just a dream

LSS with Christina Grimmie and Sam Tsui's version of Just a Dream by Nelly (search it up on youtube).

anyway. my time's up, i should be heading out of duty, but... duty calls in! i'm currently watching over mam Sano's ITC-14 class. they're taking a quiz, i'm facebooking, and later imma do some class evaluations. ALL OFF DUTY. but i don't mind really. i've never really done anything extremely taxing so no harm doing all these. it's not like they're additional tasks. besides, i'm bored.

i have a friend who claims she doesn't miss anyone. i mean, she doesn't have that feeling of missing someone. is that even possible? isn't the mere recollection/reminscing process an indication of missing someone/something? my guess is, she knows how to miss someone, but she's not very vocal about it. or maybe she has it deep inside but she's in denial. i wish i could tell this to her but i'm afraid we're not that close. anyhow, just my two cents. missing someone is a natural feeling. everybody misses somebody. i know cos i do. and of course it doesn't apply only to those who are romantically attached.

i found out something about Sun Cellular's Flexi 50 promo. when the promo has expired and you haven't used up the entire 50 pesos, the remaining balance will revert to being a regular load! NOW THAT'S COOL. i thought, when the time's up and i wasn't able to finish my 50 bucks in 5 days, Sun's gonna eat it all up. Like the rest of the globe. HAHAH pun intended! go figure.

oryt. later! >:)

>:|

why does this day have to be so full of you? i knoooow, you're so past the majorcrush stage you've actually turned into someone i love. and i must admit, i'm trying to suppress the feeling. uhm but  i also know for a fact that doing so doesn't really do so. so sometimes i just let things remind me of you, it's not like it happens voluntarily haha but it happens a lot, so that's quite a problem. or not. you're like an intersect, everything i flash on extracts memories of you. i don't really intend to sound like i'm so love sick, but i guess that's the best way to describe me right now. minus the sick thing. cos even though i'm sick, it's not because of love. i hope i'm not being cheesy. argh.

anyway. i suddenly regret always pretending to be unaffected with your ''endeavors with women''. the truth is, i hated each and every one of them. except for the first girl you told me about, cos we come along pretty well. but the others. no. way. maybe because i don't know them personally. but you know. if i could be totally honest with you i'd tell you how ugly it is for a guy to hook up with so many girls successively and in short intervals. i hated you a lot because of that. he.he.he.he.he.he.

i don't know if you'll be able to read this. it's been a while and i wonder if you still go here. 

cheese alert.
so i'll just keep you in my heart, and do nothing. unless. >:|
anyway, i've got Yeorim as a majorcrush, so i've got someone to stare at. actually, i've managed to plot out his MTH schedule already. sorry. can't help it.

hi Chuck

what if there exists a world or a city so high-tech that money is practically virtual and no cash is being printed. it's a world where money is accounted in real-time and everything is balanced. money, in the form of digital signals, numbers, stuuuufff, is distributed in virtual accounts.  if you earn, someone loses. and vice versa. idk if that works but printing too much cash is economically degrading. so why not make money virtual? this way, you don't have to count everything on your till and audit manually. i mean, it's like obliterating cash and replacing them with debit cards. 

next.

warning: if you don't watch Chuck, you'll be lost.

another thought. so Chuck has been highly engrossing me these days so i thought, what if we create intersects not with government top secrets encrypted into images, BUT with, say Chemistry related stuff? we could make a chip for Chemistry, another for Math, another for Physics, for Law, for COMPUTER SCIENCE... you know, just those really theoretical fields (uhh, i guess everything is, anyway). cos basically it offers knowledge upon flashing on a trigger. so, if i see a coffee bean i'll flash everything about coffee, caffeine, yeah. 

and then, we could sell it for a million grand. it's a technology so advanced i could only imagine it in movies. imagine if i had a Chemical Engineering chip, when i open it all the encrypted images that has to do with chemistry will be downloaded in my brain. then i could flash on an image of Bohr and know everything about his atomic theory. then again, it works only with a trigger. but it's still goooood. i'd buy that, if it exists. 

but you know, coming from the series itself, the process of "intersecting" requires a highly capable brain. probably an IQ greater than or equal to genius. consequences have been made clear in the series that if a bunch of dimwits gets intersected, they go straight to the asylum, or in a coffin, whichever works. so i perceived that a mental test is necessary before proceeding to the purchase of the intersect. 

so in short, these chips are only for rich, smart (or lucky) people. that's discrimination, the smart gets smarter and the dumb goes insane. uhm, this is a flop. i'm not gonna earn from this. this item isn't marketable but the concept is fun. haha

i have another!!!!

so the hadron collider was made to help answer fundamental questions about physics, perhaps about how the world came about... BY inducing a collision using a particle accelerator. hopefully this will lead them to theorize more about the big bang? or the genesis? however they wanna do it, smashing two protons together in ultra-mega-high speed hoping to split it and confirm the presence of a much smaller unit of matter... is really cool and is boring holes in my brain. i'm not making sense.

so dear scientists, since you're ardy too cool, once you've done all your research and experiments using this mega expensive and huge facility (the collider, yes), is it possible to recreate the big bang in a small vacuum and develop a miniature universe? since it's a mini-universe, you could be a mini-God. 

hey. what if, this universe that we're in is just a mini-universe from someone's mini-vacuum from some mini-God's experiment?! and the theory stretches on to eternity. and well, that's scary. that's almost limbo.

ok. God bless us tomorrow. i don't know a thing.

THANKS ♥

honestly, my 20th was just a regular day. no heavy anticipation or anything. maybe because there's nothing more i could ask for. i have a very supportive family devoid of any stressful issues, i have friends who make me laugh everyday, i have a job so to speak, and i'm doing well with my studies. aside from material stuff, what more could i ask for? i'm not deprived of the good things in life. i may not have everything. but i've got everything i need. 

well for the most part i just watched my wall get flooded with greetings. come midnight and the wall posts are pouring in, by the end of the day i've got 150+. That's all, that's what i did the entire day. i spent it like a regular holiday. 

during the morning we came to my auntie's gravesite. She died on my birthday 4 years ago, and every year we go pay a visit and eat breakfast there with our relatives. >:)

we had spaghetti but i told mom to just send it to the neighbors and my cousins rather than invite them it, LOL bad time to be anti-social but i'm in no mood to entertain. i didn't know what tired me, but i slept the entire afternoon off.

now that i'm 20, my friends are telling me that i should get a boyfriend. i don't know. i can't even tell if a guy is interested. i tend to avoid guys who are leaning too close, specially when i don't have (or can't envision having) special feelings for them. the closest i have to a boyfriend is a bestfriend, but of course, that's still totally far off. just sayin. >:) back when i still lived in LB, we used to discuss about our ideal guys, and my housemates would, after rationalizing, conclude that i just needed a bestfriend, not exactly a boyfriend. i still agree, yknow. though i don't think that still holds. i want a bestfriend, that's just mine. possesive! bwahaha like a boyfriend yeah, but that's a bit too scary for me. err idk.

i mean. uhm. i kinda developed trust issues after finding out stuff about my friends. now i can't just tell anyone about my secrets anymore. which is, you know, just me and my crushes. HAHA

>:)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRIAN! >:)

hey, we're bestfriends but we only have, like 2 pictures together. one of which i am posting here lol

yeah. i miss sorely miss hanging out with you. you're the only person i could trust talking about my crushes with. it's a pain not to have someone like that nearby. everyone here blabs, and while i have no evidence that you do too, the fact that you're a guy probably makes the suspicion less.

i have a new majorcrush and i badly want to share it with you. >:((((( other than that, i miss you!

it's sort of like my favorite exercise right now. you know, biking! every afternoon i look forward to going around the subdivision to get a good sweat. well, i prefer biking in the morning cos i sweat harder with the sun but since i've got no time, the aft is okay. >:) 

so yesterday while doing rounds around the sub, i got chased by a dog. hahaha but i managed to stress myself enough to make me cycle faster. it was fucking barking at the humps. what a strategic place to wait for me. 

anyway. 

tact. learn it.

can i say something about the field trip? i know it wasn't worth 1,200 and the itinerary wasn't even met halfway. BUT I HAD FUN. i was complaining about the dullness of the tour and all the unsolicited side trips, but then i never expected it to be worth it in the first place. i came there for the subject incentives and my friends. and i believe that that's already worth 1,200. seeing that 5 of my subjects are throwing project incentives for it, that's like paying 240 per project. not bad. but that only works for people like me who joined for the same reason, which is what? 90% of the attendees. so really now, how can you complain like the trip was a total waste? surely that's worth, give or take, 20% of your final gradeS. i don't mind paying 1,200 for that. which isn't to say that the trip was worth it. LOL

well if you're gonna take it on the whole "field trip" perspective, it surely wasn't worth it. sure there were flaws, A LOT actually. but lemme tell you this, everybody knows that. so there's totally no need to RUB IT IN FURTHER (LOL i could only hope i'm not being ironic here). even the organizers know that. i can assure that everybody joined WITHOUT expectations, so why complain like you expected a lot?

here's what i can vouch for. NO ONE EXPECTED THE TOUR TO BE FUN (at least outside the bus). and if i may negate that, EVERYONE EXPECTED THE TOUR TO BE NOT FUN. and guess what, our expectations were met! so what's all the ruckus about.

if there's anyone who should complain, it should be those who expected the other way around hahahaha.

nothing really. just watching along the sidelines.

but you know what's ticking me off? see title above.

not taking sides cos i have friends on both parties. just trying to stay objective. on the bus level, i had fun. everyone did. that's probably the best that happened. and it's something to be thankful for.

hi

i was trying to hypnotize myself to sleep by watching a vid at youtube but got too scared at the comments, so many people are asking if a monster is gonna pop out and scream somewhere in the video. i'm tired of that kind of sick joke. i hate anything scary. i haven't started the video and i don't think i could ever start with it. it's 8 fucking minutes long, it's supposed to make me sleep but the comments made me more awake. there's so much fear in me. OTL

ever since i got tricked into watching vids with scary screaming monster popping at the end, i always check the time span of the video before loading it. if it's <= 30 secs. chances are, a monster's gonna scream the hell out of you (or most likely, me). same goes for a picture wanting you to look closer to find a hidden item in it. they're all the same. they're all monsters. 

i'm gonna watch chuck.

you know, i've been eating too much ice cream lately. i'm not even depressed. i'm trying to get thinner. but oh well. >:|