i want

i feel like i need to get rich already. and make that soon. i feel like i have to make it a point to maintain whatever luxuries i have right now, and indulge on more when i finally get a nice high-paying job. you know what they are, i want my coffee nice and well-worth it, my gadgets unique and branded and my bathroom essentials of high quality.

now i want to get a gift card from The Spa, certificates from Yellow Cab and lots of complimentary hotel accomodations. i want to live a life of luxury. and yes, it all boils down to my greediness to indulge in these marvelous things.

i really really want to have those things.
but you know, i don't want to look rich... AT ALL. i just want to look decent enough to pass for a regular citizen, but still indulge in such expensive treats. i want my life to be like that.

i want to live in a small home enough only for myself. i want to be simple looking but dmn RICH. i don't want to live an exclusive life you know. like those rich people who shop only at shang and other well-secluded ayala shopping malls.

nonono, SM is still the best. :) even if i get ultra rich i won't spend a shopping spree at an ayala mall.

quite simply, i just want to have the money right when i need it... for some selfish treats. :)

MELODIC DOOHICKEYS

i came across this certain septembr 2006 entry regarding my long forgotten FORUM BOARDS!

CLICK HERE TO CHECK IT OUT

i can't believe it's still alive. well, alive in a sense that it still exists though i could hardly remember the last time i posted there. but the thing is, it's already 5 years since i made it!

i was in first year highschool and forumboards are just so IN. so i made one, just for the heck of it, a lot of my friends joined plus some of my old online buddies. it was fun. i got to create tons of topics to talk about and you know, i enjoyed it. hahaha, dunno what happened. we all got busy i guess. it's bound to be burried anyway. but i'm not deleting it. it's a nice place to go reminiscing during our first year days. hahaha

funny talaga. i'm reading it btw... and there's this time where implemented an 'ALL ENGLISH' rule for the whole forum. i swear i sounded bitchy, replying to threads with tagalog words with these... "Next time, please use English or make a loose translation for the Filipino words." didn't even put a smiley, how's that >__>;

and when they replied, i was like, "NO. you must speak english for the whole forum."
gawd, i want to slap myself for sounding so demanding and strict. i did it for the foreigners cos i used to invite all my online buddies back then to participate in my silly play, and they're all aliens. and at that time, i was just doing it for the sake of having lots of members. i used to chat a lot in y!m, my favorite room is the Japanese Anime room hahaha... but right now i guess i just lost the drive to go chatting with foreigners even though i know i should be speaking more fluently in english bwahaha

AND HOMG! i still remember my username and password! haha, it's a generic pass kasi bwahahaha. AND HOMG again, i had 3 guests this daaaaay??? and accdg to the stats most users online is January something 2008?!?!?! that's ridiculous, i thought no one ever goes there anymore! haha, funny.

wow. it's just unbelievable... hahaha

orly?

i want to update my stories but i can't! i'm out of inspiration! out of Harry Potter stuff to spazz with! Naruto, with its stupid replays here in the Phils., does not clench my need for a decent motivation. it's already June, classes are bound to kill me in two weeks, more or less. i should have to the right indulge in selfish things before i plunge into another level of hell.

ohlook! i'm organizing my folders. i made a 'stories' folders, with my current projects. by far, i've only had one completed story which is in the proccess of being beta-read. sooner or later, i'll have the docs imported into my account and finally get rid of my grammatical mistakes.

i have 2 in progress fics, and 3 pending-to-be-written cases. i'll show you what i have in mind...

@Hate Me - this is a Naruto in-progress fic. i can't bear to continue it because it can't carry on without the rape. and i'm still looking for ways to write a frkn rape scene. if i manage to pull down the rating, from M to T... BETTER.

@Interview with a Vampire - i know, i know. another in progress HPDM fic. i like the plot, i really do. it's not always that i come up with story-lines that people actually patronize.

i left those two fics hanging TWO FRKN YEARS AGO. and i've been receiving PM's, yeah, PRIVATE MESSAGES (!!!), from readers begging me to update, alongside casual swears indicating their impatience. i thought it was flattering, so i had to smile with those. but really, none of them ticked me enough to get my ass moving. T__T;

and now i have another 3 being conceptualized. all are HPDMs. :) i'll be sharing the titles but it won't be revealing anything substantial yet.

@If Only
@In Another Lifetime - this was the one i thought i could turn into an original romance novel (like, whateveeerrr arianne! you and your dreams!) instead of a fic, but i'm doubting the audience would appreciate it. HPDM has more than a million fans, it's more likely to be acknowledged in that fandom. hehe
@Remember when it Rained - SO FAR MY FAVORITE among the stories i've plotted. why? IT'S TRAGIC, and i've finished the whole story in my brain! i cried, man, it's crazy. hint: it's a VAMPfic! appiiiirrr!!!

i was wondering. me writing like this (about fics and fandoms) seems more appropriate in LIVEJOURNAL. hahaha, my circle of co-fans is really small. and it's because i'm not making an effort to involve myself in any of those rings. hahaha, not to worry. i'm enjoying this. hehe

I WANT COFFEEEEEEE!!!!

market! market!

it's really weird why they named it that way. as if people are really going exclaim the name of the mall hahaha. :) after church, we went to market market. this comes in really rare, my mom deciding to go to mall to just take a look at it. so you see, it was our first time to go inside the mall. hehehe. we brought our own food, as usual and ate in the car. then we went in, grocery shopped and bought some other items. T__T; hehehe pretty much like glorietta and trinoma, but it's really more like glorietta. :)

it also happened that it's me and my sister's first time to roam around global city. it was nice, quite deserted, but really modernized. i feel like the buildings are too tall they look like they were just planted upright. >___>; anyhow, i want to own a condo unit there. :) it's a super nice place to live in. now if i land on a high-paying stable job somewhere there or at libis, then i guess i could afford to buy a condo. it's most practical nowadays. :)

yehey! i have new earphones! i bought the same black philips earphones. i opted for the one in cd-r king, it's only 80!, but there are too much people. i could hardly wait. hahahaaaaay. actually, i want another set of earphones...the more fancy looking ones. but i have to save first, it's quite a fortune bwahaha. then i can hand-me-down my philips to terai. bwahahaha.

i had fun! i also tried this pinoy sorbetes na mejo mahal for me [27/scoop-wafer cone] pero masarap and fun ung mga flavors. hehehe

the clouds have left

you know awhile ago, i guess it was already breaking dawn, i went to our rooftop and sat on the garden chair to read. i'm halfway through Almost Heaven though i still am not hooked enough like i was with Whitney My Love. i looked up and just marveled on the vast expanse of dispersed cotton on a blue canvas. then i saw Fantasia hovering above me, her face without any detail, her arms streched to her sides, her bottom part misting like a ghost. i stared at it for awhile, anxious that i couldn't get our banig which is ideal for activities such as this because my parents are sleeping on it in the confines of their room (i was like, err, have you ever heard of a bed?). when i got a handful of shots registered in my brain, i leveled my head down to resume reading.

you know i'm talking about clouds.

then the sky turned bluish-pink. Fantasia has gone, moved a great deal to my west, her enchanting form morphing into an indistinguishable cotton mess. i have the wind to blame for that. the sky is a sweet marshmallow, slowly darkening into an orange expanse. the sun finally set, though the roofdeck isn't facing that way, i got it covered from the window on the opposite side.

then it was time to leave.

my bookmark barely left a few pages, but i was glad i got to go cloud gazing. at that time, my head is filled with various thoughts. they're really bothersome, but at least i get to set my mind on it, even for a while.

i was actually looking for a place to read, but the sky took most of my attention instead.

my darkest days

literally. hehehe
thanks kim! hihihi, this was taken during one of my swimming days at the university pool. kim took shots of me while swimming because she needed a moving subject for one of her homeworks. yey! i'm glad to finally see them. though there's really no guarantee that i'm the one in those pics, haha, why don't you see how dark those arms are and tell if it's not me. bwahehehe

aw. thanks so much kimmy. T___T; those are my first pictures taken using an slr camera. hehehehe ♥

discovery suites :)

i wasn't planning on staying for the night but since nobody's going home, i was convinced to stay, without any change of clothes and stuff. hahaha, but i got by! WE got by! :)

it was soooo fun! XP i thought they're staying at shang but they moved to discovery so i followed them there. hahaha, i seriously think we could all live together. for good. hahahahaha

we bought chips, canned goods, bread, pancit canton, iced tea and lots of vodka cruiser. we cooked, we watched, we drank, and got ourselves wasted. i only got myself a little bit wasted! but i know someone who uhh, wasted herself completely *winks*. it's a brilliant thing we caught it on video *winkwink* now all we have to is wait till it gets to youtube *winkwinkwink*

haaaaay. i had fun! yeah, thanks so much for the experience KA! and to my beloved friends whom i spent the glorious night with (ka,nez,michi,karlita,larz,carla)...i love you!

and to my dear dear friends who weren't there (hannah,jami,martha,ding,lau,kim)... you missed a LOOOOOTTTT! haahahahaha XD

hehe, sa uulitin. :D