i still hate motorcycles

do you have any scars on your body? if so, how did you get them? -- random formspring question

that question reminded me of my greatest trauma.

one hungry night... terai, vianne (a dormmate) and i went to buy food. while walking, a speeding motorcycle passed by and hit my right arm. tapos my head also hit the driver's helmet hahaha i even said sorry to the driver cos i thought i was an obstruction to his path HAHAHA but he didn't even pause to check!!! the first thing i felt was my head, cos it was frakking painful i thought it would split. then the tricycle drivers were asking me how i was and why i said sorry and that i should report the driver to the barangay blah blah blah. i didn't get anything, my head was spinning. i couldn't hear terai and vianne either, i just wanted to buy tapsilog and saba con yelo cos i was starving. when we were at the carinderia na, vianne freaked out cos my arm was bleeding na pala. e mas masakit ulo ko kaya siguro di ko na feel. magkaganun man, i still bought food. when we were back at the dorm, i cleaned my arm, ate, and slept.

that was 3 years ago! the scar is almost gone na nga eh! but i can never forget the splitting headache it gave me! that was the worst headache i've ever had. buti na lang hindi ako tinopak. or so i thought???

ever since then, i get easily nervous when i'm on the street and there's a motorcyle coming. HAHAHAHA kaya wag kayo magreklamo kung matagal ako tumawid! pauunahin ko muna lahat ng motor para sa ikapapanatag ng aking nervous system.

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twisted

i borrowed Twisted by Jessica Zafra from the library... i was actually looking for The 500 people you meet in hell cos i ran over it at the OPAC but i couldn't find it, so instead i just took another of her accounts... one of her firsts i guess? i haven't finished the book, but it's a compilation of her daily broadsheet columns way way back (the book is old.. 1995, i guess). it's pretty cool, it's like a blog and i love her humor. >:) go you!

by the way, i'm currently at fitness first sm north, waiting for my parents to text me so we can go home. they're at church for the homebuilders ministry (equivalent to couples for christ) and i'm here... to shop for the things i need, specifically bathroom stuff. i was only supposed to buy lotion and conditioner... but i ended up going past a thousand bucks cos i threw in a couple more items at the basket. really, it's one thing to be shopping without my parents, i get to pay for everything. now i'm semi broke. hahaha

haaaay grabe i suddenly feel depressed. may mangyayari sigurong ayoko. >:(

nanaginip ako!

this was a week ago pa, but i can still remember parts of it... i was with hannah, martha and some people i don't remember... there were goons chasing us at the field... yung field sa holy... there was a broken swing at the end of the field... hmm.. ano pa ba...di ko na alam haha basta parang may grupo dun ng mga lokoloko tapos sabi, "sige tumakbo na kayo muahahaha" parang ganon, parang rapist ang dating shiiiit. so tumakbo naman kami! tapos may nakaharap akong mamang may balisong, nilabanan ko daw sya deeeeym di ako nasugatan whew, nakatakas daw ako. basta ganon... napadpad kami dun sa isang bahay sa other side ng feild, pinauna ko sa loob sina hannah kasi hinahabol pa kami nung mga mokong. haaaaaay scary much.

another fragment was this: i was in an unfamiliar house na puti rin lahat ng pader, trying to hide from someone... babae yung humahanap sakin, maputi... pero di ko maalala yung mukha... so i was running around the house, looking for a place to hide... i was pretty skillful that time... i can climb walls and jump like a parkour (sp?) which was really cool... tapos i was hiding at the ceiling part of the house ewan basta... suspense! tapos lumabas na ng bahay yung girl parang susuko na... tapos naglakad na palayo... tapos biglang bumalik! sa sobrang kaba ko, nagising na ko. haha

hahaha

why do i feel like we're growing closer everyday... or at least, every time we see each other? haha. hahaha. WAHAHAHAHAHAHA wooooh grabe. library work is becoming tedious, i just don't run out of things to do. she makes me type stuff, i'm not even halfway and she asks me to do another, i pause to finish something and she reminds me to do the other thing first. what do you want me to do exactly maaaam??? anyway, hindi naman ako nagrereklamo. yun nga lang, ang gulo nya mag-utos!

darnnnniiit, i hate losing RFs. it fckn drives me crazy. you see, we're collecting students' IDs and RFs for barcoding... and sometimes in the process of having a RF signed, it gets lost, and it's stressful when we can't give it back to the students cos it's fckn missing. that's 250 pesos per reprint. haaaay buhay. i'm on duty tomorrow morning and I MUST (hopefully) accomplish these 2 things: edit 763 accession numbers at the OPAC + request papers.

seriously, i just want to put stickers on books. >:(

his poem. honestly, i've read it a couple of times already waaaay back even before he asked me to read it. he seems proud of his work but honestly, i don't get it. O_O; and i don't know how to tell it to him. the structure is messy, and i don't see the underlying theme. i'm sorry but, i'm a reader and i know when a poem is deep. his isn't, it's just... a plethora of words. oh my God, i'm so sorry. i'm sure he's gonna ask me if i read it, lol anong sasabihin ko? nice one? naaah, i'll just go tell him hindi ko nagets! na nalunod ako? no really, it's magulo. hahaha sorry na? i'm not a poet but i know grammar... at least. @_@; sorry.

they want me to run for position. and they're wooing me like i'm their only hope. i don't think so! for one thing,  i don't like the party? not really, i just don't appreciate their platforms, and if i run for them it means i have to stand by something i'm faithless on. i cannot defend them that way. do i want to run? NO. i actually thought about it, i'm not going to win anyway so there's nothing to lose, i can just run to show erni support but that's so against my principles (i kinda have that too, apparently haha). i'm only running when i'm ready to serve. i ain't doing anything for the wrong reasons.

thing is, erni has plans for me and he said he wants to work with me. you know what caught me? he said, if i'm going to design a shirt for the org, i'll get an incentive per tshirt sold. that's really cool, but honestly that'll sound better if they'll take me as an independent artist and not as an officer, cos then it'll sound selfish of me. parang, why not do it for the org na lang? in short, why not do it for free? odba, therefore, kung usapang pera din lang naman... i don't need to be an officer to market my skills. hahaha

so yeah, i'm not running. hehehe

bagong buuuuuhaaaay

wala wala wala wala wala wala wala wala wala na talagaaaaaaa. kaya don't flatter yourself at wag ka na rin umasa dahil hindi kita hihintayin. alang alang na rin sa... hindi ko pa alam, sa iba siguro, o sa sarili ko, o dun sa isa pang inaasahan kong malabo 2hrs away from here. ewan. basta hindi na ikaw. >:) wala muna sa ngayon. ay ang boring. sige, maghahanap ako. hahaha

ang aga ko natapos! i finished terai's charge slips na sa wakas!
matutulog na ko yey! >:)

i love calculus.
eeeew, pero seryoso. ♥

guilty

@_@ sige kakalimutan ko na lang. i never imagined it would come to a point na hindi ko maappreciate to be called that way. e dati tuwang tuwa ako sa ganon. feel na feel ko! ngayon, it doesn't sound endearing anymore, it sounds like a boundary pa tuloy. like, i'm calling you this to remind you who you are and where you should be. dyan ka lang. ok? OKAY PO.

###1: ever since may nagsabi sakin, lagi na kong guilty. guilty na hindi na tayo tulad ng dati. na hindi na kita malapitan ng maayos. na badtrip ako sayo lagi kasi nakakairita kasi ugali mo. pero siguro kung hindi ko nalaman close parin tayo no? matotolerate parin kita diba? ngayon awkward na pag tayo lang. hmp. anyway. that's a lost friendship. ikaw rin, di mo na ko kaya asarin.

###2: nag-guilty ako cos i don't give you the treatment you deserve. nadadala rin ako sa sabi ng iba. pero seriously, there's just one thing i hate about you. flirt ka. and that's just one side of you, i know kaya nga bati parin tayo. hindi naman ako judgmental e. you're a good friend naman eh. iritable lang talaga ko sa mga malalandi. haha sorry. pero di kita pinaplastik kasi masaya ka naman minsan HAHAHA sorry kanina ayaw ka namin ipagtabuyan pero irita pa kasi si friendship sayo, chka bonding day daw namin. chka hindi ko talaga mapatawad yung reaksyon mo nung nakita mo si paolo. like, AMPOTA SARAP SABUNUTAN NITONG BABAENG TO kahit walang akong karapatan dun sa lalaki nairita ko. no wonder. nooooo wonder.

###3: gusto ko rin ng someone. someone else.

###4: walang biro, i feel dumber this term. parang the 1 week i was gone from school robbed me a lot of my grades. nakakalungkot.

###5: ayoko na sa lib. joke lang. ang hirap kasi bantayan nung mga ginagawa namin e, buti kung araw araw akong duty e hindi naman... ang hirap makisunod. rrrrrrr

###6: pang-nrmf yung PE uniform ko nakakahiya every wednesdays. grrrrr chaka anobayan, ano bang alam ko sa sports? nilampaso ako ni mommy b kanina. HAHAHA chka seerrrr, ano yung ping pong?! ngayon lang ako naka-experience non amp wala ngang marunong magscore samin eeeehh ang bobo tlga ng PE na to.

ay bwiset

natatanga na ko sa lib.