sacked

read: UPLB Professor Sacked Over Sex Harassment Case 
 
i just heard some shocking news minutes ago, that Prof Fulgencio 'Pol' Mojica got kicked out of his teaching post upon being found guilty of sexual harassment. i knew it was in his nature to harass his hot male students MENTALLY, but i didn't think he'd go overboard materializing his fantasies.

so, sir Mojica was my english2 teacher. quite frankly, he isn't my favorite teacher but yeah, i learned from him naman. hehehe he's the strictest most meticulous teacher i've ever met. have i mentioned he's gay? that should be obvious if you read the news. LOL

last paragraph of the news article says he can still appeal for the decision, i guess he would do that... just so he could file a formal resignation after. sounds better than having a 'fired' record on your resume. anyway. best of luck to him.

my grade would've been 2.00 on that demanding subject but he marked me absent one time when i was actually present, so i didn't get my attendance incentive. i almost cried out to him but he was too mataray. maybe if i were a tall, mestizo and handsome guy, he'd cave in. haha bitter.

jotter pad

i'm excited for a lot of things!

a) the geek shirt that mika designed! i just ordered one and deposited the payment awhile ago! its says: GEEKS WILL CTRL+S THE WORLD. freakin cooool!!! excited to have it! >XD

b) jotter pad!!! it's a blank notepad i bought awhile ago at national bookstore and it's crazy cheap. 39.25 pesos only!!! you know what, i was supposed to buy the 200 worth drawing journal but i couldn't find it anymore. then i saw this a5 sized sketchpad with a moss green metallic sheen cover that says Jotter Pad and mehn, i fell in love with it! hehehe i'm excited to draw! >:D uhhh, i still have another sketchpad so i've decided to dedicate that one to my staedtler triplus fineliner series (anyway it only has less than 20 pages)... and jotter pad... will be my new drawing journal!!! yeheeeey!!! >XD

c) i'm excited to read this book entitled Search Me: The Surprising Success of Google by Neil Taylor. i also just bought it awhile ago... for 20 pesos. LOL whattasale, considering it's about Google? the writer must be a major flop. but then i'm not really interested with google... i just want to have something to read. which reminds me, i haven't finished The Graveyard Book yet. hehe

d) divisoria. or quiapo in general. i don't care if it's freaking overcrowded there. i need to complete my dvd wishlist this year:
- Ouran Highschool Host Club (because i lost my high-quality-stolen-from-Astra-copy and i miss Tamaki so muuuuch!)
- Gossip Girl Season 1 (yes. latebloomer here)
- Heroes Season 1 (yadda yadda yadda)
- Harry Potter 1-6
- One Tree Hill Season 2-6
- movies, anything actually... i want my own copy District 9.
oh and there's a new cool movie coming up! i forgot the title! something like The Fourth Sign? sort of.  ALIENS. yeah. and milla jovovich. >8D taraaaa!!!!

plus, i want to search divi for a new wallet. preferrably an imitation of that red kipling wallet i saw last week. and i want a new backpack? haha

yesss, where are you $$$$$???

Judge Jocelyn Solis-Reyes to handle Maguindanao Massacre case

at last, someone brave enough agreed to take on the fearful case. and a woman, on top of that. it's completely understandable that no one would want to handle the case, let alone get involved with it, because the risks are dangerous. even someone with a strong sense of justice would be doubtful if it means putting his and his family's life in evident danger.

that's why at some point, i applaud this woman's courage. news says she agreed to it without hesitation, and even refused to have police bodyguards around her saying she'll just call for it when she needs one. does she understand the situation she's now in? does she know the dangers of being unprotected? or does she not trust the police? thinking maybe these guys would soon turn out to be after her, and not for her? after all, she's faced with extremely powerful people who use only two tools to get what they want: money, and death threats.

why she agreed to handle the case so fast brings in some kind of suspicion too. has something fishy happened between ampatuan and reyes? was this talked over a cup of tea (and a million bucks perhaps?), that's why she's fearless of her life?

we'll wait for the trial then. but seriously, if it turns out to be the latter, i will be extremely disappointed with the world and condemn Philippine politics for life. the entire world knows what the most obvious, most righteous, and most lawful court decision to this case is. and if it happens otherwise, wtf, God bless the Philippines.

april glory

i forgot to post this before. it's pretty crappy cos it's dark hehe. but that's UPLB during april. it's the fall season of the "cotton" tree. the white spots you see on the ground are those cotton like buds that spring off from that certain tree. haha it's not really cotton. just cotton-like. haha and every april? IT'S EVERYWHERE!!! causes a lot of allergies actually but the scene is amazing.

it's pretty picturesque in real life, you know, green field littered with snow-white cotton buds, then the statue of oblation.

i miss UPLB. >:(

ah, it's almost 3am but i'm not sleepy cos i slept the entire morning and afternoon off. hahaha >:D

white flag up!

// the gown came in this morning. it's okay naman. kinda loose. more adjustments pa. hahaha

// i'm giving up with the java project. my brain has completely liquefied already and has seeped out from my nose. ayoko na. stuck with: populating a double array with tokens.

// i added a new widget from response-o-matic. it's like formspring, only... you don't have to open a new page for it. i remember using it years back but removed it... anyway. go ask? lol, what the hell is bandwagon doing to me. hahaha. and i was thinking, why do you need to register for it when you can create your own form? it's just freaking html. roight. hassles.

// i dreamt about something scary yesterday afternoon before i got up to attend my mathlog exam. it goes like this:
setting: maguindanao
so there's this short, white, curly-haired and mustached media man who is surrounded by murderers (the massacre guys, you know). he was shaking terribly, head bent down and hands clasped to a prayer. seconds later, he passed out, and fell back down on a puddle of water. bad guy 1 picked him up by the shirt and slammed him on a cement column. his head bled. then bad guy 1 started punching him on the gut, counting as he did so. he started at 1300!!!!!!!

which probably means he has already punched 1299 times before i got to the dream. i was crying already and out of utter nervousness, i woke up... not knowing where and who i was in the scene... whether i was a media man... or one of the bad guys, or just a witness (but i was too close though) or.. i dunno. T__T;; a nightmare, apparently. still gives me the chills. T_____T

madami pa akong panaginip!!!


// dream #2: awhile ago... maybe in the morning? i'm not sure.
i dreamt that i was playing a grand piano with super heavy keys and lots of foot pedals. i was trying to play River Flows in You by Yruma.

// dream #3: this afternoon. i dreamt about my bestfriend, brian. >:(
in that dream, i got mad daw that he's leaving na. so i walked out and crossed the street (i don't know where). for some reason, i was limping and caused traffic because i walk so slow daw. haha i was making para the jeepneys so they won't hit me. hahaha then i sat on a bench outside a shop (ewan ko rin kung anu yon) and put my legs up. pilay daw ako at hindi makalakad. weird. aaand umpe was laughing at me. hahaha tnx?

then he followed me across the street to tend to my pilay. he brought two cold damp cloths and put in on my legs. galit parin daw ako. oha. >:)))))) o tapos my dad came to fetch me and i walked ayaw na ulit. he said bumalik daw ako libre daw nya ko banana-q. i didn't answer.

when i came to the car, we left immediately, so ittext ko dpat sya na di na ko bbalik. but we kinda met a car accident daw. like we bumped into something on the road edi ninerbyos ang lola mo, tapos gising na ko.

WAHAHAHA

// dream #4: i dreamt about my crush!!!! maiksi lang naman, he just walked in front of me. YUN LANG!!! well, yun lang naalala ko. haha i dreamt about him days ago pero all i remember is him writing my name on a mug... tapos jomari yllana was also there. malay ko ba. hahaha

sorry na

our prof wanted to talk to us about the 'sorting' part of our project. apparently he can't understand the logic of mergesort or whatever it is that mika did. actually, i don't understand it either, which makes things worse cos he's now 100% sure that someone else did our project because the coding is too 'advanced'. actually, i can justify that by saying that i never applied anything he taught us and everything you see there is the fruit of my tireless research. last night i was studying string tokenizer and pretty much got how it works, then i prayed to God that hopefully, our prof asks about string tokenizer instead of the mergesort (cos i don't get it). but he fucking wants us to explain the logic of the godamn sorting code, so we're dead and have to RE-DO the entire thing.

not exactly the entire thing but essentially it is, because i have to touch everrrrything in order to get what's gonna happen next. expect me to be awake for the next 6 hours or more.

you know what, i was unimpressed with his reaction. of all people, he should know how mergesort works and the logic behind it. it's not something exclusive only to atenean cs studs. it's okay if he asks me about it and i tell him the truth just to prove that i didn't do the project, but i can't accept it that the reason he called us is because he doesn't understand and needs us to explain it to him. he even said my friend (who did the work) loves a lot of drama cos there's a completely EASIER way of sorting (namely, the fucking bubble sort aka the-sorting-key-for-average-programmers).

ok, so i can't ask help from my atenean cs friends now cos apparently they're too advanced? gaaawd, that sounds like our school is so pathetic (or our faculty incompetent?). sorry. super sorry.

will do the project now. >:D

frankly speaking, i'm excited to DO it... from scatch. there's a certain fulfillment that goes with learning something on your own. especially programming.

Lord, bless me on this.

on the other hand, i find myself contradicting our mathlog teacher... quite a lot of times (mentally though). and i only consult about 20% of my doubts with her. why do i feel like there's something wrong? like... it's not conventional? whenever i feel doubtful about her lessons, i consult with jec and adrian first before i bring the matter to her. there are times when we three all agree that there's something vague with the definition she gave us, but she'll insist and explain it again, then i still won't get it. and so i'll just temporarily overwrite that part of my brain that screams "THAT'S NOT HOW IT SAYS IN THE OTHER BOOK!!!!" and i would feel uncomfortable about it because it feels like i'm being fed wrong information. that's like the worst feeling as a student, being taught something you know is theoretically wrong, but for the sake of a class convention (and a high grade), i would bend to it. fucking sad life, it is.

i feel so weird about my life right now. i feel scared that i'm starting to protest about academics this way like i'm some genius who knows everything. but the thing is, her top students agree with me (count me in). it sucks because i hate losing faith with our faculty because my learning relies on them. and you know, i want to learn so much. >:( i also want to get into the dean's list but my status won't let me. last time i checked i can only get 5 subjects next term. :(

crush talk: it's our last filione meeting and i forgot to do our project. hahaha i came to school and checked the room and he's already there but i fucking can't come in cos he's the only one there. nyeee. but i'm happy! on count, today is the day we talked the most. like... more than 1 sentence. mga 2!!!! WAHAHAHAHAHA first is when he asked me the coverage of our exam. and second is when i was typing our project outside on a comp shop, he bent and said something like, "di mo pa nagagawa yung project?" sorinaman diba??? HAHAHAHA

=__=;

// haaay. java prog finals sucked big time! >:(

// on the other had, i saw my crush so i'm ok! my friends think there's something fishy going on already, how would i know? i'm too busy looking at him (from afar) to notice if he's looking at me too. that's for my friends to observe. LOL i'm cool with one-sidedness, it's not like i'm hoping for something. duuuh, i might end up passing another frakking chance, so better not show it to me in the first place.

// sir marquez wants to talk to us about our project. sorry, but i kinda hate what you did DAN. i'm afraid he's gonna ask about why our codes look so fucking identical. good thing our prof knows who copied from who. now, i'm scared cos i didn't really do our project, MIKA did. so i have to die studying the whole thing TONIGHT (right when i have two exams tomorrow) cos every method she did wasn't introduced properly to me. key: string tokenizer && mergesort.

// i might actually end up re-doing the entire thing just to make myself understand the whole frakking block of codes. i hate arrays.

// no. i don't hate arrays. i just wasn't taught properly about it.