more than anything

[taken last December 25, 2008 - candlelight mass]

i forgot to mention about it, but yesterday at church during the 2nd altar call, as i was mouthing my prayers... i realized i was close to tears. that was a first time. >___> and when the pastor's hand rested on my head to bless me and my prayers, i suddenly burst out crying. i couldn't stop myself, and believe me I DIDN'T WANT TO CRY. i was pacifying myself because i didn't want my parents to see me crying.

actually i didn't want them to see how 'touched' i was at that time. pride, maybe? in fact, i don't want anyone to know about my religious side, kung meron man ako nun. =__= i'm not proud of my spiritual standing yet, i guess i'm still not in the right position to brag about it. most people do, and it disgusts me because they sound like hypocrites. sorry.

Lord, do you hate me now?

anyway. there was only one thing i was praying about that time and it was just at that moment that i realized how it is the most important thing to me now (or the most important wish):

UP Diliman - Fine Arts

Lord, VisCom please? :)

i suddenly miss shane

i was making a list of series to buy and included The L Word in it. L, i dunno, lesbian? love? "watashi wa L desu?" juuuuuust because i wanna see Shane McCutcheon (katherine moennig) sans all the porn.

she was my ultimate highschool female celebrity crush. i made her a very embarrassing lesbian love poem which i lost at the retreat house at school.... full story here. i drew a portrait of katherine moennig too. i was deeply infatuated, i guess, scanning people with a similar haircut... asking this friend of mine over and over again if she could lend me her sister's friend's dvd of it.... lol on them all.

yknow, those were the times when i thought i couldn't make it in the real world, with real men and no female crossdressers. fck. i thought i was already a lesbian. uhh, identity crisis? we all went through it, i'm sure...most of my batchmates did.

however... college came and i almost fell in love...well, with a guy. which means i'm out of the crisis. hurraaaaay?



but stiiiiiill, shane!!!! ♥ i dunno. i still wanna watch the L word. =___= and i wanna play tennis and i wanna swim like crazy too.

hey, what the hell was this all about?
i don't remember the people i mentioned there already. seriously, i was racking my brain for answers. who could this beeeeee?



seeee? that's why i semi-hate highschool! i was my most hateful self back then. i have a bunch of entries labeled hate, hate list, i hate you, stuff like that. lol

shaneshaneshane!

suuuuucks! i'm going back to los banos tomorrow night. damn. ;__;

BTS ♥

january 3, 2009

i. redbox - trinoma :)
super fuuun! we weren't complete pero madami naman kami! yahooO! :D lol we only spent 2 hours at redbox (5-7pm) because of the student promo... that's why we only played like 30secs of each song para sulit! lol

and KA ordered a really large platter of nachos for everyone which delighted my every nerve. lol

neeext!

ii. epic fail camera (or batteries?) - was already in the tricycle when i realized i didn't bring the camera with me, so i went back for it. when i'm already in the mall ---- i realized that the batteries i bought were uncharged!!! (i bought rechargeable ones and they weren't pre-charged dmnt!). i didn't buy new ones anymore since 3 of us have cameras naman so i'm just gonna grab and repost their pics soon. lol

iii. did not feel a bit guilty about not attending the sixtreme reunion. felt kinda bad for reyno though..

iv. trinoma is too big.

v. there's fully booked?!?!?!!?! well, yes. just learned about it last night.

vi. EPIC WIN.
INEZ DROVE US HOME (well.. me, karlita, larz and carlaaa), talk about cooooolness. she dropped karlita and i at fcm, yahooooo. :D :D :D ang saya saya. hahahaha

i wanna drive na rin!!! T___T;;

layout #4 (inverted version)

because i read somewhere that black webpages use less energy than white ones. dunno if it's true but i just found a new 'light' in black. :) at least it's less glaring :}

will blog about our barkada's post-christmas slash happy new year party .... tomorrow :D

this is not a love song

currently watching one of my sister's dvds. SOULMATE starring shin don wook (wilson of money war). hehehe fun.

while watching i'm also drawing a lot of names on colored paper, hope to make it in time lolz.

btw. i just QUIT DRINKING SLIMMING TEAS. i almost forgot i'm hyperacidic, i'm having heartburns again. for hyperacidic people, diet and slimming teas are the worst remedies for losing weight. might get ulcer or GI cancer. oh noes. ;_;

my mom says i should stop taking bioslim because it's more concentrated than biofit (no wonder i woke up with an upset stomach) and would have really ugly side-effects.

i say: senna containing teas, in general are all the same. most slimming teas contain 75% senna pods and 25% senna leaves. either way, they're all senna, so why do they differ in effect? I DON'T KNOW, i don't wanna scare myself lol. XP take this down: took much senna tea could make your intestinal linings thinner, could lead to ulcer and GI (gastrointestinal) cancer at the worst.

right now i'm hyperacidic and my stomach lining is a bit wounded.

i'm probably going to double my workout then. tennis on fridays, swimming at least twice a week? i dunno what to do i really want to slim down. ouch, my stomach hurts dmmt. >_>

my point? DO NOT TAKE SLIMMING TEAS WHEN YOU ARE HYPERACIDIC (by history or at present) AND WANT TO LOSE WEIGHT.

just exercise.

layout #4, 3, 2 and 1

layout #4:

so... i moved in last december 12 and i've already changed layouts for 4 FREAKIN TIMES! which means i change almost every week? that's absurd. maybe i blog too much that's why i get tired of the look so easily.

anyway, here's to a new look. a neutral, clean and neat look. i like it! it's very simple. :)
here's a screenshot for my sake:

modified from Dots by Douglas Bowman (you can find it in blogger's 'pick new template' option in the layout tab)

layout #3:modified from Minima by Douglas Bowman (a blogger default template)

layout #2:
this time modified from K2 by Gecko and Fly
i made layout #3 similar to this because i found a problem with the GnF layout.

layout #1:K2 by Gecko and Fly

NOTE: if you liked any of the layouts i do, i can help you on that. i keep the xml backups of my previous layouts, if you'd like to use the design on your blog, i can give the file to you for free. :) then all you have to do is upload your own header and re-install your gadgets. :)

the main thing i do is to modify pre-made layouts according to my preference. :)

comment if interested. :D

all roads lead to cubao

pardon the length, i will not cut this entry haha

i. first ever ebay business transaction: success :) met my client awhile (with my sis) ago at megamall and did a short trade. it was cool coz it was my first time to deal with it up front, i mean i was a little nervous beforehand, thinking of arranging formalities because i didn't have a clue on how business meet-ups set online are supposed to go. luckily it was very swift, we were just standing outside giordano at mega B, when we made the trade. i handed him the bag (an HP laptop bag), he inspected a bit then gave me the money. didn't even take a minute. nice and smooth. cool 8D

ii. after the trade, my sister and i walked to st. francis square to buy her dvds and some other stuff for myself. i bought gifts for my friends, a new wallet (which is out of the list but i just wanted a new one lol - i buy pretty much the same stuff anyway), batteries for the camera and...err...that's all i bought at st. francis :)

iii. we walked back to megamall to eat. then strolled a little. i promised myself not to buy anything unecessary but ended up with a bar of yummy dark chocolate. i bought dark because it doesn't make me as guilty as eating milk chocolate.

iv. will drink bioslim tea later

v. note to self!!! buy lots of dvds! st. francis = blu ray haven. because i'm so lagging behind our generation i want to watch these series/movies: gossip girl, heroes, the l word (shane mccrutcheon is my lesbian crush ----ever since highschool), princess hours (lolz), chuck season 2, house, one tree hill seasons 1-6 (or wherever they are right now), batman begins, the dark knight, iron man, twilight (already watched this but just so i have my own copy), harry potter 1-5 (same as twilight), yes man (or just yes?), eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, sweeney todd, across the universe, tuck everlasting (disney rare - alexis bledel and jonathan jackson, if you know of a direct d/l link TELL ME plz), more adam sandler, sandra bullock, end of the world, cyber crime and cool alien invasion movies. blah blah blah blah. i'll make a complete list someday

vi. epic. I CAN CURL MY HAIR NOW. we have this ceramic hair styler that's been with us for years and the only thing i could use it for is to straighten my hair. we've been wondering how it could actually curl someone's hair --the plates are all flat-- because that's what it says in the box (it could straight and curl). awhile ago at SM dept store they we're demo-ing the product and i asked the sales lady to teach me how to curl. XD so, yeah.

vii. it's so cold >__<;

viii. post-christmas party tomorrow with my barkada! :) yey. and i totally agree with just spending the whole night in the mall, instead of going to the reunion after. lol i'm evil, yes? i want us to boycott that thing. anything to get the same award, man.