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Seriously Lord. HELP ME.

Vampire Knight

currently watching/downloading! >XD

Day 22 - How have you changed in the past 2 years?

i think i never changed in the inside, my values, attitude and character is the same all throughout. what changed was the environment i'm in. i moved to a different college and exerted the same effort as i did before, and it gave me good (not to mention shocking) results. when i was in LB, i also did what i can, what i thought was my best, and every time it gave me a mediocre result, i get demotivated. i want dark chocolate. and from there i slack off and the rest is history. HAHA i would say i became more responsible, but that's only because i get good feedback with my efforts. i wasn't driven enough and i'm craving for carbonara.  i knew i had that certain sense of responsibility but it wouldn't come out cos back then everyone seemed more responsible, more fitting, smarter and every thing and you just have to settle being a good ass commoner and buy cheeseburger.

i'm so hungry. random phrases inserted everywhere. will make carbonara in a bit and probably buy kitkat dark! >XD gutom na kooooo!!! 

and wait!  my friend says i'm being Misaki-ish from Kaichou wa Maid Sama recently LOOL there are the similarities but 2 things are out: 1) i'm not loud and imposing and worst of all 2) i don't have an Usui. and i realized having an Usui around at school would be creepy, nakakailang, nakakairita at nakakabwiset. >XO maganda lang sa anime kasi anime yun. >:D otherwise, i'd be freaked out to hell. believe me, you wouldn't want a real life Usui.

me nagtanong, the one who says or the one who shows?
i don't believe in the saying action speaks louder than words. it's your assumptions that speak all throughout, feeler. and honestly, it takes a whole lot of courage to actually confess rather than drop hints and motives that are vague as hell. it gets tiring having to read between the lines, the human brain is degenerating per generation yaknow. so it's still better to let it all out, word per word, verbally, how you really feel about the world or a person in general. just like blogging. haha. and seriously, it's braver to confess fellas, it's like saying sorry to a person whom you've hurt so much. it takes so much pride srsly. and wait lang ha, i'm simply answering a question. another point here is, you can't count on one's feelings just because it shows. just like how you can't sue someone without evidence. words give much more assurance than actions. bow. eh yun lang naman. gutom na talaga ko.

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY DADDEHH! >:D >:D

i'm really close to both of my parents but i never considered myself a mommy's girl. it's daddy who usually jokes around with me and annoys me most of the time. we do silly things together. i love slang talking with him and calling him a loser (reference: yaya and angelina). when terai is at the grocery with mommy, i'll be at cyberzone with daddy. honestly, daddy was never like an elder to me. yknow, those who give you sound advices about life and crap. i go to mommy, or her secretary (ate theresa!) for that haha. daddy is more childlike, which is probably why we get along so well. if he weren't around, who can i call to chase flying cockroaches? load ink to the printer? kill giant spiders? change the lights? fix the toilet? unscrew laptop panels? we've never called an electrician, plumber or pest killer in the house ever since it was built. daddy knows all those. he engineered our home. >:D

BWAHAHA i love you daddy!

JM!

i dreamed of JM last night, or this morning whatever while having fever fits. bwaha in my dream he was on the way to the tricycle area and i saw him and blah and i was disappointed cos he looked poor? oo basta ganun. parang nalungkot ako na nanghinayang na ewan. ayoko na tuloy sa kanya LOOOOL mukang pera ampotek. mukang pera daw kasi ako.

off to school cos i feel better now >:)

i'm burning inside

literally! my neck is cold but i'm freakin burning with a fever inside. me tawag dun e. my body hurts too, ano bang ginawa ko't parang kung san san ako binugbog. >X'( anyway. can't touch my kitkat dark yet! napaka-lungkot na buhay. i was looking forward to it when i got home but i don't think it's gonna help me. i also discovered something about myself earlier! something that changed my outlook of, ano, food. i need to change my diet demmit, something that could last me for 60 more years to come. please Lord. hanotohhhh?! whew.

Anlene Concentrated Milk is to die for. johowkkk. it's my new favorite breakfast drink! perfect diluted with warm water. >:D >:D >:D gutom na ko. T__T;

Fliptop Battles announced AHON II, a two day event which will start on June 2, 9pm somewhere along Timog Ave. i browsed the list of battles and didn't see FUEGO in it! miss ko na sya ano baaaaaa. >:| >:|

i'm passing a crappy thesis proposal tonight. it's our old project... which of course still needs a ton of improvement and revisions. hay. haaaaay. crap this fever. >:|

ate theresa's wedding >X"D

today, one of my favorite ates got married! 

i didn't wanna miss out on this event so i excused myself from work. she has been mommy's secretary for 14 years, or since i was in grade 2 bwahaha. there were times i thought her work is hindering her from getting a boyfriend but thank God, today is her day! >:) it's May-December but who cares, i don't >:D when they're both senior citizens nobody can tell the difference. >:) hihi

it's honestly my most anticipated wedding simply because ate theresa has been a really really good friend and is almost like a sister to me. she's a really really big big part of my life, hindi ko ma-explain and i love her so much! >XD

bakit ba every friday night nilalagnat ako. >:| i hope this isn't a weekly curse >XO