wtdfck

WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME?!?!?!?!

apparently, i didn't attend 2 out of my 3 classes this day... well, it's not really a big deal since they're just PE and a boring GE subject... but then how many times have i done this before?

srsly, i can't count them on my fingers.
i've probably exhausted all my permitted absences already so there's no room for any more laziness... >___>;

i don't even think i'd be granted a permit to transfer to diliman with this kind of record. wtdfck.

oh by the way, i am recomended for counseling by our college because of my current academic standing. hehe, nobody pays attention to it anyway... CEAT has a lot of probies... including me.

bwaha.
i have another exam tomorrow! it's our first theoretical lab exam in microbiology.
bores me big time! hlysht!

I'VE FINISHED WATCHING DEVIL BESIDE YOU!!! :)
comment: what a cliffhanger!!

NEXT IN LINE: WHY WHY LOVE
-practically the same cast but whatever... we'll see!

i missed astra :)

ok from now on... i'm going to resume my internet browsing here... i was only lured to spacehub because they have a 20/hr charge for members... and here i pay the regular 25/hr even though i am a member.

anyway... i still think it's better here. the aircon is on all day... the place is comfy... no games! meaning no noisy little schoolboys crowding around on a single node! and wait! somethings have changed! all the PC hubs have flatscreen monitors! yeah! last time i checked they still have those big monitors (which isn't a bad thing actually, except that they take up a lot of space) and there are just a few tables with flatscreen on it! they really made great improvement... not bad for 25. ^___^;

actually guys, i have an exam tomorrow at 10am... i know i have a lot to study/memorize but you know me... i'm being the usual mistress of procastination... nothing goes first than satisfying my internet craves... which technically isn't something to be put on high priority. >_>;

someone spank me... >___>;

i'm been really negligent lately. i think yesterday... i only attended one and a half worth of classes just because i'm too sleepy to rise up at 9 (!!!!) and to lazy to go to my 2:30 class (!!!). gosh, i don't know what's up with me! i'm not naturally dumb... though this university is effectively making me think otherwise. i firmly believe that up to now, i can still score an above average IQ... but you see, i think the lowest kind of people here are those with above average IQ... wtf roight?

oh yeah, i remember now. the reason why i still attend my hum1 class which is scheduled at an equally annoying timeslot (11:30-1) -imagine the heat! jeep is not practical too!- would be because i love the thought provoking discussions and yeah, i have a crush on a classmate.

oh, for once... i want to get called for recitation (because i feel like i have something sensible to share)! i feel like my class number (22) is invisible and slips right through one's consciousness even on a roll call. i don't even think our teacher recognizes me as his student because last time he checked, my class index card isn't with him. hahaha

even so, i'm ok with it. :) at least i have a crush. ♥

it's almost valentines.
someone give me a flower or a box of chocolates! -a desperate's plea for a freakin lovelife-

wait! i was just chatting with lau awhile ago... asking for advice on transferring... thank goodness i learned something...
prepare for the CEAT panel interview. >__>;
and if all else fails... appeal to the assistant dean, because she/he's the kindest.

an asteroid to hit earth this 2019?

the news says so - Space Rock 'on collision course'

i'd probably be 29 or 30 by then... mehn, i don't want to die that early! >_>; i don't think i'd be married even!

whatever happens, it's up to God to decide... scientists say the risk of diverting the direction the threatening object is low... and when it does rocket down to earth, it might cause a whole continent to disappear! what a scary forecast... and to think that it's still a decade or so away makes it even more worrisome! imagine, we have predicted a cause for the world to end 11 years early!

i don't really think it's early you know. some people believe that we should start looking for a better place to preserve the human race... in this case, we should all hop on to mars and build a whole new community.

is that even possible?
it's a dead planet! if there were any sort of organism living there it would be some unknown hybrid of a protozoa... i wouldn't even bet on the chance of us prolonging our lifeline for a year!

unless God makes another living planet out of the blast.

i mean, what if...
because of that asteroid... the earth will die and explode... and because of that explosion... it would affect the other planets peacefully orbiting the sun?
could it be possible that another living planet will be me made?

what if, the Earth is not really the first ever living planet? what if before us is another living planet... who died because of some threatening space object?

and the people who lived there also believed in a God who favored their race the most. tapos, it became so corrupted with evil that God decided to sweep it off and just create a new world...? parang eto lng din?

but then, if he's really God... he would never commit the same mistake again. ok so i'm off them.

eh wla lang.

GO AChES FIGHT!!!!

laban namin kanina with schemes!

hahaha nakakatuwa... actually gusto ko talaga magka-riot... wala lang... para lang maka-witness na kung ano... hahaha... pero wala eh... 2 times na sanang muntik magka-ramble (basket & softball) pero whatever... hahaha

ayon. shempre... super hiritan! nakakainis... nakakakulo ng dugo. personalan na eh... garapal pa maglaro sa basket... pero dibale. masaya naman... nakuha namin ang huling halakhak dahil naipanalo namin ang last game which is softball... hehehe first win pa... hahahaha

ng sarap magcheer para sa AChES!!!! haha napaos ako sa kakasigaw! ang daming red baloons!!! grabe pumasok ako sa baker naka orgshirt na violet... hahaha malay ko ba na violet team color ng kalaban? buti na lang nabigay na jersey ko nagpalit agad ako... hehehe

pero eto mas masaya
officiating ang SELES ♥
hahaha

dear sister

i feel awful. i feel really bad about myself. i think i wasn't a good enough sister! i hate myself for letting her hurt herself that much for a stupid guy!!! and i hate it more that i actually wasn't there when she needs someone to confide to! well, she didn't really say she wants to talk about it... but during that time i was having an attack so she's really being considerate to me when she agreed to accompany me to the infirmary when she badly wants to go home already because of a heartache.

i feel really bad. >_>;
sometimes i think she doesn't want to tell me anything because i have a tendency top shut her off, saying she's really stupid to dwell even further on a delusional love affair. i thought it wasn't so serious.

i thought she isn't really in love.
but i missed the fact that everyone has his/her own style of loving someone, and my sister just got that weirder (sometimes intolerable) style.

when i heard that she cried a lot, i felt my heart sink. i felt like the worst sister in the world, not being there when she needs me. i hate using this stupid heart ailment as an excuse.

my sister's unique. ok, i say she's weird and loud about the one she loves. i'm not even sure if she's completely over him.

heck, i saw her calendar and saw she marked the box with the guy's birthday. you know what's written? ___'s BIRTHDAY: FORGET IT! >_>;
stupid isn't it?

and to think that she accepts the fact that everyone thinks i act older than she is. she asked me once, "how can i be a better sister to you?" because it bothers her that her level of maturity isn't par with me. i don't want her to think that she's no better than i am. in the same way, i don't want her to dwell on her current state right now. i wish i could talk to her without getting furious with her silly comments. i wish i had more patience to deal with her in-progress-emotional-growth because i think it's the key to her maturity.

once she gets over and done with her dillemma, then i guess it's a good step forward to a better sense of emotional perspective.

i hurt when she hurts.
it's no good tolerating things like this.
but only time can heal, and i don't want to impose an improper healing process on her (because i heal fast).

but maybe she's really like that, she hurts hard, and heals slow.
and maybe too, she loved more.

so he's dead

heath ledger is dead. >__>; not really his fan though... hehe, at least i'm up to date...? i couldn't believe out teacher when he blurted out he's dead... we were discussing about creativity then... and we all turned him off saying "teacher, you're being too creative >_>" (note sarcasm)

anyway. i'm not up to do a tribute for him (i just heard of him through brokeback mountain, i don't even know his face)... i've got business to do...

and by business i mean waiting for streaming media to download... part by part, episode by episode... and while waiting logging in to neopets to play games...

haaaay. such a lovely world indeed...
honestly, i've never been this much 'inlove' with a taiwanese series (or any asianovela for that matter)

when i say in love, it means i feel kilig most of the time... true enough, i can't help smiling at the picture of Ahmon forming in my brain...

haaaay ♥
such a hopeless romantic... i don't know what will happen to me in the future...
do i even have a future?

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done with the first chem40 theoretical lab exam... i think i answered better than last time... though i still have this attitude of giving up with a problem once i've exhausted all my time and braincells figuring out for an impossible solution...>_>

aaahhhh, whatever.

i care more about Devil Beside You...

oh, and also our first face-off with schemes.

>_<; WAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!

err... okay, i was exagerrating... hahaha

e kasi naman!
ang hirap!!!
hindi ko na kaya!!!
i've never felt this way before!!! T___T;

these supressed emotions are killing me!!!!!!


alam nyo ba kanina ko pa pinagmumukang TANGA ang sarili ko???!?!?!
HINDI KO PINANGARAP NA MAPAHIYA NG GANITOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!

uhhm... don't get me wrong though

nanonood lang naman ako ng taiwanese series sa youtube. hahaha ^___^;;

eh sa sobrang kilig ko pigil na pigil ang mga tili ko... para talaga akong tanga...
>__>;; may dvd naman ako kaso di ako makapaghintay ng weekend para mapanuod eh... tapos ayoko rin maghintay mamayang gabi para makapuslit sa laptop ng dormmate ko...

ganon ako ka hooked! nagsasayang ako ng pera.
nakakahiya... tawa ako ng tawa dito... ngiti ng ngiti... weirdo talaga.
tapos kahapon... andun ako sa primelink, puno kasi sa spacehub eh dun ako usually nagu-youtube.. haaay, 20/hr lang kasi eh... hahahaha...

so yun... kilig moment nanaman... >__>;

kaso leche.. nagdatingan na yun mga dota boys... umingay!! bumaho! (haha ang mean) amoy ewan... basta... tapos ako na lang babae dun... tapos ang dami nila.. napapalibutan nila ako...may mga nakatayo pa eh nakakahiya naman sila nagdodota ako nagu-youtube.. nanunuod ng mga ka-teenybopper-an.... tapos biglang

"ay kulang ng upuan!"

mga lintik kayo.
lumayas na lang ako... nasira mood ko... leche talaga. nakakagrrr...

ah basta...

masaya ako. ♥