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Thursday, January 20, 2011

hm

i came in their room and she was eyeing me with such familiarity. i could only guess it came from knowing either of the two:

1. that i am his professor's daughter
2. i was her schoolmate

i think i can be friends with her. BWAHAHAHAHA

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

it doesn't go away that easily

bittorent says my Skip Beat download has to wait 2 weeks++ to get finished. i said, as soon as it's done, i'll revert to win xp sp2 and try to get some hotfixes for my friggin SQL installation. para lang di masayang yung 68.5% progress ko. HAHAHA now, i'm hesitating on going back. i think, vista fucking starter will do FOR NOW cos i still have tons of programming software to install in the future and i don't want to meet thy BSOD every time i'm trying to be a good student. i dunno but i'm thinking it has something to do with my OS being non-legit hahaha

when i get my own laptop i want it to be XP. darn you microsoft for not realizing that vista is actually a DOWNGRADE of it. i dunno about 7 but the UI is too spiffy... i think it looks dumb. hehe anyway, i just need a windows something that doesn't eat too much RAM. -__-;

Rec me good anime's please. except bleach, naruto and one piece cos they always keep me hanging and they never get finished. and i hate waiting so, yon. >:)

i want another job. seriously. if i get a part time job outside which pays better i'll quit my school job. >:| i feel guilty that my friends who are more 'financially underprivileged' aren't given spots as student assistants, last time i checked it's a financial support program. honestly, i think they need it more. but. but. eeeehhh >:(

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you're a sensitive topic. i can't believe i can't just talk about you without worrying how others would feel. as your best friend, i feel bad that i'm restraining myself like this. all because i never wanted anyone to get the wrong idea. our groups are getting smaller and one day we'll all be absorbed in a single circle. i can't afford to be an outcast just because of an unresolved past. nyek nyek nyeeeeekk.


oryt. time to do some homework... for my dad's class tomorrow. hahaha

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

coincidence

isang araw nakita ko me naka-vandal sa chair na '*firstname lastname* ♥ JM'

sabi ko shet, dami kong kaagaw sayo bwiset. di ko mabasa yung surname pero malinaw yung firstname. sabi ko, hahanapin ko tong gurlash na to. kinabukasan, pagbukas ko ng FB may friend request ako galing kay firstname! hindi ko nga nabasa yung lastname sa chair so hindi ko maconfirm kung sya nga si gurlash. pero basing on the common letters and our 17 mutual friends, sya nga. sya nga si gurlash. sya nga, yung dapat na hahanapin ko pero naunahan ako. yung dapat ii-istalk ko pero kusang nagprisenta ng impormasyon. psychic! tingnan mo nga naman ang pagkakataon.

kagabi, lumong lumo ako kakaiyak dito sa pelikulang ito: A Little Thing Called Love (2010). Thai movie yan, divided into 8 parts sa youtube. please watch para masaya.

spoiler? hindi naman.

tuwang tuwa ako sa movie na yan kasi parang nakita ko sarili ko dun sa bida... nung simula. HAHA kasi sya yung panget na na-inlove sa isang heart throb. sobrang laughtrip. nakakatanga, me mga eksenang "shet parang ako lang to ah O_o". pero sabi ko nga, sa simula lang ako relate na relate at tawang tawa. kasi eventually, nagbloom yung girl at in the end naging sila. inuulit ko, sa simula lang ako nakarelate.

Monday, January 17, 2011

Jotter Pad and Memo Block FINALLY BACK @ National Bookstore + NEW FIND! Moods Memo Cube Pad

besides overstocking on pens, i also hoard papers. i specially like blank pages! kaya naman, wagas ako tumingin tingin ng mga notebook, sketchpad, at kapapelan sa bookstore. bwahahaha >8) yesterday, i saw these FINALLY BACK at National Bookstore SM North EDSA.


Jotter Pad (A5 blank pages!!) @ P39.25
Memo Block (3x3) @ P15.50

i remember, these two Star Paper Corp. products went out for a long time. i knew the demand was HIGH (i just know. there're a million paper freaks out there like me) but the amount of time it was gone almost seemed like it was phased out! mejo na torn ako don seryoso cos they're the perfect gift suggestions for me cos hello, they're cheap and functional at the same time! tas when i went christmas shopping and checked at NBS, they're all gone. argh. @_@;

anyway, they're back! for good (or forever!!!), hopefully. hahaha come on, paper isn't cheap! this is a ridiculously good find for me. the paper is of perfect quality. it isn't like the regular bond paper type, it's thicker like pang sketchpad pero smooth. waaaaaahhh >8D

now, for another glorious find! >8D


Moods Memo Cube Pad (muticolored!! 4x4) @ P30.00

evidently a hit! when i saw it there were only a few blocks left kaya naman bumili agad ako. WAHEHEHE it's obviously cheap cos it's bigger than your regular memo pad, it's multicolored (crap. i gasped when i first saw them. exagge pero nakakaiyak sa tuwa >XD), and it's only 30 pesos. san ka naman nakakita ng ganon? waley! 

seeing papers like these, and walking through a wonderland of colored pens and markers makes me want to draw again. i haven't been drawing lately! 

anyare ba?

makailang sorry na ko Lord o, ayaw ako pansinin. osya sige. last na yung kanina. pundi na ko Lord. alam mo yung sobrang guilty nako nung simula kaso nung tumagal naiinis na rin ako. ganun yun e, yung guilt pag dumaan ng hindi nareresolve, nagiging remorse, but in my case nagiging inis! heh. joke lang. >:|

i encountered a super duper mega major major fatal 0.1 second blue screen of damnation. i was installing SQL by the time it appeared and restarted. then i couldn't log-in anymore blah blah blah. which is why i reinstalled *irap* windows fucking vista starter. graaarrrr.

matutulog na ko.

Lord, good luck sakin bukas dahil mago-ghost nanaman ako. this time, with added pressure and stress and everything else dahil wala si boss #2 at ISA LANG ang source disk na ipinagkatiwala nya sakin. pag ako nag-fail at mali ang source-destination combo ko. patay ako. patay ako ng lubusan. iiyak ako. promise.

buti na lang maaga ako uuwi.

tengenehmehn

this week was quite a liberating week for me. all i ever did was attend classes, watch anime and did a bit of stalking.

♦ no more articles to write! that was kinda relieving though at some point that would mean i won't be earning that 'extra' income i want. asrgkjgdsl

♦ my 'little bit' of stalking actually led me to sad yet enlightening conclusion(s) truthsss...
1. i was never really someone special to him and
2. he never really 'liked' me like 'that'
3. it's all in the mind. that's the major major conclusion here, i wish i could exaggerate it better.

see, that's what happens when you keep your feelings to yourself for too long. you end up fooling yourself with your own fantasies. you hope for the wrongs things, you hurt for the wrong reasons, and you slowly lock yourself into a false alternate reality that is built on assumptions. but it can't be helped. i guess. haha

♦ the most liberating part of it is that, i can now stop thinking. i can now quit stalking. i can now quit hoping that there could be something because, as i've recently realized and proved (socially, mentally and scientifically. orz), there really is nothing going on. even in the past. why did it take me this long to realize that. FML

but it wasn't a total waste, the best thing about 2010 for me was that i fell in love. for the first time. and 2011 could well be some kind of divine retribution, not in the angry kind of way. but yeah, i want a better karma. in this aspect of my life.

♦ let's get real. JM (heh) isn't real. he'll never be. i've always known that and i can bet my entire life on it. srsly. 100%. there's nothing in it. i'm not really hoping but it's not like i'll quit daydreaming and joking about it HOHOHO. bakit ba, he's the same as all of you guys, the only difference is that he isn't IT or CS. >_>;

why? i've read and understood the terms circling around the impossibility of anime crossing this certain dimension but i still flail over them like a lovesick pea shooter. and why (again)? have they read my terms, which states that i can cross their friggin 2D world and live happily ever after, provided i'm asleep? of course not! in the same way, i'm perfectly fine just dreaming about JM.

reality is much much awkward and boring and ugggghhhh-ish.
haynako Lord. >:|

Saturday, January 15, 2011

Gakuen Heaven



Finished watching Gakuen Heaven! so far, it's the third shounen-ai anime i've watched (i ♥ yaoi btw. please deal with it). Sorry but i didn't like it that much! >XD i dunno, maybe because Kaichou wa Maid-Sama still lingers.. strongly. bwahaha ♥

anyway. i didn't feel the story. i didn't like the lead characters, they're both weaklings. and the pairings are so, ugh what is that, uke-uke?! argh.just.argh. >_<; they AAAAALLL seem so effeminate! even the supposed to be seme's of the pack look creepily uke-ish. i mean, glasses. cool. tech geek. of course. but aaaarrrgh, i dunno. i don't like it. haha

there was only ONE character in the entire series that passed as a seme, by my standards of course, and he isn't even romantically involved with the lead uke which is so fail. i would've enjoyed it if he took the lead. argh. given that his character won't change. hmmm

Tetsuya Niwa - Student council president hohoho


Next! Skip Beat! (downloading) >:) let's see...

so my favorite yaoi anime is still JUNJOU ROMANTICA! yey! unless you can rec me something better? no AU's, plain shounen-ai. i've no enough brain cells to yaoi-ize popular anime though srsly if they could only turn yaoi doujinshi's to anime that would be totally cool. >8D

PS: askdgabsjckhl i switched to sun and hid my wall. you therefore conclude i'm hiding a boyfriend somewhere. ~_~; deeeeeym roight.