how shyness is a form of vanity

so why are you shy?
because i'm afraid they'll laugh at me
why will they laugh at you?
because i'm afraid i'll mess up and they'll notice
why will they notice?
because people notice all the flaws on stage
of all the flaws on stage, why do you think they'll look at you?
do you think you're pretty?
do you think you'll catch their attention even if you messed up?
do you really think the people out there are watching YOU?
it's not like that...
yes it is. you're not shy. you're narcissistic! you're vain! you think when you come up on stage, people will be looking at you. now, let's put that narcissism to good use. why don't you go out there and give justice to what the people are expecting of you, after all, you don't want them looking at you disappointed, right? go there are drown in their ogling eyes. you think you're that pretty right? you're not shy. you're afraid of the attention they might give you. which means you're expecting attention from them. cut your shy-face and go onstage, you attention deficit scum!

ay galit sya. HAHAHA

The "Feeler" Quotient: A Social Experiment

what if i tell my friend A, that her friend B has a huge crush on her, when in fact he doesn't (and i have to make sure!!!)? i want to observe how A will react. will she be conscious of her actions? will she avoid B? will she flirt? 

i want to know what goes on in people's head, what silly assumptions they create, when they are presented with a notion that flatters their ego. it's funny and embarrassing if the truth leaks out but i am curious as to what heights people feed their ballooning heads with self-assuring junk. 

which is why the experiment has to be conducted within my circle of friends (the risk is there but. haha idea lang naman!). i have to be my friend A's confidante. she has to tell me what she thinks about B, and his "huge crush on her" looool. will she start noticing B? will she bask in the imaginary attention B is giving her? will she develop feelings for B too? will she recall all the moments she has spent with B, and analyze everything as if there was a hint in it? i bet most girls would. HAHA

wala lang bakit ba.

naiinis ako e. andaming feelingera sa mundo!

sus porket ganto, porket ganyan??? haneeeeeepppp e kung ginanyan ka lang pala e feeling mo crush ka na, ano pa kaya saken?! wusowssss

ehehehe

it's been almost a week since i last wrote here! i think i'm finally getting over the 'blogging hype' HAHA 6 years to recede BWAHAHA

by the way, i was able to sleep for 12 straight hours last night and it was awesome! no headaches after i woke up! >XD probably because i've gone 48 hours awake last thursday and friday HAHA wanna know why?!

JM! JM! you know how we never really talk like taaaalk unless he's asking me for a favor or whatever. hokeeeyy but seriously, when he called last friday asking me for a super duper large favor, which cost me to sacrifice my scheduled 4 hour remaining sleep time AND lunch with my friends for the last time this tri which i seriously regret (gusto ko talaga magjollibeeee kaso. huhu), i was like...

how can he just call me like that and ask me such a thing? i mean even if he promised to pay, it was asked on a jiffy! i was in the middle of debugging an asshole of a vb.net project, and he enters in dumping more load on me like i haven't had enough to bear for day. why?! why me?!

i have every reason to decline the job
first is, as i've mentioned. i have a project to finish
second, they called me pretty late that night and told me the job(which consists of a project, hw and activity for FOUR PEOPLE) is needed the next day at 1 or 2pm.
third, I HAVEN'T SLEPT BITCHESSSS. do you really want to kill me?!?!

but in the end i said, YES
then i realized, why me?! of all people why me?! there are so many others out there who are relatively unoccupied and wants money and can do basic html and crap so why the heck?!
then i went into quite an emotional turmoil, that maybe he thinks i'm stil soooo friggin head over heels for him that i'll do anything he asks! i felt like i was taken for granted again and blaaaahhhh

yes, i still like him cos he's really nice and good looking but that's all. it's definitely superficial. he's not even the man of my dreams. it's good that we became friends cos i was able to get a psych profile of him. if i didn't then i would be voodooing him seriously haha it's just hard to get over him with all the teasing and stuff. it's easier when no one knows. ugh whatever.

o, so yun nga. pero ok lang. i was ranting about it on twitter. and i've been twirling my hair for 2 days ever since i started on the vb.net thingy., it's a mannerism i've developed when i was in LB, and now that my hair is longer it kinda resurfaced haha. it's not really a stress manifestation but it's kinda turning into one. e wala lang, it's fun twirling hair bwahaha.

anyway, they paid naman. larger than i expected pa nga e, and he bought me food blah blah blah. ok naman! thank you Lord! >:D

WALA NA TALAGANG LIGTAS NA PANAHON NGAYON

i just had to blog about this.

kakauwi lang ng ate ko ngayon, as in ngayon lang mga 1:00am (april 11,2011). pagpasok nya nanghingi sya sakin ng pambayad sa tricycle kasi nahablutan daw sya ng bag! so naloka naman ako! edi nagkwento sya,

pauwi na si terai galing SM fairview, sumakay sya ng jeep pa-MRT. dun sya sa pinakadulo nakaupo (yung pinakamalayo sa driver). nung nasa Tulyahan bridge na (yung bago mag NCBA, tas FCM) may pumara na apat na kalalakihan tapos bigla na lang hinablot yung shoulder bag nyang red na may kalakihan. nakipag-agawan pa ang loka-loka at balak pa sanang habulin yung mga panget BUTI NA LANG yung isang lalaking pasahero pinigilan sya, sabe "wag mo na habulin yan, sasaksakin ka nila!" edi natauhan ang ate kong kung maka-graveyard shift kala mo nasa call center! mejo sabog pa yata yung mga snatcher kasi mamula mula pa raw yung mata, kakatira lang yata.

naalala ko pa naman, bago sya pumasok for work on that same day sabi nya napanaginipan nya daw na mamamatay sya! edi shempre sabi ko "hindi totoo yun, magdasal ka kasi!" henako! tas biglang ganito?!?! BUTI NA LANG. BUTI NA LANG TALAGA napigilan sya ni kuya! KUYA KUNG SINO KA MAN, salamat sayo! utang ko sayo ang buhay ng ate ko! mahal ka ni Lord!!!! >XD

hay. nakakapanlumo naman. di mo alam kung san ka lulugar. front seat or back seat? haha wala ng ligtas sa mga panahon ngayon. haynako. biruin nyo naman, nasa dulo na nga si terai eh! katabi nya na yung exit (well, entrance din pala)!!!! ibang klase na mga snatcher ngayon, hanggang sa moving vehicles tumitira! >:(((

honestly, hindi ko alam kung anong ipapayo ko senyo,

gusto ko sana sabihin na wag kayo uupo sa dulo ng jeep (away from the driver) or even sa tabi (kasi ganun din, madaling hablutan), e pano kung nasa loob yung villain? >:(

kaya naman as much as possible, lagi tayong mag-pray!
wag magpapa-gabi mag-isa!
AT wag makipag-agawan sa snatcher, kahit gano pa kaimportante/kamahal/kaganda yung dala mo! ialay mo na lang ng kusa yan kundi baka ikaw ang ialay nila sa tulay.

buti na lang Lord, buti na lang safe parin si terai kahit nabalian sya ng finger at nasugatan yung kuko nya kasi nga!! grrr kulit ng lahi!

osya ingat!

for the lack of things to say.

the internet has turned kids into garish attention trolls, polluting their brains, corrupting their morals, and sowing a false sense of security in their minds. why the hell. >:| i was scrolling through my tumblr dash in hopes of running across an interesting entry (which isn't fandom), and i get this so-tagged TTH post that features a topless picture of that friend of mine. i got curious about what TTH means so i searched it up. next thing i know, the page is loaded with vanity shots of people (Filipinos for the most part) showing off SKIN. girls in their bras, guys in their trunks,  lens flared pacute faces, and for the conservative minority who's riding the bandwagon: just a picture of themselves at (what they think is) their best .

TTH is short for Titillating Thursdays, where everyone is encouraged to post a "titillating" picture of themselves every thursday. purpose please? aside from developing a pornographic domain of attention deficit people? oops sorry, that's probably an overstatement BUT you see, this is senseless. is this some sort of promotion to get more followers? just what kind of followers exactly? argh.



on another note, i've been terribly busy with school lately! >_< there's the blasted SOFTENG revision i have to make before wednesday, the NETWRK2 defense i have to freakin nail tomorrow cos i badly need the exemption, lots of things to hand-write for PROGLAN, and MATHMET! wthell, i have to go through a lot of invisible notes to survive this. argh. and ohyeah, there's the 4THGLAN2 project too!

this is by far, my hardest trimester at school because there's a freakin ton of programming involved! hay! that said, i'm afraid my grades are gonna rocket down this term. i still wanna get a full scholarship but the chances are damn slim. i'd be lucky if i still get into the partial-scholars list. need to work harder! >:(

HAHAHA the mangoes JM gave me last week are still sitting on our fruit platter! still waiting for em to ripe! HAHAHAHAHA no, green mangoes aren't my thing. lol i just accepted them cos i can't leave em rotting at the office. haha

yey! i was kindof financially distressed the past few weeks cos the term is ending and so is my work. and yknow me! i don't really save up! so i was worrying that i won't be able to pay my now 2 friggin monthly bills. thank God cos lately, i was informed that I'LL BE HAVING A SUMMER JOB!!! YEHEEEYYYY!!!! i'll be spending the summer working, and doing stuff at school. i don't care about enjoying summer at all. i'm glad about this "extended" job offer. whew! Lord, sana full time to please!!! >XD i'm really glaaaaadddd cos it proves that God really provides!!!

but honestly speaking, the only thing that excites me about this summer job is the possibility to usher during the graduation LOOOOOL

Ken Out Source Free Job: Scam or what? PART 2

in response to my previous entry about it

after 4 days of spamming my online facebook friends with this link, I'VE FINALLY REACHED $100. well, virtually, that is. now i don't know if they're ever gonna forward that amount to my paypal or not, but for now all i have to do is wait .one of my friends said i have to wait til next month cos they only send payments once a month and i was too late for the march 2011 cutoff. she also mentioned that one of her friends got paid. oh well, HOW TRUE IS THIS?

i dunno if they auto-include users in their payroll but after reaching $100, there seems to be nothing i have to do next. 

a very helpful FAQ page

so let's wait till uhm, early may if this crap is true. if it's not, oh well, there's nothing quite big to lose in here... first, i didn't pay anything... i just had to market the link they gave me by asking my friends to click. so there... we'll see we'll see. >:)

yeah yeah i know i could be banking on scam, which is why i did my best to reach $100 so i could prove if they really pay stuff and shiz. >:)

i've never read a review on this type of job offer Ken Out Source offers so, hmm, we'll seeeeee okay? i'll get back on this in a month or so! >:)

UPDATE: Ken Out Source Free Job: Scam or What? THE FINAL VERDICT

Yahoo Purple Hunt 2.0

Hi. So i entered the game and can't get the YM keyword, that's the friggin first box. i already added ypurplemaster and he has given his default first message which contains some instructions. it says there to type in "help keyword" and other bunch of crap and blah. thing is, HE DOESN'T REPLY. or am i doing something wrong? like, where should i enter that so-called "help" keyword? should i send it to him via chat? ugh. i feel so stupid haha

i was wondering if the keywords are the same for everyone, or does each player get a unique keyword like yeah? idunno. heck. if you're kind of

i wish they'll be doing ayala mall tours soon and be offering purple hunt shirts and freebies like before cos i soo want that! >:D

anyway. HELP! >:D