why this day is made of so much epic fail

so i have this doodle that i work with every time we have filione cos i tuck it in the book so the only chance i get to work on it, is when i open it, which only happens on wednesdays. i draw random stuff as usual, monsters, aliens, slimes, letterings... plain doodles, even a rough cartoon sketch of my crush hahaha.

then there's this time (like, awhile ago) when my crush is walking around the room and he saw me drawing and he complimented it and says he wants to frakking see it. shempre oks lng naman but i have to tear one half of the page cos he's face is frakking drawn there and even though it doesn't look a bit like him, it would be obvious that it's him --- and all my frakking efforts of trying to hide my teenybopper admiration for him would go down the stinking drain --- because i drew his jersey too.

now, i'm safe. i tore half of the paper and gave him the other half to marvel on. he returned it after awhile naman and i continued drawing, relieved that he didn't see anything scandalous.


it was only 6 hours later that i discovered my mistake. henako jec, i wouldn't have noticed at all, thank you talaga pare! (sarcastic haha) i told my friends about what happened and when i handed them the doodle, jec pointed out my mistake. i completely forgot that i also drew his frakking name on it! whyyyy??? i didn't notice naman eh! AND HOPEFULLY HE DIDN'T!

Lord, pleaaaase.

hmmm...

i'm confused between blogger and tumblr and between having 2 blogs, a personal and an art blog. i'm so used to blogger already that i find it hard to move from one platform to another, though tumblr's features are really cool, makes it easier for us to upload media. i dunno, blogger is running on xml now and i checked tumblr and it's all css. the usual, easy-to-mess-with css. i just spent hours creating my own layout but i'm too sleepy now so i'll continue tomorrow.



what i like now with tumblr is that... i got both BRAINBLAST and BOREDWORK. two new blog names i'm contemplating about using for my soon to be art blog.

buuuuut, something's telling that me it'll be hard to manage two blogs. guess i just have to stick with just ONE blog. ONE personal blog... and DeviantArt for the rest of my artworks. i don't know.

i need a .COM, for this.

fail. i saw my crush with a girl this morning. probably having breakfast. it huuurts. >:'((( what is it with TALL MEN and they're certain fancy for PETITE GIRLS??? like they're all programmed to find short girls attractive and dismiss anyone who runs an inch or two over their shoulder. wwwwhhhhyyyyy???? >:((

i found something cute (and rather alarming) about my parents. they're each other's FIRST boyfriend/girlfriend.

awwwwwww.
k, cut!

....which means, hereditarily speaking, chances are i won't have any exes (much to my frakking dismay) and then i'll only have a boyfriend for 3 months, then we'll get wed immediately on my order cos i'm already 30 (and my boyfriend is like, 23!) LOL****. it happens right? you know, parental patterns.

this afternoon, saycee and i joined csc-11's english practice to kill time. i actually spotted my crush from afar. okaaaaay, i kinda enjoy watching him from a distance (like usual). 10 yards is a safe distance. shorter than that, i panic... well, inwardly. hahaha so we came in the basic ed department... then i kinda saw that he's headed to where we are pala... aaah kasi may english din yun blah blah blah blah (stalker much?). so pumasok agad ako sa room. naku ewan ko rin sa sarili ko kung bat kelangan magtago. baka raw di ko maitago yung ngiti ko. taena yan o. hahaha tapos sumilip pa sa room parang tanga. wala na.

**** - yaaah. my mom is 7 years older than my dad. but she looks younger wahahaha. pero diba? imagine you're entering highschool and you suddenly learn you're destined to a kindergarten stud? ang weird!

so nasan si ryan???? >:7

i lied when i said i won't go and see ryan agoncillo at smf. truth is,
i came to see him but FAILED cos there were too many people... too
many freaking emo people flocking the entire annex. i dunno, i think
he isn't even there cos it's just like an audition... you don't need
hosts for that, do you?

actually, i'm still at smf, waiting for my sister to tidy up so we
could go home.

i have an idea. i want to make an art blog for my artworks and
designs. i need a name. i want brainblast but it's already taken.
blastedbrain sounds good too, idk. help? >:D

whew. i figured it's easier to just attend group exercises rather than
design a program for myself (like 30mins treadmill, 30mins statio
bike, 30 mins ekek machine...), i freakin almost broke my back with
Body Balance awhile ago dammmiiiit. good sweat, yeah, gooood sweat.
december 30 is the day!

i want an art blog! >:D
&& i also need to go to blenz mega hahahaha i need an entire day to
look for inspiration! >:D i miss blenz. >:P

kkkk, later.

asan ka Ouraaaaan???

my golly, i lost my dvd of ouran highschool hostclub! it's the dvd of episodes 1-13 that i burned personally! they're the super high quality vids i stole *sarreh naman* from Astra!!!! kanino ko pinahiram??? i don't remember! and my code geass is still with kuya jepoy lol i want it baaaaaacck na. yeah, my black cocktail dress is still with glaize pa pla. gaaaawd, so many things to retrieve from LB! haynako.

you know what happens when you watch too much anime? your perception of reality and men, in general, becomes altered, scaled up and exaggerated. malay. asan na ba kasi ung dvd koooo?

hello, ryan is at SMF right now and i'm not going! yah, like itaga nyo sa bato.

i never finish anyth---

had lunch at yoshi with my family! i missed yoshinoya soooo much! it became my favorite resto because of their chicken teriyaki and red ginger (which turned super salty now. faaaailll). >_<; theeeeen i kinda panic bought instant baked mac and cheezy mac by lucky me cos... cos... me and my groupmates are gonna need a lot of food this tuesday. haha we're doing our freakin java project here! i'm not really expecting progress, more like a girls' day out disguised as a project making day. in fact... it's because of them that i cleaned my room and organized my dusty shelf of pending books. anyway, marty's salt and vinegar cracklings is probably the most in-demand junk food today. it's always sold out! haaay lanyard, where arth thooouuu????
yo brian, wag mo na ko ibili!

aaaand because i fixed my shelf, i came across my box full of letters from my friends! yah like a hundred++ letters since highschool! mostly palancas. grabe, nakaka de-stress! >:) reading their letters make me feel like a better person, it uplifts my spirits! ay grabe they think i'm funny? ewan ko feeling ko naman hinde? wierd lang daw minsan. k. aaaawww, and larz's letter from our senior recollection touched me the most, she says i'm mature daw, all caps... awwwww. it's the type of compliment that makes me feel fulfilled as a person. it's like, the most valuable compliment i got. :) aynako, but of course it's different sometimes! i'm childish too. like when i lose a favorite item... parang yung lanyard?! hmp >:P


something i found stuck in my super old notebook while cleaning.

poem #1:

if i could search into your eyes
i'll be lost in a pool of shadows
lurking in that valley of lies
that one truth i could not swallow

poem #2:

if i could search into your palms
the lines that crossed us together
i would sing a joyful psalm
and wish it remains forever

if i could listen to your words
i'd melt right here and there
i don't care if it sounds absurd
but you take up to the angels' lair

and here's something i found at the recycle bin before i emptied it
poem #3:

i walk
into an antiquated street
you follow
in steps so discrete
i brisk
my heart thumping of fear
you run
your presence, you want me to hear
i hide
with my wobbling senses
you stop

looks like i never finish anyth---
hahaha

thar you gow

ayan! ngayon ko lang ulit nabuksan memory card ng phone ko hahaha. kung di mo pa sinabi, bri!

poring on brian's hand >:D

henna kuno on mine >:D

rough ballpen sketch of ate theresa... months ago

the usual 'waiting' doodle. favorite activity pag may hinihintay na matagal

sorry, try lang naman. kaso panget haha

oks! java mode ulit! >:D

>:|

hello. my brain is clogged. >_<;

our teacher didn't show up this morning! so we were dismissed (indirectly, by the guard, who turned off the aircon) 2 hours early. unfortunately i have to wait for my filione groupmate till 1130 so we could do our project (the super easy project i was talking about in my previous entry). so i waited! i was supposed to go and make tambay at my cousin's house for awhile but it's sooooo hot and i lost my payong so i just stayed where i was, and doooooodled... ang loner amp! T__T;;

otapos ngayon. i'm not making progress with our java project. thing is, i don't understand anything wahaha.

help naman. i need to divide the contents of the text file i have into arrays of different data types. i have a text file with names, student numbers, and grades. yaaaah, i need a string array, int array, and a double array. easy ba? hooow?

heeeelp!