thar you gow

ayan! ngayon ko lang ulit nabuksan memory card ng phone ko hahaha. kung di mo pa sinabi, bri!

poring on brian's hand >:D

henna kuno on mine >:D

rough ballpen sketch of ate theresa... months ago

the usual 'waiting' doodle. favorite activity pag may hinihintay na matagal

sorry, try lang naman. kaso panget haha

oks! java mode ulit! >:D

>:|

hello. my brain is clogged. >_<;

our teacher didn't show up this morning! so we were dismissed (indirectly, by the guard, who turned off the aircon) 2 hours early. unfortunately i have to wait for my filione groupmate till 1130 so we could do our project (the super easy project i was talking about in my previous entry). so i waited! i was supposed to go and make tambay at my cousin's house for awhile but it's sooooo hot and i lost my payong so i just stayed where i was, and doooooodled... ang loner amp! T__T;;

otapos ngayon. i'm not making progress with our java project. thing is, i don't understand anything wahaha.

help naman. i need to divide the contents of the text file i have into arrays of different data types. i have a text file with names, student numbers, and grades. yaaaah, i need a string array, int array, and a double array. easy ba? hooow?

heeeelp!

broooo

reassembling a broken piece doesn't turn it back to the way it was. it's not gonna be the same again. it may be stronger, but uglier. of course i'm talking about literal objects! wahahaha!

kay, sobrang bigat pala sa tiyan (chan? tyan? ang awkward itype) ng krushers.

moving on, if it were in real life, i would say there's a lot of truth in it. a broken friendship is worth restoring, fine, but it can never be the same again. once you put malice in it, it becomes awkward forever. and i hate being awkward cos my brain goes berserk. yeah, you know how it goes. i hard to be friends with someone whom i feel awkward with (like my crushes!!! && people who like me and NOT vice versa). point taken?

why are there mysterious bruises on my thighs? i know i'm kinda clumsy sometimes but i should know when i hit something. duh. good news, my two bruises on both shoulders are completely healed na! e kasi naman ung sabitan ng padlock sa classroom doors ang lakas maka-disgrasya.

anywaaaaay, we had sisig this afternoon so i'm super full. goooooo 2 1/2 rice! and we have this project in filione which is super easy but it's a group work so no matter how much i'm itching to do it all by myself, finish it tonight and pass it tomorrow, i can't! cos i have to discuss everything with my groupmates. and because it's hard coordinating with people, we'll be passing it next week, instead of tomorrow. you know how it sucks to be given a group project which is more efficiently done individually??? haaaay.

so yeah, i'm trying confuse you. ok, trigo is crucial now cos i don't trust every formula our teacher writes on the board. i always have to validate it with a book, then with the internet before i memorize it. thing is, he often makes typo errors! like + become - and x becomes y. you know, math is all about accuracy. it's frustrating when you're working with wrong equations.

sometimes i wish he just told it to me straight cos it's pointless being like this, being weird, and not knowing what to tell people when they ask me, "why?". i can't tell them about it too cos it would seem like i'm acting based on assumptions alone and that's weird enough. no it's not an assumption, it's second-hand information, so it's like... it's true! but you knoooow, i can't cos he doesn't know i know. haaaa???? i wish she hadn't told me about it, then i again i knew it was coming. what now? sorry ah! i don't usually encounter such things eh! noob!

right. javaaaaa. T___T; it's harder now. there's something lacking with his teaching methods haha. sinisi? eh wala lang. i get it, but i don't know when to use it. and it's like, we just got into arrays and after 1 meeting, he gave us a project bulking on it agad? sana tinuro ng mas matagal. >:( i don't get anything at all! and theeeen, he lost my last quiz. i think he lost most of our quizzes that's why he gave another quiz which is the same in scope pero wala na kong alam so faaaaail.

this is getting long! sorry! >:D

o tapos, there's this red wallet i fell in love with just awhile ago and it costs P3,000. T__T;

when there's no compensation for being ugly

sorry for being mean, but it's the only way i can be brutally honest with myself and with everyone.


i want it to die, why won't you quit talking about it? do you know how disgusting it feels to be involved in such a story? i've been rolling my eyes at this every time i hear about it. get me out of it for fuck's sake!!!

sometimes it annoys me how girls can be so sensitive at times, like every joke catches them off guard and they bitch out like crazy. but of course i'm being partial, girls have the right to be sensitive because they are generally more emotional and if guys don't understand how it works in our brains then they should all fuck off. i hate your jokes, you're not funny. what the hell is it that you told these people to get them on your side? now they're all for you and they're pushing me.

you know what, i hate to sound judgmental because i'm afraid of karma. and i also don't want to sound like a female jerk, so i'm not telling it straight on. but really, GIRLS, you should know how it feels to be in my place!

walk a mile in my shoes and feel the brewing disgust every time you hear people talking about it.

naiirita ako alam nyo ba yon? ang panget kasi! both literally and figuratively.

emf!

when i walked out of 309 i felt like all this knowledge i have, all this talent and creativity amounts to nothing at all, that all these bragging rights... i can only face to man and not to God. in reality it's not easy to keep humble when you're blessed with something you know is worth showing off. blame human nature. it's a hard task to keep your head down at all times when you know you're good at something and it needs recognition.

k, my head hurts like crazy i need to throw up. >:|

>:)

yessss!!!! strawberry banana krusher + bucket of fries + mango crepe + marty's cracklings == heaven!!

i didn't workout today. ang galing galing ko. >:)

and you know what, badtrip ako kanina pero nung naisip ko na... dibale bukas makikita ko nmn yung crush ko... wala na... happy na ulit! wooooooow! lakaaas! haaaaay Lord. >:D

still watching New Moon... mmya 2012! wahahaha

ay may quiz pla bukas. bye

clumsy bella

i came to school earlier but i didn't attend my classes. aww, nagpa-BI ako. honestly i still feel bad. hahaha i've conditioned myself to be extremely grade conscious this year and because of this one absence, i feel like i'm lagging behind already. hahaha >:P

watching new moon while waiting for my sister to finally decide on hitting the gym. i have officially 36 days to get thinner.

k, my sister's awake. at last.