moment of truth

i didn't make it to UP. i went there awhile ago with my dad along with lienne and bea.
ok, first of all i felt blank and neutral. definitely i felt sad, but it lasted only for about a minute then i regained my composure and went on living.

i'm warning you. i do not need your pity. i am not depressed. it actually irritates me that someone is trying to console me when i don't feel bad at all. i don't need encouraging words because i already filled myself with those beforehand. that's all. but i appreaciate your concern, it's just that i'd rather hear it from someone who, like me, didn't make it.

i'm quite happy, UST isn't a bad choice (in fact i don't have a choice). it's only now that i learned to appreciate it.

this is my ultimate dream:

i shall grow into a very successful person in the future where people will look up to my skills and appreciate me. i wish to be interviewed in a well-known newspaper or magazine. there i'll show them that behind my success are three rejection letters (or more). i am not smart enough for Ateneo, too laid-back for La Salle and too careless for UP but all these brought me here. it is in my failures that i defined my success.

yeah that's my goal!
it's fun to be optimistic.

good luck

today is the GALS competition, at first i wanted to go but on second thought it'd be very tiring so i just preferred to stay here and wait for good news.

i feel so guilty right now, we didn't go to church because of my parents' client affair, why do they have to set it on a sunday? whatever.

stardard chartered credit cards (visa and mastercard) has a very very cool promo running from feb 15 - march 31, 06. NEO laptop 1 year installment for 5,833.25 / month, . pentium centrino, 40gb hard drive, lightweight (1.8 kg) blah blah...
0% interest for those who could pay monthly billings on the right due date. free ipod nano and logitech webcam. free delivery for locations inside the greater metro manila boundary. isn't that great? all in all you have to pay 69,999.00, but for a laptop, ipod nano and webcam i think that's quite reasonable.

mehn, i'm still trying to convince my parents onto it. it's not bad at all!! who cares if it's neo and is not acer, hp or compaq? i would love to have my own laptop. but dad says he's gonna buy a 25,000 laptop, free shipping.

come on! 25k for a laptop is very suspicious it sounds like a smuggled one. you're not even given an assessment of the features. grrr, i wish i had my own credit card.

please please... grad gift?
LoL. as if i've ever been in the top 20 these 4 yrs. =(

i have more to share

are you watching my name is kim sam soon?
hehe, you should. i'm obsessed on it right now, it's my only stress relief!! the food, the guys and sam soon's character as well.

it is rare for me to like a leading lady that much you know. first i must consider the attitude, i hate sassy leading ladies who like to take control over the guy too much, it's irritating! and what's irritating me more is the high pitched filipino dubber and the OVERLY konyo translations they make like there's no more filipino words left in the dictionary. eherm. sometimes i just want to punch the tv and kill the series (how ever that's possible). no wonder why filipino dubbers (or dubbers in general) do not get popular.

back to sam soon. well, pretty much i'm so hooked to the show. i love the food too much i wish we had a pattisieur in the family. i just love desserts. why don't you? life is a box of chocolates anyway.

i like sam soon! the lead guy cyrus is good-looking too (in most angles, but he's cutest when he smiles, heh! dimples!) but i just can't help but feel hurt whenever he says bad things to sam soon. he's so rude, not my ideal man.

graduation is near. but before that we still have to go through the 4th quarterly tests. i'm actually excited to get over the tests because right after that we'll be staying in westin hotel for three days to escort my mom in the her awards night. well whatever, i just want to feel the aircon, the pool, the sauna, the beach and most especially...... THE CABLED TV!!!!!

i'm currently reading: the pilgrimage - paulo coehlo.

there is someone walking behind you

this morning i went to school to help finish the GALS banner. thank God we're done, yay! i got my school shirt which is size M but it turns out that it magically shrank 2 sizes smaller. dem, i should have chosen XL if i knew that school shirts are supposed to be that small. grrr.

after that karla, kim, nez, larz and i went to SMF to watch final destination 3. it was a very gruesome movie (as always) that will surely leave you paranoid, looking for signs that would mean your death. and the song, 'there is someone walking behind you, turn around... there is someone watching your footsteps...' is very freeeaaakkkyyy....

something funny (or at least) happened after that. we went to toy kingdom to meet nez's mom and there we saw this toy board where i wrote the first line of the song, then my friends started to add something else. when i turned around, guess what i saw?

there was a miniture roller coaster (eh mukhang roller coaster eh, paranoid na cguro ako) display there. hehe, freaky.

and theeeeeennnn, we're all fussing about the flight 180 plane crash (FD 1) while bearing the usual regalado traffic, we started seeing plate numbers.... parang, "ayun oh 190, minus 10.." "ayun pa 183, minus 3.." then i spoke, "pag ako talaga nakakita ng 180 ah... naku."

guess what? duh.
i can still remember the plate number, ZAA 180.

maybe it's your car, we'll find out.

whoopdeedoo

there's something weird about me today. i don't know, i feel so happy like there're a lot of positive charges coursing through my veins. it's inexplicable i can't determine the source of this but i guess this is an omen that something good will happen soon. oh i wish THIS is it. meehn.

well well, i read this really funny naruto fic. LoL, i'm afraid i can't share the details because you know, hehe, it's not for kids. haha... another thing, i'm currently reading another naruto fic which is uhm, not for kids either. okay, when i say it's not for kids, it doesn't necessarily contain sex and explicit themes, it's just that the idea might offend you that's all. you know, yaoi. brokeback mountain? gravitation? uhm, mark feehily? sounds familiar? yeah, gay mehn.

ok it hit me now. did i just mention mark feehily? my beloved westlife tenor markus michael patrick verdon feehily? the one whom i have infatuated for so long?! who sang 'oh mandy' when he could've sang 'oh arianne'? dem! he's gay!!! HURRAAAAAYY!! i don't know, i'm so insane i could easily give up my crush... for another GUY.

you shouldn't be surprised. this is the real me.
ok, lemme share to you a very special song yet no one gets sentimental over it, or has there been one already?

if you were gay
that'd be okay!
i mean 'cos hey!
i'd like you anyway!
because you see
if it were meeee
i would feel free to say
that i was gay
(but i'm not gay)

just that part. see now, there's nothing wrong with it. i'm not saying i'm gay but hey, that'd be okay. :D i almost memorized the whole lyrics you know, including the dialogue introductions of puppet-gays-in-denial rod and nicky. they just amuse me a lot!

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awhile ago we had a mass and the anual educators' day celebration. the message didn't reach me that we'll be halfday today and that there'd be no classes. heh. like it matters a lot, i don't really care. as you can see i'm still alive.

the presentations were nice.
yesterday my mom, dad and i watched 'close to you'. hehe it's not gut bursting funny since john lloyd himself is the only comic relief (i was actually looking forward to a funny sidekick but no) but he is, in a way, funny. i can't concentrate on the humor majorly because i cried twice. meeehn! i cried twice on a filipino flick movie!!! heh. my mom cried too... ayun, uhm it's nice!

next movies to (hopefully) watch...

final destination 3 - i still have to drag some of my friends to watch with me since i have just recently realized that horror movies bring friends closer together. diba?
fun with dick and jane - don't you just love jim carrey? (ano ba spelling non?)
brokeback mountain - tara michi!

sorry dear parents

i was thinking of changing the 'welcome' to a 'sorry' but hell, why would i?

there there. how are my grades? geez, their fine as hell. they always remain as they are. i mean, the average and all. they're still the same. ever since i was in first year my averages would always play around 88 or 89. yes, always close to the line of 9 i'm dreaming of yet it remains there. it sucks you know.

i would be damn happy if ever i reached (even for once) and everage of 90 on my overall and major grades. anyway, it was a shame on my part, being on a barkada mostly compromised of top 20's. wouldn't that make me feel like an idiot? hah. no i'm not an idiot, maybe someone else is but i'm not. i'm a self-proclaimed geek, haha! and adri's the nerd and uhm.. hah! k.a.'s the dork! world domination! *insert snorty geek laugh here*

how could it get any better than that?

i love you miss O!! you saved my card from the humiliating line of 7. i really hate having a line of 7 in pinoy because it's the very first subject in the line up of grades in our card. the shame mehn! ms. alberto said my pinoi grade would've been a line of 7 but savior ms. o did a little magic to it and poof, it became 80!

LOL, like there's something triumphant about getting an 80! hell, no. that's why i love the idea of magic, you can use it on everything under the sun! thank you miss O, you're the greatest magician ever. imagine a quiz average of 58, a quarterly test of 79 and a final grade of 80? mehn that's so cool.
and i didn't even give her 2 chesnut horses for that!! :D

oh, another sorry thing. my accounting grade is decreasing at a uniform rate of 4. 88,84,80... what's next 76? no way. i wouldn't let that happen. i seriously think it's not yet the right time for us to learn accounting, it's so baffling.

haaay. life is full of surprises! it's funny how our card is called "progress report" when i'm not actually progressing.

i need a haircut. yeah, i'll do that this summer. mom says i'll be having braces soon! can you imagine me with that? heh. and i was thinking of buying reading glasses for myself. mehn. can you image that? spectacles, braces, short hair? oh no! GEEEEEKKK.

mehn, how can it get any cooler than that?

aww mehn, we're going to change seating arrangements again. :(
yey! i finished reading the catcher in the rye! yay and that same day i finished it i also finished reading narnia 1! yess! achievement! it was my first time to finish a whole book in one sitting!

the ultimate geek show

how's that huh? it's a very brilliant plan it drives me crazy. we could conquer the world with ingenious calculators and never worry about anything mathematically. *insert hillarious geek laugh here*

yeah, that's practically how i'm going to live my life in this world, which is in my point of view, a giant calculator - only you can't press buttons and get sums and products. the world right now is so low tech i wonder how big the brains of average humans are. i'm not berating you humans as i am one of you too but you see, most of you just lack the creativity to imagine ridiculously possible things. everything under the sun isn't that hot as i thought it would be. mind you, calculators are the best invetions in the world. next is the computer but sometimes they go change rankings once in awhile because both of them imrpove dramatically. and i mean dramatically! it would make you cry how wonderful those creations are. *insert hillarious geek laugh here*

awhile ago in school that brilliant plan just sort of came into our mind. well, i have a friend with me who is just as enthusiastic as i am in conquering the world with teleporting calculators. hell yeah, and we'll go around in our white chem labs and wear this ridiciulously thick framed geek glasses and read tons and tons of algebra books. they're really interesting *insert hillarious geek laugh here* i think i want to write a blog with numbers. but i thought you wouldn't be able to understand it as we do so you might as well be grateful enough that i made this blog into a quite comprehendable (did i mention i'm making my own geek-tionary?) form.

sometimes in life, out of boredom you can just create a lot of things in your mind. just like how we conceptualized our geek show and all the ratings we WOULD have. we also named our very own wannabe geeks, yeah that's cool. it would be sort of a contest thingy but hell we're not copying that phony geek show in your screens. hah! we're way better, only we don't have enough money to promote ourselves and you know, we're kinda shy. *insert hillarious geek laugh here*

no matter how bad or good we started this thing out, i hope we get all your support in this. coming up is our very own geek tv shopping network where you can get a lot of geek stuff at a low low price of only $xxx. yeah that's a surprise *insert hillarious geek laugh here*

here's a place where nerds and geeks rule
come and join us now, don't be a fool
for in this land you'll never know
that hey! this is the ultimate geek show!

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