THANKS ♥

honestly, my 20th was just a regular day. no heavy anticipation or anything. maybe because there's nothing more i could ask for. i have a very supportive family devoid of any stressful issues, i have friends who make me laugh everyday, i have a job so to speak, and i'm doing well with my studies. aside from material stuff, what more could i ask for? i'm not deprived of the good things in life. i may not have everything. but i've got everything i need. 

well for the most part i just watched my wall get flooded with greetings. come midnight and the wall posts are pouring in, by the end of the day i've got 150+. That's all, that's what i did the entire day. i spent it like a regular holiday. 

during the morning we came to my auntie's gravesite. She died on my birthday 4 years ago, and every year we go pay a visit and eat breakfast there with our relatives. >:)

we had spaghetti but i told mom to just send it to the neighbors and my cousins rather than invite them it, LOL bad time to be anti-social but i'm in no mood to entertain. i didn't know what tired me, but i slept the entire afternoon off.

now that i'm 20, my friends are telling me that i should get a boyfriend. i don't know. i can't even tell if a guy is interested. i tend to avoid guys who are leaning too close, specially when i don't have (or can't envision having) special feelings for them. the closest i have to a boyfriend is a bestfriend, but of course, that's still totally far off. just sayin. >:) back when i still lived in LB, we used to discuss about our ideal guys, and my housemates would, after rationalizing, conclude that i just needed a bestfriend, not exactly a boyfriend. i still agree, yknow. though i don't think that still holds. i want a bestfriend, that's just mine. possesive! bwahaha like a boyfriend yeah, but that's a bit too scary for me. err idk.

i mean. uhm. i kinda developed trust issues after finding out stuff about my friends. now i can't just tell anyone about my secrets anymore. which is, you know, just me and my crushes. HAHA

>:)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRIAN! >:)

hey, we're bestfriends but we only have, like 2 pictures together. one of which i am posting here lol

yeah. i miss sorely miss hanging out with you. you're the only person i could trust talking about my crushes with. it's a pain not to have someone like that nearby. everyone here blabs, and while i have no evidence that you do too, the fact that you're a guy probably makes the suspicion less.

i have a new majorcrush and i badly want to share it with you. >:((((( other than that, i miss you!

it's sort of like my favorite exercise right now. you know, biking! every afternoon i look forward to going around the subdivision to get a good sweat. well, i prefer biking in the morning cos i sweat harder with the sun but since i've got no time, the aft is okay. >:) 

so yesterday while doing rounds around the sub, i got chased by a dog. hahaha but i managed to stress myself enough to make me cycle faster. it was fucking barking at the humps. what a strategic place to wait for me. 

anyway. 

tact. learn it.

can i say something about the field trip? i know it wasn't worth 1,200 and the itinerary wasn't even met halfway. BUT I HAD FUN. i was complaining about the dullness of the tour and all the unsolicited side trips, but then i never expected it to be worth it in the first place. i came there for the subject incentives and my friends. and i believe that that's already worth 1,200. seeing that 5 of my subjects are throwing project incentives for it, that's like paying 240 per project. not bad. but that only works for people like me who joined for the same reason, which is what? 90% of the attendees. so really now, how can you complain like the trip was a total waste? surely that's worth, give or take, 20% of your final gradeS. i don't mind paying 1,200 for that. which isn't to say that the trip was worth it. LOL

well if you're gonna take it on the whole "field trip" perspective, it surely wasn't worth it. sure there were flaws, A LOT actually. but lemme tell you this, everybody knows that. so there's totally no need to RUB IT IN FURTHER (LOL i could only hope i'm not being ironic here). even the organizers know that. i can assure that everybody joined WITHOUT expectations, so why complain like you expected a lot?

here's what i can vouch for. NO ONE EXPECTED THE TOUR TO BE FUN (at least outside the bus). and if i may negate that, EVERYONE EXPECTED THE TOUR TO BE NOT FUN. and guess what, our expectations were met! so what's all the ruckus about.

if there's anyone who should complain, it should be those who expected the other way around hahahaha.

nothing really. just watching along the sidelines.

but you know what's ticking me off? see title above.

not taking sides cos i have friends on both parties. just trying to stay objective. on the bus level, i had fun. everyone did. that's probably the best that happened. and it's something to be thankful for.

hi

i was trying to hypnotize myself to sleep by watching a vid at youtube but got too scared at the comments, so many people are asking if a monster is gonna pop out and scream somewhere in the video. i'm tired of that kind of sick joke. i hate anything scary. i haven't started the video and i don't think i could ever start with it. it's 8 fucking minutes long, it's supposed to make me sleep but the comments made me more awake. there's so much fear in me. OTL

ever since i got tricked into watching vids with scary screaming monster popping at the end, i always check the time span of the video before loading it. if it's <= 30 secs. chances are, a monster's gonna scream the hell out of you (or most likely, me). same goes for a picture wanting you to look closer to find a hidden item in it. they're all the same. they're all monsters. 

i'm gonna watch chuck.

you know, i've been eating too much ice cream lately. i'm not even depressed. i'm trying to get thinner. but oh well. >:|

switched to sun

uhh, finally i decided to move to sun. globe has been good to me, as far as keeping in touch with friends is concerned. however, it eats up a lot of my money. and the signal is really bad in our home.

with sun, i can save a lot. never mind if most of my friends use Globe. i'll use sun cos it's practical.

tomorrow, we'll be having a field trip at subic. this one day trip cost me 1,200 and the agenda isn't even half the fun compared to 500 @ E.K. i'm counting on the BUS ride tho. you know, i had to make stressful arrangements just to organize our bus so that all of my friends are in the same bus, in the their preferred seating arrangements. it stressed me out really. i don't appreciate strangers asking to change places. they piss me off.

and RA?! my favorite laughing mate isn't sure to come. she's supposed to be my seatmate! i'm looking forward pa naman to a lot of tawanan. but oh well. >:''(( why.

WISHLIST!!!!

osya. yaman din lamang na magbe-bente na ko. eto wishlist ng taong walang pera. >:)

1) shempre CASH.

2) Harry Potter Book Set. mga 2,600 - 3,000. parang ganun! 1 to 7 ah! >:D

3) PENS! NOTEBOOKS!

4) Bayaran nyo SmartBro ko, kahit 1 month, 1K! >:D

5) RARE: 2006 Fifa World Cup Lanyard: GERMANY BLACK
dahil hindi ako maka-get over nung nawala sya. >:( kasi naman e. lintik na chix yan.

6) 0.4mm Pilot Frixon Pen Refil

7) Bike lock >:)

8) well, CASH is preferred above all else HAHAHAHA

>:)

coincidence

OMG LOL
remember D? we don't know each other personally BUT just awhile ago, something happened that led me to actually speak to him. not in a friendly friend way though. thing is my friend found something that belongs to him, and when he was looking for it i was the one in charge so i ushered him to the guard BLAH BLAH BLAH. i couldn't get over it. seriously. he was too thankful. ♥♥♥

when my friend brought out the lost item, i knew it belonged to someone in their class cos they used the room where it was found. i sorta hoped that it would be his but dismissed the thought cos, what are the chances, really? i didn't expect it tho. i really didn't.

i didn't even get the chance to tidy myself up. what a shame.

this is too cool. of all the people who could own the thing, it happened to him! my majorcrush (as of 2nd tri, 2010)!!!! and to think that he just confirmed me at FB! wow. this is getting real. >:) he's finally going to smile for me! you know, as acquaintances. or like, as a gesture of gratitude for finding his valuable. well, technically, i wasn't the one who found it but i asked my friend for permission to give me full credit for finding the thing because i needed his "attention" more. uhm.

anyway. it's not like we're finally friends. hahaha
i'm just too happy.