before it kills me

i'll try to make this short (but i doubt). i do have a lot of things to say but because a headache's killing me i have to refrain from excessive thinking and probably resume to my Chuck marathon.

so here, my sister and i just came back from a church-mall escapade. it was hard on our part, with the dirty water seeping through our slippers... we just commuted actually. i couldn't quite miss going to church.

i'm a hypocrite of course, i intended to go the mall after. which is 'the' factor.

and because i'm evil, or because i didn't bring in my tithes in hopes of using the money to buy a set of staedtler pens, God punished me. or shall we say, for those who don't believe in him, Karma worked its rounds on me. i got a really bad headache now, right now, and it throbs in pain with every letter i type on the keyboard. now, how hard is that? me having to endure all this just to feed you an entry?

anyway. i thought the mall was going to console me with my dirty feet, a broken umbrella, and a very useless super absorbent jacket but no it didn't. i actually forgot that it's a SUNDAY and it's AUGUST 3. it's actually the last day of SM's 3-day mall wide sale. it's freakin suffocating inside, i regretted stepping foot on it. and you know, the set of staedtler pens i was hoping to purchase was out of stock according to a seemingly unreliable sales clerk of NBS. is there anyway to know if a sales lady is lying about their stocks? i think they're just too lazy to
attend to us. bitch.

i'm not in the mood anymore.

but i love Chuck.

masaya maging wierd!

apir!

so this is how it feels

to be happy with what you're doing even though you get very little money for it.
it's becoming more confusing for me now, doing things i should've pursued for the sake of my happiness just as a sideline and doing the less dramatic stuff in hopes of getting enormous monetary kickbacks in the future.

in the long run, people will always choose the path to happiness, and they hardly ever notice. and it's not even a choice, it's a gradual change of heart. sort of like a reaction that adjusts to stress to achieve exquilibrium. people will always feel most secure, jailed with their passions and money will never be a deciding factor.

for now, let me be practical and put happiness at second priority and money at the first slot. if only we could make both elements work in unison, that would be great. -___-; ehh, i know we could. i just don't how to make it work in my case. >____>;

ehehehehe.

i felt incredibly awkward at first pero buti na lang na-confirm ko na wala. haha, sayang ang friendship pare! :) let's stick to that.

grabe naman ako, hindi ako maka-get over sa kanya e last sem pa yun eh. nakakhiya naman. bwahahahaha. natataranta ako pag nakikita ko sya, lol. and just the mere thought na baka makasalubong ko sya, naloloka na ko, hindi ko alam ang gagawin.

poknat.

wala akong masabi

you made my day yesterday. grabe thank you. ♥ :)

i've started taking art commissions now! (if that's how you call it bwahaha)

i got around 11 orders during our last GA and more from my classmates this morning. i guess it's going to be a weekend full of work for me. and i'm earning VERY little, seriously. i put a lot of effort in every artwork even though they're just playing-card sized, and being the 'perfectionist' artist that i am, i always think the end product sucks... but people still like it. :)

i'm trying to experiment on different designs (preferrably for men) T__T;

anyway, i'm happy because i'm surviving with what little income i get from drawing. :) hahaha friends na kami nung taga laminate ko, may discount pa ko pag madami! go business!

halaaaa

para talaga akong ewan >__>; hahaha, so after all this time. crush ko pa pala sya.
nakakaloka.

portfolio!

this is the main page of the portfolio slideshow i created using powerpoint 07. it's done out of frustration because i still couldn't get how flash 8 works. i need a book, probably. -___-; but that's on the least of my concerns now that i've realized i could make equally decent presentations using powerpoint as my main tool. :)



i'm not sure how to make it available for download (i'm currently trying to figure it out... i'll give you the link once i've done it). but for sure, anytime now i'd be posting the link. it's around 5.40MB yeah, it's big. >___> mainly because i'm fumbling (yesterday) to perfect the custom animations so i resorted in making multiple slides for. it's around 28 slides long, though you wouldn't really notice because i made it sort of 'interactive'.

at the very beginning of the show there's a warning that says: click on the links to navigate. this is not your usual click-to-continue slideshow.

yes. that's how it works.

actually, the artworks features in the presentation are already archived here, i just somewhat selected my 'proudest' haha.

eto lang talaga yan eh. i just want to create a powerpoint presentation. yun lang naman.

isa pa. bored ako. bwahahahaaaa

IT'S HERE NOW! YOU CAN GET THE DOWNLOAD LINK here. at the bottom of the entry, click on the attachment link to donwnload. hehehe it's in powerpoint slideshow format :)

ehehe

i don't know where to start. i'm lost. i exchanged my macromedia flash 8 installer for a newer stock because it won't load here. now that i have the software... i am dumbfounded by its complexity. well of course, i'm an amateur at this. i am simply offering myself a supposedly easier alternative for not divulging into an adobe premier. why the heck do i even have to be updated with this? like i should care? like it's anywhere near the bounds of chemistry???? eh ganun talaga.

as if you'd see me scouting for chemistry tutorials online. -___-;

o yun nga. HOW DO YOU USE FLASH 8? TEACH MEEEE!!!! i want to make flash presentations. but you see, if within a month i still can't get my hands on it, i'd resort to powerpoint instead. it's so much easier, but it takes a heck of an inhumane skill to make a slide pres look like a flash. and that's what i'm 'dreaming' to achieve, if ever i'd use ppt as my medium, a flash-looking art portfolio. :)

isa pa! i need a webpage designer that codes xml. i don't have the right to boast about my webpage designs if they look all skrewed up in browsers other than IE7. please please. professional help needed

hello frustrations. :\

i survived!

i only withdrew 1000 bucks from my account this week TO SAVE. well, you might think 1k is more than enough for a college student to survive. TRUE, but in my case 1K is just enough to cover my weekly expenses:

a) FOOD. duh
b) FARE. another duh. and it pisses me off that it keeps on increasing without bound
c) laundry. every week.
d) TITHES. i'm trying to be faithful here
e) miscellaneous. this includes handouts, org fees and other bullcrap i'm trying to live without (but is failing) like internet and expensive coffee* and lots of cereals and other types of junk i bloat myself with (cassava, isaw, proven, baked mac and gulaman)

seriously. i could've lived a better life with lesser expenses if i knew how to discipline myself with unnecessary things. like for once, stop eating tapsilog because meat is expensive. cut off with pork because they're too fatty. STOP BUYING BALLPENS. i already have a 50+ of them in my pencil case and if i don't stop this stupid fancy for pens, the others will die a natural death (run out of ink before i can even optimize their use) and i have to dispose of them. sad. cruel.

and to add up to that ugly pile of payables, I COMPLETELY FORGOT THAT WE'RE SUPPOSED TO PAY OUR TOWERING WATER BILL before the 25th. this completely ruined my week (and budget). but because the apartment owner paid half of the bill (because duh, it's improper for us to cover the whole gdmn bill, it's not our fault the water in the toilet won't stop from flowing) we only have to pay 204.1 each. BUT THAT'S STILL TOO MUCH. normally, we'll just get around 150 to 200 worth of water bill in a month. this is crazy. but i managed to survive this week without starving myself. well, i still have a 120 pesos debt to my sister and a 60 pesos debt to the org, but come next week... i'm sure i'd be able to pay all of those so.. yehey. hahaha

and hmm. i'm going to try doing art commissions. personalized bookmarks or 3x5 artworks. anne paid me 50 bucks for doing 3 art pieces. when i get to the real business, i think i'm going to charge 50/item. i'll be working on the samples SOON.

i've already mentioned this before but i never really got this close to making it real. weh. :)

okok. till next time, i'm glad that i'm finally hoooome!!! :)
i missed my parents! :D