on coffee high

feasting on cookies and mochachillo. i did tell you i'm going to research right? i'm done! halfway! bwahaha but i was kinda distracted with these make money online ads i've accross while browsing. so i'm trying ClixSense and NeoBux. basically, they pay users for clicking sponsored ads. >:) sounds cool. hahaha ano ba. i've always wanted to make money online, i'm just not properly mentored. hahaha

my gusto akong bilhin asdfghjhgfdsa. @_@

ETA: i was curious about justin beiber so i searched him up on youtube. my god, he looks disturbingly lesbian, and he sounds too female. aaron carter wasn't like that, and sam concepcion too. hehe

can't hear ya!

too much water in my head. @_@ awhile was great! too many kiddos! i remember i wanted to become a sunday school teacher but yadda, yadda, yadda, didn't happen obviously. 

anyway, summer plans? nothing! GYM. driving school for sure?. or some cheap house party with BTS, plus whoever calls. not really up for expensive trips since i'm kinda broke. look, i'll be losing 3 days worth of sweldo because of holy week and my highschool neighbors are done with school so no more free morning rides. haaaay pera. and i only started earning for myself this march cos i dedicated my entire feb money for someone. >:) man, i want a hair relaaaax. @_@ i'm out of perfume too. and blush on LOL.

i hereby declare tomorrow as my research day. i'll probably be at blenz. this makes me guilty cos i'm really just up for the coffee but i freakin need an entire day just for research cos the net here has gone slower than ever! =____=;;

nyarghruhjaghfdaiuhajasdfg!

bakit parang may alam kang hindi ko alam? bakit? anong alam mo? anong sinabi nya sayo? i'm letting go because i don't think i can trust him. i've cried enough! STAPET. i don't even talk about it anymore, but people keep bringing it up. chaka na yan, pwede? >:))))))

everything worth waiting is worth having

but sometimes, it's also worth leaving. people say, whenever you think of giving up, think of the reason/s why you're still holding on. then again, that's only one side of the coin, why not also think of the reason/s why you thought of giving up? surely, it's big enough to consider since it was able to shake your resolve. >:P

// i kinda want to sleep early because i want to do a lot tomorrow, like go to the gym! people say i'm getting fatter @_@ that's what i need summer for!

// fortunately, i didn't see JM this day. maybe God is hiding him from me because i already got too much yesterday. and besides! how will i greet him if we see each other by? HE-HE-HELLOOOO? i spent the rest of my break at the canteen because i knew he'll be at the library at that time, reading the newspaper. not that i'm trying to avoid him, i just don't know how to react... naturally.

// i figured this will be much easier if none of my friends knew. e i want to share my happiness e! bakit ba?!

sige, goooood night! >:D

>8D

bwahahaha! headache still isn't gone but i'm very very happy because of 2 things! (then later on i'll tell you the sad bits)

#1) i was depressed the whole night yesterday because i couldn't find my drawing notebook in my bag. that notebook contains 4 of my most precious artworks, 2 of which are unscanned and LOOOOT of doodles that contains heavy cheesyness and mild swearing. something i wouldn't want others to read. anyway, i found it at the library. it seemed that i left it when i was on duty. yey! >8D that alone made my day. >8D

#2) when i first saw it, i knew i was attracted to it and i mentally vowed to get it someday. well, today is that day. my sister bought me another drawing journal! BWAHAHAHA i'm never gonna run out of paper to draw on! plus it's more compact since it's smaller. it's also bloody red so i'm loving every part of it. i don't think it's cheap though. it's worth 248, kinda like a moleskine with the garter but at least, it's not moleskine. you see, my 2009 moleskine planner is a big failure! i sorta promised to write on every page, every day but i wasn't able to do so hahaha dahil dyan, i don't believe in daily planners anymore. monthly, sure! since all i have to do is put X marks every day. no effort. di ko alam kung ano ggawin ko sa moleskin na yon. pamigay ko na lang kaya? sayang ba? hmm...

yun lang. masaya na ko!

>:)))))
haaay dyusko, ang kulit ni blandy. ayoko pa naman ng hinuhuli kasi hindi ako makatakas. !@#$%^&*()

one day, nasa lib ako katabi ko si chamel. tapos biglang pumasok si JM at umupo two tables away from us, pero kaharap ko. O_O; hindi ko mapigilan ngumiti. at dahil muka na kong tanga, nakababa na nga yung ulo ko sa lamesa e... umalis ako sa lib. hindi ko kaya. nakangiti na ko forever. haaay majorcrush. naalala ko, gantong ganto rin ako kay leopardo. at least friends kami! wahaha!

craving for: regular pearl milk tea with extra pearls from zagu, beef chowfan sa chowking at siomai from master siomai. gutom na kooooo.

pahinging ketchup pleaase?? @___@;

there is so much i wish you knew but i will never tell you

// something i hate about myself... i hardly make things happen. so i'm not the right person to talk to if you want something planned out like an outing or any event. i'm too lazy for that. and unless i'm working on a deadline of for money, i keep on forgetting things.

// favors are piling up on my desk, projects, homeworks and stuff i'm not being compensated for. and i fucking hate it that they just throw it at me like i'm a fucking homework generator. i was looking forward to reading Dear John tonight and sleeping early, but i get it that i'm not getting any of those today. grrrrr

i wish i were less lenient.

// she got it all wrong. she insists there's something but i bet my entire life there isn't. it saddens me because no matter how it looks alright on the surface, deep down it really isn't. two good things doesn't always remain good when put together.

summer. i want summer to happen already because i wanna get rid of these feelings so bad. >:(
it's going to be detrimental to my sense of focus. Lord, it's too early. can't it be after two years? here you are, giving me a chance, but you know i can't take it. thank you for my first heartbreak. T__T;

summer, please!!!!

ha?

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