fuckyeah done

here's what ate up my entire night: an eight-paged playbill i made out of a cup of coffee and a bad headache. i'm not trying to be humble here for gawdsake, but my sister says this is prettier and more theater-material compared to my previous poster design. it's a poster and a playbill cover design in one, actually.

hay. the consequences of not drafting and brainstorming before hitting photoshop. @_@

so while the caffeine is still actively kicking in my nervous system, i'll go continue reading Master of the Game (see reading list to your right). I'M ALMOST HALFWAY LOL

is wheezing her brains out

perfect health. that's all i need right now. i could trade everything for it. i hate getting sick! i used to be really healthy! that was before i spent an entire summer at a newly painted dormitory 3 years back. i must've inhaled all the paint gas and had toxic deposits in my lungs. since then , i easily get colds. fuck.

heyhey! above is a picture of my bulletin board duh. it's pretty cluttered but i like it that way LOL

actually i only have two major things to do right now, and they're all ORGWORK. wow. i've never been this busy on extra curricular stuff, then again, ever since i transferred to fern, co-curricular stuff never gets me busy. at least not this busy. hehe

1. play bill - just how do you call a playbill a playbill when it has no sponsors? i suggested this for the sake of post-promotion. never thought i would be handling the entire content though (and layout). anyway, no one has ever encountered a playbill in our group before. and i'm pretty much on the advantage (no. not really) for having watched numerous theatrical productions at UPLB.

2. a 6-8 paged essay on UPRIGHTNESS. it's for the FEU-ACP Essay Writing contest which i'm so gonna curse to hell if it takes another 6 hours from my sleep-schedule. and knowing me, it might even take 8. as members of that writing org chuvaness at school, we were required to participate in this. tell you what, i really wanted to join this ever since it was posted, but i never got the time to do proper research. well, i did, i borrowed a compilation of winning essays from the previous years and thought there was nothing special with it. not that i could write better, but it was boring. nothing striking. maybe it's because of the theme. >:| ewan. i might not do this after all. tinatamad ako mehn. T_T;

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i feel like people are overestimating my problems. HAHA sorry naman if my biggest problem right now is my CRUSH. did that disappoint you? am i not entitled to worry about such a trivial thing? did it strike you as you as odd that i'm worrying about something that you wouldn't think worried me in the first place?! do i look like i'm too old for this? (i know, yes. but, reallllyyyy???!?!?!!!)

ok. i've warned you enough. if you think my problem is big, it's thrice smaller in reality. i'm always exaggerating here. you should get yourself used to it.

i've been wailing tearlessly ever since i knew about it! and now people think like i have a problem with my boyfriend (my non-existent one). the truth is, if it looks like i have a problem with my boyfriend, in reality the problem is about my crush. if it looks like i'm getting my husband annulled, in reality i may be breaking up with my boyfriend. there's a pattern. thrice smaller than it seems. be aware. hehe 

WALA AKONG MAKWENTOHAN. pero ayoko naman magkwento kahit kanino lang! nakakinis kasi pag feeling nila, ang liit liit lang ng problema mo. >:( yoko na. masyado kong iniisip yung iniisip nya saken nung nalaman nya. rarrr

asan ka?!?!?!!!!

WAAAAAHHH!!!!!! @_@ i'm getting stressed over design jobs. i suck so much at photoshop >_< currently toiling over editing my proposed play poster design, because it looked like a horror movie poster. @_@

when it's actually comedy. 

grabe talaga, every time i think about it, napapa WAAAAAAHHH ako literaaaallll!!!! parang whaaaat, everything from the start isn't true? you befriended me because you knew?! gaaaawd, i seriously don't think you're that kind of person. and i have no grounds to say everything was like, untrue or something. can you even fake it in the first place?! I AM SO DOOMED AND DESPERATE FOR SOMEONE TO TALK TO ABOUT THIS. i can die of shame now. seryoso. 

BUT WHERE ARE YOU. 

PAKYOW!

it's kinda random right under the cut. you can opt not to read of course.
and i thought i was being valued for what i can offer, but it turns out i MAY be not, after all. MAY -- because i'm not sure. i wanna think i'm talented enough and i wanna get it from people who looks at me objectively. sadly, there're none.

i thought i was being responsible doing my job, then i think about what i discovered this day and mentally kick myself for ever making assumptions that i was good enough, that i was being called because of my skills or whatever.

my gaaaaawd i hate this day. i hate it to the core of this stupidly mantled planet!!!!! and when i thought of the person who made me feel like this, i wanted to rant! unfortunately, the first person i thought of whom i could rave about this, DID THE SAME BEFORE, so i seconded the thought. but i ended up spilling it to him anyway. but not everything.

i don't trust anyone anymore. even my closest friends.

I'VE HAD ENOUGH OF FRIENDS WHO ENJOY WATCHING ME MAKE A FOOL OF MYSELF.
is it so funny that i'm such a kid when it comes to this? i haven't been where you guys have been, because i'm too cautious. i hate you for playing with my feelings.

i fucking cried over this! over the fact that i'm making such a fool of myself AGAIN. AGAAAAAAIIIN. and it's about the same fucking person.

to the same fucking person though, i'm not mad at you. i'm actually grateful that despite everything, you're still cool and you still treat me civilly and gentlemanly. though i admit, after this, it'll be a struggle to be the same with you again. >:(

i would understand if the floor i'm on right now would soften and turn into a quicksand and swallow me whole. it's too shameful, i can't take it.

and he's too kind. fuuuuck.

my day has just begun

i'm not sleeping anytime soon.

to do:

1. java project
2. poster design - which i presume is going to be extremely crappy and disappointing since i didn't start it earlier. what's new? errrr.

FACT: August 2010 will have 5 Sundays, Mondays and Tuesdays. It only happens once every 823 years!

to whoever said this fact and to those who thought this was interesting, speeeecial, and worth its own twitter account and facebook fanpage, check your fucking calendars.

first of all, after 823 years (that's year 2833), august will not have 5 sundays, mondays and tuesdays. instead it will have 5 mondays, tuesdays and wednesdays. that claim is only true 823 years back (check august 1187) . damn.

and about the 5 repeating weekdays in a month? again! CHECK YOUR CALENDARS, it happens quite a lot. i mean, october 2010 will have 5 fridays, saturdays and sundays. december will have 5 wednesdays, thursdays and fridays. and may 2011 will be the same as august this year.

maybe what struck you people is the 5 repeating weekdays, since we know we only have 4 weeks in a month. i understand, i fell for that at first, until i saw september, october, november.... and sank in dismay.

so, dude. do your research. i can't believe i've wasted valuable time refuting your claim.

i'm not sleepy, thank God. >:)

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i don't know why i'm letting my health perish in this room. @_@; currently at blenz megamall, for the wifi, for the coffee... errr and for the second hand smoke because there are no available seats at the other side of the shop. sucks. i hope it doesn't rain cos i forgot to bring an umbrella. =___=;;

i need to research. i came all the way here to research for designs and source codes and other things that's fucking up my sleep patterns right now. why, the connection here is the best, and if i don't work out on getting a decent connection at home, i'd be wasting my entire lifetime here. -___-;

i'm looking for ways to not regret buying the LG KP500. my only complain is that, my inbox and sent folders load slow. i've only got 57 messages and i have to wait for 1-2 seconds for a single message to open. that's really slow. if my phone does not respond for 2 seconds, i call it slow. i know most of you would too. rrrrr

kkkkkkkk, nothing productive yet and it's 430. damn. ;___;