a happy new year to everyone!

yeah it'll be 2008 in exactly 4 hours.

honestly, i think time flew by so fast. i could still clearly recall what happened last new year's eve. per usual i spent it with my family, here in our house, at the rooftop... without any fireworks whatsoever... it has been a tradition for us not to purchase anything that will be displayed in the sky although it's quite a sad thing because i could just imagine us throwing fireworks on the rooftop!!! everyones' eyes would be on our house! on that spot where the highest fireworks are sparkling at the midnight sky. it would be a most pleasant view. too bad...

but then again, showing off fireworks on our rooftop is just the second best thing we could enjoy this eve... the first and best would still be the fact that we have the best view in the whole subdivision when it comes to the night sky! i could go stargazing everyday (provided it isn't raining/cloudy)! and yeah, we could watch the fireworks without the annoying cables and electric posts... and trees too.

i'm not really fond of doing resolutions y'know... i'm more a wishlist type of girl. hahaha and later, my sister and i agreed to create a new 101 wishlist before midnight then we'll pray it over with our family.

it's all about getting closer to God now.

i missed talking to him. i can't believe how far i've drawn myself away from him over the past year. maybe that's why i've been trekking a downhill path ever since i entered college, ever since i let the academic pressure take over my dire life. i thought my being a warrior last last summer, my life of everyday prayer, is enough to arm me throughout my life in los banos. i thought that when you prayed a lot tonight, it will bring you enough blessings to last you for a week.

i thought i could just easily pass on a prayer and still be blessed for a week or so.
but the truth is, i have always been blessed, even during the times i don't pray. He is so generous about blessings that i guess one of the advantages of praying is that it gives us more appreciation to the blessings He has bestowed upon us.

prayer arms us with an extraordinary kind of perspective that let's you see only the good things in the world. without it, all the blessings that has always been there for you will be masked for hiding. and you'll think that all that there is in this world is a pile of misfortune and an unbearable amount of mischief and poverty.

whew. it was never a smooth year for us... i mean, every year isn't as smooth as what we prayed it to be. but it's damn unforgiveable if we stop praying with just that. hah. >_>

okok, i'll pray. it's so hard to bring back my childhood motivation about praying. back then i used to pray out loud because that's how my parents taught me and that's how we do it in sunday school. but now, huhuhuhu, i can't even sit straight in prayer without sleeping. everytime i do an indian sit on the prayer room and clasp my hands in prayer, i always end up sticking it on my forehead for support, then goes the obvious... zzzzz.

>___>

here goes another wishlist!

# a set of multicolored pens from steadtler. i guess a set would cost around 600-700php. hehehe
# new rubber shoes. haha always in my wishlist!
# money would still be #1
# a few cute earrings and lots of pakaw. haha
# multicolored metallic pens.
# markers, multicolored too. hehehe
# bond papers
# lots of oslo paper

haha, i'm asking for a lot of art materials.
oh, an immaterial wish would be

# to transfer to upd fine arts next AY.
whew. rakenrol!

Fuego!

it's Rizal day!
but more importantly (yeah, i guess so because i don't really have that much patriotism in me to go on a pilgrimage this day) it's my wuvies Martha and Carla's Birthday!!! yeah beybeh!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MATHA AND CARLA!!!!! ♥

oh, i'm so sorry for putting our national hero aside but we don't usually celebrate this day like other traditionalists do... at least i know what this day is worth... :)

i still admire you Rizal. i just hope it goes about changing the Philippines that way.

change topic my friends! you see, i love my country but at present i think i'm still more of a liability than an asset! wait till i get a job and perhaps that's when i can seriously prioritize some of my socio-economic plans to help our nation! bwahaha

i watched kid nation awhile ago and was caught by Alex! he's so cute! and he won a Gold Star! yeah!! :D

hope he wins!

oh, it's almost new year

to tell you honestly, i'm bored.

the last christmas party i attended was back with my dormmates (the 19th, if i could remember correctly)... if you'd still like to count the org party then sure, but since it's just on the same day and all i ever did there was drink and play cards.... fine, i'll include that.

but it doesn't change this... err... loneliness that i feel. not exactly lonely like emo-lonely, it's more like the lack of parties attended this season that made me feel bad.

i'm not really a party-girl, heck i just want to be around the people i love (luuuuurve) this season and this pretty blasted sickness robbed me of that opportunity. i was supposed to go partying with my friends last wednesday, it's a xmas-slash-carla-and-martha's birthday party all rolled into one event. i cannot afford not to attend that. then again, i just got discharged from the hospital and it's not adviseable to go wasting my life for the nth time.

am i really wasting myself partying?
oh, best answer would be NO. it's not like i do it everyday. hahaha, the season just calls for it! big DUH. christmas is spelled party backwards... including new year!!

I WANT GIFTS!!! huhuhuhu

new year new year, according to feng shui, the year of the Rat will be full of misfortunes for people born under the Horse!!! wenkwenk.

the least i could do is ignore it...
and perhaps purchase a relatively strong lucky charm... err..

i'm chatting to vrey right now. all about shifting... hmmm... i'm not worrying anymore about the requirements of the CFA (college of fine arts) in diliman because i think i'd be able to handle it... whew, what i'm worrying about is my current college's attitude towards transferees/shiftees!! they hardly let anyone shift out! wtf.

anyway, it's all up to you, dear Lord. :)

i miss going to the mall! hahahaha :D

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIKA!!!! =)

coffee prince ♥

i knew it. i'm not yet over with gays. and i thought i'm gradually growing out of it now that i haven't written any gay story for so long or even laid eyes on a harrydraco slashfic. >__>... but upon seeing the trailer of Coffee Prince, i confirmed i still have this weird fancy for homosexual themes. ^-^; and believe me, it won't (in any way) affect my sexual preference.

i'm excited to watch it!!
wait, actually, i've seen a dvd of this long ago before GMA introduced it... so maybe i could just buy that. hahahahah yeeehey!

or maybe iregalo nyo na lang sakin! dvd ng coffee prince!!! pleeeaaaseeeeee??? ^-^

maligayang pasko! (pasensya na at konyo ang entry na ito)

@ kakabalik ko lang galing ospital.
i spent 4 days in an un-airconditioned ward! haha ang arte diba... anyway. i figured it's better without aircon (but i still prefer a private room kahit walang aircon basta private)since it's kinda cold naman. and besides, i have fever that time so i hardly sweat. >__>; wenk.

@ i already started feeling bad saturday pa lang, but i ignored it! i even exercised! yan tuloy, lumala. the next morning, masamang masama na ang pakiramdam ko but i still insisted on going to church. ayun, sa bread of life kami nagsimba (crossroads77) and it was freakin cold there. ayun, dahil nga nilalagnat na pala ako, nagchchill ako sa kinauupuan ko. para akong sinasapian. shortly before the mass ended, i excused myself and went out. 11am nun eh, matindi ang sikat na araw! on a regular basis siguro isusumpa ko ang tindi ng init but because i needed to feel warm that time, pumunta ko sa sasakyan at dun nagpa-ihaw. grabe, ang sarap mainitan pag super nilalamig ka. take note, di pa ko pinagpapawisan. >___>; ganun ka lamig ang nararamdaman ko.

@ edi umuwi kami... ayown! 39 ang temp ko! whaaapak!! haynaku, todo panic si inay. ako naman, mega talukbong... "Lord! Lord! what have i done to deserve such misfortune!"

@ kinagabihan, sinugod ako sa fairview gen. hospital. dun muna kasi mura... di pa kasi bayad ung quarterly fee ng health card ko. edi sana nakapag-FEU kami.. libre pa. huhuhu. but then FGH is fine, mas mabilis nila ako maasikaso kasi onti lang tao. wenkwenk.

@ edi yun, mega chill ako. as in chill, nanginginig sa lamig, sa tindi ng impeksyon ng dugyot na sakit na ito (UTI).

@ ako man, di ko mawari kung san ko napulot ang aswang na komplikasyong ito. ineexpect ko nga tonsilitis kasi masakit lalamunan ko at usually yun lang ang sanhi ng lagnat ko... but no...nononoooo. ewan. di naman ako mahilig sa softdrinks, junkfoods, salty foods... weird talaga. gayunpaman, nagkulang talaga ako sa TUBIG. ok TUBIG, peace.

@ ayon. so mula sunday, which is december 23 hangang kanina.... nakaconfine ako! in short, sa OSPITAL NA AKO NAG PASKO!! nice diba? hahaha pero oks lang. huhuhuhu hahaha.

@ yun nga lang... di na ako pinayagan magparty sa bahay... e dapat ngayon yung barkada xmas party namin dito sa haus.... hehehe yun, pinagchange venue ko na lang sila. super grateful pa ako kasi super understanding nila... huhuhuhu I LOVE YOU BTS!!!! :)

@ hmmmmhmmmhmmmhmmm... shempre pag may sakit ka wala kang gana kumain diba? grabe mejo naenjoy ko to. weird kasi kumakain si terai sa harap ko ng masarap ng spaghetti at hindi man lang ako natatakam o naiinggit! ang galing! sana laging ganon! hahaha ayoko na mag diet.

@ I QUIT BEING AN APPLE FRIEND (pag dinner)

@ haaay. sobrang nauseated ako all throughout! tapos tinurukan pa ako ng gamot na anti suka ata yun... so sukang suka na ko, sasabog na ulo ko sa sakit... buelo ako ng buelo sa inodoro, walang lumalabas. napamura talaga ako!

@ sana sumuka na lang ako ng sumuka tapos bigyan ng lang ako ng hydrite... mas ok yun. mas gagaan loob ko. imbis na buong araw masakit ulo ko tapos di naman ako makasuka.

@ dahil sa pagpupumilit ko sumuka. nasugatan ang lalamunan ko. the agony, pare. di na nga ako makalulon, bawat lulon ko pa mahapdi. huhuhuhuhu

@ hehehehe. okok. ok na ko. haba na ng storya ko.

@ after more than 10 years ngayon lang ulit ako naconfine! hahhahaha

@ nanaginip ako ng maganda kagabi! pero nagising akong umiiyak, pero maganda parin sya... ginising kasi ako nung nurse e... tapos nung natulog ako.... CONTINUATION pare! ang galing! mas kilig na yung kasunod... ayoko ikwento. i won't mention names... even though the odds of them reading this is high. bwahahaha

@ ok. alang alang kay inay at sa kanyang insecurities na unti unting pinapatay ng kurso ko ang aking kalusugan, lilipat na akong diliman.

@ shempre... conditional parin.

@ciao.

such a short break

before we left for the break our hum1 teacher assured us that we would have something academic to do over the vacation. so he left us with 137 pages of boring text from various writers (including some pages from anne frank's diary - that's 68.50 pesos swept off from my pocket).

last night i gave time to sort the pages off and found out that he gave us exactly 12 different stories to read... i couldn't help but laugh at this. he wanted to make sure we won't present any viable excuse not to read the whole text because we can do it day by day. 12 days of vacation for 12 different readings, ranging from the most boring englishman to the most liberal filipino writer. =|

on top of that, i've just downloaded 4 neil gaiman books from 4share.com and i still have tons of meg cabot pending to be read.

seriously, the need for a laptop is becoming unbearable. i couldn't invest a fortune on mimeograph printed bestsellers... that's why i stick to e-books (however illegal and selfish it sounds), then again i don't have enough time for this. grrr...

hehe. i'm looking forward to a laptop.
but for a short term goal i think i'd have to open another bank account, this time with an atm card... because my other bank account is strictly for my investment money only.

yeah. i think it's better, i'd have two accounts... one for my future and the other for my miscellaneous needs (like a decent DVD of gravitation and clothes, yeah, clothes). hahaha... hello money. where the hell are you?!?!

wenkwenk. i forgot, i also need to get thinner and fitter this vacation... no matter how ironic it sounds to do on a diet this christmas. i'm a sucker for a lean frame.

gine pomelo gin pomelo gin pomelo

WEDNESDAY NIGHT was great! :) i attended two parties. bwahahaha

@ earlier that day, i attended my hum1 class (which is the only class i attended that day because i don't want to occupy myself in the afternoon) because we have a group presentation. then i went out to buy decoration stuff, crep paper, ribbons blah blah blah... wenk. i was in charge of the decorations kasi. and then... blah blah blah... my dormmates carried the TV from the kitchen to the living room! yehey! although it was damn heavy, the magic mic did good enough compensation. hahaha so parang 5pm pa lang... KANTAHAN NAAAAA!!!! yeheeeeey!

@ wow! ang sarap ng food! and tita beth did all of it! as in.. we have cater quality dishes on the table! we have caldereta, porkchop (na suppppeeer sarap ng marinade sauce, kaya hilaw pa lang inuulam ko na ung sauce. yak) and chicken (CHICKEEEN! as in kawta and friends! huhuhu, babay kawta... hahaha). then we bought cake from mernels! THE BIGGEST CAKE IN DISPLAY, MAN! tapos may buko salad pa... shempre care of tita beth, tita beth and of course tita beth!!! hahahaha

@ sadly though, i wasn't able to stay with them all throughout the night kasi i decided to make habol (wenk. conyo.) sa party ng org sa pansol. buti na lang pumayag si kat na sumama or else, di rin ako tutuloy. at buti na lang din, kuya wini was with us kasi hindi ko alam kung san kami bababa... hahaha in short, di ko alam kung nasan yung resort. bwahehehe

@ hehehehe. okok. masaya din to! hehehe walang tulugan! at least hindi ako natulog.. hahaha. so bale ang ginawa lang namin dito ay uminom (nag-session kami ni kat sa isang sulok... hahaha), magsugal, at uminom ulit. >___>;; first time ko makatikim ng gin pomelo... kasi nung nagbabaraha kami ang matalo, isang shot! so natalo ako, nagshot, at nasarapan. dahil dyan, binaliktad ang rules, ang matalo, walang shot. hahahaha so naging seryoso ang labanan. bwahahaha. shortly afterwards, naubusan na ng pomelo juice kaya pineapple na lang. haha masarap parin naman pero dabest parin pomelo eh. bwahaha

@ hindi naman ako nalasing... honestly, di pa ako nalalasing. hahaha high tolerance. adik... pero si kat? ewan ko kung anong tumama don, naging konyo! hahaha bahala sya.

@ hehehe basta masaya, naglaro laro din ako dun. nag volleyball with datu kaya super sakit ng katawan ko ngayon. wenkwenk.

@ nakauwi ako sa dorm ng 5am... nagising ako ng 4pm!!!! kaya todo madali makauwi kasi for sure traffic nanaman... :)

@ hehehe. home sweet home!

@ ok, balik diet!