this is getting frustrating

so i was doing my rounds at the lab and i came into a bit (kindof but not really haha) of realization.... that the most important thing i learned from resigning from the library is to NEVER BRING YOUR PROBLEMS TO PEOPLE YOU KNOW COULD NOT HELP.

if you have a problem and you want it solved, talk to the people who could help you. specially to the person involved, or just the nearest person you could afford to get involved. sometimes people say they only want someone to listen to them, but come on. that's IMPOSSIBLE. i mean, yeah people will listen but at the back of their heads they'll have their own say about it, so at least get ready for some unsolicited input, which can't be helped. and you gotta be thankful for this, cos at least you know your friend's doin some brainwork analyzing your crap.

those who listen will either


a) agree to you, to how grave your situation is, how you're such a victim in all of it, how you don't deserve that kinda crap, blah blah blah that's the easiest way to deal with ranting/sharing friends. AGREE TO EVERYTHING THEY SAY. or better yet, add up to it, if only to make your friend feel better! share your own experiences about it! they need to let it out after all, and it's a flattering thing to be the "chosen" one, yafeel trustworthy with that ayt? that's one, make your friend feel he made the right choice of coming to you for a breather.

but yknow, if you agree to much nothing will get solved. for example (and from personal experience too! bwaha), you hate a person and you share it to your friends and you find other people who hate the same person... what happens is that you form an anti-*insert name here* fan base and you bash the person every time you meet. eventually you feel good hating the person. do not share your problems for personal gratification.

b) agree then advise. just take note once you've given advice, give your entire thinking into it and show how you came to that advice, pull out an entire manuscript of your perfectly impartial psychoanalysis to back yourself up, cos once you lay it down, YOU'RE INVOLVED.

most of the time people prefer the a) way. nobody wants uncalled-for comments, if you see the person is still hot off the grill, a) is the best way. you don't wanna mess with the temper, specially if you gonna advice something that will make your friend seem at fault too. yknow. problematic people are the protagonists. YOU HAVE TO HELP THEM. they have to emerge the winner.

i know how frustrating it is not to be able to let out your problems. BUT if you think it's just gonna get messier, then by all means, keep the rant to yourself, to your blog, to your art, to your music... unless you want it fixed.

//end rant (uhh yes that's my rant)

ay ewan. nakaka-frustrate lang! parang kanina i was crying at school kasi badtrip na badtrip ako tapos i saw a friend sa labas tas gusto ko lang tumabi at umiyak kaso sabi ko, may klase pa ko, chaka ano naman sasabihin ko? wala naman akong masasabing maganda. chaka me solusyon naman na. so ayon nag-CR na lang ako at nagpatuyo ng mata. kainisssssss. >:\

PS: siguro God is watching over me. on the last two times i tried to smoke, burilyaso lagi. nung una, muntik mahuli ni bossing. tapos awhile ago, nakasabay ko maglakad si Diane! Diane! holy Diane! i mean, that's someone from our bible study group. >:\ argh. the cigs were ardy in my pocket yknow.

too much bullshit

to what lengths do you have to tell people how terribly you hate someone? does it have to reach 10 people? 20? the whole world? where is the sensitivity? where is the hope for reconciliation? when everyday you involve people who aren't supposed to know in the first place?


you don't do that to friends. you just don't. at least if you want to keep the friendship. if.

now everyday we're faking it. everyday we're troubled. everyday we don't know what to do. who to tell things to. who to trust and who to hang out with. everyday we start over. same lies, same crap.

this friendship is getting worse by the minute.

and seriously, it's hard to just talk to anyone about it because everyone's freakin biased, polluted, untrustworthy. and people just end up agreeing to it. NO ONE WANTS TO HELP. everyone wants to get back at someone. people listen because it's a certified "scoop". the crap gets thicker and thicker.


bat di na lang kasi ayusin?
puro na lang paninira.

EDITED TO ADD: and it's not about who's at fault here. it's not about who started doing shit and whatnot. not because you didn't do anything, means you shouldn't do anything. i mean, everybody does nothing and still gets hated. if you really want to work things out, you'll humble yourself and talk it over. personally.

Breakfast @ Spiral

complimentary breakfast for two at Spiral Restaurant, Sofitel last Saturday. shared this eat all you can buffet with terai HAHA because mommy and daddy are on a "healthy" diet. bwahaha i traded my morning class for this but it's all worth it. the food mehn! >:D

thank you mommy for bringing us here again, and for granting us compli breakfasts every year for like 10 years already hehe! i love you and congrats for being, finaaalleeeeh, a lifetime MDRT member! >XD you worked hard for it and you deserve it! yehey!

so what's cool with this is that on top of the breakfast, we get a free hotel accommodation. that means free pool, sauna, jacuzzi, gym, (shampooconditionersabonshowergeltootbrushtootpastepencilstationerysewingkit), AND CABLED TV. bwahahaha

on the food. yak ang arte! rume-review! e kasi i remember 3 years ago, lumamon ako dito! pero ngayon parang hindi ko na trip lahat! dati kaya one plate per cuisine! e ilang stations yon, mga more than 5 hahahaha ngayon, uhm, lugi akoooo!!!! ang naenjoy ko lang ay etong platong ito chaka yung coco crunch. ewan ko ba! gutom naman ako! >:\

platong ito

plate 1 of 4 ni terai

sooo ipinuslit ko na lang sina mommy ng isang platong mixed pastries HAHA i dunno if we're allowed to bring food upstairs but based on their 360 degrees camerasss, i figured it would be an embarrassing thing to be caught doing it so we looked for a "well-positioned" table and bagged the entire plate of breadssss. i mean, ang squatter ba? but daddy brought me muffins before when he ate at Spiral! >:D feeling ko ok lang naman.

noightmeyer

terai was reading her horoscope and it was bad. she was in her room, and i was there doing some ironing. she looked desperate and frustrated and was in the verge of violently throwing things out of anger. then she calls out to the freakin newspaper... something like "what do i have to do to blah blah blah?!?!??!!!" then there's a freakin voice who responded, "do you really want to know?" in a deep manly voice i could assume was the devil. then it whispered something to terai, something like "SAY GOODBYE TO YOUR MOM AND KILL YOURSELF".

and then terai was freaking heading to mommy and i was like alarmed and crying like crazy so i raced to mommy as well haha parang, "MAAAAAA!!!!" sabay iyak! then idk what happened next basta next thing i know i was chasing terai upstairs and was still crying like baboy cos i freakin don't want her to kill her freaking self, then she went to her room and i was like "NOOOOOOOOOO!!! *don't lock the doooooor*"

well, she didn't. and i was like "HUHUHU TERAI PAGUSAPAN NATIN TOOOOO"
then i woke up sniffing and crying. alam nyo yung mega iyak with matching sinok pa. nakakainissss. kaparanoid lang eh so i texted terai. e wala lang.

okasi diba ansarap syumesta ng hindi nagdadasal. >:\

The truth about CAPTCHA typing jobs (or just my usual paranoia)

CAPTCHA typing jobs require you to log-in to a website using the details your employer gives you. then it's just a matter of typing words that appear on an image, like what you do to verify you're human when you comment here. you type words as much and as correctly as you can. then based on the number of correct words you've delivered, the company pays you.

so, what's it for?

all i know is that it's actually part of a large illegal work. so basically when you get hired for this, you're probably gonna work for an evil guy though that doesn't necessarily mean he won't pay you, cos of course scammers also need people to work for them.

besides working for a scammer, other things to be suspicious about this kind of job is that

1. job description is inaccurate
for example the job posting is entitled, "DATA ENTRY -- type PDF to EXCEL"
but then the employer replies to your application with the real thing, that it's a captcha typing job, gives you a quota, username and password and blaaaah

if it's a legit job, why put misleading job postings?

2. the QUOTA. most of them captcha bosses will usually give you a 10,000 words quota before releasing your payment of around $10-50. 10,000 is a big number. even if you're a ridiculously fast typer, you have to put up with

a. slow image loading. it loads one by one yknow, and their server could get really fucked up at times. i'm into 2 captcha jobs right now and they're both damn slow.

b. excessive errors that could lead to your account being banned. which means, you're not getting paid. they could even fake this for all you know.

with those in mind, try to compute how much you can type in a day. it's too disheartening, you'll end up waiting (for the images to load) more than you could type. and they're asking for a minimum of 10k correct entries before you get paid? when will you ever get there, srsly? i'm not sure if they actually pay but based on the quota they set, it's almost impossible for you to get paid. it's like those pay-per-click websites that make you hope in vain.

and i think, the reason for this very large quota is that... they never really expect anyone to reach it. so when an employee drops out of the project, the company benefits because that person has accomplished a couple of words at least, and they didn't have to shell out a single buck for it. so imagine if 100 workers drop out in a day, and these people have typed at least 100 words each? then the company gets 10,000 words typed for free when they could've paid $10 for it.

and the last reason why i find these job fishy...

3. preassigned username and password
before you start the typing job, your employer will give you a username and password for the website/program you're gonna use. you don't get to create it yourself. which i find weird because, at least your work has to be credited under your account. i still don't understand this haha but err, it feels wrong.

so there, i've had it with MAKE EASY MONEY JOBS. they're easy, but in the long run they're never worth it.

argh. does this mean i'm stuck with writing forever? >:\

hey there spider!

WWW.OMEGLE.COM

LOL so on the three times i tried to open a conversation with a "hey there, spider!" every freaking stranger disconnects. as in, instantly. it breaks my heart. one even said, "i' m not a spider", then logged out. errr

but there was one, just one who replied with a, "no, i'm a bug"
and i knew i could talk to this dude. cos he's a freakin bug and i smell nerd!!!!

and boy was i right.

dream within a dream?

yess ang haba ng hair ko sa panaginip ko! >:))) inaway daw ni james si brian dahil sinaktan at pinaiyak ako. suntukan, sosyal! tas mejo pinapanuod ko lang sila tas pinipicturan habang umiiyak haha anlabo. tapos tapos nagvanity shot din ako tas nakita ko antanda ko na! with wrinkles and everything! kaloka! @_@ weird casting din pala.

tas nagising ako sa alarm clock so shempre ini-snooze ko. e patay yung ilaw, e dapat mag-aaral ako so binuksan ko. e ayaw bumukas so pinuntahan ko si daddy sabi ko papalit ng ilaw. e ayaw nya so natulog ulit ako.

tas nung nagising ako bukas na yung ilaw tas patay na yung alarm clock tas 2am na. narealize ko, panaginip lang pala yung kanina. kasi hindi ko pinatay yung ilaw bago ako natulog. nakaka-confuse in fairness.

me isang part na andun si yannah at martin tas nagbbike ako sa LB yata yon.

tas me isang part din na nagpipicture kami ni mommy, daddy, terai sa kalsada (ewan ko kung san) tas parang webcam shots yung lumabas, yung me warp effect. ekek

tapos yun. puro fragments sya kasi alarm ako ng alarm e tulog parin naman ako ng tulog. so ngayon, eto ica-cram ko muna yung mga dapat isulat.

good morning!