panaginip

i was in a beach wedding tas magkaka-tsunami daw. we were on the shore na e when the water started receding so i grabbed my bag dun sa table, along with stuff on it. naalala ko me dalawang bible dun eh, i grabbed both tas parang yun lang dapat dadalin ko pero kinuha ko parin yung ibang mga bagay bagay sa lamesa.

end dream.

hindi ako si darna

the entire world is convinced that the end of the world is near and that the earth is bound to be destroyed completely by fire. so the world leaders invested everything within monetary value to construct a space ship that will house all 6 billion (and more) people in the world and transport them to a confirmed habitable area at planet Mars.

however, the truth behind this space ship is that it cannot hold the entire human populace. everyone has been tricked into thinking that they are safe as long as they're inside the ship, the people behind this deception thought it was the best thing to keep the people in peace and avoid any operational hindrances. But once the aerial vessel takes off, sections of the ship will disengage according to script, leaving billions of people behind. as planned, it has to look like an accident, an unforeseen mechanical glitch that resulted to abandoning half (or even more) of the world in order to save the human race.

//end plot
because i'm feeling sad just thinking about it

okay. actually, if it has to be movie material, i'd pick a random retired (or fired) aeronautics engineer who accidentally finds out the blueprint of the ship and debates whether it's safe for take off (considering the humongous weight). LOL it could be a matter of common sense but yknow, it's the end of world and it's the only ship that could take ye to mars haha. so mr. random engr tries to get his family off the to-be-abandoned part of the ship and gets into an expected moral dilemma. "authorities" found out and tried to buy him into keeping the secret in exchange for his and his families safety but hmm, could he really?

// eeeeennd!
cos i dunno how to make a happy ending for this haha


hindi ako si darna.

i'm sorry. nag-guilty ako but i also need time to recharge! i know you need someone to talk to BUT i'm simply TOO BUSY. at alam ko na pag sinagot ko ang tawag mo:

• isang oras tayong mag-uusap. ma-eexpose tayo pareho sa harmful radiation LOL
  
• mapapa-mcdo ako ng wala sa oras. pamasahe + food = bankruptcy
  
• i'll feel useless in the end cos i'm not capable of giving sound advices. not an issue, i know, cos sometimes people just need company but...
  

it's not that i don't wanna hear you out, i wanted to talk to you too kaso i can't afford it right now. i mean, why do you have to cry every time you call me. more than being flattered i feel extremely guilt tripped.

>:\

the power of words

last night i told my dad not to come to school this morning cos i wanna sleep more, and he agreed! so i put off my alarm clock and slept peacefully without worrying about the pesky snooze! e kaso when i woke up, daddy changed his mind eh i was so groggy and lazy so i told him i'm not coming to class, and if anyone was curious why, just tell them i'm sick. and he did! i received 'get well soon' messages from my friends and well, natawa lang ako. and somehow, i felt sick. i dunno if it's about the messages that implies i'm sick or about a little lie that's becoming true but either way, i felt eerily sick! it suddenly became to cold for comfort and the bed became more inviting than ever. hallerrrr. sino kayang makapangyarihan?

hay Lord. i just lost 1k. san na ba napunta yun? hindi pa naman sakin yun nakakasar lang eh. buti na lang me pamalit ako. or baka naman wala talaga sakin in the first place? arg stress. pera. stress. grrr

wth is happening to the world

sure the plates have been moving all along as it has for the past billion years but argh it's too depressing that it has to move that freaking much and hit japan so badly. i'm moved to tears at what my tumblr friends has flooded me with on their dashboards and it sucks because for japan, it's just the first wave. earthquake, tsunami, nuclear meltdown threat, tons of casualties, blaaaah! so much tragedy has occurred and we aren't even past the first quarter of the year. how bad is this still going to get? Looooord.

on another note. the school website put off the hits column on the list of latest news! why! i was watching how many visitors came to my "speech" page. hey, it was leading! haha maybe they should update the permalink too, it's weird. >:O

on yet another note. hate talk tayo.

i've improved! when i was in highschool, my blog has a category called hate-list where i blind-item despicable classmates and entities from school. anyway, checking these so called entries now i don't even remember who they were, or what they've done and i could only laugh at how foully i've reacted to their hmm, "presence" haha.

ewan. i think i'm not the kind of person to hold grudges or whatever. i tend to forget over time bwahaha depending on the type of attachment i have. most of the people i hate are hated universally bwahaha therefore the guilt of wrongfully channeling my wrath is divided into multitudes! bwahahaha

more so, i firmly believe that everyone has a good side. and as i've mentioned before, it depends on which angle you're seeing the person from. there are people who have larger bad sides that when faced upfront look like walls, when it fact it's just a single side of their whole being. either you move it to one angle, or you walk to that place. choice is yours, or ours, or mine. bwaha

i realized calling people flirts is bad, no matter how perfectly it describes them and no matter how no other adjective could compare hehehe everything people display is a part of their nature, and being a flirt could well be a consequence some genetic experiment their parents did way back. on the ride home i did some quick psychoanalysis on why people are the way they are how much understanding must i allot per friend. and it was soooo cool. i realized that the only flirts i hate are those who snake into my crushes' lairs. otherwise, i couldn't care less. i could always look on the brighter side! it's not like a social misunderstanding could ruin a good friendship! hallerrr so not worth it.

then again. there are two (pwedeng 3) types of friends (or pwede ring lovers, but i prefer classifying this under friend types)

1. accepters
2. changers
3. both

need i say more? most of the time they're both but you know, more than being a list it could also be a process. BUT there are times when you just need 1 and not 2, and sometimes just 2 and not 1, even when a person can be both. HAHA gets nyo? anlabo yata lolz

personally, i'm more of #1... depends on how much i care for the person. and so far, the only people i could be #2 with is my immediate family specially terai and daddy haha. it's hard to be #2 with your friends cos there's the risk of being misunderstood. and no matter how much that change is geared towards the common good, it's hard to remove your personal interest with it. like, you're only changing the person to suit your taste. isn't that selfish? so yknow, before trying to alter someone's lifestyle or nature, be sure you're in the right position and that you're doing it selflessly, and finally... that you'll stick around even after the change, even after the change has gone bad.

yun lang! it's quite a bother hating people for something you know won't change.

LOL case in point goooone. wth am i trying to say again? haha

my speech on our school website! >8D

james told me they already posted the thing, and though i had a hard time navigating my way through the website, it's worth the search! here you go! oh holy link!

Be Inspired. Dream High

credits to James for putting up a title, i suck at titles. haha 9 facebook shares. i feel proud. lumelevel amp! haha

ok. this entire night and morning is dedicated to our friggin softeng prowject!
uhm. Lord. why is this happening. i dunno what's worse, my smoking or my ludicrous incapacity to brew some kindof mutual understanding with my crushes. this is crazy but i'm not getting any younger and if by this age i should already have an average of 2 boyfriends, then i must suck so much as a woman! heh i'm 20 and i can't even handle a single conversation. every time i get reminded of how much creativity i lack with responding to potential love lives, i get stumped. this is not to sound desperate but yknow, i'm twennnyyy and i'm clueless on how to deal.

if my responses were to be programmed in a switch, the default is probably the most executed case. in which i state

default = no reaction
to the point that it gets misinterpreted as utter non-interest... which can't be helped! argh

what now?

there's the guilt. i'm planning on doing something kindof mean, i just couldn't bring myself to do it because i don't want to seem sarcastic. i'm sure there's still something worth saving in this friendship, but i can't fix it right now because i haven't recovered from the pain yet. which was, of course, self-inflicted and was all brought by virtue of being extremely curious, possessive, narrow minded, judgmental and in love.

i can't be sure if i did what's best, but ever since i did it, i hasn't plagued me that much. this is probably one of the few times i contemplate about it, about that action. i don't ever regret doing that. except that i wish there was a complete information blackout about you for me. i don't want to hear anything. i don't want to know anything more. i shut you off first, and it was choice i made to save myself. albeit being selfish, that's how i deal. and i'm not missing you.

BTW. the 08s are exiting the school in a few weeks, so wtf but i sorta have to get a replacement for JM. and i just did! i'm calling him Tenjo for no reason at all. he's good looking, smart and ftr, he wears glasses. >8D enough to pull a heartstring! >:D ok! akin na toooo!!! mygaaahhd age doesn't matter now, does it? i'm losing it, call 163 for me. >XD

ok, i have a plan. i have to get in his class next tri! someone get me the accounting curriculum LOOOOL

school is no fun without crushes!

the SALE

70% off means 70% more people.
i was hoping electroworld would put my dream creative zen style on sale. but no. heh.