sana walang pasok bukas

because seriously we haven't done anything with our thesis yet. it's the ultimate lazy time for me. HAHA and it was so funny how i was crying so hard awhile ago at the thought of someone's death, i was like omgehhh i couldn't possibly take it if you died now! *sobs crazily* i knew it was a bad idea to buy 125 worth of ice cream the other day, see i had colds and i was wheezing the entire day. sakit sa ilong grabe. i'm excited to leave next week! yehey! kaso wala nanaman akong damit! LOL. and i have this feeling that the school probably thinks it's a bad idea to send someone like me there. but they have no choice cos i'm probably in the right position to. di nga, i suck in physical representation HAHA siguro they're thinking i wouldn't even try to cake myself a bit cos i hardly do so at school. wala lang. maeffort magpaganda. >:| pero kelangan, school representation eh. >XO haynako, if i could only fix my myself the way other girls do DAILY, i would. seriously! but that would be such a daily struggle. bakit ba kasi ngayon ko lang naappreciate yung mga ganto. >:|

and wait. grabe lang. i realized i'll be missing SO FREAKING MUCH on the 4 days i'm gone. it's freaking Quiz 2 week! >XO haaay Lord. jusme.

good night! i have to sleep na! first time (in a long time) i'm sleeping no later than 12am! >:D

PS: Lord. i'm not asking for ondoy, just something strong enough to suspend our classes tomorrow please! thank you, i love You! >:D

someone cut me some slack

nothing productive for this day. as in nadaaaaa.

i'm afraid that if we make up we'd jive so much and i would be in total agreement with your relationship. i don't want to. even though i know there's a big chance of us being friends. i just don't want to. so maybe i'll just keep hating you like this. we could be "frienemies" (friend+enemy whatev) okay but really. no way. it's a risk you have to take if you let me in your lives, seriously. i'll break you. i'll be bolder this time cos i've let it all out. i'm not gonna let you win... further. so yeah, just allow me to hate you like this if you're not open to complications.

of course i'm just joking. lol.

okay. but seriously speaking. there's a brewing courage in me that wants to fight and lose. just for the heck of it. it was too late when i realized that. quotable quote is true, you only realize someone's worth when they're gone. true enough. so maybe i'll just cherish what's still here.

good night.

How reliable are our government offices when it comes to CLASS SUSPENSION?

everyone's pretty much up and awake tonight, waiting for further announcements on whether there's gonna be college classes tomorrow or not. as per rumors, CHED has allegedly announced that classes will be suspended on July 27 due to floods and continuous rain brought by typhoon Juaning. HOWEVER, some DOST_PAGASA facebook account says that, "CHED has devolved the authority to finally decide on class suspension of the tertiary level to the concerned Higher Education Institution Officials." IN SHORT, CHED no longer decides for colleges and universities when it comes to class suspension. it's all up to the heads, the deans, or the presidents of the schools. and YET, they have a so called protocol which "recommends" the suspension of classes to affected areas. which is more powerful? where do we turn to?

okay. so much bullcrap. after aaaaaall the time we've wasted waiting for their announcement, they go tell us to ask your school heads instead. woa, really. it's abandonment at its worst. this is so much like how PAGASA dropped weather forecasting and called it weather "reviewing" alternatively. apparently, their forecasts were all too shameful to be even considered as such. either way, the announcement just came in. regular classes tomorrow. owell, gotta sleep.

good night!

PS: another news came in, this time from the oh so reliable government, NO CLASSES DAW. ok, kanino ba kami sa susunod? sa dean o senyo? >XO

pancakes and syrup

classes were suspended earlier. that's -600 pesos already from my salary! what's wrong with the world today. around 2am earlier i felt an earthquake, srsly! >XO then greenwich called about an affiliation problem and i'm like, seriously? fudge nowayyyy. things are pretty uncool at school i dunno. there are times when you just want to get out of your circle and explore. not much of that luxury i guess. LOL. this suspension is not exactly the break i needed, i want to work. crap. and just earlier i got another curious ear, and he was like hey i've been hearing stuff about you, go spill. course i said it was nothing but come on, there's too much drama involved. later he's like how can you be so blahblah to me when i told every blahblah to you. unfair. so there, guilt trippin and yet another person in the know. >:| i want another box of that pizza margarita please. and coffee crumble. and siomai. >X| or zagu pearl milk tea. i am so freaking hungry. >:O i was in the middle of installing craploads of hacker stuff but then i thought, hey i've learned enough already. i don't need to know more. the more i know, the more i suffer. and hey, i just realized i could get into my friends' computers remotely just by chatting with them. why do i have this unusual appetite for secrets. hahahaha i could just ask them. i think. or not. okay, not.

one another note, i wish was more "literarily" gifted. haha
hopefully things will be better tomorrow.

kain muna! >:D

pizza date!

it's my sister's rest day, so we went on with the usual date! who cares about SONA (joke, i do), we're hungry. hehe

and we found this, El Bonito's Pizza

El Bonito's, St. Francis Square, Ortigas

Biiiiiig slices for 25 each

i dunno with you guys,  but it this cheap and cool. tamang pantawid gutom lang! those are really big slices for 25 each. and even though it's more bread than flavor, it'll do. i mean, if you're really hungry, lakas makabusog neto bwhahaha. i don't see a lot of this around... i only know the one at SM North jeepney terminal and the one there at St. Francis. other pizza stores would sell 2 for 52 or something, it's almost the same but heeeyy this one's super angat sa size! they sell a box for 200, that's 8 slices or 1 tray of what you see up there. ayun. try it! >:D

next, Papa John's Pizza Margarita

heavennnnnn!

no meat, just cheese, tomatoes and herbs (i smell thyme!). this one's my super favorite pizza so far! sarap e. pero mahal haha, 9inches @ 280. i hate spicy food but hot sauce on pizza is an exception! >:D

one day

what's wrong. idealists. the visionaries of a false future. i don't get them sometimes. i hate people who plan too much and screw up and forget everything. times are tough, you can never be sure of what's gonna happen, except death and tribulation. you have to be practical. you have to see what's ahead with eagle eyes, not with starry logic and clouded vision. i'm kindofa realist so i don't buy future plans too much, unless you talk about insurance and financial investments. whatever happens, happens. it's talkshiz when it screws off so it's hard to put your hopes up too much. i just don't understand what kind of faith they have or how their mind works. haha i need to be explained to. lol

fudgery (aka kaartehan)

i don't know what's worse, posting crap about someone in blind items publicly, or telling crap about someone specifically behind their backs (or behind them, depends if you think behind their backs is actually their front). hmm. when it all comes down to it, every one's a bitch when they're angry. and well, for the lack of real friends or for the love of words, my anger is often vented into cyberspace; in my blog, in my tweets, in my statuses. and now that they don't seem to be doing me any good, i'm becoming desperate for another outlet. i look back to the old people in my life and hesitate because they've all distanced away from me, either that or i've become too wary that they might be too busy to hear me out or something. ang pathetic e no. my friends would totally hate me for this fudgery.

it's unfair to call myself alone. i know there are people out there who are willing to listen to me but well, the choice is not theirs. i can't just pick any friend to confide with. my world has gotten smaller. every little thing i do gets noticed. i am subject to every scrutinizing pair of eyes. the pressure is freaking me out. this isn't another crap load of assumptions i made to put the spotlight on myself. i could totally break anytime. and people would think i'm still being self-centered.

it sucks cos i have to limit myself to this blog. i've probably become too self reliant to ever consider other people's help. i never thought people would hate me for this. seriously. fuuudge. here i was breaking out of mediocrity and people think i'm being too big. the trust i was so hopeful of digging out fell 6 more feet under. this is hopeless. i feel annoyed. and betrayed for the nth freaking time. 

and i'm afraid that one day you'll discover all this shit and leave. it's takes a heart to accept things which cannot be changed, no matter how good the intentions are.