way to go!

i. woke up at 5am, arrived at the terminal at around 6, then came to los banos at around 830. then while i was on the jeepney, i was fumbling in my bag for my apartment keys. then i panicked! i couldn't find them! ;___; i was super nervous. my groupmates and i are supposed to meet at 9 to pass our project, and our project is inside the apartment. i got down from the jeepney and walked nervously, thinking if i still have time to travel 65 kilometers (times 2, back and forth) to get my keys, then again, i'm not sure if i really left them at home. ;;____;; i was thinking of calling kuya raffy, the caretaker when i realized i left my phone inside my room...in the apartment. T___T; i am hopeless. then i started thinking of barbaric ways to open the window bars since our project, a half sized illustration board is just sitting on the chair beside the window.

buy heeey, when i yanked the windows open i heard someone gasp. tep and mino are inside!!! damn, they're my saviors! :) and so they opened the door for me and i cheerfully took our project. yey.

ii. it's not over yet, darlings. :) i have yet to get my phone, the laptop and the USB cable needed to transfer the pictures required for the project. i walked upstairs and found that our door won't budge. IT WAS FREAKIN LOCKED!!! more panic. but i was laughing though, it wasn't as deadly as the left-my-keys-panic-attack that i had just a few minutes ago. ;;___;; my housemates don't know why it was locked, no one's inside, and more importantly, none of us have keys to that room. haha so we had to use extreme force to open the door. by extreme we meant these:

• the 'swipe' technique - works for us in our previous dorm. here you need a prepaid card (or a card that won't break easily) and kinda swipe it between the door and the doorframe, usually when you've reached beetween the, err, the thing that retracts when you twist the doorknob and the (usually square) hole it goes through, you just have to push it open. didn't work. T__T;; sucks, i hated describing that.
  
• hairpin pick-lock technique - wannabe locksmiths, yeah. like we actually know how it works. lol
  
• scissors technique - uhh, we want to yank the doorknob off that hole
• "mad, fuming and desperate room owner with a bread knife" technique - uhh, that goes for me. this is similar to the scissors technique, but instead i used a bread knife. it's a matter of trying to destroy the entire doorknob... which produced an ugly bent (but looked artsy to me) bread knife. DID NOT WORK. i was totally desperate to get inside my room. heck, my groupmates are waiting downstairs and i'm constantly banging-screaming-and-brutally-kicking-and-yanking the doorknob open. to nooooo avail. bwahahahaha
• but of course there's an easy way out of that crap. CALL A LOCKSMITH. but that's gonna cost me 200 pesos + 5 meters walk from the gate. well, i tried this one...but got turned off by the price so i just walked defeatedly back to the apartment... to find out that
• mino was able open the door without demolishing the poor doorknob!!! i wasn't there so i couldn't describe what he did in detail but i guess i would call it the HAMMER-HAND technique. figures? you do that for me.

whew. that was coool. hahaha

iii. so yeah...we were able to pass our project and i was able to get my phone, the laptop and other stuff, LIKE MY KEYS. then i'm off to QC once again. hehe daddy will be needing my laptop so i'll leave it there this week. good thing we have no eng2 this week so i won't be typing anything, whatever. haha


iv. and NOOOOW? i'm here at megamall, in a coffee shop walled Blenz. i'm super liking it here! free SUPERFAST WIFI and great coffee. lol, and it's around 5 pesos more expensive than starbucks. woa? nevermind that. what puts starbucks below them is the FREE WIFI. their whipped cream is better too. haha



v. is it already chinese new year? coool. saw this at the ground floor, the dragons are dancing on every store! coool.

vi. i'm totally liking it here. :D
currently: listening to Becoming Jane OST and downloading Full Metal Alchemist and Soulmate OSTs :D

jitters

OMG. CFA has already opened its door for applicants.
i'm very nervous. i'm excited to get in CFA, but utterly uncertain whether freakin CEAT would let me out. please. T___T;

i watched mel and joey awhile ago and it totally counters the bad luck that most websites tell about the people born under the year of the horse. in fact, a guest feng sui expert there says that it will be a year of dream fulfilment for us.

God, you know how I badly want a future in the arts. ;___;
Let it be.

do you believe in fate?

i wouldn't call this a great day, i did nothing for the most part, i didn't bring junjun (i'm using pa-q btw) or anything heavy like my humongous notebook for this weekend. i didn't swim yesterday, though i promised, because i woke up with an ugly muscle pain on my left shoulder and thighs (tennis). i wasn't able to keep the 500 bucks i was meaning to save. i'm not being super productive, yet i'm not regressing either. i wouldn't acknowledge my current state of laziness as a form of regression. i am merely slowly progressing but i am not stagnant.

yesterday's ride was pretty smooth, took only an hour and a half from los banos to manila. maybe it's because of the time, it was saturday noon, not a lot of cars on the road. heyhey, i strolled a bit at megamall and saw this lovely digital camera.

lol, still olympus! i love the color! and this is cheaper than the previous cameras i tabbed!

Olympus FE-370
SM dep't store price: approx 10K. not bad if you're looking for a cheap point and shoot cam! :D

pretty color! XD must haaaaave!

tomorrow will hopefully be a cool day. i'll be going to los banos to pass our project for sosc1 then go home immediately. well, i plan on indulging on wifi though it could still change since i don't have an immediate need for a downloading session yet.

i badly need a place where i could finish reading Almost Heaven. i want to read at the mall, i need the noise and the constant flux of people, it makes me feel alive. here i get sleepy. T__T; in fact i've taken one two many naps this day just because i have nothing to do. T_T ha! tamad.

and hey, i am recommending L'Oreal Elseve Nutri Gloss Intensive Shine Mask. wuut? i don't know what it is but it's like a hair conditioner. it's pretty expensive , around 375 pesos for 200ml. but really, it's a super great product. i only use it once a week, because i need a lot of time with this thing on my head plus rinsing it off is a pain (not a fan of conditioners - it eats up a lot of my bathing time just rinsing it off) but stiiill, it's a good one.
it makes my hair really soft and shiny and it lasts for a week! i mean, not that i don't shampoo for a week but once a week application of this thing is good enough. wutduuuh?

shut up!

err... i survived?

more or less 3 days without internet! now that's cool

monday night i came to elbi to review for an exam for the next day. but i was wrong, we didn't have an exam! grr T__T;

tuesday was boring. i skipped two of my classes because i overslept. well, not exactly but i keep on snoozing my phone off that i decided to just cut the crap with going to classes and just sleep.

hey, but i attended my afternoon class that day cos it was a lab session. boring boring, we're now entering the period of petri plates overusage and it's fun cos i already know all those junk.

know what? i hate the freshies. well, not all of them but damn it, most of them are really unnerving and proud and boastful and i just wanted to cut their heads off and kick them if that's gonna shut them off for good. i hate it. i hate them! now i know how it feels to be extremely mad at the lowerclasses just because they exist.

i know, i'm so evil.

wednesday, hmm, what happened then? i don't remember much. we had chem lab, i wore flats, got a blister from it then...then...err. nothing really. boring daaay.

thursday. finally, an exam. not that i've been waiting for it but i've been studying on the wrong days and it pisses me off because my long weekend is always sacrificed.
how was the exam? hard. it was full of identification items which weren't discussed specifically, we don't even have a common reference so how dare he.

i think i can handle poverty, but not too much. look, i've saved a considerable amount of my allowance for this week because, err, because... i didn't eat much?

friday. i wasn't able to get some sleep.

why wasn't i able to get some sleep anyway? I DRANK COFFEE. i just craved for it, and God did i pay the lethal cons. i was awake till 4 am. i've watched Cruel Intentions, played and reached level 22 of text twist, sucked at Mario and blogged enough on my private word journal. i was wearing shades the whole night (or morning) because my laptop is glaring (ardy in the darkest setting). then i ran out of things to do so just laid down and tried to sleep. to no avail, folks. to noooo avail.

2 hours man, i just slept for 2 hours and i woke up with my phone ringing. my sister called me to print her exam and pass it to her teacher . i badly wanted to strangle her that time for spoiling my sleep and for forcing me to fill up with her irresponsibility (cos she's in manila doing her thesis junk). i hate her! and she wants me to pass it at 830 when i have a class til 9! %^!#$^ her. really @^!^*$#&( her to death. she spoiled my freakin day. goose fraba, baby. gooooose frabaaaaah.

on another note

i got an uno for my backhand practicals! and around 1.25 to 1.50 on my forehand. i suck at service.

chem practicals tomorrow morning.
then off to swim.

bleaaaach!

currently watching: bleach hehe

not finished with soulmate parin.
honey and clovers 1 and 2 still pending...

i have only 3gigs left on my partition drive. T_____T;;

one of the first heteropairs i liked: kurosaki ichigo ♥ kuchiki rukia
yey haha

this is not a love letter

i'm a wimp.

i've never confessed to anyone before, maybe because i don't think there's something liberating with confessing to my crush(es) that i like him(them), unless i figure out it's something bigger. or maaaaybeeee, having a crush on someone is too shallow a reason to break my fantasies. another thing, just like the usual out-of-self-esteem and timid person that i am, i fear being rejected. more more more, i think that ought to be a guy thing.

there are two things you need to understand before you read the entire entry (that's if you want to)
1. my attention gets diverted easily
2. but at the end of the day, there's only one person whom i'm truly serious with



2 years.

i guess i started liking him during the later part of my first year in college. i thought he was cute (well, he is). the generic bespectacled nerdy and weird type of guy who studies day and night and aces every examination he takes. i don't remember our first encounter (i guess it was through text), but i do remember how i came to see him for the first time. a friend of mine just pointed him out for me, saying something like 'him. he's a good prospect, he won't be harsh on you. you should report to him'

and i did.

sucks, because i can't remember how my reporting with him went. i think he was with another person, which made me extremely out of focus because that person became my crush too.

eventually. nothing came.
the next semester, i was totally crushless. it was boring, but i still think of him...ocassionally only... since we don't see each other much except on scheduled assemblies which doesn't pay a lot since all i did was look at him from afar. i couldn't get myself to talk to him because i was afraid he wouldn't entertain anything un-acad related. i was too prejudiced with him and his batchmates. they were too intimidating.

the next sem, i got a major crush on a classmate from literature. our gay teacher liked him despite his evident lack in height, well, i liked him because he's kind, he's good in basketball and he was suddenly worried about me one day for reasons i wasn't able to extract well from him. i thought it has something to do with the paper we're supposed to do together but ended up entirely on my disposal, but then he said no, so that puzzled me big time. i thought he was just worried about me. and it touched me. but that's weird. sorry, i make ugly illogical assumptions when i have a major crush. i overanalyze things to make it look like he likes me too. haha

anyway. since it was a major crush, i almost forgot about him (him being the first guy i mentioned). i would think about him every night, include him in my prayers (well, selfishly though... like "Lord, please let us be groupmates forever. and please have him look at me just once while playing on court.") and just...well, think of him. :)

the sem ended and nothing happened. LOL. i was too shy and too out-of-words when i'm with him.

the next sem was a bit boring too. i had a crush on someone who is a batch lower but is older than me but i didn't care much. i denied it to everyone. we became quite close and were partners for a project. his artistic side got into me... but not enough though. nye

oddly enough, among all the crushes i had, i never saw someone whom i can be in a relationship with... except for him (him being the first guy i mentioned), which is weird because that's just how far i went with him in my mind... imagining 'us' together. lol, i myself am not ready for that.

then one day, after a blog entry at multiply with a semi-weird title, he commented to me personally. i can't spill out what he said cos it's like saying who he is, but the point is... what he said was totally unexpected and weird and drnit, it got through my every nerve, i couldn't help smiling after that remark, like we suddenly share an identical brainwave. i was like given a new reason to continue liking him. it felt like my reserved emotions for him were resurrected and from there, from that seemingly simple comment (you'll prolly think i'm just overreacting)... i almost thought i'm in love.

then it grew, i came to know more things about him, more very very interesting stuff. we're almost the same in terms of fancies.

and the best thing about him..
he's a christian.
i could name this as the biggest factor in my personal match-making quest.

ever since that day, i seriously contemplated on the feelings he seems to give me. is this really love, or am i just idealizing him too much (something i tend to do a lot)?

days, weeks and months passed by. we were both silent. we hardly interact. my crushes triple in number but his place within me remains reserved, God knows until when. but i'm pretty sure it won't be soon.

and because i'm still too young, too occupied with chasing my dreams, and is still incapable of entertaining anything i am bound to leave in a matter of months, i choose not to cater that which will surely lead to regret when dealt with hastily.

i shall wait.

gadgets + accessories wishlist

1. new cellphone :D
red nokia 6300 (est. 9k) or white nokia 3120c (est. 8k)

2. rechargeable digital camera with video recorder
kodak easyshare m1033 or olympus fe340.



with kodak
- great picture and video quality
- video is saved as .mov ... a not so universal format that is only playable on quicktime (avail on package) and who knows...some other apple players. if you're fond of video editing, i don't think .mov is a friendly pick

with olympus
- nice color lineup
- picture and video quality is a bit inferior to kodak (but is still great so far)
- goooood thing: video is saved in .avi format, which can be played everywhere. and can be edited everywhere too
- yey.

both items go for at most 13,000 pesos.
these are the most affordable, price-worthy and quality rechargeable digicams i've spotted so far.


3. 8 gigs USB flash drive
i saw one at SM appliance and it's only for approx. 1,400K! (imation brand) <---- these transcend flash drives are super cute tho i don't really care how it looks like as long as it reads (and stores) 8 freakin gigabytes. the more the merrier. because i hate the risk of cd-r king pdts, i thought i'd consider something a bit more expensive but for your sake.... the cheapest 8gigs i've seen so far can be bought at 800 pesos at the most at cd-r king. china made. unsure of the quality tho.

4. philips earphones


i think this model is SHEsomethingsomething. this is a semi expensive earphones as they go for approx. 600 pesoses but they're probably the best earphones i've tried next to senheisser which is out of the question as most of them are overpriced.

anyhooow, that specific model comes with 5 interchangeable caps which looks super cuuute hahaha they have metallic apple green, metallic pink, black, grey and if i'm not mistaken there's metallic red too. of course default is white. :D

ok, the cheapest i've tried comes only at a hundred buckeroos. guess where, cd-r king. big loser. yeah. the buds are like awfully naked now because the earcaps are very fond of detaching themselves so i kinda lost them while travelling. don't buy stuff at cd-r king unless you're out of budget and is not as tech-savvy (translation: mahilig at maarte sa gadgets) as i am.
perhaps the best thing about cd-r king is that they sell lots of cheapo stuff but then most of their electronics like to play dead and they just randomly ressurect (take my lame earphones for that). the heck.

5. magic mic

approx. 9k
need i say more?

6. case logic phone/mp3 case

i dunno, 400? primarily for my phone. :)

7. germany fifa world cup lanyard

because it's black. honestly though, if there's a black italia lanyard i'd take that instead. i have no particular inclination towards germany as i do with italy (i like the country plus the whole art emergence in there and also the food but it's only available in blue ;_;) but ugghh... the color, man. -__-;

i like black.
buy me this! haha 200-250 lang. err... ewan ko nga lang kung san. they're available through some multiply sites. lol.