaga. di ko na sya crush gusto ko lang pagusapan hahaha

on the other hand, hindi ko parin nakikita si TL... well, i haven't started looking actually.

osya sige, my sister is sick! grabe, last week, terai was already sick but she got well naman, tapos daddy followed, then me, then mommy... then now it's back to terai! why is my entire family getting sick! we're out of flu shot maybe nakow this is baaaad. at dahil dyan, i'm doing 5 days worth of work for her. eto na, metrobank charge slips be kind at wag kayo magulo kasi magulo rin utak ko sa sobrang alinsangan ng panahon baka punitin ko kayo lahat!

oks time to work.

Sunday, May 30, 2010

discharged

gone for a week cos i got sick and was confined. i knew it, may is not my month. i got a bad foot sprain at the start of the month and a gastrochorvaloo infection right when school just started which cost me a week of absence and 20hours worth of salary. grrr...

monday: woke up 3am to throw up.. from then on, i throw up at least every hour, then i shit. skipped school, rushed to the ER where they gave me this medicine that i didn't appreciate because it kept me from throwing up, but the nausea was always there so that sucked big time. =___=;

tuesday-thursday: high fever days. my throat swelled because of literally throwing up the entire monday. my head hurt like crazy and i felt like i did a thousand sit-ups also because of throwing up. no appetite. went back to the hospital and got admitted. the injectable antibiotic they gave me fucking hurts when it runs through my veins, nakakaiyak. haaaaaaay =__=;

ayon, tapos yesterday... got discharged AT LAST. dyusko sobrang boring sa ospital. =___=;

i was in a ward of 5 patients, tapos the cubicle in front of me has an old lady who died at around 2am last saturday morning. haaaay depressing. my mom woke up and cried, naalala namin pareho si mamay. >:( she came and prayed over tapos had a little chit chat... ayon. ok naman.

PS: my previous entry. haynako. that's what's you call a post-scheduler disaster. nahiya tuloy ako. kaya pala di ko maalala. tsk. kainis.

Monday, May 24, 2010

emo emohan

hala. ang sakit! bumabalik amp! @_@
ganon talaga diba. you can't love without looking like a fool. and even if the last thing you wanna do is to save your pride from all the hurt, hindi mo parin maiiwasan mag mukang tanga. i promised myself na last na talaga to! isang bagay na lang kelangan ko sa kanya then tapos na!!! teka, pano ba mag-move on e wala naman akong inamin? wala naman akong sinabi? wala rin akong pinaramdam? kung tutuusin, nag-iilusyon lang ako. feeling rejected pero technically hindi naman, pero sabi ng instinct ko, oo marereject ka rin kaya wag mo na sabihin. sa kanya na rin naman galing na hindi posible yun at hindi mangyayari yun. so parang ganun na rin yun diba? odiba, wala pa kong sinasabi tinuldukan na!

anyway, ako rin naman e. feeling ko ako yung unang nagpahiwatig na ayoko ng ganon. takot ako sa mga ganyan.  henako. i never realized i'll end up eating my own words by falling in love with the same person i shared my insecurities with.

nakakadiri ang ka-emohan nitong entry na to. haha

btw, i wrote this may 1, 2010. but i'm publishing it... tska na! hahaha

i believe that absence makes the heart grow fonder. and when it does, dun ko siguro malalaman kung love nga ba to or kaartehan lang dala ng super friendship at closeness natin. diba? e pano kung love nga? edi ok lang, at least naramdaman ko naman na magka-first love. LOL.

chaka wait. sabi nga nila...

first love never dies, but true love can bury it alive.
amen!

Sunday, May 23, 2010

scary dream

just this afternoon, i dreamt of losing one teeth. it was scary cos the setting was right here in the room, i just woke up from my siesta and felt one of my front teeth aching. i checked it at the CR and it fell off!!! then i was nagging mommy to call dra. monette for a dental fix cos i have class tomorrow and i can't look this ugly hahahaha scary kaya! buti na lang i woke up and realized it was just a dream.

i immediately sat down and prayed for daddy's safety cos he's out. hahaha paranoid much.
it's the 2nd time i dreamt of losing a tooth. >:(

hahaha anyway, good night. >:)

the one i can't sleep without

i don't know why i can't leave my stuffed toys behind. i'm 19 and i still sleep with fake animals. i feel uneasy when i don't have anything to hug when sleeping. her name is Baks, i don't know why i give stupid names... i have a turtle named 30 and a dolphin called Pir, i call this laptop PA-Q (it's compaq kasi), and my other laptop PA-Q 2 (the one that got stolen) but that's besides the point haha sorina. Baks is short for Tibaks ... named in the spirit of being a UP student (before) if you get what i mean. i didn't know it could mean something... like her being a cow (or ox?), and me transferring to FEU... ang labo ba? but she's like a tamaraw! sige na nga. pagbigyan ang pinagpilitang koneksyon.

school starts tomorrow. i'm... nervous, because i don't have "easy" subjects, all of them seem so hard i wish i could pull them off with ease. whew!!

i realized that i'm one step behind being a full scholar! if only one of my grades were 0.25 units higher, i could've saved 13,000. haaaaaaaay sayang. sige next time!!!

woooooh! i love aircon. i hate the electric bill. @_@

Saturday, May 22, 2010

Lord, you always surprise me. >:D

i'm excited tomorrow because i'm going to write another letter to Jesus and i'm going to slash off a looooooot of things on my wishlist! andame ng natupad, thank you so much Lord! bwahahahaha!

this day was soooo effing hot. got a hepa vaccine then came to antipolo with ate theresa. super adventure! best part was eating banana-q. yey fulfilling meeeehn. yun nga lang it was soooo freaking hot and my foot kept bitching around. may PE pa naman ako this tri. grrr..

oh wait, i'm technically the 5th smartest student in school now. wow i've never felt this smart before. yeheeeey.

daddy's really going to teach at school! he's talking physics 1 and 2, and mathmet LOOOL. it's the reason why i chose a different section at physics! anyway, i'm going to sit-in his classes HAHAHAHAHAH humanda ka daddy. bwaha!

i had a dream

pero di ko na maalala yung mga tao.

dream #1: i was chatting with someone who says he'll give me everything! tapos he listed down a lot of things, andame may twalya, tshirt, baller, bowling, tsinelas... blah blah blah (walang pera sayang). ang reply ko daw ay: baller!

ang weirdo, yan na yung everything nya?! pooooor! hahahaha!

dream #2: magnanakaw yata ako dito cos i was in an unfamiliar house na puti ang ma pader at maraming pinto. malaki yung bahay, naliligaw ako e tapos nagtatago ako dun sa mga dumarating na tao. ah yun lang. feeling ninja yesss!