i wanna move out na talaga...

ayoko na. after all, i don't think i'll push through with the move to a different domain. why??? it's starting to piss me off! it's toooo complex i swear i'd be thrashing out my every fortune in an internet cafe trying to figure out how it will work for my preference.

so i'm not sure what will happen next. i really really want to move out already, i've found the perfect place, but it's so hard to adjust.

hey, tep's parents just got us a SOFA. beat that. well i haven't seen it yet, she just texted me about it hehe, so excited.

and i finally got a haircut too. :) shorter, simpler... whatever.

preparing for the move

i'm setting up a new blog on a new domain right now but i'm not officially launching it yet... i want it on my 18th birthday! so you wait ok? i'll be notifying my links anyway. :) just so you know, I'M EXCITED TO MOVE OUT OF BLOGGER!!!

 

oh right, mom says we have a 7 MILLION OFFER FOR OUR HOUSE. freakin awesome man! we're just not sure about it, you know this place holds a lot of memories... my dad engineered this one and mom did all the interior designing. we couldn't just let this go like that. but then, we can build another house with that money, and it's too much too. who knows? plus it's so practical we can save a lot.

 

oh, the title only applies on the blog thing ok? not our family moving just blocks away... just...not yet. hehe

 

we went to church awhile ago then headed for lunch at yoshinoya after. i don't know with SM, they keep on expanding! SM North Edsa can already rival megamall's hugeness, if it already hasn't... but i'm pretty sure it already has. it makes me wonder how many more stores and shops could fit there. it's big enough already, and it doesn't look appealing to me anymore. or maybe i'm getting too old for malls.

 

that's like, a big problem. i'm barely 18 and i'm already losing this institutionalized enthusiasm for mall escapades that every girl must have. this is wrong! but you see, whenever i go home from school during the weekend, i can figure going to the mall to chill, but when i get there, i end up not entering at all because i'm too sleepy and tired and i have no money. yadda yadda yadda... i don't even know what to do when i get there. my idea of chilling would be just a cup of coffee, hot or cold with a book or a magazine and a donut from krispy kreme! if not, i already appreciate going online, editing blogs, surfing for cool stuff, and reading tutorials. but then, in the mall, they're kinda expensive. hehe

 

ok, gtg. :)

i want to be saved but i can't help hating

i'm trying, note:trying, to speed up my sister's laptop (previously OURS, but is now hers...) by terminating unwanted background processes. i have no professional idea about speeding up systems so i'm running with cnet newletter's guidance. oh, i hope this works.

i know there's a virus here! i can sense it! and i think it came from the antivirus itself! it freaking won't uninstall. wtf. well, hmmm... i'll tell what happens later.

for now. let me update you with my err, 'plans'

- i want to get a haircut, but i might not, after all, i have no money. hehe
- i also want to finish reading Almost Heaven, i stopped midway because i wasn't impressed by the happenings but i will finish it no matter what, just so...
- i could reread this dusty old book i found lying on my shelf this day, it's entitled 'From Witchcraft to Christ' by Doreen Irvine. you see, i can't read two books at a time...
- i want to scare myself with the End of Days, if it's the only thing that would make my faith go stronger and SAVE me. i needa personal adviser on this but i figured i could do it myself, i just need someone to talk to about it and i think i've already found her. :)

i want to fully dissociate myself with everything sinful. it's hard, but i want to prepare myself for the impending doom that awaits the end of the 7th and last age we are living upon.

i want to be saved.
i don't want to experience the great tribulation. i don't want to part of the Class B saved people who will be left on the reign of the 666.

those possibilities alone scare me a lot. -_____-;;

ang gulo gulooooo

i scheduled everything. i listed out all my immediate academic priorities for this week and they were:

1. a stupid postlab which includes one heck of a data set due tuesday
2. 3rd long exam in chemistry, wednesday evening
3. a super long homework on statistics due thursday
4. another stupid postlab discussion and answered problems for physics, thursday
5. 3rd physics long exam friday night (just awhile ago)
6. a lightbox project due on friday.

ayan, pero di ko talaga nasunod schedule ko. ang pinaka panget kong habit ay ang magcram sa isang exam wala akong ka-clue-clue sa topic kahit na umaatend ako ng lecture. i reviewed for chem, wednesday afternoon lang... e sa gabi na yung exam. i reviewed for our physics exam (hardest exam daw, ever!) kaninang halfday lang din.

kulang na kulang.
ang gago ko kasi mag-aral eh. ang dali ko ma-distract. lalo na pag may papel at bolpen. instead na magsolve... hehe drawing break muna. haler, kung kaya ko lang magreview ng walang bolpen at papel diba. -_____-; pero kasi... nag-iiba ang psychology pag malapit na ang deadline. mas nagiging seryoso ako hahaha
naku ewan.
Lord, bahala ka na! :) hehe

this week was supposedly hell. but i'm thankful i got by...quite unharmed. and now i'm craving for a reward... please, Lord... something wonderful! :)
well, the fact that i was not depressed after my two exams were already worth the reward i was asking for... to think my study habits never changed. >____>;;

perhaps the only thing i enjoyed doing out of those 6 equally demandings tasks i attended to would be #6! e art yan eh! hahah just my favorite! :) :)

haha at dahil pareho kami mahilig sa art nung partner ko for that project... ang cool ng lightbox namin. super vain... pero cool...basta. maniwala ka na lang dahil pag sinabi kong cool, coooooool yun! hehe

examsexams. oha, dito ko lang nabubuhos ang kakarampot kong pagka acad-conscious. ayos naman... hopefully...hehe ayoko (na) talaga bumagsak eh. sabi ko kasi if don't fail anything this sem, i might actually reconsider my blasted shifting plans (heto na, heto na ang gulo gulooooo)... but if not (knock-knock-knock), edi ayun. stuck forever! deal with it na lang. haaaay.

masaya parin ako, kasi i realized i'm not alone.

ako daw ang weirdong konyo. i know, i'm weird. pero di halata kasi di ako mukang weird... weird lang ako magisip.. wala eh, parang ang daming pwedeng magcontribute for a plot on world domination. ang cool grabe, gusto gusto kong nanonood ng mga movies na kakaiba... yung may earth invasion... pero walang aliens hehe... yung tipong coool, maraming metaphysical undertones at maraming maraming computers na involved... chaka time travel! and yung mga kakaibang ginagawa ng mga scientists sa isang underground research facility tuwing madaling araw kaya nagkakaroon ng saglit na power interruption... ang galing.

joke lang, hindi totoo yung huli... sabi ko lang yun... dahil madalas mag brownout ng mga 1 sec samin pag madaling araw (lalo na pag mga 3am na) at ayokong takutin ang sarili ko sa mga storyang multo...iba na lang iniisip ko. safe na, cool pa. basta... hehe maraming hindi feasible na phsysics na involved. ehe ehe ehe... nakakahiya naman ikwenta... wala namang makakasakay. hehe :)

ay sori.

kaya siguro ang lakas ng topak ko dun sa pinaka recent kong super crush na envision ko na na pakakasalan ko sya in the future. yan ang weird, assuming at ilusyonada. naiimagine ko ang married life pero hindi ko maimagine magkaroon ng boyfried.

hala. e san manggagaling yun.
anyway, ang weird nya eh. -___-; at nasakyan nya ang ka-weirdohan ko kaya na-touch ako. e once lang naman nangyari yun. ahahahahahahahahahahahaha

anyway. i love my crapmates. kasi, they accept me! lalo na when i speak a lot of crap... duh eh basta. at sa tulong nila and a bit of psychology and some harsh truths, nalaman ko ang dahilan kung bakit hindi ako magkakaroon ng boyfriend habang college. hahahahahahahahahahahahaha

we're experts in psychoanalyzing. we can help you if you have problems hehe.
ay sori.

hehe gusto ko na magbertdeeeeey. pero ayoko ng debut dahil wala namang maniniwalang magdedebut pa lang ako. ang harsh.

sorry talaga sa entry na to. na overwhelm lang ako dahil tapos na ang linggo. hehehe yaaaay! :)

FIXED!!!!

at last! my Creative Zen has been revived! Special thanks to Mino! wahahahaha

as promised:

PROBLEM:
a. 'Firmware Problem' error message on Startup and
b. Player cannot be recognized in ANY PC

SOLUTION:
while others might tell you to download the mp3 player recovery tool from Creative or upgrade the Firmware with the latest version... that won't just work if you're having problem b hand-in-hand with a.

so the first thing you should do is perform a hard format (mino taught me this bwahaha i'm so thankful).

how to:
a hard format is basically a formatting process made on the device itself, without any valid link/connection to a PC.

Turn off your Creative Zen by inserting a thin object on the reset button of your device. I figured this is the only way of shutting down the player in my case because the on/off button on the side won't respond.

then, PRESS AND HOLD the play/pause button while turning on the player (with the normal turn/off switch).

TAKE NOTE that you must press and hold FIRST before turning the device on. and you must still be holding the button while the device is turning on.

doing those correctly will lead you the recovery menu with just the right options you need to save your device. if i remember correctly, the options were:

Format All
Upgrade Firmware
Reboot
Rebuild

select FORMAT ALL. you should be aware that all existing files currently present in your player will be deleted after the process.

select yes then, proceed to Rebuild.

your player must now be working well. :)

hope this helps. :)

my zen just crashed on me

a week late!! i thought i would be able to fix it immediately and give a problem-with-solution entry today but i guess i'm too overworked looking for solutions that i decided to just blog about the problem first... then hopefully when i get it fixed, do a solution entry.

PROBLEM!!!
after the Ilocos trip, when i turned on my Creative Zen (8G), it says 'FIRMWARE PROBLEM' and it won't proceed from there. also, the computer won't recognize it!!!! grrr...

yun lang naman... i tried scouting for solutions... i've downloaded this mp3 player recovery tool from the Creative website but when i run the application it says there 'NO ACTIVE INTERNET CONNECTION FOUND' when in fact, i am online. T___T sucks, man.

then there are also firmware upgrade suggestions... i'm trying that out right now, i'm downloading the 17.something MB firmware file that would HOPEFULLY lead me to a better path but another problem arises... HOW CAN I MAKE THE RECOVERY TOOL WORK ON MY PLAYER OR UPDATE THE FIRMWARE WHEN THE COMPUTER DOES NOT RECOGNIZE MY PLAYER! it reads nothing about the device on My Computer what the fuck, man! this is pissing me off big time.

but you seeee, i'm not missing the player... nor the music, i figured that i've established a psychological dependance on the player almost everyday of my student life that i can't possibly leave for my classes without my earphones on. yaaaah, and the one week that i survived having no mp3 player on hand seemed not to have bothered me big time at all.

i'm not saying i don't care, heck, what do you call this entry.

i just want it fixed. it's nearing one year old already. am i cursed or something? cos i change players almost every year...T____T;; and even though i want that new Creative Zen X-Fi, having a dysfunctional old player wouldn't count as an excuse.

Dear Lord,
Please Help Me Fix My Player.
Amen.

(currently on forum boards)
whew.

a brewing delinquent

i don't think 'brewing' fits my case good enough, i WAS a delinquent, till i tried fixing my life. but unfortunately, my futile attempts didn't bring me closer to the 'peace' i was trying to achieve. maybe i am bound to be gravely unfit and utterly hopeless in this place. yeah, and it sucks.

i want to shift. yeah, again. after thinking and rethinking and confusing myself more with my mood swings, i want to shift again. let's get real, i may never be able to get out of my city jail of a college, but I CAN TRY. case is, i'm always trying but i've never gotten past the grade requirement... i must have been really stupid you know. and i know i sound so pathetic like this, wanting to shift from a killer course to a relatively laid back one just because i cannot give the demands of my studies which requires one heck of a brain with the right hemisphere functioning a hundred times more active than the left one... if you get what i mean. at least i know in myself that i'm more visual than analytical.

if i shift here i'll be taking devcom, at least there's writing, if not for a bit of literature and the whole thing about fixing my grammar (i've always wanted to write as well) i wouldn't have taken it as a feasible deal. i chose communication arts in the first place but i think i'll learn more at devcom.

fine arts now is becoming a blur. unless after spending a decade wallowing myself in desperately trying to sound and look like an engineer, i decide to take a double degree and register as an undergrad and go through the whole college life torture again... sure, but that is already HIGHLY unlikely, since i'd be struggling to earn money by then.

i hate this. really.