Day 15 - Your favorite Tumblrs

naah. i don't have any. useless entry! haha

classes will be starting tomorrow! can't say i'm looking forward to it, i just wanna see my friends na! yun lang! i'm probably killing myself with my schedule, 24 units plus 16 hours SA. but yknow, when you start working and earning moolah yer never lettin go of it. oh material attachment is such a sinful virtue. if there's one thing i learned in economics during highschool, it's that your earnings are proportional to your expenses. when you start earning bigger, you also start spending bigger. i purchase a lot when i have a lot. ohwell. >:| peraaaa. i need you.

yesterday was extra scary, my last task for the day was to post room schedules on the doors. 4th floor was the creepiest. i was hearing a weird bird with some weird chirp so to entertain myself i imitated it by whistling and blah. for awhile it was cool until the chirp got louder and the bird actually flew in front of me like an agitated bat. it scared the hell out of me so i ran. bwisssettttt. >:|

i got home really tired and when i was about to sleep my mom asked me if i already have a special guy or if anyone's courting me. i said none yet, then she suddenly went, "bulaga!" and being the ever nerbyosa girl, i was startled like crazy and she too was shocked! parang tanga talaga, we were laughing the whole time. she did that 4 times before she finally climbed to her own bed to sleep cos i was crying her out of it already. oh, she did me a bit of pep talk too. but the only things i got were, 'LOL why the limitations?' 'that's not gonna work!' 'that's useless yer never nvr gna have a bf' 'hahahaha you know nothing' thank you mommy you're far too kind! wait til i get a latin honor and you'll be thanking me for chucking boys out of the list. >:) i know it's in our genes. i'm so sure of it. i'm soooooooooooooooo sure of it. >:)

meanwhile, i'm tryna stalk some ROMAN FUGOSO aka FUEGO of FlipTop. stuff i have to confirm tho.. number 1 is if he's really from Ateneo (super plus points. it's the Ravenclaw of Philippines whatever), and his age. he was 19 during a 2010-uploaded fliptop battle. i dunno how old that video is so whatever. haaay ♥ it's devastating having to watch him in a losing streak but my regard for him never changes. i still think he's intelligent! + + + + points! ♥ ♥ he's cute when he smiles! dsfnakdsh actually he reminds me of one of my elbi crushes, sherwin. hahaha

Day 14 - Your earliest memory

that would be when i started kindergarten 2. i was 4 i guess. my k2 memories include having 2 close buddies, kelvin and jordan. kelvin was my classroom buddy, we like to tickle each other anlandi lang hahaha we were seatmates kasi. hehe jordan was my after school playmate, we would sneak into the classrooms and stamp ourselves with those star-shaped stamps so when we get home we'd look like bright kids hehe. we also used to play with the monobloc chairs by piling them up and climbing on top of them. i remember one time, jordan fell on one of those and had his forehead stitched. haha no one blamed me of course, i also don't remember how i reacted when he fell. >X| ayun, i have very few memories from kindergarten school. that's all i have. >:D



argh Wall-E >:''''(((( nakakiyaaaakk huhu

this afternoon, i did that err one step to reconciliation. i apologized. i know i couldn't do it personally cos i'm such a cow and on top of that there's still a bit of hate and insecurity in me that i couldn't bring myself to beat my pride. i wasn't really hoping for anything but when my phone vibrated, my heart rejoiced. i almost cried. i wanted to. but heck im pushing around a cart at puregold. so yeah. i want to see her and hug her and cry and give her cadburry fruits and nuts. asijdhgabsdsagd. it's not really a message of forgiveness or something but it's safe to assume we're fine now. i probably can't stand being in a dispute with someone for too long, either i try to bring back the friendship or if my resolve to break all connections is dead solid, i'll grow apathetic and let things be gray.

which is yknow, bad. i think so? i know there's still one thing i need to fix but everytime i think of it, i just want to forget about it. push all memories away and pretend nothing ever happened. i'm growing indifferent by the minute. and it's weird cos i feel guiltless. my guilt is my conscience... it's a flag of goodness for me. cos every time i feel guilty i confirm for myself that i'm still aware of my wrongdoings. which is good. it's one thing to still be able to distinguish good from evil after living 21 years in an evil world.

i have two friends. the left and the right. the angel and the devil. parang ganun pero hindi, i'd like to think they're both angels haha. when i'm in bitch mode i go to my friend by my left haha cos with her it's totally okay to bash people and be utterly judgmental. i enjoy being with her because i get to be honest with my feelings like toooootally. on the other hand, if i wanted to do the right thing i'll go to my friend by my right. well, it's also ok to fool around with him but i don't think he's tolerant of evil things so it's awkward for me to be completely honest with him. >:| too much goodness is toxic rin ano. humans are evil and to force yourself to be good is an injustice to human nature. it's good to be bad, once in a while. but generally you have to be good. haha ewan.

2 days ng masakit ulo ko. ang hirap magsorry a leche, hindi ko kasi hobby yun e. askgjskdhlasl

Day 13 - Somewhere you'd like to move or visit

i wanna visit LB! yun.

sakit ng ulo ko. asdjhatsdgasbhlasn

parang gusto ko nung Huawei IDEOS na yun! cheapest android i spotted so far. and and, the Huawei E5! pocket wifi router! Lord!!!! >XD owell, said ako ngayon. i'm helping out on daddy's hospital treatment expenses. >:| and i've got 2 bills plus one obligatory bill to pay so yes, gotta satiate myself with online window shopping for a while! i'll get my cyberzone fix when school starts. or yknow, whenever i get enough money. haaaay. i'm so very super much thankful cos even with our messed up finances, everything's going well. i just saved 18,000 worth of tuition because of my scholarship. amennnnnn!

hahaha! ewan ko ba why i always think we're out of cash, e hindi naman! siguro kasi sapat sapat lahat dala ko araw araw? ewan basta. mahirap talaga ang buhay ngayon.

loaded trimester ahead! i had to rearrange my schedule for the nth time just to maximize my working hours. they've omitted working lunches and it sucked a lot for me. from 18 hours, i was down to 12 hours, so i did a few changes with my schedule and now i have 16 hours. yeheeyyy! anyway, that's the best i could work on. sobrang haggard na nga nung 24 units with 16 hours SA eh, but we'll see. balak ko kasing patayin sarili ko e. hihi >:)

Coffee Twist

picture from spankyenriquez.blogspot.com via google images

jusme. last monday, i got two bottles of hazlenut (yellow) for lunch. i like it cos it's cheap and it's like molten XO! bwahaha ang saraaaaapppp >XD the next day i got a bottle of classic (red) and a bottle of hazlenut for lunch, and i liked the classic flavor better cos it's like iced nescafe classic! ang saraaaappp leche and it's mejo bitter pa so it's perfect for me. then yknow, a couple of hours later my ever so nervous nervous system got extra nervous and my heart started pounding like crazy. i was getting sick of nervousness literally. cold hands, cold sweat, a brewing heartburn. leche talaga i've never been that nervous my entire life. then i also took 2 cups of tea. i dunno if it would help (parang hindi!) but it was warm hahaha. haynako. antagal. antagal talaga humupa ng kaba ko. when i came home at 9, tinulog ko na agad.

pero until now i'm still nervous e, pero onti na lang. sdkfgaskfjgabfjksdskyt hay Lord. >:|

Alberto (based on a true story)

i'm reading this super long and interesting comics right now about Alberto, a former catholic turned Christian.

READ IT HERE!!!!

there are a loooot of interesting things i found out with the comics, which yknow i'm not sure i could trust. i mean, it makes the roman catholic church look so bad. and even though there's much to learn on this one, i couldn't just share it to anyone for the fear of sounding like i'm persecuting catholics and such. after all, i came from a catholic highschool. >:| but yknow, i want their opinion too.

= iganatius de loyola being founder of illuminati is new to me! 

jusme. >:| this is so troubling. now i'm thinking all the churches out there are bent on destroying other churches! yung comics, it was pretty old, based on a true story daw that occured sometime in the 60's. so imagine if something that horrid has been happening all along. napaka-evil. adafsjgasdglsda napaka. argh. i dunno. i never put to heart anything my catholic CL teachers taught me cos it was so confusing. i even asked one my teachers to excuse me from memorizing the novena, and the many many prayers because it's kindof against what i think a real prayer should be. yknow what she told me, "it's graded." onganaman! it's graded! haynako. and i simply don't understand the confession system or whatever they call it. i was excused from that but from what my friends told me after they confessed about their sins, they were asked to do housework as penance like, wash the dishes, do the laundry, buy your mom flowers, then do 10 Hail Mary's after and blah. yeah it's totally cool to do that, but what i don't understand is if it will actually spare you of your sin. gusto ba ni Lord yung bumabawi? parang tao, pag nagkamali, babawi. yung ganon?

basahin nyo nga para may makausap ako. >:|
btw, thank you chi for the pimp! >;D

dangerous thoughts i had just now... what if, the Holy Roman Catholic Church, yknow being the largest religious sect in the world... is actually the antichrist? and that the real challenge for real Christians, is to know the truth about their doctrine and break out of it. aklsdgfawdgash okay. stop thinking!! this is unfair. sidfgasgtfaks

huhu ayoko na mag-isip. nakakaparanoid. btw... i don't like the sound of "religion", for some reason. haha
good night!

Day 12 - Bullet your whole day

• woke up at 7, ate breakfast, took a bath, went to school.
• it's the first day of enrollment. i had to be early so i could help set up the computer labs! i came 5 minutes early! oha! >:D
• LOL i dunno how to face her seriously but i thought i just had to ask her if she's angry. i did and it was cool. i could feel her assumptions were wrong but it's better that having to lie again yknow. i'm such a bad liar. i almost can't. not with friends yknow. 
• anyway. it was a bit awkward. but we carried on.
• as usual. there was a horde or students lined up at the enlistment rooms that we had to do some crazy crowd control. as usual.
• enlistment was faster this time. no dead locks. 3 computer labs were utilized so there's approximately 120 computers being used simultaneously for enlisting. yey. 
• it was good that they put the 3 heads and the TRF printer in the same floor just beside the enlistment room. it was easier for the students to inquire about stuff.
• it rained hard this afternoon so i called daddy to fetch me
• then we fetched mom at the hosp. she's getting rehabed for her hurting joints or something. >:|
• sweldo yeyyyy! >XD

Day 11 - Put your ipod on shuffle and write 10 songs that pop up

no ipod. shuffling a random folder from the library instead

1. one step at a time - jordin sparks
2. viva la vida - coldplay
3. crazy for this girl - evan and jaron
4. unwritten - natasha bedingfield
5. mahal kita - gerald santos
6. what i've done - linkin park
7. ikaw lamang - silent sanctuary
8. geek in the pink - jason mraz
9. love song - sarah bareilles
10. lucky - jason mraz

suko na ko. bahala na bukas lol >:)