and then it happened

i'm learning to hate you because of your ways. and i can't do anything but observe and cringe, read and roll my eyes, and wonder and curl in disgust. i'm too old for this. i definitely am, but somehow i want to tolerate my childishness in this aspect of my life, cos seriously, i never knew better. someone's gotta show me what to do, cos i'm an idiot when it comes to this.

i feel especially old when i reminisce a lot. you see, memories are for the old. errrr, memories are for those who actually have a good one at least. HAHA errrrrrr....?

i'm trying to work hard for LMA, it's the least i can do being part of this particular production. being script-editor, i realized, was actually a very small job. so i'm doing my best to help out on other things. cos it bums me that i've already done my part and won't be doing anything else. nakakahiya kaya. everyone's working hard and since i'm pretty much done with 80% of my job, i thought i should help out. in any way i could. ang bait ko ba? oh, the remaining 20% goes to cast selection.

it flatters me that they liked my shirt design. too bad it's exclusive for FCLC members only >:( and wait, most of our new members today signed up because of the shirt. i don't think it's a good idea to make the shirt exclusive. i want my design to be seen everywhere. >:( grrrr

uhmm... hmmm... back to the first paragraph. i'm starting to hate the guy, really. i realized i can't tolerate his ways. best way to deal with this, i gathered using my utterly and unreliably inexperienced emotional psyche, is to minimize any form of contact with him. like, why the hell? I DON'T EVEN KNOW. what do you suppose i do to push him out of my friggin encephalon? not that i think of him a lot, but whenever i do, i get irritated to the core. whenever he breezes my mind, i never recall the good days. all i remember is me looking at my fool-est, and him fooling around 24/7. not a good memory. errrrr

ugggh, jealousy saps out my virtues.

cheap

sakay agad?!

can't you have any more class than that? and to think i fell in love with someone like you makes it even more unbearable. 


i don't like the weather. bad memories creeping in. last time i lit a cigarette was not even a year back, and now the fucking rain and cold make me want to grab one. 

shirt designs

credits to: Brusheezy (brushes) | Dafont (fonts) | Kevin Monge (tamaraw shape)

tshirt proposals for FCLC >:)

cafe firenzo

here for the wifi, not for the coffee. nothing beats BLENZ still. they serve the best frappes, the fastest wifi connection and offer the most comfortable seats (each with an electric outlet). it's just too unfortunate that the nearest to my place is at SM megamall. and because i have to embark on a brushes/fonts downloading spree to prepare me for tonight's bloody design agenda, i tried SM north. so far, the SM wifi here is fail but i'll get by hopefully. haaaay

so much to do tonight. i need more caffeine! >__<;

whut?

he raised his hand for a handshake, "Hi, ako nga pala si *insert firstname, middle initial, lastname.*" i took his hand, looking oddly at him, "Yan."

pota ang weird. 

but i remember him, he was wearing glasses in his ID picture, i saw it, i noticed it. why am i such a sucker for bespectacled guys?! he isn't even wearing one now. second time i mentioned him in this blog. third actually. hohoho

asdouyvqwrevqwr7qnpad CALCULUS and PE are my biggest problems. @_@

ayoko na, ayoko na talaga grrrrrrr

Lord, i did ask you to show me the right man after i graduate, but it doesn't mean i have to bank on the wrong guys right now. Lord, penge na kasing boypren. HAHAHA e kasi po naiinggit ako sa kanila. sila may love life ako wala! puro ilusyon! puro asa! puro crush!!! >:P Lord ah? thank you. he may not be the right guy for me now, but as long as he came from you, i know it's gonna work out. >:) chosssss!!! i'm not even serious but who cares? i'm not playing either... i just need someone. yun lang. Lord, you should know better, what do you think i need?! damn hormones.

earlier, i took back my exam at distruc cos i was so bothered with my score. i was confident pa naman that i'll get a high grade but it turns out i got two mistakes, 7 fucking points each. it wasn't even a mistake... it was, i dunno. i'm still trying to look for an excuse HAHA and with that, i was set at second place by 3 fucking points by none other than.... you know who. the smart little guy who wears glasses. ♥ okay lang, okay lang talaga, lalo ko syang naging crush. haha good competition. grrrr -__-; haaaay di nga...

woooh! i got 32/35 on sir MARIBAY'S quiz. yaaaak pero accomplishment yan. and i have to get straight A's from him from now on to compensate for my low quizzes. nakakaiyak. ayoko na. huhuhu

sorry sorry sorry

so there's this guy who constantly gives me BVs because of his, uhm, arrogance. he's a good friend and i admire him for his visions, missions, goals and objectives (VMGO lol) in life, though at times they sound impossible. he's a pretty smart guy, and probably a sensible one had i not been too prejudiced in psychoanalyzing him. thing is, most of the time i can't ride with his jokes, he either sounded too overbearing/proud OR i was too busy buffering. i'm sure if he was more serious, i'd love talking to him. and he writes well. kind of, well he can write. i mean, write grammatically correct sentences. wth does this have to do with this issue? yeah, but his arrogance is getting in the waaaaay. aksdgaruukblala

anyway, i kinda snubbed him at the library awhile ago cos i was too busy. nyahaha i felt guilty afterwards. so i thought i should make it up to him... by sounding like i don't hate him or something... on facebook. HAHAHA oryt, thanks Lord. feels like we're fine now.

i'm chatting with my best friend a few minutes ago, and discovered yet another thing about him. he likes helpless girls. i wonder if most guys have that kind of complex, hmmmm, let's call it the superhero complex bwahaha. self-explanatory, so you get it right? guys who like saving girls from the brink of nothingness or whatever it is that made them look in distress. i know now, they like damsels in distress!!!! no offense, but i haaaaaate damsels in distress. girls who look like they always need helping, FROM A MAN, on top of that.

yeah, i'm too ma-pride to appreciate unsolicited help that's why.
but occasionally i give em the benefit of the doubt. just to make sure i'm not stepping on a man's ego.