a tragedy called 12th International Youth Day Celebration and Conference

LOL i'm too tired having to say the same tragic story over and over again. i've never rolled my eyes this much on something extremely disappointing. hahaha anyway, i'm not gonna tell you the whole story. FOR NOW. i'm too busy lol. but i'll get back to it, one day. it's kinda sitting on draft. maybe after a few days i've calmed down... and who knows if i might actually have something miraculously positive to say about it. key word: miraculously.

hahaha you might think i'm being too nega, saying shiz and bull that nothing good ever happened at iloilo. but really, if you were one of us who preregistered in hopes of getting priority accommodation but instead was thrown in a pretty decent, i might say, but cramped hotel in a shanty area with a supposed-to-be single room but is unfortunately transformed into tri-sharing.... a positive state of mind will not do you justice. there is a limit to the amount of optimism and understanding we could offer. and in this case, they went overboard. they sapped all my positive energy. my tolerance of substandard output was put to the critical level. in this event, i've learned something very very important and that is TO NOT SETTLE FOR ANYTHING LESS THAN WHAT YOU KNOW YOU DESERVE. because the moment you do, you're getting even less than what you settled for. and of course, to not entertain anything from the UNYAP. it's plain crap. and every year they prove themselves well, i wouldn't mind an additional MDG that seeks to eliminate political animalism that leads to the corruption of the youth by ABOLISHING THE UNYAP.

i know there are some who enjoyed. and i'm not gonna ask for their understanding of why i'm behaving this way. nor am i going to take back every bullcrap i've shared about this event... i'm not even halfway vulgar. my blood boils every time i think about how disorderly and stupid the event was and everyone behind it. i'm not even gonna try to be diplomatic in this entry. i'm angry. LOL.

alright this is probably part 1. i'm sleepy. i've got an exam and craploads to do.
good night! sweet dreams. and i hate you too. >;)

socialization

when you're being idealized, you begin to bend to people's expectations without you knowing it. i've come to accept how people's opinion of me will matter forever, even though it's hardly justifiable. it just goes that way. you have to please the people around you, whether or not you like them.

no. that's not my point. dun na nga lang to sa kabilang blog haha.

usapang destiny

yaman din lamang na nakiki-epal ako sa mga status ng mga tao.

there are statuses i just want to butt in and leave a comment to but i'm being hindered with thoughts like: we're not even close or nakakahiya naman. either way, you're in my friends list so... what's wrong? it's not like we're complete strangers or whatever. eh. nakakahiya parin.

anyway. do you believe in destiny?

i have no certain stand on this. i'm pretty much indifferent cos i guess whether or not you believe in it, it's all the same. you're on your own to an uncertain future. and whether or not your future is a product of destiny or your assumed free will, whatever happens.. happens. so much for an opinion LOL. eto lang, i don't think free will is the opposite of destiny. just because you yield to destiny means you're not exercising your free will. the same applies otherwise. haha ewan.

why do i always sleep late. >:|

for some KNOWN reason, i've been terribly distracted from work. i'm missing out on the important duties i have to perform... like following up the quotations at the office (gaaah. i hate getting quotes from suppliers. they almost always never reply), planning for ICON, figuring out WHEN to review for my quizzes, and convincing myself to get real probably have a break or indulge in something new. different. ewan.

i'll be out for 4 days starting on the 3rd! i wish it could be considered a semi vacay BUT NO. i'm afraid i have to take my books with me to iloilo. after this week, i am definitely hell bound. sometimes i wanna cut off the internet for real cos it's SO NOT HELPING ME.

and. and. the absence of a freaking Filipiniana GOWN is stressing me out. i saw some lady barong at the department store and thought it would do with some decent slacks but when i asked monica what she's gonna wear she said she's wearing the filipiniana GOWN she wore during the AOG. what the. i wasn't keying for something that formal. what the fudge. >:| asdagsdfsbjkgfshdnsada

i want to take the day off just to shop. seriously. ang hirap hirap hirap hirap pala maghanda ng isusuot. dang. owell, what's shopping when you don't have kacheeeeng >:(

sana walang pasok bukas

because seriously we haven't done anything with our thesis yet. it's the ultimate lazy time for me. HAHA and it was so funny how i was crying so hard awhile ago at the thought of someone's death, i was like omgehhh i couldn't possibly take it if you died now! *sobs crazily* i knew it was a bad idea to buy 125 worth of ice cream the other day, see i had colds and i was wheezing the entire day. sakit sa ilong grabe. i'm excited to leave next week! yehey! kaso wala nanaman akong damit! LOL. and i have this feeling that the school probably thinks it's a bad idea to send someone like me there. but they have no choice cos i'm probably in the right position to. di nga, i suck in physical representation HAHA siguro they're thinking i wouldn't even try to cake myself a bit cos i hardly do so at school. wala lang. maeffort magpaganda. >:| pero kelangan, school representation eh. >XO haynako, if i could only fix my myself the way other girls do DAILY, i would. seriously! but that would be such a daily struggle. bakit ba kasi ngayon ko lang naappreciate yung mga ganto. >:|

and wait. grabe lang. i realized i'll be missing SO FREAKING MUCH on the 4 days i'm gone. it's freaking Quiz 2 week! >XO haaay Lord. jusme.

good night! i have to sleep na! first time (in a long time) i'm sleeping no later than 12am! >:D

PS: Lord. i'm not asking for ondoy, just something strong enough to suspend our classes tomorrow please! thank you, i love You! >:D

someone cut me some slack

nothing productive for this day. as in nadaaaaa.

i'm afraid that if we make up we'd jive so much and i would be in total agreement with your relationship. i don't want to. even though i know there's a big chance of us being friends. i just don't want to. so maybe i'll just keep hating you like this. we could be "frienemies" (friend+enemy whatev) okay but really. no way. it's a risk you have to take if you let me in your lives, seriously. i'll break you. i'll be bolder this time cos i've let it all out. i'm not gonna let you win... further. so yeah, just allow me to hate you like this if you're not open to complications.

of course i'm just joking. lol.

okay. but seriously speaking. there's a brewing courage in me that wants to fight and lose. just for the heck of it. it was too late when i realized that. quotable quote is true, you only realize someone's worth when they're gone. true enough. so maybe i'll just cherish what's still here.

good night.

How reliable are our government offices when it comes to CLASS SUSPENSION?

everyone's pretty much up and awake tonight, waiting for further announcements on whether there's gonna be college classes tomorrow or not. as per rumors, CHED has allegedly announced that classes will be suspended on July 27 due to floods and continuous rain brought by typhoon Juaning. HOWEVER, some DOST_PAGASA facebook account says that, "CHED has devolved the authority to finally decide on class suspension of the tertiary level to the concerned Higher Education Institution Officials." IN SHORT, CHED no longer decides for colleges and universities when it comes to class suspension. it's all up to the heads, the deans, or the presidents of the schools. and YET, they have a so called protocol which "recommends" the suspension of classes to affected areas. which is more powerful? where do we turn to?

okay. so much bullcrap. after aaaaaall the time we've wasted waiting for their announcement, they go tell us to ask your school heads instead. woa, really. it's abandonment at its worst. this is so much like how PAGASA dropped weather forecasting and called it weather "reviewing" alternatively. apparently, their forecasts were all too shameful to be even considered as such. either way, the announcement just came in. regular classes tomorrow. owell, gotta sleep.

good night!

PS: another news came in, this time from the oh so reliable government, NO CLASSES DAW. ok, kanino ba kami sa susunod? sa dean o senyo? >XO

pancakes and syrup

classes were suspended earlier. that's -600 pesos already from my salary! what's wrong with the world today. around 2am earlier i felt an earthquake, srsly! >XO then greenwich called about an affiliation problem and i'm like, seriously? fudge nowayyyy. things are pretty uncool at school i dunno. there are times when you just want to get out of your circle and explore. not much of that luxury i guess. LOL. this suspension is not exactly the break i needed, i want to work. crap. and just earlier i got another curious ear, and he was like hey i've been hearing stuff about you, go spill. course i said it was nothing but come on, there's too much drama involved. later he's like how can you be so blahblah to me when i told every blahblah to you. unfair. so there, guilt trippin and yet another person in the know. >:| i want another box of that pizza margarita please. and coffee crumble. and siomai. >X| or zagu pearl milk tea. i am so freaking hungry. >:O i was in the middle of installing craploads of hacker stuff but then i thought, hey i've learned enough already. i don't need to know more. the more i know, the more i suffer. and hey, i just realized i could get into my friends' computers remotely just by chatting with them. why do i have this unusual appetite for secrets. hahahaha i could just ask them. i think. or not. okay, not.

one another note, i wish was more "literarily" gifted. haha
hopefully things will be better tomorrow.

kain muna! >:D