tomi corn chips! XD

// there are times when i feel like blogging, but end up staring at a blank field instead. i missed those times when everyday i have something to tell, something to blog about, even when nothing much has happened in my life. those were the days when i was such a blogging freak i can't contain myself from excessive posting. haha those were the times when i rant about everything that has happened in school, the shallow things. times when my blog was still called Indistinguishable Gibberish. hehehe

// anyway, i think i should buy a TV for my room. haha kala mo kung sinong may pera! HAHA onga, i need to buy a digicam first HAHA, chka laptop. sinong mabait? donations please! kahit pang-kape lang sa Blenz haha

// right! i was hyped about this "Dell Laptop Giveaway (read info tab to get one free shipped to you)" group at facebook! i mean, free laptop, seriously???? LOL i never suspected, so i joinedthe group and invited all my friends. but i couldn't get past the human confirmation thing cos it says it's not available in our country. :((((( awwwww. i wish they would make it available here! i could handle the shipping for all i care. just. give. me. a. laptop. please? hahaha

friends :)

come to think of it, it's unfair to call someone your best friend. the word best is in the superlative form, meaning everything else stands below it. can you actually scale your friends from good, better and best? i could understand close friends, but best?

to all my best friends -- peachy, mannie, karla and brian -- this is not meant to demean you, or to question our relationship. i mean, i haven't seen peachy and mannie for years, yet i still call them my best friends. i don't even know if i still know them as a person, cos i only knew them as my closest gradeschool friends, and we all know things change. maybe it has become a social convention, and i am only conforming to how it is being used. i even thought having a best friend is just all for formality's sake... cos nowadays, everybody comes in pairs. i won't even call someone a best friend even though we act like one, unless we both talk and agree to it. haha but even though i have silly doubts about the etymological sense of a best friend, at least i understand the essence of it. so yeah, i'll still continue to call you guys my best. >:D

you know honestly, i never had someone (a fixed someone) whom i can run to whenever i have something urgent to tell. what happens is i spill it to the nearest close friend. like, whoever is in the apartment. whoever is in the dorm. whoever i get to hang out with during breaks. whoever. just... whoever. and this is not something i regret. in fact, i see myself having a lot of close friends. see, i don't have to wait for someone just to spill something that i have been aching to release. i don't feel frustrated cos i know i always have a close friend at hand. and i trust them all. i'm an introvert for the most part, but i make quality friends.

no, i won't buy you.

Happy Birthday Terai!

// i was a total bummer this day. i failed to go to the gym because i was too lazy and i haven't done anything productive, academically. well, i don't have a book.

// it's also my beloved sister's birthday! happy 21st! HAHA >:D sadly, she has work and she won't be back till around 11pm. which sucks even more cos her work totally robbed us of the privilege to celebrate it with the celebrant herself! grrr... i cooked pasta, and also experimented on yet another dip. i mixed knorr real seasoning, taco seasoning and all purpose cream. super yummy! HAHAHA i wish i bought tacos or nachos but all i have is a pack of salty Nova. pwede na rin. hehehe

// ok. i officially quit FFS (friends for sale @ facebook). in fact my last buy was my sister. thing is, it gets annoying when people constantly ask me to buy them and worse, save up for them. i'm not being selfish, i guess i'm just waaaay over the FFS fever and i don't wanna bother myself with it anymore. i've grown out of the silly little happy cactus fancy as well so i don't care what happens there. so yes, i'll probably spend all my money on gifts so i won't have any reason to buy anyone. it's gets tiring after awhile you know. right! i'll remove it from my notifications. LOL

// haha i've unearthed several old pictures of my sister and i from the bottom of the shelf and it was fun looking at them! wahahahaha :P lemme share some,

wahahaha

my shirt is ready! >XD

#1) like the pens? :P
YES! :D

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// today was... okay lang! i spent to much on food, =___=; i shouldn't have brought money at megamall nakakapanghinayang! and here i was! trying to save for a cheap sony digicam!

guilty pleasure == blenz mochachillo. suuuuus, nagtaas na sila dati 160 ung regular (2nd biggest) ngayon 185 naaa!! it's their best frappe siguro and they're trying to make bawi to those people who spend the entire day and consume too much electricity charging their laptops and surfing all day (like me) haha. their whipped cream changed too, parang coconut based na ngayon. yummy parin naman pero mas gusto ko yung dati.

walang wala ang starbucks. tsk.

// on the way to mega, nakasabay ko si kuya onad sa bus! kuya onad is my brod from uplb who just passed the chem eng'g board exam. naks engineer! and i super missed our org handshake!!! it has been months eh, i thought i had forgotten it already hahaha.

// anyway, guess what! we're classmates at filitwo! wahahaha! i'll stop calling him majorcrush kasi hindi na sya major for me. hehehe nagfade na yata eh. crush na lang. haynako, we were almost groupmates! epal kasi labas ng labas hindi tuloy nasulat pangalan nya sa listahan. SANA SINULAT KO! pero i had to pretend i didn't know his name, kunyari kebs lang. WHATEVER hahaha

// why do i have a feeling i'll get lower grades this term? wag naman sana Lord. :(

// btw, i downloaded apache, mysql, and php but i freakin don't know how to install it or configure it. xampp is supposed to automatically configure it diba??? e malay ko ba ang weird naman nun. i think i have to look for other ways, like... may manual way baaaa? tell meeeee. >:\

// haha i made a new blog! i mean, walang entries, ni-register ko lang para akin na ung blog address (both on tumblr and blogspot): THE SERIAL DOODLER. parang mas gusto ko yan as an art blog though tamad ako eh, i upload na nga at deviantart, tapos cross-post pa dito tapos may tumblr pa? i just want to show my works to a larger audience and tumblr has the best platform for that. hehe

// my GEEK shirt is ready! wahahaha! excited na kooooo! XD

bwahahaha

i have 2 new SETS of pens!!!! that's 40 multicolored pens to waste on my excessive doodling and to add to my ever growing colored pens collection! wahahaha! thank you so much brian!!! so now i've got around 7 sets of pens.... 4 felt tips, 2 metallics, and 1 gel. HAHAHA such a pen freak. anything i could use to draw colorfully makes my heart skip a bit, really! wahahaha lovely day!

onto this day, so earlier i mentioned i finished reading a book... i'm still fantasizing about my own Luke Brandon, arrogant, handsome, well-built, and rich! though me being a financial journalist (let alone, a journalist) is in the least of my career choices, i still wanna meet someone like him and fall in love! yeah, there's something undeniably irresistible with the arrogant-handsome-well-built-and-rich package that just takes me away, and guess what? it's not about love at all.

it's all about security. yeah, but that's just me. i mean, it's one thing to cuddle up with someone and feel safe. it's also one thing to talk intelligently to your partner; current events, showbiz, nat geo and discovery channel and LAUGH. then it's also one thing not to worry about money. it's kinda perfect the way i imagine it to be hahaha

so onto school...

we didn't have classes at data structures awhile ago so our teacher just let us play and browse the internet hehehe. rizlife (life and works of rizal) was kinda boring, but i guess i can tolerate it. why, i have no girl friends. then, webdev3! gaaaawd, sometimes i wish my teacher would stop praising me, it's embarassing! he was my C++ teacher so he knows me pretty well.  if only he knew how much i sucked at arrays in java programming and that i passed an unoriginal project, maybe he'd quit venerating me and my honest-to-goodness RAW programming skills. yes it's flattering but not really worth boasting around in the 'outside world'. he keeps mentioning my surname telling my classmates how good i am, that there are only a few good female programmers around **, i wish i could sink in my seat and disappear. it also adds to the list of expectations i must live up to. i couldn't disappoint this teacher, not when he's so proud of me. hello, stress, we meet again!!!

** - i never believed this one. i'm never really a good programmer. i mean, if you were here, you'd think life is too easy.

anyway. i'm kind of dreading wednesday because i have only one subject and it's filitwo (filipino 2). it runs for 4 freaking hours and i'm afraid of being friendless, my filione friends are all in a different section. i'm kind of hoping majorcrush is there, but i'm also sort of wishing otherwise. i have to have friends first. i need friends to spend the breaks with. nooooo, i hate being a loner. :(

blow me away

chick lit still owns me, after all. it's the only genre i could finish reading in a single sitting. actually i've just finished reading Confessions of a Shopaholic (ebook) and i liked it! well, writers of this genre have the same style, which makes it easier for us readers to just grab a book by the shelf and not worry about getting uncomfortable (and bored) with unique sentence structures... blah blah blah, weirdly i get affected by stuff like that. i don't even care if people think i'm reading books for the dumb... well it makes me laugh, no other book can make me laugh like i do with flicks. hahaha anyway, i'm a sucker for romance, especially when reading chick lits wahahahaha because it always seems comedic and romantic at the same time. lol my giddy hormones are erupting like crazy on the last part of the book where Rebecca and Luke was dating. wahahaha

Luke Brandon, is such a handsome name for a guy. fares almost like Clayton Westmoreland from Whitney My Love (Judith McNaught). those types of names just get automatically associated with multi-million companies and luxury cars right? whew. rich sounding names!

right. i have a class in one and a half hour.
and when i get back i'll download the sequel. haha

well, i think so.

the fight is never between the heart and the brain. it's just the brain all along. do you forget your wife when you get a heart transplant? no. then maybe love is just a state of mind. but above that, i'd like to think love is a state of our soul, not just our mind. i want to take it to a spiritual level but i can never tell. i mean, God loves us, and i'm not even sure if he has a tangible brain with hyperactive neurons racing past.  

hmm, i think it's more on the soul though. but whatever, me thinking about it only makes it harder for me to pick a candidate for *sigh* matrimony. LOL 

love is a beautiful thing to talk about... philosophically, not romantically. :P i've never talked about it this much. h
ahaha i'm not even half in love. wahahaha