MOBILE PHONETOOL SUCKS!

have you ever felt being so loaded with work that you can't sleep anymore?

have you ever felt the agony of painfuly listing everything that needs to be done?

have you ever felt cramming for a project whose deadliest deadline is TOMORROW?



nakanamtipaklong. i'm feeling all those... at once. -_- i soo hate this life.. actually this year... but i can't help it... i must excel to a higher level.. it is true... life is like a game... level one: easy, level 2: getting harder: level: hardest, and you really have to try and work your best out in order to be the 'game master'. once you've done that... congratulations. you won.



but in between those levels are times that we almost want to give up, times when we like to have the game over. times when we lack courage to continue because of fear of failing... oh well that's normal... but in this kind of game we call life... there is no 'reset' nor an off or on button. once you switched it on... you're on. and switching it off is easy, but just like loosing an actual game, get ready to face some criticisms, teases and all the awful things in things to be thrown on you... just because you decided to push off that button and leave the helluva freakin place.



that's cowardice friend.



pushing the button off is like choosing death over life.

----woot!

i don't know why i did that... oh well nevermind...

haayy... i'm starting my own WRITTEN journal here... coz i remember i have this compiled notebook which i'm keeping for over a year but still there are lot of spaces to be filled... hehe... in that notebook i'll fill in all the PERSONAL and PRIVATE things about me that i do not want to flaunt to the public. ^_~



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arrghhh... that's it! i'm already fed up! i tried for almost several times, but failed... although i'm just compromising with my moods (does the acceptance mudra)... tsk.



the mobile phonetool i installed in this pc for my cellhpone in actually working GREAT!!! -__-... really and i sooo "LOVE" -_- it! first off.) it SUCKS!!! grrr....-_-

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oh well... i think i'm missing blue again.. and thank goodness... di na maxado feeling c red! or am i just not noticing her recently? oh i don't care... pag pinag-uusapan nmen c blue... i want to tell the people na di ko na sha crush.. w/c is true.. pero meron pang onte... hinde hinde... di ko tlga sha kras.. IDOL lang... haha... ayoko naman ideny... kasi aykong maging sinungaling. --



lang ya tlga tong buhay na to... tuwa ako kaninang english... di ko maisip, marunong ako magoutline ng mga naka2windang na topics!! and we got the highest! yey!



hehe... -_-;;

from mobile to PC

how do you that? kase nman it requires cable sync or blutooth.. eh kaso kelangan ng username and password.. san ko kukunin un! grr... i'm having a hard time figuring these things out...-_- l8er nga

thank GOD it's FRIDAY!

hello everyone! it's been a day since my last post! oh well, i'm still affected with the blogging fever. -_-... i have not loose track of updating what's recent around me. haha... well... since today is friday, i knew i'd be carrying loads of homeworks!!!-_- and to think.. i haven't started any of those! yihaa! project deadlines are approaching once again.. and i'm on for another chase of grade hikes... haaayy... karla's bday is soon! advance happeee birthday!!! and mine too... i'll be celebrating on th 16th.. hapee bday to me.. ^__^ i'm 13 going on 14!!!



haayy.. my day today was semi-good and semi bad... today is a first friday mass, and this is the very first time i enjoyed the mass in skul... b/c the priest was soo gay.. and he's voice is high, he's funny too!!! haha...



^^;;



pero badtrip naden.. bcos of certain pipol. they did nothing offensive, they didnnothing to harm me, they did NOTHING actually, but i believe in my intuitions and by the way look at me stare of just catch a glimpse, i already knew they hate me. ha! SAME HERE! i hatee you TWO! haha.. i duno... when i see them.. uhm... nvm nga...



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awhile ago i was talking to larz.. about this extra sensors we might have if we try to meditate and open our chakras... i explained to her the processes i didn't dare to do... (they're not really scary but the fact that you want to open ur third eye.. uhmm)

of course the very first thing is find a quiet place... a place where you can meditate. do this at night...^_^



then, do the calming mudra (i know you know that! the usual meditation position... the index finger touching the thumb? dba dba?) and concentrate on the first chakra... the groin, that is. once you feel your energy starting to form around that region,and in your mind you see an energy ball at that area hold your breath and push that energy to the next chakra, in the navel. -- this means you have opened the first process.. bsta it's the matter of opening it fomr bottom to top.. there are 6 shakra openings... in the groin, navel, below the ribcage, heart, between your eyebrows (third eye), and top of forehead. when you have opened all of this....



expect a change of life.

third eye

third eye. yes, that's the topic i'm going to use in my term paper. haayy, actually i made that topic in a rush and i was surprised our teacher ranked it #1...say what?-_-



ok. whatever.



look at my topics rundown:

1. feng shui

2. palmistry

3. numerology

4. dreams

5. third eye



haha... things which includes skeptism around religious or spiritual matters are interesting to me. hehe... that's why i chose those!



sometimes, we doubt if there really is a GOD. as we grow older, we dig questions only our faith can answer. Faith is believing, trusting, and serving GOD (which you cannot see). Our faith is tested in times of doubt, believing, trusting and serving something you cannot see proves your faith.

Faith can't work alone just by believing, coz as a matter of fact-- Everybody BELIEVES in GOD, including satan. It is the devotion of his people that counts.



even the word FAITH is an abstract noun.



oh, was that our of topic? i really want to insert that... really. ~_^

is it a sin to choose those potential roots of skeptism as a topic for your term paper?-- which may possibly lead you to a more confusion filled brain?



i really don't know.-_- i'm quite confused... i need someone... an expert in the field.

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music: moonlight sonata- ludwig van bethoveen [i'm getting creepy and classical]

book of the moment: the little giant encyclopedia of superstitions [here i go agen...]



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ppsst... i ate 3 isau's kanina!! haha.. soo yummy! ^__^



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my mind is.. sabog.-_- can't think of something worth-reading to write...--;;

simpler life

it's been a couple of days since i last updated.. oh well... nothing MUCH happened really... during our helluva LONG supposed-to-be-sembreak, our whole family went to bicol to visit my lola..mamay! and also to visit na rin may lolo's puntod. it was really fun! i got a 'jet lag' haha... or was it a 'car lag'... my butt hurts... from manila to bicol is 12 hours... plus 2 hours because of traffic in san pablo, laguna.. which means... i travelled for over a day!!! whattatrip! pero it's worth it naman... i saw mount mayon agen.. and took a picture... kaso phone ko lng gmt ko coz we forgot to buy a film..-_- haayy... i still adore that national wonder despite it's imperfections due to it's last eruption...-__-



and then, we played badminton, went to tabaco for pasalubongs, tapos i bought a ponytail for 10 bucks! ang cute nga eh.. ung parang worms.. teeheee...the best part...



i ate DJC halohalo!!! i wish i could share all the travel captures but unfortunately for me, i'm still working out on how to make the cellphone program work with xp coz it's not compatible with the OS... darn noh!! darn!!!grr..



so far.. so good.^_^



haayyy... i love my mamay... when she knew na we'll pay a visit to bicol, she took a bath for over an hour and cleaned the house! tats naman kame!!^__^



tpos... we visited some of our relatives in libjo! i enjoyed it sooo much kase dame food! and puro kakanin, i ate bico, ube, inangit... basta puro malagkit rice! tapos i saw a kitten hiding between the rice sacks!! soooppperrr cute.. haha... i took it's picture!!! tapos nagtatago sha... natatakot... cutteee!!



then.. we moved on to another house... there naman we ate fish kusido.. sarap! tapos may gata sa manok... supperrr yummy!! tapos kung sa kabila may kitten, dito may puppy!! shocking cute... his mother is color white with brown... sha naman black and white!!! 1 week old palang!! tapos ang tba... para shang baby cow! ung moo moo cow!! supper cute.. di pa madilat ng mashado ung mata tapos wala pang teeth!! haaayyy... i sooo love pups and kittens.. kaso yaw ko mag-alaga.. hehe



edi yun... the night before we left... we went to the cemetery... LoL.. malas ba kung makatulog ka sa ibabaw ng nitso? ako kasi eh... hehe.. lola ko naman un eh.. hehe...^_^;; haayyy... so much for the long weekend.



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during our stay in bicol, i already knew that we're going to live a simpler life, life without working fosets, life without roofed bathrooms, life without maids... in short... simpler life nga eh!

when we take a bath, we would get our own pails then magbobomba kami ng tubig sa labas... good thing is, sa loob naman ako naligo, di sa labas tulad dati.. LoL... parang marimar bathroom.. haha.. i miss those 'bomba' times.. kasi dati may pump kami ng tubig eh.. ngaun.. wala na!



haaayyy... ang saya sa bicol... maraming stars!!! malamig ang simoy ng hangin!!! aliw.

JASON HSU layout... DONE

wooopss... another layout done!

preview link: ---> CLICK!



i made this layout for karla ONLY...

pero if ever she rejects this... i'll offer this.. agen.. for free... only for interested people, duh! with the condition of uploading this file on ur own server: http://home.ripway.com/2003-11/38843/jban.JPG



^__^

@ KARLA: psst... tapos na layout mo! sna magustuhan mo! wala na ko maisip na banner eh.. hehe scotch tape na lng.. hehe... para sayo... di mo na kailangan i-upload ung banner... i'm giving you my bandwidth! since kaw lng nmang ggmit..^^;; if ever lng un ah.. click the preview link



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haayy... buti n lng tapos sa intrams.. i can rest! kaso.. di kami tuloy sa bicol... kasi pagod na mga pipol...-_- oks lng un.. pahinga muna...

kainis tong katulong nmen... ang feeling....-_- bwiset.. di kami natuloy tapos ssbihin nya 'kawawa nman c mamay, malulungkot un' tapos 'kug aalis kayo bilhan nyo ng pasalubong na tsinelas, may nanghihingi kasi' <---- c?? hello noh.. alam ko ho yun!! excuse me ah.. ako tong APO! mas alam ko kung anong kelangan ng lola ko kesa sayo! kapal mo... balak pa kong agawan ng lola!



ewan ko din dyan sa mga naging katulong namen.. lahat may topak! -_-.. eto pa.. tung atribidang katulong nmen ngayon.. wala nmang ibang ginawa kundi manood ng tv at magplantsa.. tapos nasira pa nya plantsa.. asar ah...-_-... tapos ung isa nmang katulong.. sobrang bbaw... minsan mag-isa nag sasalita (kasi kala nya may naki2nig sa kanya).. maxado mabait... ka-insecure!



sama ko noh..=(



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ok.. so mejo na hut ako sa hindi nag champion ang team namen s cheering pero at least nman syrinx nanalo... cna karla.. congrats!

the signs were true... at the very first day of intrams.. alam ko na na astraea ang mag ooverall champ. remember i told you the signs? they were first on the flag raising and two rays of sunlight are pointing at them during the rosary... tsk... i was surprised nung cla nag-overall.. kasi laging syrinx ung naririnig kong champ... ahaha...nevermind.



ang saya ko ngayon!! i played sopbol!! laro laru lng.. tapos na kasi ung mga games eh.. tapos may bat c steph my gloves nman c kim and janel.. tapos my mga scattered balls everywhere!!... nakabat ako! nakabat ako!! (babaw!!) yipeee... tuwang tuwa kasi ako sa sport na yun eh.. lalo na kapag may game ang syrinx.. naks.. stig kasi.. ang ggling... lalo na c dom.. supeerrrr...idol... sheetttt... sna ako rin... [dream on]



tapos after ng awarding.. cleanup... un.. uhmm... ok lng..



woopsss... nagbago nnman ang ikot ng mundo!!! kasasabi lng ni mommy na tuloy kame sa bicol!! babayoooo.. gotta pack my things naaa!!! yippeeeee!! adventure nnman!!!

another tiring day...

-_-.. pagod nnman ako... kahapon, my dad was using the pc so i used the laptop instead... kaasar kasi sha eh...kahapon, kahit nkkpagod ang mga practices.. masaya parin... i had a really great fencing duel with konzen.. wahaha... and because i'm so inexperienced in the art... the game turned out to be humorous.. haha.. parehas nga kme di marunong eh.. we're just overwhelmed to actually touch and use a real fencing sword, the fun part is.. me (sanzo) is fighting with my other ego in saiyuki, w/c is ate martha (konzen) and our duel was damn lonnggg... hahaha...



k.a. invited some of us for a 'taping' para sa a.p. presentation.. i'm gonna play a role of a cavalier (tma ba? kabalyero?).. fighting in a war.. and in the scene.. we'll lose... haha... mga kasama ko ay cna... k.a., nez, kim, michi, tepai, and kai. ^_^ it was fun! grabeh.. wattawar.



tapos some time during that day, me, janel (kuroi) and michi played soccer... michi was the first goalie and janel and i were to make points.. tapos un.. switch goalies.. c janel nman.. LoL.. and we were trying hard to play like ken! (weiss kreuz)



neway.. un lng nman.. cheering competition na kanina... and ours was sooo sabog.. per nice na rin in a way... we did not chant well...-_-... the other teams were ok.. pero some were boring really....haaayyy... ung props namen.. ang bano!... imagine.. may foil na nga na nakawrap sa arms.. tapos magrawrap pa sa pants.. corny.. pinasuot pa nila jazz pants and they want us to TAPE it??? pano kaya didikit yun...so they made a remedy.. they made it hang on our tighs.. kaso madali mahulog so.. ingat ingat na lng.... wish ko manalo kami.. sobrang kaba ko nung kame na.. ang daming audience sa harap...-_-... pero when we were there.... nawala lhat ng insecurities ko...just gave my best shot... na hindi enough compared to others...-_-...lousy me.