bitch please

was supposed to unwind and think about stuff this afternoon but before i could even hit the mall with my sister... crap got crappier, my mood was totally killed so i decided to just lock myself in the house and feel sorry for making others feel sorry about myself. hey, i was supposed to feel sorry for myself but i end up feeling more sorry about what others feel about my sorry-ness for myself? bitch please. may i have my time alone? thanks.

 thank you blog. for always being there when i need you. and let's be exact, only when i need you. thank you for not forcing yourself on me when i clearly needed some time alone with my childish instincts. i missed being alone with just my murderous thoughts. with no one telling me i'm doing it wrong and with no one telling me i should be acting in accordance to fulfilling One's glory.

i was thinking if this is what i really wanted. cos if yes, i wouldn't be shutting myself with just my blog and no one else. then i thought maybe i'm not yet prepared to be completely honest with anyone yet. cos i have issues i'm not comfortable sharing with someone, and i have mood swings i'm not ready to compromise for the sake of relationship. yeah, i'm too selfish. i hate sharing what's mine.

what was the issue again? i almost forgot. yeah. nothing. check my tweets. or follow me to middle earth.

Options Job Fair 2012

freaking tiring day!!! i'm not even in heels and my legs are sore from all the walking, squeezing through people and waiting in lines, just to deliver my 50 resumes to 50 different companies to complete the job fair's bingo card (which is also required for our clearance. clever school huh). they'll be raffling it off and a lucky winner will receive a laptop at best. >XD i guess jeckie and i were one of the first to finish our cards. we turned em over at quarter to 12. then we ate lunch with friends, then went to UST to get jec's TOR, then to NCBA to get his F137 then finaaaaally home!

i was supposed to sleep but work came knocking around even before i could feel the inviting covers of my queen! >XO i have to prepare stuff for tomorrow's amazing race, text people, entertain concerns from the booths we invited, photoshop stuff for AOG then FCLC, and simultaneously worry about thesis. i wonder when my team and i are ever going to focus and thesis ALONE. i mean duh, it's the one thing we need to graduate. i can't believe we're taking it lightly like crap. 

anyway,

what i like about huge job fairs, or any job fair in particular is that they always have freebies! bags, ballpens, memo pads usually, fans and blaaaah, yes candies too. who doesn't like freebies? i love paper. haha >XD

freebies!

 my complete bingo card (front)

back

FERN Chronicles Layout

Rush is ruuuuuush! 

 i wonder if mam knows that i'm also doing the layout for this? i'm soooo busy ignoring our thesis. >XO come defense time, i wonder if the heads are going to criticize our program knowing that our group has been too busy (following their orders) with our extracurriculars. LOL no, not blaming anyone! i'm excited for fresh mango shake and barbecue popcorn! >XD hurray for a pretty "fast" layouting. well i just copied the previous issue hahaha >XP

photoshop, we should be engaged.

options 2012 job fair tomorrow!

not excited! >XD i actually prefer to be at school, drinking fresh mango shake and eating popcorn lol. >XD it's our foundation week and nothing's happening! >XO i feel mostly at fault here, for being too irresponsible and too err lazy to cook up something fun for the students. not that i have anything fun in mind, actually besides being too lazy to plan, i'm not confident enough we'll put away a good show. i suck. >:| so is our thesis. i'm kinda starting to regret involving myself in stuff i can't even balance.

and wait, i don't even enjoy being at school sometimes. there's just so freaking much to do there. >XO

writing that kinda pays

yey for 1 kiao! i won this over at OpenRice's last promo! hehehehe what's cool with this promo is that the prize is actually money! hahaha usually they give out gift cheques and stuff so i had to exchange them from my friends or from buyers from the store itself just so i could get it in cash! >XD anyway, for that amount, i wrote 20 food reviews, of at least 100 words each. see? it's thaaaat cool at openrice. i get rewarded for doing the things i like e.g eating and writing. >:)

i'm still open for suggestions on earning online EASILY. but of course, none of those pay-per-click or paid-to-click websites that never really pays. writing could also be an option but i dun wanna go back to ghost writing about topics that i have the slightest idea about. like parasails and double doors. uggggh. the horror i've gone through for a few dollars. 

anyway. i thought i could use this weekend to rest and do stuff totally unrelated to school but looks like i have to work even on sundays! >X( 

back to gossip girl then. >XD

i should be doing thesis you know

but i'm busy 9gaging huhu what's happening it's 8 and i should've made some decent progress with our thesis omg. this is stressing me out. err, srsly! come on, flash! yknow, like chuck! grrr >XO

there's just so much workload to deal with! i enjoy being busy, doing a lot of things, specially when you get to do what you want (design!) hahaha but not thesis lol. if i could only make my entire extra curricular my thesis, i bet i'd get a more decent documentation than what we he have right now for our blaaaah of a thesis.

alright. how do you get a grip on these things? sometimes i feel like i'm not really doing anything big, work in the office gets tedious at times but that's because whenever i'm there, i take 3 positions: SA, ICON pres and CBS pres. then i consider myself lucky because at least i have a desk with a computer and internet! hehe! orders may be piling up but none of them combined is as stressful as trying to come up with something to show your professor that's supposed to be a "progress report" on your THESIS. come on flash! i have no patience for this. >XO

then sometimes i get anxious for this semester to end because i want to get rid of all the stress factors from school and just focus on being in love. for the lol of that. srsly. T__T;

layout and design jobs

this is what ate up my entire week (kindof). below are some tarp designs for the upcoming AOG and Foundation Week!

but i actually enjoyed doing them, specially when people call it beautiful! >XD but then, i feel useless being under mam samson. i'm supposed to do computer jobs but most, if not all, of my duty hours go to layouting and doing CBS stuff. if i could only learn more about this craft, i would! >XD