Love versus In Love

i've read this before but failed to note it. now i'm reposting it from tumblr because this is exactly how i see it.

“Love is a temporary madness, it erupts like volcanoes and then subsides. And when it subsides, you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion, it is not the desire to mate every second minute of the day, it is not lying awake at night imagining that he is kissing every cranny of your body. No, don’t blush, I am telling you some truths. That is just being “in love”, which any fool can do. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident.”

Louis de Bernières (Captain Corelli’s Mandolin)

and yet most people think they're in it for the long haul without realizing they're still in the superficial "in love" stage. anyway, enonaman. osabagay mags-subside naman talaga sya eventually as the relationship progresses, and that's where you have to decide whether you're truly in it for the endless lug. paka old fashioned e no, parang walang patutunguhan yung mga ganitong pananaw. pero totoo yan a!

Day 27 - A problem that you have had

how cool is this, i was looking for him all over facebook a month back and just earlier, he made me realize that we've been friends all along, and that he was the one who added me first because... i don't remember. he just told me he searched me up and added me cos he saw my name somewhere as some kindofan officer somewhere i don't remember. he resembles my best friend so much, physically. >:) this night was pretty cool. i was like, seriously we're fb friends?! and i accepted you?! who are you?! weow. >XD

uhm. okay. quite honestly, i don't feel comfortable blogging here anymore but i've grown so fond of this place and look, LOL, i have a pagerank of 1. it's so hard to rank nowadays you know! and i was wondering where most of my visitors came from so i checked my stats and saw quite an awful lot of chuck bartowski searches. hey guess what, search it up on google and see the "images for chuck bartowski" part on the web search page. the first pic directs to my blog. how cool is that. seriously. haha

another high ranking search is "how to turn off chat on facebook 2011". just LOL. i wish i could monetize this traffic. traffic is still traffic. no matter how small it is. haha

oh hi, where is my sense of urgency. >XO

all my midterms still suck but i'm working on it. why must this trimester be exponentially harder?!

my boss prompted me to this children's story writing contest. i'll look into it but srsly, hahaha. i'll also TRY to write something for that peace essay writing chorva. i joined and failed last year, so i wanna try again! bwaha. 

yesterday, the shanghai siomai girl from the food court was like this to terai, 

ss girl: parang kilala kita

terai: >8|

ss girl: ikaw yung nahablotan ng bag sa jeep noon

terai: >8O

ss girl: grabi yun! dun ako dapat uupo sa pwetan ng jeep e. grabe talaga takot ko nun. dahil dun natuto ako, hindi na ako umuupo sa pwetan. delikado na. 

terai: >XD hehe

galeng diba! how cool is it to be recognized like a celebrity! LOL di nga, at least someone learned from terai's mischief! odiba, galeng nung coincidence. haha

and now to a problem i've had:

by 'had' it must be imperative of something that has already been solved. 

uhm. problem. masyadong marami i dunno where to start. i think my greatest problems haven't been solved yet, i'm still facing them kasi hahaha. ewan. problema. ano ba. pera? ah yeah, the one with my good friend! it was a problem. and it was solved. friendship issues! it strengthens the bond i guess! i mean, after the dispute, everything was much better. super. ayun. that's it. 

btw, i feel sad that i can't open up to just anyone about my worries because. because. i don't know where their loyalty lies. have you ever felt like you were so keen on pouring everything out but you just can't cause the people around you don't seem interested enough in what you have to say or that they have a tendency to report it to someone else urgh and you feel friendless and lonely and crap. like no one's on your side and everyone's spying on you. jusme a. lalo na kung hindi naman tungkol dun sa gusto nila malaman yung ikkwento mo and in fact, makaka-spoil pa dun sa gusto nilang malaman. hay. nakakalungkot kaya yung excited ka magkwento pero parang hindi naman interesado yung tao so okay, nevermind na lang. chaka lamo yung, conscious ka na rin sa mga kinikwento mo kasi hindi mo alam kung pano nila ii-interpret yun baka isipin, nanggugulo ka nanaman or nagpapa-pansin or nagpapa-ekek porket alam mong si ganto ay ganto at yung kwento mo e masyadong ganto. sus. 

nowadays, it's so friggin hard to get someone to listen to you with all ears and no bias and who wouldn't think you're all about yourself and crap. oh come on.

dark ages

ubusan ng tissue. sipon. iyak. grades. >:'''((((((( all my midterms suck. seriously. sarap magdrop!

then i'm also soooo out of the Harry Potter fandom, one day i'm going buy DVD rips of HP7 parts 1 and 2 and do a marathon (from HP1) here in the my room, with projector and lots of wasabi pop corn.

then i'm going to buy the entire 1-7 collection. and probably let it sit forever in my desk lol.

i'm also getting worried about my frequent memory lapses. i just received a text message, read it, and browsed the net for a few minutes, then i recalled 'hey someone just texted me', then i went to check my phone and realized that i've already read the thing a few minutes ago.

there are things i'm so accustomed to doing already that i end up forgetting them, how do i explain this ba. it's like setting the alarm before going to sleep. it's so automatic for me that sometimes in the middle of my sleep, i wake up and think if i've already set the alarm then marerealize ko naka-set na pala kanina pa. it's the daily stuff i do without so much thinking that usually slips through my memory. kasi there are things i do that doesn't require memory at all, like yung alarm nga and the matic things, not much neurons wasted in there. so feeling ko because it doesn't require too much thinking, it doesn't get etched in my brain, so it slips away. ganun. ewan. i'm worried HAHA.

eto pa, i usually forget if i've already locked the doors and turned off the lights. or pulled out the electric plugs and all. mga ganong bagay. nabasa ko to e, me ganito talaga e. at alam ko normal lang yun! HAHAHA

okay thesis mode! >:D

hey that was terribly awkward

i really want to ask what's happening but that's beyond my usual happy curiosity. in short, i don't think i want to know. uhm, that actually makes me the feeler here. refusing to inquire because i'm testing my own list of assumptions. anyhow, i haven't been faring well in my academic duties, you see the org has been eating up a lot of my brain, and it refuses to do some decent reallocation. i really need to study. thesis is killing my hopes. i'm so worried my grades are gonna take a nosedive this year and that's crucial. damn crucial.

i'm gravely scatterbrained, the things i do aren't linked in my memory. they aren't neatly clustered. i forget a lot and i'm wondering if my high school friend really has lupus cos it saddens me like hell. >:| my notebook is a mess, and no matter how hard i try, planners don't work for me. btw, my parents are back! >:D

tomorrow has to be good. there's a heck lot of designing, writing, and memorizing to do. i wish i could produce clones for each of these roles. haha

dear Lord, i have so much to say about this weird sdjfhshhadfsndhasndhsfjsfmffa. tomorrow, okay.

true love waits daw.

what is true love waits, is it waiting for the one you 'love' because the circumstances won't allow you to be together right now? i don't think 'love' is what's being nurtured when you wait, lalo na kung magkalayo kayo. ma-iinip ka lang, magiging doubtful, osige na nga magiging patient ka rin, pero aasa ka  naman sa walang kasiguraduhan. magseselos ng walang dahilan, eventually magiging nega ka na! pag-galang lang yung paghihintay kasi may kanya kanya kayong priorities. para kang naghihintay sa pilang pagka-haba haba, pagdating sa dulo, heaven! pero habang nakapila ka ba tumitindi yung pag-ibig mo? pag-ibig ba talaga yon or physical yearning sa isang bagay na matagal ipinagkait sayo? iba ang possessiveness ng mga deprived wahaha true love waits is actually not about waiting, para sakin lang naman. haha yung true love hindi nabubuo yan habang naghihintay, nadedevelop yan habang nasa isang relasyon kayo. at yung itinagal nung development na yun, yun ang essence ng true love waits. joke!

e kung sabihin ko bang hindi ko naman issue yan, me maniniwala ba? napaisip lang naman ako talaga e. tanong nyo pa kay terai >:D

good morning thesis! ano nanaman kaya ang gagawin namin ngayoooon >X(

A Preview of Gmail's new look

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GMail's new look is perfect! It's neater and more sophisticated looking.and it has red accents! >:D will use this forever! hahaha i dunno what danger lies in sharing a screenshot of my mailbox. anyway. hahaha

meantry

everyday it annoys me how people are so full of themselves like the world revolves around them in utter fancy. >:| it's nerve ticking, to think that these people are just a speck of dust in our massive universe who happened to have gathered an overflowing amount of self worth. it's frakking annoying but there are things you just have to live with not because you're trying to be kind or that you have no power to subdue such irritating forces BUT because no matter how much their presence is a whip of bad karma to you, they are essential tools for survival. you need them, parasitically, you feed off from them.

i always wonder how much of the real world these people have seen for them to consider their issues to be that big. i cannot empathize genuinely because honestly, i don't see a problem. i don't see an issue big enough to gather fake onlookers. i don't understand why people complicate things, why people think something more than what they see, why people assume hastily and cast prejudiced verdicts. two things, either i'm being bitter or i haven't reached that level of maturity characterized by extreme tolerance to overflowing egos.

>:|