options

a. certificate in fine arts - visual communication
b. bachelor in interior design

?????

watdaaaa?!?! why do i always get the worst choices?! can't it be bachelor in fine arts ALONE?!?!?!

whew. i have the weirdest academic case. i'm giving up my current bachelor's degree for a certificate course in my preferred field of study. a certificate course. CERT! -_____-;

pride pare.
pride! iba ang pride ng bachelor's degree.
iba ang yabang ng engineering.

in fact, i've realized something. after lots of psychoanalyzing kung bkt kahit sa mga ktulad kong hindi namamayagpag ang acads ay masungit si col. sec... narealize kong may rason kung bakit kahit mga bobo ay kinukulong ng CEAT. weh!

kasi, mga uri talaga namin ang pinagyayabang nila!!! bakit ba mayabang ang ceat? kasi maraming bumabagsak. sino ba yung mga bumabagsak? ako yun! kami yun!

see?
grabe. simple logic lang pala ang dahilan nila.

but i dooooooon't care.

i have just set new goals for myself for the coming schoolyear.

by God, i will get into the certificate program of fine arts (vis com) and work on my grades (for 3 years) to reach the quota for bachelorship (no such term but you should get what it means). when i get there, i shall work for 1 more year (thesis) and earn my bachelor's degree.

sad thing is, i want to do a lot of things while in diliman. and my most anticipated exco activity would be getting into the swim team. thing is, i don't know if they accept students under the certificate program. sana nga diba.

aside from that, i want my own business. i want to earn while in college. that would be tremendously helpful because i'm excited to get a digital camera, those steadler felt tip pens, a whole bunch of charcoal pens, a set of kurecolor pens (which comes in a 1000+ each!!!!) AND A TABLET.

then there's the BS ID thing. it's equally tempting because it's a bachelor's degree and it's INTERIOR DESIGNING. freakin cool. since i gathered that my family couldn't get enough fortune to bring me to PSID (which i just concluded myself)...this came as a feasible option to me as well. and i heard that that their only grade requirement is 2.50 CWA. works well for me.

whatever happens. i shall graduate. whew.

i waaaaaant!!!!

canon ixus 80 IS

found a bnew one at ebay for only 9700. bat ang cheap?!?!

okay. ipon ipon muna... XD

ay nako!

trying hard ka! trying haaaaard!!!!
wag kang pa impress! ayoko sayo. >____>

you're not the one i want to conquer the world with. hehehe maybe not this world. haha that's reserved for someone else. :/

currently listening to: your universe - rico blanco.
as in the whole album! hahaha i like! especially yugto! super ganda ng lyrics! wooh! kaso may mga conyo songs! wattabout pero keri naman ni rico. weh. XD

lucid dreaming

i was taking my power siesta awhile ago when i dreamt that i was standing on a vast field (similar to one of my wallpapers, will post soon). i don't remember if i was with someone but i was certain that there was a big guy (like zangetsu; ichigo's soul slayer; photo soon) behind me.

then i stared at my hands. the moment i saw my hands i realized i was dreaming, like it was some cue i made when i was still awake, that when i see my hands in my dream i must recognize that i'm dreaming (note that i did make a cue like that while i was still awake but that was months ago, and i didn't condition myself into it before i went to sleep this afternoon).

indeed. it was such an amazing feeling to be aware in your dream, and what rocks is that more than being conscious that i am standing in a virtual field my brain has projected, i also know that i can control things in this particular universe, that i have power over this territory.

so i asked for rain. AND IT FREAKIN RAINED IN MY DREAM. HARD. i was beyond words. COOL. yes, that's exactly how i felt in my dream. eventually i asked for it to stop, and it did too. COOLER. it's like i discovered an inner power hahahaha. then i tried looking at my hands, i don't know why but i just want to look at them, to confirm this virtual reality. heh. unfortunately i can't seem to see them, there's like a heavy force hindering my hands from appearing at my sight. so i tried harder, and caught a glimpse of my palm. and when i did, i also caught a glimpse of reality, of a faint pink ceiling and a rounded fluorescent light. my short trial version of lucid dreaming has ended.

not cool.

THINGS I'VE REALIZED (which may not entirely be a general thing):

@ seeing your cue (like my hand, in my case) for the first time while dreaming and
recognizing it as a 'cue' turns on your awareness. meaning, you've just started lucid dreaming. take note that this happens only by chance and not by force because you have no will power on a regular dream, any exhibition of mindedness or willfulness without acknowledging awareness will only lead to you waking up.

as in a nightmare, when you badly want to escape your dream, you tend to wake out of it, not really control it. this is because you are still unaware that you're dreaming. if by chance you suddenly became aware while you're still in a nightmare, i am pretty certain that you can change things.

@ if you are enjoying your current state in your dream, you might not want to wake up so avoid WANTING to look at your cue once more, for i think this will turn off your awareness and wake you up. i guess, having it at your sight but not minding it will still make your dream intact, though i don't really know about it because we've consciously made a strong association for the cue and being reminded of the function of the cue may disrupt the balance in your newly created (or in progress) universe.

so maybe the best thing to do once you've started dreaming lucidly is to keep doing things, just explore.

the cue pretty much acts as a wall between your dream and your consciousness, once you've seen this wall in your dream and recognized what's behind it, it starts breaking, and your consciousness floods back into you. that's the key to lucid dreaming.

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next time when i encounter my 2nd trial of this super cool world, i must do these things:

- fly
- teleport
- ask for a specific person to appear in my dream, err like ryan agoncillo or a crush
- and make him/them do things *evil laugh*
- order for a big clock to appear and take note of the time [i want to see how time runs inside my dream and compare it to reality]
- be a death god (like in bleach, not in death note) and train for bankai! nyahaha
- control all the elements (wind fire earth water)
- have fun XD

cool

if i heard it right, we won 1st runner up in the cheering competition, 2nd runner up in ms. engmit, and 4th runner up in mr. engmit.

mr. seles won mr. engmit. i kinda knew it, it was really obvious. though for the ms. engmit...i dunno. what happened?

wow. that was superb! XD
lol, and i wasn't really of great help at all. hahaha

CONGRATULATIONS UP AChES! :D
i'm so proud to be part of this org. XD

the 5th stamp

so, i attended our make-up class this morning but decided to not stay over at school for the cheering competition and the conclusion of the mr and ms engmit 09. wewewell, it's because i didn't want to stay over for the night, and my parents don't want me to go home at midnight either.

40% done with downloading a CDrip of rico blanco's album, your universe. i want to get over it already but i have to go home pa.

plans.
shet, i want a new laptop?
nonono, i just want to speed up this thing. i think i need a reformat or something AND and original antivirus.

right! i'm gonna buy one! :) any suggestions? hehe

hmhmhmhmhmhmhm.
bye.

go AChES! :D

declined

lol. have you ever experienced having your DEBIT card declined when you're about to purchase almost2000 worth of items?

wewewell, i just did. hehe, anyway... it guess it was only around 70pesos short. good thing i had an almost-70pesos item in the basket so i just paid it in cash. whew. goooood thing. kasi 100 na lang cash ko eh. haha. anyhow... i kinda splurged too much today.

after the workshop,
i bought a backpack. AT LAST.
and a sorta running flats. AT LAST.

seeeeeeee? i bought things according to my wishlist! no impulsive items! hooooray. i saved for them, so i deserve them both. actually, my whole 2000 bucks is reserved just for a backpack. i wanted a jansport ayt? but i saw this way-cheaper backpack with a laptop compartment from hawk gear for only around 1200. so i bought that instead. it's bigger and water resistant pa (daw). oha. then again, i was up for the design talaga eh. the classic jansport is the ideal backpack for me because it's baggy when there are only a few items in it, i don't really like bags that take a constant shape even when they're empty. hahaha. i love abstract daw kasi. hehe

anyway, no regrets. terai helped me decide on it so i'm not regretful.

the other item...well... i actually wanted a skechers rubber flats but that's gonna cost me another month of high-delata diet so i bought from MKNY na lang. cheaper (compared to sketchers naman) pero greaaaaat. XD

i have a new favorite medium (next to pens): CHARCOAL PASTEL.
mehn, i work better on it. even though it's messy and un-erasable... it's so cool! i don't mind messing my hands with it. >__<;

i'm gonna buy one! promise.
btw, i put up a new blog, //spacehater.blogspot.com
nothing's up yet, for now. it's supposed to be my art blog. well, soon it's gonna be one. hehe

wudels? hmm. i'm probably gonna save for a canon instead of olympus na lang. if i can manage to get a cheaper one, even second-hand, at ebay... i'll go for it. brand new? better.

okaaaay. i guess it's worse to have a debit card declined at the cashier (compared to credit cards), because you know debit cards use YOUR OWN money to pay for stuff, and if it doesn't work, then it means YOU DON'T HAVE MONEY IN IT ANYMORE.

eh sa credit card, it only means that you've reached your credit limit or haven't paid your bills yet. which still sounds bad parin pero mas cheap talaga pag debit card yung nadecline eh, tapos ang haba pa ng pila o. pero 70 pesos lang naman yung kulang. hahaha

pahiya ako e.