ayoko naaaaaaaaa

T____T


feeling ko talaga in love na ko sa kanya. though hindi ako sure. haha, ayoko aminin eh... sa sarili ko.

and besides... i guess he's already taken.

i mean, this is crazy i know but i find it hard not to think about him...
kasi ganito yun... parang, ang daming nagpapa-alala sakin sa kanya... as if naman ang dami naming memories di ba? it started out as a crush which unfortunately hindi napalitan over the months... kaya ayun. what do i do.what do i do.

well.
wala.
mag-aral.

tsk.

too many midgets in dark blue

i'm totally hating this feeling. no, not exacltly since half of me is actually looking forward to it... but the thing is, when i'm faced with a great probablity of it happening... i panic like a blind mouse. i.don't.know.what.to.do.

mehn.

help me rule the world. ;)

oh right, i'm not supposed to go home this weekend because i have major exams coming up the next week... but i am! just to see a friend before she leaves for sanfo. and i'm not even staying home... hehehe.

:) :) :) :) :)

hello, chuck

i am gravely fascinated with the american series, Chuck. i love it! i love how chuck looks all geeky even without thick glasses and braces. it's sooo cool.

after immersing myself in geekdom, next i find myself swooning over an almost naked Lucas Scott (one tree hill). extremes, yeah, from the highly technical crime series- Chuck to the complex highschool drama in One Tree Hill. i'm enjoying marathons, apparently... it's the only chance i get to keep in touch with the TV. hehe

i forgot that we have an exam tomorrow at math. well, i haven't studied.. how's thaaat.

hehehehehe

before it kills me

i'll try to make this short (but i doubt). i do have a lot of things to say but because a headache's killing me i have to refrain from excessive thinking and probably resume to my Chuck marathon.

so here, my sister and i just came back from a church-mall escapade. it was hard on our part, with the dirty water seeping through our slippers... we just commuted actually. i couldn't quite miss going to church.

i'm a hypocrite of course, i intended to go the mall after. which is 'the' factor.

and because i'm evil, or because i didn't bring in my tithes in hopes of using the money to buy a set of staedtler pens, God punished me. or shall we say, for those who don't believe in him, Karma worked its rounds on me. i got a really bad headache now, right now, and it throbs in pain with every letter i type on the keyboard. now, how hard is that? me having to endure all this just to feed you an entry?

anyway. i thought the mall was going to console me with my dirty feet, a broken umbrella, and a very useless super absorbent jacket but no it didn't. i actually forgot that it's a SUNDAY and it's AUGUST 3. it's actually the last day of SM's 3-day mall wide sale. it's freakin suffocating inside, i regretted stepping foot on it. and you know, the set of staedtler pens i was hoping to purchase was out of stock according to a seemingly unreliable sales clerk of NBS. is there anyway to know if a sales lady is lying about their stocks? i think they're just too lazy to
attend to us. bitch.

i'm not in the mood anymore.

but i love Chuck.

masaya maging wierd!

apir!

so this is how it feels

to be happy with what you're doing even though you get very little money for it.
it's becoming more confusing for me now, doing things i should've pursued for the sake of my happiness just as a sideline and doing the less dramatic stuff in hopes of getting enormous monetary kickbacks in the future.

in the long run, people will always choose the path to happiness, and they hardly ever notice. and it's not even a choice, it's a gradual change of heart. sort of like a reaction that adjusts to stress to achieve exquilibrium. people will always feel most secure, jailed with their passions and money will never be a deciding factor.

for now, let me be practical and put happiness at second priority and money at the first slot. if only we could make both elements work in unison, that would be great. -___-; ehh, i know we could. i just don't how to make it work in my case. >____>;

ehehehehe.

i felt incredibly awkward at first pero buti na lang na-confirm ko na wala. haha, sayang ang friendship pare! :) let's stick to that.

grabe naman ako, hindi ako maka-get over sa kanya e last sem pa yun eh. nakakhiya naman. bwahahahaha. natataranta ako pag nakikita ko sya, lol. and just the mere thought na baka makasalubong ko sya, naloloka na ko, hindi ko alam ang gagawin.

poknat.

wala akong masabi

you made my day yesterday. grabe thank you. ♥ :)

i've started taking art commissions now! (if that's how you call it bwahaha)

i got around 11 orders during our last GA and more from my classmates this morning. i guess it's going to be a weekend full of work for me. and i'm earning VERY little, seriously. i put a lot of effort in every artwork even though they're just playing-card sized, and being the 'perfectionist' artist that i am, i always think the end product sucks... but people still like it. :)

i'm trying to experiment on different designs (preferrably for men) T__T;

anyway, i'm happy because i'm surviving with what little income i get from drawing. :) hahaha friends na kami nung taga laminate ko, may discount pa ko pag madami! go business!

halaaaa

para talaga akong ewan >__>; hahaha, so after all this time. crush ko pa pala sya.
nakakaloka.