hey that was terribly awkward

i really want to ask what's happening but that's beyond my usual happy curiosity. in short, i don't think i want to know. uhm, that actually makes me the feeler here. refusing to inquire because i'm testing my own list of assumptions. anyhow, i haven't been faring well in my academic duties, you see the org has been eating up a lot of my brain, and it refuses to do some decent reallocation. i really need to study. thesis is killing my hopes. i'm so worried my grades are gonna take a nosedive this year and that's crucial. damn crucial.

i'm gravely scatterbrained, the things i do aren't linked in my memory. they aren't neatly clustered. i forget a lot and i'm wondering if my high school friend really has lupus cos it saddens me like hell. >:| my notebook is a mess, and no matter how hard i try, planners don't work for me. btw, my parents are back! >:D

tomorrow has to be good. there's a heck lot of designing, writing, and memorizing to do. i wish i could produce clones for each of these roles. haha

dear Lord, i have so much to say about this weird sdjfhshhadfsndhasndhsfjsfmffa. tomorrow, okay.

true love waits daw.

what is true love waits, is it waiting for the one you 'love' because the circumstances won't allow you to be together right now? i don't think 'love' is what's being nurtured when you wait, lalo na kung magkalayo kayo. ma-iinip ka lang, magiging doubtful, osige na nga magiging patient ka rin, pero aasa ka  naman sa walang kasiguraduhan. magseselos ng walang dahilan, eventually magiging nega ka na! pag-galang lang yung paghihintay kasi may kanya kanya kayong priorities. para kang naghihintay sa pilang pagka-haba haba, pagdating sa dulo, heaven! pero habang nakapila ka ba tumitindi yung pag-ibig mo? pag-ibig ba talaga yon or physical yearning sa isang bagay na matagal ipinagkait sayo? iba ang possessiveness ng mga deprived wahaha true love waits is actually not about waiting, para sakin lang naman. haha yung true love hindi nabubuo yan habang naghihintay, nadedevelop yan habang nasa isang relasyon kayo. at yung itinagal nung development na yun, yun ang essence ng true love waits. joke!

e kung sabihin ko bang hindi ko naman issue yan, me maniniwala ba? napaisip lang naman ako talaga e. tanong nyo pa kay terai >:D

good morning thesis! ano nanaman kaya ang gagawin namin ngayoooon >X(

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GMail's new look is perfect! It's neater and more sophisticated looking.and it has red accents! >:D will use this forever! hahaha i dunno what danger lies in sharing a screenshot of my mailbox. anyway. hahaha

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everyday it annoys me how people are so full of themselves like the world revolves around them in utter fancy. >:| it's nerve ticking, to think that these people are just a speck of dust in our massive universe who happened to have gathered an overflowing amount of self worth. it's frakking annoying but there are things you just have to live with not because you're trying to be kind or that you have no power to subdue such irritating forces BUT because no matter how much their presence is a whip of bad karma to you, they are essential tools for survival. you need them, parasitically, you feed off from them.

i always wonder how much of the real world these people have seen for them to consider their issues to be that big. i cannot empathize genuinely because honestly, i don't see a problem. i don't see an issue big enough to gather fake onlookers. i don't understand why people complicate things, why people think something more than what they see, why people assume hastily and cast prejudiced verdicts. two things, either i'm being bitter or i haven't reached that level of maturity characterized by extreme tolerance to overflowing egos.

>:|

Day 26 - What kind of person attracts you

more than looks, i'm more concerned with maturity, intelligence and sense of humor. someone who acts older, who's smarter, more reliable and is genuinely Christian. someone who reads, writes, draws, whatever. someone inclined to arts and philosophy. there's so much to talk about life and blah and i appreciate wisdom a lot. hello ideal guy! bwahaha someone sensible, aaaaand someone i can be childish around with. nakakasawa rin mag ate-atehan ah, that's why i love daddy and terai so much because they spoil me! joke. no, actually i just want to feel secured. iba yung may nasasandalan ka pag may problema e. yung talagang malalapitan mo with full comfort and no ilangness, yung di ka mahihiyang istorbohin parang si terai. aw, when it all comes down to it, i bet i never really had anyone like my sister. sabi ni terai sakin dati, gusto nya yung magiging boyfriend nya katulad ko kasi baliktad kami e, ako daw yung parang ate (until she started earning and the tables were returned in place lol). ako naman, ayoko ng boyfriend na katulad nya! wahaha sama ng ugali! gusto ko yung katulad ko (and more!), at kung gusto nya rin ng katulad ko sabi ko mag-aaway tayo nyan! pareho tayo ng type! no waaayyyy. bwaha

waha lumabo bigla.

actually, i'm sleeping soon and hoping that God is listening and working on my immediate prayers! thank you Lord for Wendy's yehey they gave me salad and super large iced tea, i'm starting to love the place hahaha! >:D I'm looking forward to a successful year! and please please please THESIS. >:S ayokonaaaaaaa

sabi sa horoscope ko ngayon, maging busy daw ako at maraming kukuha ng atensyon ko. natumpak ng Philippine Star.

antamad ko talaga.

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hey stress go away!

Day 25 - Someone who fascinates you and why

it's hard to think of just someONE, there are tons of people who fascinate me but usually the fascination expires. anyway, there's probably only one group of people that will always always catch my fancy and they are the ARTISTS! yeahhhh >:D it's both inspiring and fascinating browsing at smashing portfolios over the internet! i particularly adore Bjornik and Wee Will Doodle cos they're style is maximalism at its best and it's soo frakking kickass.

oooh Google+ >:D

just signed up and is eager to give out invites! >:)