snickering

not cool. why do i feel like i have done so little for the organization's prosperity. >XO 

all the while i was only thinking of myself, of how my activities would spice up my resume. president of this and that, academic scholar and all. but then yknow, i wasn't really being a good pres and crap. i'm too lazy for my own good. my sense of urgency is way off. >:| all of these i have done for myself and myself alone. and also to ease my parent's disappointment (but that's only like a sickening 10%). sometimes i wonder about what was said about all these amounting to nothing when i die.

btw, quiz tomorrow. this time. i'm gonna read my notes. right now (orly? u beliv me?). for the record, if i do this now, it's gonna be the first time i studied at home this trimester. wow.

ah by the way, i don't understand why i've been too emotional lately. like every small thing that touches me makes me cry, every bout of insecurity, paranoia or jealousy tears me up, and every episode of Budoy (starring Gerald Anderson) brings me to tears. when did i ever become this soft and scared and crap. >:|

i haven't touched my notes! craaaappp >XO and nummeth still bums the hell out of me. plus i haven't been working on my OJT requirements. wth. >:| and the light in my room is broken. >:|

crap

nummeth ruined my day. freakin quiz. careless mistakes and more whatnots. how do i get back on this? 2 remaining quizzes and the rest are freakin exams. i need to get my studying mojo back. i never study at home, and quizzes have a habit of surprising us and leaving us point blank dumbshickz. arg. i have no one else to blame but myself and my assumed poverty hahahaha.

i'm busy with another internet promo! this time, FREE CHOCOLATES my golly! i have 5 bars now! how big is 35grams of snickers? hmm... dear Lord. THANK YOU! >:D i am soooo excited like rebecca black on friday. you guys have no idea how i'm trying so hard not to sound like a spammer whenever i ask people to click on my wall ads or like some page and blah. i'm trying. thank you! and i will never scam you! >:D you mark my word on that. hahahahaha joke.

i'm not sure if it's still the menstrual syndrome kicking in or just the mere thought of free chocolates excites me like crazy. i dunno. just. don't ignore my invites LOL. it's for a good cause. it's for my chocolates. my snickers. not exactly my favorite chocs but it's FREE so yeah. >:)

binondo mode! >:D plus maybe if i start noticing these two fitness balls (aero and volley) beside me, i'd start burning some fats while watching. hahaha

moody mode

there are days when i feel extra sensitive like every small thing affects me and makes me cry. like now. err. menstrual syndrome? i want selecta coffee crumble and pretty little liars season 1. i also want some tissue. huhu

tumbling! >:)

// madungis daw! oh well, the texture breaks it. what exactly do they want anyway? hehe
HONESTLY. i'm trying to avoid office trips LOL if could only last there 15 minutes without adding anything to my to do list, that's kindofa miracle already. BWAHA sorry. tamad lang. >:)

// i'm getting fatterrrrrr, where has all the stress gone?! >XO i've been stuffing on sweets and junk the past few days, my throat is starting to hurt and i feel sick already. and why is it that i get headaches a lot recently? >:S

// i'm craving for kitkat aaaaarghh

busy campaigning

// BWAHAHAHA like i have anything better to do right? see, i've finished designing the tarp, stubs and certificates for the coming dean's list awarding and heeeeey, i didn't have to post it HERE. which makes so much sense and confirms that this blog is really cursed. or something.

// steve jobs just died. rest in peace. my condolences go to everyone who's affected by this. hehe not an apple fan so. yeah. i wonder what microsoft thinks.

// economics. i don't understand why our prof is being too considerate of her students. i mean, i do understand why but i don't get why she's too bothered about it. it's not her fault. and the way i see it, it will never be. definitely. she's too kind! if only everyone would study! hehe anyway it's something to be thankful for. where would you find someone who'd let you retake the same exam just to let you pass? sucks that my score didn't change. lol. crap.

// i feel guilty with my campaign strategy #24312. the one where i say hi or hello first to the person, and if he/she replies, i paste the link asap. assuming that they have no reason to ignore my message. but then, i don't really want to get into a conversation so it's guilt-tripping when people actually ask me how i'm doing and all. haha. sorry. manager mode. >XO

// err. sjadjkjhkdf. i really want to get into multimedia arts someday.

HA.

draft from 10/04/2011

one of the rare days this trimester that i get home early and not plop myself on the bed immediately. i'm not sure what exactly i'm doing for the last few days (aside from manning the table at 302 for shirt orders) that i always end up really tired when i get home. i feel uhm, greatly unaccomplished! still no OJT! no remarkable progress on the field trip! no money to pay for org shirts! then my parents are becoming extra strict now that i have a boyfriend hahaha! then yknow it's so uncool how i'm so broke and back to being a major bum. even if i was earning so little back then, i'm proud because it gave me the independence i needed to decide on my own and buy the things i want, because it's my money! but right now i'm just argh like, okaaay never mind not having a usb for a while cos that's like 400 bucks. never mind not smelling of white musk for a while, cos that's 800something on a regular day. never mind the samsung earphones, i dunno how much they cost but it's definitely not within budget. never mind checking out for walking flats or clothes, i'm not in an urgent wardrobe update (never am) anyway. you see, the income effect in economics is so friggin true. your income is proportional to your expenses. you earn bigger, you spend bigger. you earn less, you spend less. now it's about cutting off on the luxes, the things i know i can live without for awhile (but will definitely get back to once i get some decent cash flow). >:D hahaha and since i don't want to exaggerate more on my self-proclaimed poverty, i'll see it as a way to, errr, kindof loosen my grip on material longings. LOL and as if. >:P and it's not like i'm being bitch poor. hahahaha

anyway. most of my money is going to food. i've been eating recklessly since the trimester started, a kindof just retribution for the amount of appetite i lost last tri for stressing myself voluntarily. blah.

long time no bloooog

draft from 9/30/2011

// since typhoon Pedring hit us, we've lost electricity for almost 4 days now. elec's still out so i just borrowed daddy's laptop to blog heheheehe

// still no luck with OJT.

// started re-reading All American Girl by Meg Cabot and realized how dumb it really is. but it served its purpose, it got me into books which is a huge favor! reading it now, the only thing i find interesting is the inclusion of art in it. somehow i think art classes won't necessarily cripple your creative freedom by bounding you to rules and all. it's actually needed if you really want to stick to being a non-conformist. how would you know you're being deviant if you don't know what the convention is? anyhow. other than that, it kept me rolling my eyes thinking how superficial and shallow teenage flicks are. and to think i considered this my favorite book? it's like looking back at your childhood crush 10 years after and wondering in fits of laughter how you even came to like the person. that. half-way done but yeah. i'll be bearing it. the lack of electricity helped me catch up on my reading list.

// it ardy october. bills payment time! and i thought i should be working by now. argh.