HELLO 2012

I'm in the process of summarizing my year by inspecting my monthly entries last 2011 (as if 2011 was so buried in the past bwaha) kaso tinatamad na ko, but all in all i could say it was a year full of risks! haha

God gave me so friggin much to handle this year and though it's not over yet and half the time i thought i sucked so much, i still thank Him for the experience, for the learnings, for the tears and for that ounce of maturity i think i may have gained from all that happened.

up until now i still don't think i deserve everything i have earned today, except for my grades (cos i know i bloody worked hard for them). i mean, all this leadership gigs just gave me stress and stress alone, NO FULFILLMENT whatsoever which is why i learned that i'm not and will never be leader material. i'm probably a better follower. yes. haaaay. it's too disheartening that i've never really done anything noteworthy for the two organizations i'm "handling". first of all, i hate planning and actually acting on them. i'd rather have someone tell me what to do cos i believe i can do better following orders than actually giving them, because my ideas suck. yes, because i don't think at all. haha THEN! there's my being selfish too! i'm not really that service oriented and willing to lead, i do want to help people out, even at the cost of being called a teacher's pet or a puppet of the administration (LOL)***, but not in this kind of limelight where the expectations are suffocating BUT somehow i know this will help me build up my resume (oh there, i said it!) so yes, i'm your president because i'm that selfish. and i'm not really sorry for it. errr yeah.

i dunno what's in store for me this term. it's my last term and my schedule is sooooo freaking free THAT I WANT TO WORK, outside or at school, it doesn't matter as long as i'm earning! i prefer to work at school, though i dunno if i could still get in the SA "club" or something after leaving for thesis and all. i don't have any other backups, i want to get a job. seriously! i neeeeed money! >XO

i hope this year will be nice to me!

btw, the best thing about 2011 was that i actually got a boyfriend when i thought i'd be NBSB for life, forever dark and not beautiful enough to catch someone's attention. i consider myself blessed that of all people who could possibly "act" on me, i got someone who could actually help fix my spiritual life. BWAHAHA some people may have blamed him though cos my grades dropped right when i was starting to put more attention into my love life like i have no right to cos i'm at the peak of chasing a latin honor (err people notice, yknow) ... but i don't blame him. i blame myself loooool.

btw again, i feel like a total girl because I'M NOW HOOKED TO GOSSIP GIRL.
the start of 2011 was all about downloading anime and k-dramas. by the end of the year i was actually into english speaking series like pretty little liars and now, GOSSIP GIRL. grabe sobrang sabog talaga ng blooming period ko. >X( if i had known about them at least 2 seasons earlier, i would've been uhmm more girl! err idk. hahahahaha

err ang haba haba naman nito, sige bye! >:D

*** - i simply want to be of help to everyone! to the profs, to the students... even if the most i could do is show where the clinic is or photocopy an entire book for a whole class. whatever. i enjoy menial jobs. hahaha

so freaking much to do in the house!

helper-less for almost a week now. my parents have work, terai has classes (which just ended yesterday so yehey!!!) so i'm kinda left to tend to the entire house. i don't like house chores, and i know everybody does. i don't like washing the dishes and doing the laundry because i'm allergic to the smell of detergent. i don't like cleaning the house because i'm allergic to dust. i don't hate cooking but i don't like preparing the ingredients and cleaning the mess afterwards. hahahaha i hate house chores, but not really in a spoiled brat kind of way. and i'm not really complaining hahaha ang arte arte e no. >:P it's part of life! one day i'm gonna be doing all these out of good will and pure concern for the household. right now i'm just being a good daughter by obeying my mother. >:)

andamidamidamidamidamidami talagang kelangan gawin! >XO

3 hours to goooo!!!

before i officially say goodbye to NGCP (not entirely though cos i still have to come back for my stipend hehe)! anyway, yes. i almost got late but thanks to my superdupermegacutiepatootie of a boyfriend, i woke up 45 minutes before my estimated departure time so yesss, i was able to take a bath hihihi. aaaand that means i only have to work until 12 noon today! hello vacation! i've been woiting like croizy!

anyhow! i have plans for the day! i kinda typed a line and recalled that this blog is kinda jinxed so i'll just update you whenever lolzzz >:D

"can i open this?"

yesterday i met with an ebay buyer at sm north the block. after the transaction, i went to fully booked to check for gifts for my baby this tuesday (bts christmas party at ding's). i was looking at the journals section when i heard someone say, "can i open this?" in quite a high pitched voice. i looked at her and instantly turned around and walked out of the store in fright. it was someone from highschool. someone i didn't want to see... me looking like... a girl. argh. i knew i looked okay, i knew i looked good! i just took a bath when i came there! lol but i was wearing a mini dress and a black jacket and i have eyeliner on too. i could've faced her in denims for some reason. hahaha i dunno but i didn't want people from highschool seeing me like that. like so much has changed. like i actually bloomed hahahaha. she wasn't even a close friend, she was part of what i would favorably call the mean girls faction at school. too engrossed in make-up and too busy criticizing people's faces. i dunno if she has changed. i couldn't care less? i was headed to the main building when i realized that she sounded different so i could be wrong. and i don't think she's into books either but of course, i saw her at the journals table so she could be a journal or planner person. uhm. hahaha. so i went back to check for real. and believe me, i was mentally laughing at myself. why the hell am i hiding from my higschool-mate?! but i really want to check out the journals so i took some courage to come back at the table. i took a glance at her and it was really her. though i was just looking at her left side and it was only a quick glance. it made me want to leave immediately again. hahahaha ewan. but her voice was really different, her voice was paosin eh not that trying hard high pitched a-list konyo voice. hahahaha

i don't know why things like this bother me. people change! she could be a saint now for all i know. college may have molded her into a kind and appreciative high-pitched angel. i shouldn't be worrying right? i'm entitled to change too! to wear dresses and make-up and all? HAHAHA ang arte arte lang hahahahah

10 minutes to go before we sign off for today's duty! i'm so excited to get over my OJT (read: STIPEND!) hahahaha real vacation for me starts on the 27th! >XD can't wait!

yesterday , i bought a lot of snacks... a pack of rebisco crackers (my favorite plain crackers!!!), a pack of sunflower pizza flavored crackers (trial mode!) and a pack of lemon square cheescake cupcakes. i dunno why but i thought i could use them for my eat-often-but-in-small-portions-diet i'm officially starting as soon as i receive this fat burning diet capsules from Nutrex called Lipo 6 Black Hers. HAHAHAHA Dear Lord, i may have posted my plans here so i'm putting a prayer to break off the jinx. >XD

countdown to 1 minute. i will be shutting down this pc now. >:D

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Good thing I googled this first before trying to call. i confirmed from this site that this is indeed a scam.
There you go, for your information! >:)

raided!

last night, my parents invited the homebuilder's ministry from church (where they're part of) to bless our house cos we're finally out of debt (for the house at least haha)! yehey! what they did after a short sermon was bless each part of the house with olive oil and blah blah blah so they went to all parts of our house then suddenly some the members felt chills at the rooftop so we prayed over it and arg i really don't know what's wrong but it was scary cos 3 of them felt err bad vibrations and pastor mike felt goosebumps too. we ended up surrendering suspicious items for inspection. by suspicious i mean occult looking stuff and blah.

items raided were:
1. pyramid hat - daddy bought this from ernie baron's store years back and told us to wear it every time we study cos it helps. lol idek know why, it's uncomfortable on the head. it has been stored upstairs for years too. hehe
2. pikachu pen holder - because pikachu is a symbol of the devil and all and yeah, it's a pocket monster. haha
3. quantum pendant - see? i told you i didn't want this piece of jewelry on my neck! but since my parents told me to wear it everyday cos there's nothing to lose anyway, i went for it out obedience lol. but lookitdaaat, it could be a stronghold of evil spirits at it makes you think you'd be stronger wearing it and blaaaah. bro. something (sry, i forgot his name) hammered it and it shattered to pieced, he got a headache and a super bad vibration. salfkhasldsalj scary scary night. then we prayed over him.

blah blah blah

4. most of our excel stuff (scalar energy stuff) got raided too. that's 10,000++ "lost" already.
5. paintings with chinese symbols and patterns on it.
6. essence oil burner with a bagua and yinyang symbol on it.

i don't know what else is in this house that we could destroy to prevent the evil from getting in or something. minsan nga naisip ko if they're being too paranoid. putting meaning on everything they see, but err, it's totally okay for me. hahahaha >:)