i almost cried?

lol. i almost cried with my own fic. bwahahahaha

read it here
but before that here, i'll give a short forewarn:

- crappy grammar: sorry naman ha? i'm not good in english, my beta-reader hasn't mailed me the proofread version yet (it's been years! i think she forgot it already). you're free to criticize, curse me for bastardizing the english language and neglecting the sacred law of grammar.

yun lang. :)

WANTED: BETA READER!!!

whew. i love traggic endings! suuuuupppper! as in gusto ko yung mga storyang makapagpapa-igting ng aking emosyon. gustong gusto ko ng mga nakakaiyak na konklusyon. ayos yun. gusto ko ng may namamatay na bida. T____T; bwahahahahaha

it should be a happy birthday for my friend!

if antonio trillanes weren't good-looking enough, i wouldn've cursed him to the pits of hell but hahahaha i like him! not because i agree that he should seize a hotel just to deliver his grievances to the government but because he's good-looking (for me). bwahahaha

still, i hate what he just did yesterday. did you know how much time it took us to travel from UP Los Banos to Home? 6 FREAKIN HOURS, MAN. my sister and i boarded the bus at 5, and 2 hours later, we're still in Laguna. fuck the traffic. we've finished our mega sized tortillos and have dreamt a lot already and we're still in laguuunnnaaaaaa. miles away from the expressway. and when we got there, our patience was tested still. traffic nanaman! plus! it took us another hour to reach the PNP Checkpoint and when we got there, we were like "WHAAAT?!??!? NASA CHECKPOINT PALANG TAYO???????" it clearly is a bad idea to travel that night.

we arrived at megamall at around 930 and when we went out the bus we were like, "Praise God! Steaming Chicken Teriyaki and Miso Soup + unli Rice, HERE WE COME!!!!"

but lo and behold! we've begged the guards enough to let us in but noooooooooo! they won't allow anyone to enter the mall anymore! and what is to be blamed???

THE 12MN CURFEW!!!!
then of course, it all boils to down to Trillanes ♥

so we have no choice but to go home without eating. i'm starving, my head hurts, and my sister is throwing tantrums already because she's hungry too. she's one hell of a monster when her stomach isn't full. >____>

eventully, our parents fetched us off at fairview caltex, we bought food on the way and thank God, we're home! finally!

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♥ HAPPY BIRTHDAY NEZ!!!!!!! ♥

high priority

kailangan MAGPAPAYAT!

hephep!

what i have to say about our chem40 lab instructor:

hell, he has a lot of expectations!!! well, what great performance could you possible get from a class mainly consisting of first takers (excluding me, of course!). i got that from experience, now don't argue. being a 2nd taker clearly has its benefits.

what else? i think, i'll be learning more from him than i did with my previous instructor. i like the way he makes sure everything is explained, as well as how he provokes our minds to do simple mechanical logic on the way the instruments to be used are designed. take note too: he makes SUPER LONG prelab discussions it takes a lot of our hands-on experiment time. plus! he doesn't dismiss us immediately, he wants to make sure he has told us every piece of information we should harness ourselves with.... include unsolicited advice here. but that's ok, he's fun. i can tell. :)

however, he can get too harsh on us. by that, i mean he isn't gentle when pointing out that what we're doing is wrong and downright unforgivable. when we were shaking the freakin separatory funnel with the dicloromethane and liquid organic extract, he was like "hindi ganyan!!"

like crazy, man. he startled us big time.

anyhow, through his emails i can see that he is quite a gamer. his username speaks of an RPG character and his notes are funny, in a semi-unforgivable way. and he puts opening and ending remarks like

to my adorable students,

(insert degrading-slash-funny-and-enlightening remarks here)

yeah!

- sensei alvin

hahahahaha
i'm looking forward to learn more from him. more so, i don't want him to learn i'm a second taker, because swear, i don't want him expecting a lot from me or from anyone else for that matter.

and ultimately,
i want to pass chem40 this time.

not productive

i haven't studied yet. i have two quizzes tomorrow both of them having very long handouts. ha, that's the least of my problem... >___>;;

i already went online awhile because our history teacher didn't show up, during that time i already made a very long post about my utterly biased opinion on the issue of traditional vs. digital art (i'm for trad) but decided to just leave is at a draft for the meantime. i mean, i've been babbling about the same concern ever since! and until now i can't seem to get enough points to back myself with the argument that being an artist lost it's exclusivity and sacredness ever since the emergence of tons of digital art programs/softwares became mainstream and photoshop became the producer of virtual canvasses. >____>;

ok, let's leave that.

i was thinking of switching to LJ. i'm very concerned about my err 'private life'... also, i don't want a lot of people (especially those i know) reading my blog entries. not that there's much, i actually perefer strangers than friends when it comes to developing good readership. point is, i hardly want anyone to sympathize with me. sometimes i always end up overly conscious with what i've written, specially that this blog is always linked to my other pages... >___>;; waaaah.

LJ or Blogger???? wooot.

more so...
i don't feel like performing in jami's debut anymore. simply because i don't want to look epal. besides, i still haven't prepared for it. she said the motif is red. well, i don't have a red dress! i haven't even bought her a gift!!! mehn, i have a lot of buy this weekend.

haaay, ok. i'll study now. :|

entry number 8-hundredsomething

i dunno. i'm slacking off again. maybe there's really not much to do, but i like it this way. i only have 3 subjects a day and all of them have at least 1 hour intervals, what can i say? i love my schedule though i have to sacrifice my being a sophomore for it.

i'm being negligent of my duties in the org. i've never attended a single meeting of the publications committee. i'll have the weather to blame for that, plus my retarded phone who receives important messages 3 hours late.

i'm trying to save a lot of money for this semester, i'd like to invest on books. though i've said this before... i never really had the chance to religiously update my collection of books because those that i like are either new releases or too expensive that sooner or later i just forget about them.

hum1 is really exciting me. whenever our teacher explains the things to expect on his subject (ie. lots of readings, poetry, short stories, WRITING, critical evaluation...) i become excited! clearly because these are the things that interest me a lot...

i'm also looking forward to Hum2 (art) because duh, that's ART!!! my favorite craft!!

which reminds me, i'm sort of regretting the path i'm trekking right now. it isn't paved to say the least. it's muddy and downright annoying. what i'm trying to say is that, I MISSED THE FACT THE UPD FINE ARTS HAS ADVERTISING AS ITS MAJOR!!

then again, i think i still stand a chance! teka teka, naexcite ulit ako! i don't think it would be that hard to transfer to Fine Arts!

hehehe, we'll see about that!

hard gay!

i just came home from our dance practice at ding's place. harhar, can't even consider it 'our dance practice' since (huhuhuhu) i wasn't really part of the whole routine. i just, hmmm, made a very little appearance because i don't have enough time to learn the whole dance!
ay, i also brought them ice cream! yey! now i can say i've celebrated my birthday with all the important
we watched a couple of youtube vids on their pc and damn were my muscle cheeks pushed to the limit. they were so funny! try using search tags "ping pong matrix" and "human tetris". you'll be amazed by the videos. i can't believe japanese people are very creative commedienes! wahahahahahaha

more so, we also watched "hard gay!" hooooooooo! hahaha, ok you can just search that as well. very funny guy. bwahahahahahahaha

haaaay, i'm waiting for some videos to finish converting so that i can transfer it on my player...

so while waiting...

do you know the feeling of being around a guy who likes you in a way you don't? he gives you special attention and you hate him for that. he does good things to you, things he doesn't normally do to other girls, and it feels really awkward. for a moment you want him to stop and just leave you alone but out of being polite, you just treat him normally just like with you other friends.

mehn, i hate people like that. i'm very good at dropping hints, but he's poor at catching them.
can't you get a clue?

i'm a ropeless romantic but i also want to make sure i get that 'romance' i deserve with a guy a like. actually, i prefer being with someone i love than with someone who loves me. but of course, i'd always choose to be with someone i like and vice versa. in short, i hate one-way relationships. >___> and again, i hate guys who can't get a clue.