what's the point with PBB?

it's entertaining to say the least but it lacks reason. what's the point with this shallow tv program aside from entertainment? to prove everyone you can survive months living in a house with strangers? to setup a social experiment that may validate a certain social theory? that you can win millions by being yourself? napaka-noble naman. haha i couldn't think of any reason aside from looking for possible talents and giving them preliminary exposure before they are launched into the real screen... and of course the more obvious, better off un-discussed general objective of earning lots of money. 

ewan. nakakainis kasi. puro kabobohan ang laman ng local channels. even the news.

with the Philippines being run by oligarchs pretending to have humanitarian goals, you can never rely on the media to deliver the truth.

OJT! >XD

hey blog, i miss you! >XD

such a tiring, tiring, tiring BUT rewarding week! >XD Thank you Looooord! >XD
my midterms were okay! but comparing it to my previous midterms, it's kinda errrr. >:\ i'm usually more serious with midterms so i could slack off during the finals period but right now, what the heck. i may have to double my effort starting today to optimize my grades loool. such a freakin freakin annoying uber grade-conscious girl no? edi sorry! >:P i have dreams. big dreams. >:)

i lost 400 yeah. and i think i mentioned that i'm not worrying about it too much because i was kindof expecting a just payback for it HAHAHAHA lakas mag-expect but oh well! can i just call it faith? since that fretful day,
i've been too expectant that everything that happens onwards must be GOOD because i deserve just retribution for losing my allowance! and i realized that... magandang habit pala yun! hahaha tamang optimism lang. by doing so, i kind of considered everything a blessing! from my exams, to my OJT, to my classes, to ICON, and whew! to this great opportunity that was offered to me just recently.

wow Lord. i can feel your blessings pouring in! November 19 is marked.

i.am.so.blessed.
thank you so much Lord.

ateneo ichange youth leadership and social entrepreneurship training seminar >:D

draft: november 8, 2011

this day was cool. the ateneo school of government came to us to train youth leaders in becoming social entrepreneurs. it's funny how we were introduced in such a flattering manner, cream of the crop and best of the best? i nearly choked on it. come on.

the topic was great! for a while i actually thought about creating my own social enterprise instead of just being a plain profit oriented business person. the thought of earning lots of money alongside alleviating a pressing social issue sounds like a perfect cause. a great philanthropic move. if i weren't so selfish then sure. but i don't think i'm up to helping that much. yeah right. ang bait ko kasi. >:P

the best part was probably the FOOD. am and pm snacks plus buffet lunch... as in with tables set up cordially at the canteen. wow. i could feel that the admu school gov really believe in investing on the youth. and being someone who's more selfish than charitable, i feel guilty having to be spent on something i may not consider doing in ten years.

BUT WAIT. this isn't to say i didn't learn anything. the lecture was eeeeevery bit inspiring, promise! but when i go out, i realize i had to help myself first. ALOT. LOL. can't do anything without money, srsly. and i think, stuff like these are initiated by upperclass citizens who have so much time and money to spare. but of course, being part of it is sooo easy. it doesn't mean you have to be the capitalist. just getting involved is a good enough move e diba?

err. yeah

draft: november 9, 2011


the seminar-workshop has ended! we were tasked to create our own social enterprise by group and present it in front of the trainees who served as our panelists along with mam sison and mam ruiz. naiinis ako sa sarili ko cos all the while i had very little faith in our group. sa loob loob ko, huhu Lord, tinatamad ako magisip. >:( then after we've put together our drafts in a powerpoint presentation, sa loob loob ko... k bahala na. i could only wish at least one group is worse. lol

we came up with a social enterprise called SOSY, which stands for Striving Out-of-School-Youth. a for profit organization which blah blah blah blah blah. it's too long, but i think it's pretty decent to share naman! i'll get back with the details when i get the slides. hehehe

but waaait, our presentation was okay! and i had to thank the panelists for being so kind. nakakatuwa cos they always find something good to say about every presentation. i admire them so much because they seem to be individuals trained to see through the efforts of people around them and appreciate it with great fervor. they were warm and friendly and accommodating and blaaaaaahh. i was impressed. i suddenly want to become someone who sees everything in a positive light! then i thought maybe only those with highly philanthropic mindsets could be like that tas yun, ewan. feeling ko kasi hindi ako ganon ka-generous and humanitarian. haha

hay.

this day i lost 400+ worth of money. for the nth time grabe. i dunno what's up with me, why do i always lose cash? >XO i was a tad too depressed about it cos i couldn't imagine how much money i've lost this year because of carelessness! or maybe the world has just gotten eviler. >:| more to depression is pain, cos early this morning, i realized i'm in yet another of my monthly bloody craps. >XO haha moody mode hitting soon. i guess. >:) i've warned my boyfriend already hahaha >:D

i wonder what good is in store for me from this loss. not that i'm expecting but the thought of a just payback is pretty encouraging. 400 is a lot of money for me. it's what's left of my allowance and now i'm broke for the entire week! sucks to be jobless! >XO

hay Lord!
because of that, here goes my 21'st birthday/2011 christmas WISHLIST! >XD

1. white musk cologne/perfume from The Body Shop

2. red mesh hard case for samsung wave 525

3. microSD reader from CD-R King

4. corpo shoes! black pointed kitten heels for OJT and the occasional job interviews >:)

5. vouchers! gift checks! from useful stores like national bookstore, sm dep't store, sm supermarket. yeah >:D

6. wine and dine lipstick from avon

7. simply pretty face powder refill (natural) from avon

8. CASH CASH CASH CASH!!!!

9. DONATE on my Paypal using the donate button i put above! >:D

10. medium wacom intuos tablet! (or bamboo fun okay lang!) >XD

Orayt. just that, for now. >:D

truly. madly. deeply.

namiss ko mag-blog for real! there are days when i would backtrack and read all my previous entries from years back and realize how much i've changed! back then, i used to blog everyday, exceedingly and with horrible detail, of how my day went. but now it's all about, err, i dunno condensed thoughts. maybe i'm just not at home most of the time that i fail to blog about stuff immediately. hehehe

i'm gonna post a birthday/christmas wishlist soon, so watch out. as if e no. bwahaha

// finally! saycee and i are going to start our OJT this wednesday at napocor. i call it napocor cos it's more popular but we're actually working under NGCP which is short for national grid corporation of the philippines. unfortunately though, chances are slim that we'll finish 200 hours before the trimester ends, or at least before mam samson submits our final practicum grades. which means that i'll possibly only have 12 units credited this term. consequently leading to my name dropping off the dean's list. argh. yeah. that's my biggest concern about this bullcrap. that's (well, assuming i'm still in the list by next tri) one certificate less. >:|

// nummeth midterms. major major crap! honestly, the items weren't so perplexing! but they aaaall require a painstaking amount of paper!!! it's so easy to get lost cos the solutions are so freaking long and tedious. we sat there for 4 hours with our necks bent down, our spines arched uncomfortably, and our brains bleeding and begging for the 11 torturous items to quit making us sick to the bones. to no avail! it was freakinnnn hardddd. Lord. huhuhu

// by the way! the above lines was supposed to be for last friday... but i kinda left it hanging with so many things butting off in the middle of my writing. hahahaha

// yesterday. i spent the entire day with my boyfriend's family! >XD came to their church, had lunch, met a "few" of his relatives (few pdaw un eh haha), and played badminton at night. kapagod! saya! hahahaha i'm learning badminton! yeaahh HAHAHA i thank God a lot because everyday he assures me that i'm with the right man! i love you jeckie chan! >XD

// and now. i think i have a lot of photoshopping to do. haay pero err... nuod muna ko vampire knight! bwahahaha tagal tagal na di ko parin to tapos! >XO

OMGEE first monthsary!

yey i believe this is the first time i'm gonna talk about my boyfriend for real! who would've thought i'd finally have a boyfriend! hahaha i thought i'd be one of those NBSB for life girls, forever frustrated and never noticed by the opposite sex. but owell, yehey yehey!

this was such a cool cool day! >XD after the ADEPT training, we went to church and spent the rest (well a few hours) of the night at RnB (Read n Brew) cafe near my place. 

first boyfriend!

first devotion together! 

tall mocha frappe for Php 70  >:)

super tall banana smoothie for Php 60

blueberry cheesecake for Php 55

ribs. Php 115. basta ribs yan. >:P

jec's gift! >XD photoshopped 23 peso bill! ♥ ♥ 

my gift! half long bong doodle >XD 

hihi

my jeckie chan! ♥

it feels great to be in love.

like srlsy! >XD

thank you Lord! >XD

thank you so much for making this day super duper special! yehey! >XD i love you jericho chanco dave! >XD

moar dreams

it's been a while since i last blogged about my dreams! i hardly remember any of them anymore because the alarms always disrupt them. anyhow!

I. i dreamt that i failed the interview with the starbucks store manager. that's like the last step before getting into barista training. the sm was kindof petite, fair skinned and sorta chinita girl. her hair was long and tied. i think she kinda said that the main office endorsed me too late that she already accepted 2 applicants. there was a small sheet of paper with the 2 names written on it, including their available working hours. i didn't get the names tho. hehe then i was crying and practically begging her to gimme a chance whatever. then my boyfriend came and asked the sm why she's making me cry. apparently, terai who was with me in the store texted him so he came and blah. bwahahahaha weird.

II. this was only awhile ago. but i already forgot most of it! >XO what i do remember is my school mate, olibs, ushering me somewhere to talk or something. cos i think she's consoling me about something bad that happened. something that led to so many people hating me or something. hehe puro something hahahaha. she was like, 'don't think about it too much. i've been hated by so many people too.' then i recalled how she was during highschool and thought, yeah maybe. i don't exactly hate her back then, but we were never close. the place was like holy corridors. or something. okay!!! something something something.

binondo mode! >:D