why i quit planning for my debut

1) the hassle, pare! even though it's still quite early to plan about it now, i don't want to bother myself with the preparations

2) the cost! the cheapest debut package i saw is 40,000. that's a good deal already, the most expensive debut i attended probably cost more or less 200,000 (excluding the CAR she got on that day). and that 40k worth of debut will be set in aberdeen court's (great eastern hotel) biggest ballroom. my parents are close on pouncing on the deal but i told then, naaaaah, not there... for crying out loud.

3) 18 roses? my guy friends live far far away... and the time of my debut is clipped between our semestral break so most probably my dear guy friends are off in their provinces, chilling. and also, i don't think my guy friends list would reach 18, i don't want some people to think i just called some guys to fill in the empty spots...even though we're not close. in short, i don't have a lot of close guy friends.

4) i'm too shy to take everyone's attention. i'm not used to the limelight. i don't want to be the 'most beautiful' girl, even on my birthday. i don't want to wear an ostentatious gown. i don't want to dance, i'm too clumsy for that. when i'm wearing heels, i can't walk a flat surface without finding something to trip over.


and lastly

5) it's not really what i want for my 18th birthday. i'd rather treat my friends pizza and beer, after all i'm the last one to turn legal in the group. then do a mock debut! i hate being traditional, i want my own 18 shots and 18 pizza slices. hahaha 18 thousand pesos would be utterly great.

but you know, at this point in time, it's really more practical to shove off with a blasted 18th bday experience and just do more charity.

in lieu of presents, you can always give me money instead. hehehe
why don't you take a look at my WISHLIST? hehehe :)

so many great great artists out there!

scouting for inspiration at DeviantArt.com. i've been pretty much enthused to draw more and more! i'm getting into (i mean, fascinated with) abstract patterns and really, uh, idisnahignbliutse sutff. hehe.

we'll be going out later to buy some err, clothes and a gift for my cousin's wedding tomorrow. lemme see, it's just the 3rd wedding i've attended whataloser. and i've never been a participant in any of them. oh, i remember once... i was asked to play the piano at the reception of one of my cousin's weddings. i was around grade 3 or 4 then, i was really reluctant to go upstage and perform. my name is even part of the recemption program proper as 'intermission'.

so what i did, because i'm such a coward i don't wanna disgrace the ocassion with my wobbly hands... i ditched the reception and wandered somewhere in the hotel with one of my younger cousins who is as willing to get out of the place as i am. we sat by the guards, played by the fountain and just waited until we think they've forgotten little miss arianne who's supposed to play the piano for the newly wed.

my parents never brought up the incident afterwards. they must've understand that i'm just a kid, a shy kid, who got lost on her way to the reception hall. that could've been a nice excuse.

so, i have to prepare now.
later, i guess. :)

command geek

whoever said the command prompt is boring? lo and behold, i've just unearthed an important relic from our start menu... *deep voice enter* THE COMMAND PROMPT. at first i thought it's a useless program that's set to bore you to death with it's super dull interface...

until i learned how to use it
(or at least learned some it's functions)

SORRY, THIS IS SO GEEKY: you have been warned.

i can't remember my very first encounter with cprompt because all i ever did was write words, intelligible enough for me, foreign enough to it.

CPrompt is a big snob.
try greeting it a warm HELLO and you'll get a really unsolicited answer, something like..

'HELLO' is not recognized as an internal or external command, operable program or batch file.

so you drop off with firsthand greetings and type in COMMANDS, as the program name implies...

(pardon my idiocy, i was never courteously acquainted to CPrompt)

try typing in SIT, ROLL, TUMBLE OVER or if you've gone anxious, DIE!
and you'll get the same snarky, frigid automated line.

that's about the time i got to my senses and closed the bastarded program. i never had difficulties learning how programs work. usually they'll have a help button in the toolbar to guide me out of my stupidity once i get in a bad hitch. but CPrompt has none. or maybe i just don't know how to command it into helping me.

but anyway. one day in the dormitory, hana (hello hana!) taught me how to debug a directory. sortoflike identifying viruses without an anti-virus (which doesn't really come in handy, i've lost faith in most av's... they always leave our pc crashing)... it was really simple.

and from then on, interest grew.
in fact, i'm enjoying debugging individual folders manually. heck! like i have something more interesting to do!

w/c reminds me, i hafta read Almost Heaven now! ;)

orange overload!

this layout's dominantly orange :)
i used my most recent artwork as the header and footer (if you'll only scroll further down) and just, edited stuff. :) pretty much the same with the horizontal navbar thingy, i wanna leave it like that and loooki! haha, SUPER THICK BORDER! yeah, i'm making a statement here! SUPER THICK BORDERS ROCK!!! i never thought they'll suit this blog right hehe.

if you've noticed, i hid the blogger navbar. i need the space up there, and it looked like an eyesore to me so i have to get it poof-then-gone. i kinda miss it though. :( hehehe

i can't believe it's already FRIDAY. i'm always one day behind, and i only realized it now, when i checked the calendar. life's running by pretty fast. >___>; whew! keep up!

enlightenment my ass!

i thought i got it all cleared up already.
i never figured it was TOO LATE.

so, i'm not tranferring anymore. damn me and my reckless decisions. it would be painfully hard for me to leave, not because i've grown an attachment to my course (that, i have not achieved yet), but because i want to see how far i can go to change myself and my attitude towards my academics. haaaay.

so yeah, i'll be staying. hopefully, for good. :)

please wish me all the best. ;)

i'm rather out of focus nowadays.
not just nowadays! i see that i've been living the same regretful lifestyle for one and a half years, and i'm afraid it wouldn't be easy to change that.




I HAVE A RATHER INTERESTING FIC IDEA!!! yeheeeey!


Title: Remember When It Rained
Summary: How far would Draco go about restraining his vampiric urges on Harry? Vampire!Draco. HPDM.

hehehe, i wanna write it now! hehehe haaaay wish me luck on this one! :)
i love vampires!

now it's beginning to clear up

i want to tranfer schools already. i'm planning on leaving UPLB and transferring to FEU-Fern to start college all over again. :)

my parents are happy with my decision, as much as i am happy about myself finally giving in to pursue what i really desire over taking up a competitive course at the cost of ruining my whole life.

please please, i'm talking to You up there, help me on this.

it is not always that i get enlightened like this.

have you seen that ferrari?

i changed my desktop! hehe, the wallpaper got me drooling you know. it's a ferrari, i'm not sure what exactly but i don't care! i usually don't, as long as it appeals to me, i'm game. :) i don't even care if it looks manly, whoever said girls don't have the right to display cars on their desktop? i'm not car-fancy though (but when get to drive i'd probably get myself a bit savvy)... i'm specifically ferrari-crazed. it started with the logo, then to the lux and racing cars... but mostly, it's still the logo.

oh yeah, it also captures my favorite windows media player skin... :)

i've been listening to Josh Groban's album, Closer, the whole day. it makes me feel aliiiivvveeeee!!

i'm kinda happy too because a lot of people are now noticing and giving me credit for my style of drawing. i personally think it's unique but i haven't got much exposure. :)

anywaaaaaay, to restrain my violent urges to continue reading book two of twilight (because i can't recover from the hang-over), i'm gonna read Almost Heaven by Judith McNaught first. it's unfair how my attention was immediately sweeped over to twilight when i was just starting Almost Heaven. i have to make ammends and give justice to the book. :) it's interesting too, but you know. damn you edward for making me do endless babbles like this. like i have done a serious crime to a BOOK.