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Thursday, February 24, 2011

not much time left

and i'm not doing anything! i have every excuse to sleep late today (and skip schoolwork), but i can't seem to decide on which reason to use. i could:
  • finish watching Perfect Match
  • continue watching Zettai Kareshi
  • start watching Kimi ni Todoke
  • try rewatching Gravitation
  • continue reading The Book Thief
and you know. there are a few things bothering me today, stuff giving me unhealthy jitters. they aren't even sure to happen, but i'm hoping they won't... ay joke. i consider them opportunities though a lot is to be sacrificed but what that hell. as long as my work isn't compromised and i won't be wasting a penny, i'm game!

opportunities. responsibilities. commitments.
katakot.

what?

when i created my email account, yanibirog, i was frustrated because i wanted it to be yanbirog but unfortunately it was already taken. i created a yan.birog but the dot looked awkward so i didn't use it. haha recently, or just a few hours ago, i logged into my email account and was shocked that my inbox has only 2 items (one from my boss and one from my classmate), and my labels gone! there were a few messages stacked on the trash and they  were emails from months back.

and then i realized! i opened the wrong account! i opened YANBIROG. wtf, so after all... that address was mine!!! nyek. but there's something wrong, when i pull down the sortof 'info tab' it says there that my email is yan.birog

ang gulo naman. i opened yan.birog, and it contains the same messages, settings, blah blah. nakakainis apparently, i think i may have created yanbirog when i was just starting at gmail but i went back to yahoo and blah, and when i decided to use for real, i forgot that i already created an account and thought that someone already has preferred username. ayon.

gusto ko syang gamitin ulet kaso i have to change a tedious amount of account settings in the different places i have an account with. haynakonamano. hmp

BWAHAHA welcome to yet another JM segment! right down the cuuuuut!
eto seriously ah, i've never mentioned this much about a single majorcrush. e wala e. ewan. overdue! HAHA
so awhile ago we were talking about books. you'd think it was smart talk but HAHAHA hindi naman masyado. wala lang talaga. so while in the middle of the conversation (key word: CONVERSATION. akalain nyo. i was having a nervous breakdown inside e pero uhm hindi naman yata obvious. basta alam ko malamig. haha) i received a text message from him.

shempre ako naman, haaa?
wrong send pala. >:\

<assume>BWAHAHAHA masyado mo kong iniisip JM. tsk. ultimo message para sa iba, aksidente mong naipadala sakin.</assume>

but quite frankly, i didn't like the message!!!! sana para sakin na lang talaga yon! ugh, whatever. HAHA
basta basta, kinikilig ako. bwahehehe

goooood morning!

i just woke up! bwahaha! >XD magaaral na ko yey >:)

heh. there's always satisfaction in knowing you have something others don't and want to have. then there's pain when it starts to leave you, even if you weren't attached with it in some way. people value their possessions too much, kahit wala silang pagpapahalaga, basta alam nilang nandyan at kanila parin, masaya sila. people take pride in knowing that they have something (especially someone) who follows them even when they don't care.

ayon. me mga tao talagang concerned lang sa pagaari ng iba. ngayon, mas naiintindihan ko na yung mga kontrabida sa TV. for me their characters are more realistic, and they mirror human emotions better than the leads do. haha biased yata ako, ayoko talaga sa mga bida in the first place kasi fake sila. sila yung tunay na plastic, they're the ideal humans. yung mga kontrabida yung totoo. at panget sila, kasi ganon tayo.

me mga tao rin na gusto lang ang isang bagay for as long as it's wanted. hangga't may value (sa ibang tao), hahawakan nila. pag wala na, ididiscard. wala daw kasing thrill magmayari ng isang bagay na alam mong sayong sayo. people enjoy the thrill of the chase and take pride at being preferred. gusto natin na pinipili, at nanalo sa lahat ng comparisons. we hate being compared, but we secretly owe our entire egos to it.

nakakaiyak ang nangyayari sa Libya. i was listening to the radio about it and sobrang natakot ako. hindi na makatarungan. hindi na makatao. everytime i read news about it, kinikilabutan ko. nubato Lord? @_@;;

apparently, news says that the Libyan government refuses to return bodies to their families unless they sign an agreement saying they died of surgery. such fucking disturbing news. how can someone be so cruel? demonyo na to. demonyo na talaga WAAAAAHHH

then there's an order kill every protester using inhumane weapons. and there's no exception: men, women, children and the old, they're all on the list. everyone who go against fucking Qadaffi's orders are burnt on the spot. dfjvxkzlashlnsj;as

so much political unrest. this is the bloodiest fight for democracy i've ever seen. askldgjcvugxhcgf

end rant.

BTW. JM texted last night! WAAAAAHHH e wala lang, it's just about the book i lent him a day ago. he liked it. and i replied fast, for the record my dears. i replied fast like it's just a regular text, there isn't even a question in it but it's the type of text you know you have to reply to not because it's your crush, but because... because. bakit nga ba. because, it would sound awkard if i didn't? i mean, it was just a comment!! and i ended it with a next message. gaaaahn, i am such a potential-conversation killer. but i intended it that way (palusot) because i was studying! studies first! BWAHAHA so parang yung huling sinabi ko e "osya sige magbasa ka na" which of course translates to, "sorry but i have to end this! it's such a pain having to let go of this but i'm studying and you're disturbing me! if this goes on, it'll be unfair for you. piso per text ka, ako 50 cents lang."

yuuuck e bat a corny ko. bwiniset ko lang sarili ko. oyano, i'm making a fuss (again and again) over the smallest things.

BTW2. nakakabwiset kanina. minsan ok, minsan hinde. Lord, extreme tong taong to. meganon palang tao sa mundo. ang hirap pakisamahan. see, he doesn't care about the world, and correspondingly i'm sure the world doesn't care about him either. anubayan Lord, i asked for patience and he showed up. amen. at least kahit pano me silbi sya, patience-tester amp. gusto ko syang ibato sa ibang planeta but if that would spare his life for judgment day wag na lang! paki teleport na lang sya sa Libya! ok, wag na lang din baka sya pa sumunod na Qadaffi.

paki judge na lang sya. now na.
ok. joke lang. che. where is my patience. ~_~;

okok mag-aaral napo! 2am na eh! waha

Monday, February 21, 2011

yey

yehey for selling my books! i just shipped the items awhile ago, hopefully my customers should get em by tomorrow or something. Grarrrr, they mispelled the name and address of my Gen San recepient! anyhow, i believe they have the necessary technology to verify that. otherwise i'm gonna hate 2G0... for awhile.

i hate you!!!! you keep on drafting meet ups but you never confirm, so we end up cancelling every fucking time. you know what, i'm always here! i'm just waiting for you! how hard it is to text? how dare you say you miss me when you never intend to show up in the first place? HOW.DARE.YOU. if you said you were coming the day before, i would've blocked the day. i wouldn't have to come up with some lame excuse to say i'm not available TOO just because i didn't want to sound like i'm looking forward to it, which i really am. fuck my pride, aye. if i told you i was waiting will you come?! I FUCKING DOUBT IT.

i can make things possible if you work with me. if you show your intentions, if you're sincere enough. i'm tired of waiting. i never expected anything of you because i knew there was nothing about you that could impress me any more than your words.

you.are.all.words.
just.words.

you can capture someone with your words for a while, but it takes action to make them stay.
i can't count the number of times this has happened. i seriously wanna cry right now.

i hate you. >:'(((((((
so much i want to quit being your "friend" and all.
err, i kinda just did.

notes to self!

yet another list of things to do (hopefully) so here you go, my so-far forever in-progress

TO-DO(OUBT) LIST:

// softeng project
calling it a thesis would be an overstatement, and looking forward to our output i doubt it's ever going to sound thesis-like. argh

what i need for this is lots of research on php and mysql. plus raw pics for the webpage. i hate programming, i'm more excited about designing the pages than the actual coding. argh. the things i like and do better at sound all too irrelevant at this point. why. >:(

//4thglan2 project
this would be so easy if i knew what to do... with the codes.

//midterm exams
yadda yadda yadda

to my groupmates who know what they're doing and is doing it right, thank you. you lessen my worries. LOL i'm not even a perfectionist but i end up staying all night editing crap. i love my groupmates but i hate group projects, sorry.

Sunday, February 20, 2011

John 15:13

currently downloading Gravitation series and OVAs! >:)

aynako. my table was swarmed with ants awhile ago! i didn't wanna touch it so i poured alcohol on the glass surface and lit it. flambed ants ang resulta! HAHA at least they're all dead! the crackling sound was a bit guilt tripping kaso argh. uhm. waaahhh sorry ants, you know how it goes when you want to stay on top of the food chain. huhu

i seem to have a lot of things to do hindi ko lang maalala kung ano.

Band Romance

Feb 20, '11 - 12something AM

//just got home from Ding's to celebrate the birthdays of our feb babies michi, ding and KA pero wala si KA LOL so we had all the food for ourselves BWAHAHA plus rockband and bandhero na pareho kong first time natry. at sobrang saya pala nya! the wonders of play station. i never experienced any of it before! HAHA Band Romance, we're going big time soon!

//finally got my geek shirt kaso the size was too small argh! i think i ordered ladies large but they gave me kids 2xL. argh? and i was expecting it'd be my favorite shirt because i love the statement so much!

//good news? the 3 Paulo Coelho books i auctioned on ebay were ALL SOLD. O_O; they're duplicates to i gave it a low starting bid. Eleven Minutes got 16 freakin bids! >8D

//kinda bad news, the Metrobank ATM at PureGold fairview ATE MY BPI PAYROLL CARD. so i was like, wtf? so i asked the guards what to do and they advised me to call the Metrobank number. i did pronto, hoping that i'd still be able to save my card right away but unfortunately, processing takes 1 to 2 weeks (but my bet is 1 month), and i have to personally pick it up from their makati head office. i have an option to just have it replaced from its home branch which is just around the corner, it's faster and more practical than having to wait and go all the way to makati. BUT, i dunno. i think it's a good thing it happened? it means i won't be able to touch my salary for at least 2 weeks!