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nevermind the stuff under the cut, it's just me being flaily over my new wallet >:P and a new minorcrush! >:D



finally bought a new wallet! haha >XD after weeks of swooning over this black 3fold kipling wallet i saw at ebay, i finally bought one awhile ago... at greenhills! and what's cooler is that it's RED. yessss, freaking red! my awesome favorite color. i remember clicking the "bid" button at ebay yesterday, but canceled it when it prompted me for confirmation. i don't know what held me back, i guess my angel did cos i'm bound to find something better! something cheaper! the one at ebay costs 600, and shipping is 120. and the user hasn't replied to me so nevermind (she's online the other day but didn't reply to my query, maybe because i have 0 feedback points. fucking biased). the one at greenhills is 430. haha still pricey for a wallet but it's too rare so i don't care. and it's red.  >:D

we (terai and i) scouted the entire bags/wallets section for that! fawking rare. =___=; there's only one store who sells it. the rest sells the same things, the same shiny leather class A imitation stuff that'd still cost you an arm. and because leather doesn't appeal to me as much as fabric does, i'm not going back there anymore for wallets. haha clothes, sure. but nothing like divi... so nevermind still. hehe

minorcrush:
i doubt he'll ever read this so i'll spill the name...
just recently i saw my sunday school classmate, maverick, at church and was shocked because he looks like HARRY POTTER now!!! he wears glasses and uhm, probably had problems growing up vertically but still, he looks like HARRY POTTER especially during his first year at hogwarts wahahahaha. >:P sooo cute!

never talked to each other, though the air of familiarity is there haha, too shy. k

will reserve slots tomorrow at school! haha i'm nervous about my grades, especially mathlog and webdev. wtf.

more on my insights about love + the awesome time and space warp feature i saw on nat geo

it's funny how the couples i thought would never break up end up doing so after a couple of months (some, years). some separate for good, remain friends and move on happily. but i can't forgive those who break up and become bitter afterwards, like nothing good ever happened in the span of time they were together. ever heard of gratitude? it's cute how these people tweet and shouts out at FB about how romantic they are with each other, claiming "forever and ever ♥ ♥ ♥". whenever i read posts like that in my live feed, i feel happy for my friend/s. but after a few months, a relationship status changed to "single", and 50++ shocked comments, i ask myself, "huh? but why? they seem to be the happiest couple just yesterday."

i can't help but think how people actually love one another, or if they're really in love in the first place and not just deluded by the misleading emotions they get. i mean, love can be easily confused by infatuation, and even a crush. and putting love in vain is the saddest thing we could ever do to it.

imagine if Love were a person and we keep on mistaking other people for it, doesn't that hurt? like you can't even recognize it when it's what brought you to this world.

Love: hey, that's not me! that's Crush!
Crush: sorry, Love. guess they think you're too shallow they mistook you for me.
Love: :(

Love must've been a sad person, being recognized only by a few people. and Crush, on the other hand must be enjoying all the attention it gets being constantly mistaken for love.

anyway. guys. this must prove how utterly conservative i am when it comes to engaging in relationships, i don't easily admit i'm in love, i take time to realize it first before i say it out, because as i said, i don't want to put my feelings in vain. i don't want to hurt love, i avoid premature confessions (which i gathered, is the main cause for bitterness after breakups).

have i ever been in love? not yet. >:P

moving on...



i watched a super cool nat geo feature awhile ago (in the gym, while walking on a treadmill), i guess it was called Speeding Through the Universe or something... and it explained how speed is the key in studying how time and space works. it also talked about how immensely perilous a black hole can be, that when an object get sucked at it, even if it travels at the speed of light, it can never get out, that's how powerful its pull is. and worm holes, yesss, those time travel tunnels i see in scifi movies that never fail to fascinate me, they explained the concept of a wormhole using an equally cool illustration.

wormholes are tunnels that enable you to transfer from one point to another in a short span of time. sometimes you get transported to a different space, and at some other times at a different space AND time.

imagine the cosmos, the universe, as a 2d rubber mat (scientists refer to this as a cosmic fabric). you plot 2 points on opposite ends, and the goal is to reach point B from point A in the shortest span of time. of course, if you're referring to the universe, that would take lightyears. but if you fold the rubber mat, make the two points meet, and punch a hole in it, you got quite an impressive shortcut there. in the astronomical sense, yes, you've made a freaking worm hole. then again, that's very difficult to do, you literally have to tear parts of the universe in order to create one.

there are many many more things that got me hooked to the feature and i just love nat geo because it's so awesooooome. diba? i mean, i don't fancy reading science books so this was a big big help. and there are fractals everywhere. >8D reminds me of my friend, jec. haha

right. i want cabled TV in my room! :(

love knows no reason? the heck.

whoever said that is either too lazy or is not really in love.

i believe that there is a reason for everything. there is a reason for love. only God's love is a mystery, human love is not! you love someone because she's your friend, you love this kid cos he's your child, you love your boyfriend because? "uhhm, i can't explain it. i just love him!"

don't give me that crap. is it romantic when someone can't tell you why they love you? like it's supposed to sound utterly enigmatic and sweet because there are no words to describe how you love this person?

my sister and i agree to this, that there is always a reason for everything (uhm, well except miracles hehe yeaaah and that scalar energy thing). if you're truly in love, you give it your own definition. if you can't explain it, then you're not really in love. love doesn't run out of words. being speechless is not an excuse.

coming from your resident hopeless romantic. yours truly. >;P
that's probably the best shot i got about love, since i've never been there and i'm speaking out of second hand experience (books and friends).

>:|

hmm. it pissed me off that we weren't able to watch a movie this afternoon because my freakin sister didn't read the tickets she has. it fuckin says there that it's only for SM Fairview cinemas. darn. it was too late when i inspected it, we're already at SM North Edsa. waste of time, waste of gas and waste of parking fee. i hated her for a while because of that. but she treated me wow steak and strawberry banana krusher so we're in good good terms now. hehehehe

we also weren't able to eat dinner with our cousins and titas because we went to church. my parents want to start the new year right by attending this 15-day prayer rally and it starts now so we're kinda dragged along. yes, dragged... because honestly i'd rather eat dinner with my cousins. >:( then again, i also want to pray. but prayer rallies like this go on for 3 straight hours so eventually it becomes dragging and insincere on my part. i feel bad as  a person. >:( 

i guess i'm on my best spiritual form during worship services. i could go on singing and clapping and swaying to the music every time the band is on. i admire people who play instruments and use it for the work of God. spirituality is now probably the number one thing that attracts me to guys. hahaha which is why deep in my heart, there is one person whom i truly adore, more than a crush, less than love... because he has all the qualities of my ideal man (and i believe i've mentioned him countless times in this blog already)...

well, physically he's tall, good-looking, and WEARS GLASSES. >8D

he draws. and reads. and has an above average IQ. 

and best of all, he's Christian. i mean, i could tell just by talking to him. 

i'm a sucker for people like him. but he doesn't know. yes, he doesn't know. 

new label: Crushes hahaha, in the future i want to read that category and just laugh at myself, at how cheesy and shallow i am when it comes to people that make me blush. >:P

hello 2010! >XD

just got back from a drinking/videoke session with the neighbors. IN FACT, it's the first time in the 10 years we stayed here, that i celebrated with people other than my family, and it's also the first time in 10 years that i held fireworks. ever since we transferred here, uhh 10 years ago, we never bought fireworks for new year. just food, yeah and the awesome view at our rooftop. the fireworks are definitely more awesome upclose. i was damn stupefied when they handed me lusis, like... "uhhm, which part do i light? and what happens when i do so? uhh, and what do you call this again? sorry."  

but right now, our new neighbor (uhm, like 1 year) is really a fun pack. they have loads of fireworks, and an an awesome videoke system loaded with recent songs. the coolness. hehehe

it also feels weird that my cellphone's display date now reads 1/1/10 (in binary that's 14, lol sorry can't help it). it feels like i reset my phone cos everytime i do, the date reverts to 1/1/00 (in binary, 12, sorry again) so yeah, pretty nostalgic. whatever haha.

december 31 was a busy busy day. our maid went on vacation so i'm left to tend to the entire house, i cooked and cleaned and blah blah blah, good thing dinner isn't a big hassle to me cos right before i could chop the garlic for the spaghetti sauce, our neighbor chimed in and delivered a plateful of spaghetti! yehey! saved! >XD hours later they bought us kare-kare naman! and earlier this morning, our other neighbor gave us lots of vegetables! a kilo of mustasa, a string of pechay, loads of talong... i almost thought mom asked them to go to the wet market for her. and mustasa thrills me cos whenever there's a pack of it, there always has to be burong mustasa. so i made one, and was delighted and at the same time anxious for 1 week to pass. it needs to ferment, yep. >8D i love to cook, but sometimes i'm too lazy. but weirdly this day, i was quiet enthusiastic with the household. oooooh, '10 vibes?

maybe the only thing that sucks is that my cellphone balance reads 0.46 so i couldn't send a single message to my beloved friends, then again, i thank facebook for being here. >:D

tomorrow HAS TO BE A GREAT DAY. my sister has free movie passes enough for the family so i'm really excited!

my wrist watch stopped working haha after 1 year and a lot of strap changes. i need a new one, and something's telling me that a BINARY WATCH would be the most awesome replacement for it, but it's too expensive. =___=;

anyway, it's 3am. must sleep now! goodnight and Happy New Year Guys! >XD

congrats kuya michael && ate myla!! >XD

it's my cousin's wedding today yeheeey! congrats kuya michael! welcome to the family ate myla. both of them look so stunning that it sucks cos i don't have a decent picture of them. grr, my dad is such a candid freak, he wants everyone's unguarded moments to laugh at in the future hahaha.

i caught the bouquet (my freaking second time, now i have 2 garters in my drawer haha)! it was probably the dumbest moment of my life, when i was looking so careless and unassuming, that the bouquet found its way on my hands. LOL my cousin recorded it on video so you could see how it fatefully rejected everyone at first, then just flew right at me, i was even shocked. i never thought it was funny until i watched the video. wahahaha!

i also caught the bouquet on the last wedding i attended. and it was sheer luck, just a matter of pulling the right string where the bride's bouquet is tied to. hahaha

let's try lotto wahahaha

wahahaha it my first time to participate in a wedding ceremony, as cord sponsor. yehey! >XD hahahha

everyone's got one, and i don't. why is superstition so depressing? hahaha i could only think that catching a bouquet means you're bound to catch next one... and the next one, and never be able to throw one yourself. HAHAHA

whew!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARTHA && CARLA!!!! >XD

today was both fun and exhausting LOL, my first time to host a house party. sobrang nakaka haggard pala yon? HAHAHA we're supposed to hold it at KA's house pero may party pala sila ngayon so we had to look for a different place, i offered mine... mostly to save money and to put up for not being able to host 2 years ago cos i was confined in the hospital hehehehe.

it's really really amazing to be with my friends. my highschool friends. my ever legitimate and original barkada. it stays that way right? highschool friends are the most solid people you'll ever get in your entire life. nothing could ever replace that awwwwww.

AND MY BED BROKE. hahaha ang bigat ba natin??? haha japanese style nanaman ako ulit! well i actually prefer no bed cos the underside gets dusty and it's hard to sweep wahahaha.

ok, it's 1:30am. i'm dead tired and i have to sleep well because i'll be attending a wedding tomorrow, in 9 hours. i forgot to fast for it, deeeym. =____=; i need a push-up strapless bra, a binder and a girdle to create an illusion that i'm thinner that i actually am. whew. hard task. :)

i love BTS.