Holding back

7 things about me I thought you should know before you get annoyed at me:

1. I literally swoon over food

Especially good food. I'm that person who would say 'Mmmmmmmmmmmm' over something delicious and have a face that's about to cry. Believe me, I can't help it.

2. I jump over the littlest things

I'm too jumpy for my own good. I get surprised easily. It doesn't help if you warn me about scaring me either, the anticipation will kill me. You can shock me even if we're just standing in front of each other. And when I get too scared, I just cry.

3. I'm extremely ticklish

I will fight the urge to cry, but probably do so anyway.

4. I'm a crybaby

I get emotional a lot, over food, over being shocked, over being tickled. I just cry. Oh well.

5. I get awestruck easily

You'll often hear me go WOOOOOW ANG GANDA because that's really how I see it. Can I just say there's so much beauty in the world to go gaga for?

6. I get kilig easily

Most specially over my friends' lovelives. So I would always want to make intriga cos I'm so frakking curious about other people's lovelives ewan ko ba. HAHA I'm a hopeless romantic I guess, but not the one who'd do fanciful things for her beloved. I'm the type who's in love with the idea of love, an idealist who would swoon over fairy tales. Ganon haha.

That's why I also get easily stumped whenever one of the couples I know break up. I just couldn't believe that some relationships don't work out even after 10 years of being together omg. Sobrang idealistic ko ba HAHA. But you know what, I've learned. Wala talagang forever. So now it's easier for me to accept that no matter how lovey dovey two people may seem, there will come a time when they're gonna fall apart and realize that human love is actually conditional and is more of a personal choice than a compelling force that just beckons you to do things.

7. I LOL

I laugh out loud, literally. When something's too funny I can't hold back on laughing boisterously. When I hear myself laugh on record or video, I get annoyed at myself, so maybe you will too, so please don't.

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My boyfriend helped me confirm this list cos I'm totally convinced I was being normal this way. So I'm thinking of holding back a little with my emotions cos I didn't want to look OA specially on unfamiliar ground. Just the thought of it makes me cry HAHA. What kind of compromise is this. Ano ba naman to hahaha.

The Sunday Currently (vol. 19)

Writing this 30 mins before Sunday expires and publishing 2 hours after but whatever hehe

Currently

Reading

Nothing. I was lazily getting bits of The Hunger Games, but recently I moved my ebooks from the internal memory to the SD card and in the process lost my bookmarks so I don't know where to continue reading haha

Watching

Nothing on a regular basis.

Earlier watched Insurgent on HBO and I CRIED when Tris died after passing 4 of 5 simulations. Then I recalled it wasn't the last of the series so I was hoping for her to be revived eventually, and she did! Tears wasted but who cares haha.

Also, I wanted to watch Miss Universe 2015 but I couldn't find FOX on the TV so I thought I'd just live stream the thing but I overslept HAHA so in the end I just watched snippets of the coronation on facebook. You already know how crazy it was! Congratulations Ms. Philippines! My heart goes to Ms. Colombia as well. I wouldn't mind her giving an attitude about this, that was a damn hard call on her.

If I were Ms. Colombia, I would feel terribly bad, probably bitch about it in a joking manner since I'm sure everyone's already assuming I should give in to the bitterness LOL. Also, I would forgive Steve Harvey.

Listening

to The Vents lol

Thinking

That everything really just comes to pass. This week I was fidgeting over being emcee of our company Christmas party, but now that it's over I just got to say... yes, things really just go along with time. Look, it's over now.

I was too nervous the entire week cos even though it wasn't a formal event, I still think my co-host and I had to practice. Well, we didn't. Then again I thought it's not really a big deal, they just wanted voices to keep the program flowing so the least we had to do is announce raffles and presentations, and everything will just come into place. It wasn't too formal anyway, so that helped. Didn't need a script for it. Yeah right.

To be honest, I liked the idea of emceeing but not on informal events (cos you had to adlib a lot and joke. And I'm not a funny person). This was my second time emceeing but the first was super formal, we had a script, and my co-host and I had practiced. But this... was more spontaneous. And being super stiff on jokes and a non-spontaneous person in general, it was an embarrassing feat for me. Anyway, they'll forget about it! At least I have an extra-curricular onsite activity to report LOL.

Sir Kim who won the major prize, Ayie my co-host, and I

The theme was ugly sweater, and well I just needed a sweater. :P

Smelling

Nothing

Wishing

I had a driver's license. My housemate's license is expiring on the 25th and we couldn't get it renewed cos LTO's being its usual incompetent self, denying absentee renewal even though it's the first item in their FAQ, saying they're fixing some system issues and stuff and couldn't accommodate renewals without personal appearance.

Ever since I got here, I've been hating our government more and more. Grr

Since he couldn't drive past the 25th, we had to carpool with others.

The bad: It's a hassle for them. We have to wake up early. We have to adjust to each other's schedules. We can't go out on random errands anymore (not that it has ever happened).

The good: The more the merrier. I think it's going to be fun. We're not gonna be left out when they go out after hours HAHA (I hate the feeling of being left out lol).. unless they forget about us. or me. LOL

Wearing

Pjs

Loving

Uhm, Minnesota? Naks. Maybe the steady paced life and the environment here.

Wanting

To get my brows fixed at Eyebrowdery or Pretty Looks. It's a hefty 20k something though. I'm seriously considering this HAHA. Who knows lol.

Needing

To snap out of my being soooo affected about the little things that don't matter to the people I think who should care. Most of the time I'm just overthinking LOL so yey, that's a good thing. At least I only have myself to fix, now isn't that a problem.

Feeling

Confused about myself, no homo. How hard is it to be myself and just be true to my own ways? Wow. I guess I was too sheltered and loved to ever bother thinking about this HAHA.

There are days when I just wake up in a bad mood for no reason then remember that I can't be in a bad mood cos I didn't want to bother any one with my mood swings so I get up, take a shower, prep, and literally force a smile. MOOD SWINGS ARE REAL, but forcing a smile is like forcing the universe to to give me a happy day. IT WORKS.

I seriously have mornings when I just want to keep silent all throughout the day, but I'm not one to deny any one a conversation so sige na nga lol. Was I always like this?

I'm also bothered that my boyfriend thinks I'm childish. All these time I thought I was doing well as an adult, so it gets to me when I'm perceived as childish or immature or too young. Well, I am inexperienced in a lot of ways but I didn't want to be seen as childish, argh. :(

Oh well, whatever. I'm hungryyyy

Stop saying sorry

Lately I've been feeling largely apologetic for a lot things I know I'm not supposed to be sorry for, and it bugs me. When did I start caring so much, why am I too sensitive about things? This is something I hate about myself, that I can't seem to be just chill about small mistakes and feel overly embarrassed whenever I screw up something, even the pettiest things. I know it's not a big deal and I know I'm not supposed to be too dramatic over it, but the feeling is here and I'm sorry that I can't help it.

Anyhow, as long as I keep laughing everything will turn out fine. And for the record, it always does.

It pays to know that no one cares and that eventually people will forget and just laugh about it, and hey this isn't drama but Sandra Oh was right in one of her videos where she gives advice to some patient. No one cares, so do whatever the hell you want. Don't think for a second that someone's looking critically over your shoulder auditing the tiniest errors you commit. Aside from your micromanager of a boss, in real life, your peers aren't that terrible.

I know right.

I didn't want to sound so affected by life but the best I could do is really just laugh it all off and think that it's no big deal, it's no big deal, I'm just overthinking. Hehe

AXN gets into gear with Cash Cab Philippines

MANILA (December9, 2015) – AXN, the number one general entertainment channel in Asia, is delivering an awesome gift to viewers this festive season with the premiere of Cash Cab Philippines, the only gameshow on wheels.

Source: AXN Philippines

The Emmy-award winning format, created especially for Filipino audiences, will premiere in a double episodeon Tuesday, December 22, at 8.50pm with an encore on Thursday, December 24, at 9.15pm.During the show, a specially fitted out Cash Cab will navigate the busy streets of Manila while picking up unsuspecting passengers. The Cash Cab will appear as a regular taxi service however,upon entering the car passengers will find themselves as contestants on a truly mobile game show.

Source: AXN Philippines

Ang Hui Keng, Senior Vice President and General Manager, Sony Pictures Television Networks, Asia said, “Cash Cab Philippines is a localized adaptation of AXN’s very successful Cash Cab Asia so the show will immediately resonate with our Filipino viewers. The show continues our commitment tohigh quality original productions and sustains the momentum gained from The Amazing Race Asia, The Apprentice Asia and the record-breaking Asia’s Got Talent. AXN’s proven track record of hit series demonstrates a strong demand amongst viewers for shows that are smart, intense, unexpected and locally relevant.”

In the 13 episode series, popular actor Ryan Agoncillo will assume the role of cab driver and show host, driving passengers to their destination while quizzing them on general knowledge.  Questions asked during the ride will start easy and become trickierwith contestants winningcash prizes for each correct answer.An incorrect answer means a strike, and contestants have up to three strikes before they are booted out of the cab and onto the street, no matter where they are. Contestants will have two “shout outs” for help if they are stumped on a questionand can either call a friendor ask a random stranger for the answer.

Gidget Lao, Business Unit Head of AXN Networks Philippines, said, “Cash Cab Philippines is the first locally produced show for AXN in this market, and we are very excited for its debut just in time for Christmas. Ryan is an outstanding show host, and our contestants are great fun and really get into the spirit of the show. Our viewers are really going to love watching this show filmed against recognizable landmarks in Manila.”

Source: AXN Philippines

Sony Pictures Television Networks, Asia commissioned leading independent production company activeTV to produce Cash Cab Philippines. activeTV also produced AXN’s Cash Cab Asia and The Amazing Race Asia.

Cash Cab Philippines is supported by its exclusive partner, StarcomMediavest Group; show presenters McDonald’s, Sun Cellular and PSBank; sponsor Petron and Toyota Abad Santos, provider of the Cash Cab vehicle.

AXN is seen on SkyCableCh 49, Cable Link C 38, Cignal TV Ch 61, Destiny Cable Ch 61, Dream Ch 20, and GSAT Ch 51

The Sunday Currently (vol. 18)

It's a little over 12mn here in MN but it was Sunday when I created this so I insist haha.

I know I mentioned I'm over doing TSC's so I'm sorry to be back. I'm still bad at scheduled posts, but I'm really just looking for reasons to blog regularly cos I'm too lazy to tell stories recently. Even PR postings are becoming a fuss. I'm just too lazy for anything.

Lumbersexual dude getting my skis 

So here you go, I'm reviving the old tag, trying to get back to writing every now and then about what's up. Mind you, I have a ton of entries sitting in drafts but I never got the time to complete them cos there's just so much happening I want to share, and it gets me lost trying to arrange them in a cohesive manner haha. I guess it pays to be really religious in updating stuff so events don't pile up and I don't confuse my tenses lol.

Currently

Reading
Nothing. I'm struggling to finish my Good Reads goal of at least 1 book a month but I guess I'm not the reader I used to be anymore.

Writing Watching
Yesterday, I watched A Second Chance and graaaabe lang how emotional and relatable it is. At the end of the movie I was bawling like crazy 'cos I was afraid of ending up with their problems a few years into married life. But oh well, I realized Jeckie and I are nowhere near Basha and Popoy so if ever we get into those challenges (cos they're real as hell), we'll work it out differently. What I'm sure of is that there'll be no plates and toasters breaking. Yey.

Listening
To a couple of youtube videos and the vent humming.

Thinking
N/A cos I just inserted it just now haha. Forgot lol. Sarreh. Wasn't thinking, yah.

Smelling 
Nothing (cos I got used to it) but my room smells like this body oil every time I enter, AND I LOVE IT!

Neutrogena Body Oil in Light Sesame Formula. I use it as an after shower moisturizer cos it's faster to apply compared to lotion, isn't sticky, moisturizes really well, and smells like the spa. I haven't checked if it's available in the PH but it's a drugstore staple here. Hope to find this when I'm back home next year! XD

Wishing
For our Christmas bonus to arrive already. Arg.

Wearing
Pajamas

Loving
Amazon so freaking much. I've invested most of my dollars in gift cards and lately it's become a happy place for me. Like a garden I could get lost in and come out broke, haha.

Wanting
A lot of material stuff. I've put tons of items in my Amazon wishlist but we'll see. Right now I think I've hoarded enough art materials to last me a couple of downtimes but so far that hasn't happened yet. Makes me think if I've wasted moolah over these, but heyyy they make me happy just by looking at them! haha #hoarderProblems

Needing
To lose weight! I'm bordering on 150lbs already omgehhh so part of my Amazon wishlist is actually weight loss items like MCT oil, GHEE butter, blender bottle, OH YOU KNOW WHERE I'M GOING. HAHA

I figured that since I've always wanted to try how bulletproof coffee works, might as well try it now where it's super easy to get the real ingredients. In the PH we have Battle Brew, but I never got to buy my own starter kit so yeah, I feel like it's about time! haha

Feeling
Super sore after skiing for the first time last Friday. Here's a photo of me at Buckhill Ski Resort with the skis off cos I never got a decent pic with them on being that I'm always skidding off somewhere trying to get my balance haha. What a struggle!

The boots are freaking heavy and tight and I just can't get how to brake and turn properly. Twice I ended up sliding off the edge and onto the pavement and man was it a chore to get up. I can't. I always need someone to push me to standing position. Grabe. HAHA. I would also always cross my skis in an attempt to brake, ending up in a dangerous position where I had to muster all my remaining balance to keep still while waiting for someone to take me out of my misery. It's that position where one misstep could break me a leg, literally.

Anyway, it was a great experience! I know I won't be back on the slopes anytime soon, except perhaps when they finally open tubing, but it's good to have tried it at least once! It was a great night overall! We also became friends with one of our instructors, Roger, who couldn't believe how nice we are! HAHA I know we're nice and all, but until now it puzzles me how nice he thinks we are. I mean, we just kept on laughing at his grandfather jokes and engaging in conversation about his yesteryears, and we're already the nicest people he knows! What an honor! Also a validation that the Philippines is a really happy nation. HAHA diba diba. :))

To be honest, I didn't expect to have fun specially that there's just the four of us. But oh well, we we're laughing and teasing each other on the way back cos we earned a lot of titles that night. When we got home we spent the rest of the evening guffawing over baked sausages and vodka (w/ ginger beer and lime. it's pretty perfect)!

That's about it! I was warned this week's gonna be crazy at work so wish me luck!

Have a great week ahead! :D

Bavaria Premium Beer

Bavaria has been brewing its own taste of beer for over 300 years. That makes it 7 generations of perfecting quality beer brewed by using the finest mineral water from their own spring. Bavaria is focused on following its family traditions of brewing high quality beers for the present and future generations to come. It prides in brewing its finest pilsner since 1719 and introducing the first truly alcohol-free beer in 1978. With a deep and rich history, the company wants to share their precious creations to the world.

Here in the Philippines, we introduce Bavaria Premium as our flagship product from the Bavaria product line-up. It is a classic pilsner perfect for the classic Filipino. A perfect night cap after a long day. It has a profile of a premium and clear lager where you will experience the taste of a real beer: premium malts, hops, and the freshest spring water from Holland. Refreshing and light, this beer will make you feel like you’re bathing in the fresh water springs of Bavaria. Bavaria Premium is coming your way and is now available in 7-11 outlets near you.

Other Bavaria products coming your way are the 8.6 and Bavaria 0.0% Malt Drink. 8.6 which has an alcohol content of 8.6% (Thus the name) is a strong and edgy blonde ale that will make you feel a special buzz from a special brew. For those who are looking for a more wholesome night, we will be launching the first ever Bavaria 0.0% Malt Drink that comes in 3 flavors: Original, Peach, and Pomegranate. An alcohol-free alternative great for any party.

Each of these variants has its own Bavarian twist, so watch out for these and experience Bavaria soon in establishments near you! Be Bold, Be Bavaria.

L-R: Justin Lim, Noel Sarmiento, Jazel Paraiso, Kevin Fernando, Jaime Paraiso
PT Link launches Bavaria Premium here in the Philippines at UCC Mentore on November 7, 2015

For more updates, like us on Facebook: BavariaPH or use the hashtag #BeBavaria

As usual

Photo from www.16personalities.com

I have always been fascinated about my Myers-Briggs personality type because the profile I'm getting has been mostly accurate and mind blowing (unless I'm subconsciously being swayed to agree with it. wow).

Lately, my depressed and stressed (as usual) state at work has led me to contemplate (YET AGAIN) on my career path. Am I in the right place? Is my personality fit for this kind of job? You know, the usual. hahaha

Ten years ago, I took my first MBPT and got typed as an ISFJ (Introverted, Sensing, Feeling, Judging). To date, I've taken the test thrice cos I kept on forgetting what I got, and so far I've been getting the same results -- after rummaging through my email for my past scores to validate. To me that means I'm pretty consistent with how I view things, so I decided to fully dwell on it to better understand myself and to probably be more considerate of my situation (like I need any of that). In short, let me rely on my MB personality type to solve my internal issues wahahaha.

"Don't be too hard on yourself"

"It's okay. You're still learning"

"Take your time"

...are three of the things I hear a lot from my sups whenever I'm not delivering well (which is always). I hate it cos I don't think I'm being too hard on myself, that I should still be in the learning phase, and that I have enough time to take. I hate it because I suck. Isn't it frustrating when you're failing so bad at something? Haha

"That's just at the beginning"

Right. That's what they all say. How long is the beginning. When will I get used to it? Here's to hoping my learning curve is directly proportional to my patience. Argh.

Anyway, I'm not a fan of challenges cos I'm one to get easily discouraged. As in easily. But Performance Testing is one such skill I sincerely want to master NAAAKS. Being that it feels like I already lost my developer mojo permanently haha and I have no place to stick in the IT industry, huhu I need shelter.

Oh well, I could always wander in the arts department right? In fact I have a potential project coming up soon and it's gonna be from an old client! Isn't it great? Two of my clients have tapped me for new projects! I am so honored. I'm actually building rapport charrrrr. And all of this because I decided to work pro-bono on my first children's book project. Life do open doors for the passionate. joke lang. anuba. birthday ko okay. haha

I'm ending this here cos this has been on drafts for too long, my mind wants to blabber about other things already haha.ha.ha.