done with the first book.

sweet. i'm still in a state of hangover. apparently, it's not enough that i finish the first book, specially that i know there're still 2 sequels waiting to be read. 3 days man, if i had a hardcopy of it, i could've finished it in one sitting but because i'm only reading it through pdf, i have to be merciful enough to my eyes. breaks are nice, it reminds me of things i ought to do aside from reading... like for once, take a bath. i always forget my daily routine when im faced with a good book. a romantic one that leaves my inside fluttering of amusement. hay. too bad it's done.

well, not really.

there's still New Moon and Eclipse. rumor also has it that a fourth book will be released soon with the title Breaking Dawn. i can't wait to get my hands on it. uhh, not literally though, now that i know i can save a lot by just downloading it and having it printed here. hehe. i've always been a pirate. owyeh. and it's just recently that such alternative dawned on me so i'm crossing my fingers on it.

now i'm partly convincing myself that i should quit being so dreamy about stuff that i know won't happen (ie. having a vampire as a boyfriend). but there's a good part in there, i always know it won't happen that's why i continue dreaming about it. no risks at all. safe enough for an argument? i'm trying not to let the world hurt me. it's always safe to just fantasize, though i know it won't get me anywhere. but that's the point, it's never safe 'anywhere'. so for the meantime, or for as long as edward cullen is still fresh in my thoughts, i'll stay put.

dmtwtdfck. i can't think straight.
and i'm terribly sorry for bombarding this day with a lot of entries. it's pretty obvious i'm online the whole day. wuhoo.

damn you fic ideas!

josh groban makes an amazing inspiration for tragic fics. i always get inspired with his songs. my last last fic was inspired by his song 'to where you are', well now i'm compelled to write something while digesting the lyrics of Remember When it Rained.

anyway. i can't seem to shut up, ayt? yeah, i figured that one too. i'm getting more and more excited about Twilight!!!

i can't help it. sorry.

never been in love like this

i'm drawing henna designs on my hand again. same stuff... hehe. :) i'm also listening to Josh Groban's album - Closer. i love it! i think i've become more sensitive to songs these days, i try to grasp the lyrics and immerse myself in the pool of emotions it tries to relay to the listeners. if it's foreign, like latin, i reflect on the melody. it always works, i always end up mesmerized. i couldn't get enough of the feeling. especially now that i'm getting inspired to write again.

i'm 60 pages close to finishing my ebook of twilight. and yesterday when i paused to write something, a story perhaps, it was unbelievable how i was able to fill a page without so much as a writer's block. but then, as soon as i got over the incredible influx of words, i stopped writing and resumed reading.

inspiration.
that's how you call it.
and i never thought it could be closely related to love.
i am in love! in love with Edward Cullen's character.

it's really fascinating, the way the book took so much effect on me. i've never been in love with a real guy, or so i thought, but this book made me dream, made me hope for my own edward, regardless of his being a vampire. you see, it's driving me crazy, how i'm giving more consideration into being betrothed to a vampire than a human. i want to feel protected, like Bella. find someone who gathers all his willpower to restrain himself from unleashing his own monster in front of the girl he loves. isn't that romantic and utterly dramatic? could end up traggic too, oh no.

i knew it. it's always more pleasant to read romance novels because it plays so much on the most coveted human emotion.

owdammit. i don't know what'll happen to me after finishing Twilight.
after finishing New Moon.
after finishing Eclipse.

that's not gonna last me till December in time for the Twilight movie premiere!
i can't imagine my life then.

oh, i almost forgot... there'll always be schoolwork to keep me busy.
yeahyeah.

hello edward

hala, mahal ko na yata sya.
sorry. i can't keep my mouth shut on this one. it is the first time, after assessing myself, that i actually professed my love for a guy with such sincerity. i promise, i think i'm really in love. after this paragraph, you'd probably laugh at me and say i'm ridiculous. i won't deny that hehehe. after all, didn't i say the exact words to Harry Potter? but seriously, this one's more intense.

i'm sure this isn't the first time i fell for a fictitious character. in fact, i think i'm more inclined to love novel heroes than 'real' guys. T___T; this is so pathetic but jeez, i can't keep my mouth shut diba...

edward cullen.
that bastard, he's driving me crazy. the book is so romantic, i'm close to worshipping stephanie meyer and putting up a shrine for her.

i am so drawn to his character, as i'm sure many girls are. and quite honestly, after reading the first chapter, i think i prefer to marry a vampire over a human. they're more loyal, especially if they've found their soulmates. and i admire their protectiveness over their partner. it's like once they've found that someone, an additional sense will be added to their systems which reacts only to that person.

halaaaaaa.
ang sakit na ng mata ko pero dahil suko na ko sa paghahanap ng libro, dinownload ko na lang. hahaha in fact, ayoko na bumili na libro. mamimirata na lang ako.

look.
books are free all over the net! so pwede ko na lang silang idownload at ipaprint! like twilight sa 260 pages...piso per page lang naman eh, tapos kung 2 pages per sheet pa, edi half the price lang. soft bind mo pa, mura lang naman. hahaha ang sakit na talaga ng mata ko pero keri lang kasi in love nga ako diba.

people who make the most sense to me

this isn't supposed to be a flattering entry because i'm going to describe people whom i know personally, along with some celebrities (oh, it's just 1 lang pala hehe) whom i think fits in the title.

before that, i just want to let out this slightly unnerving, not to mention -petty, little thing i decided to dwell upon for minutes. we have this catholic calendar and it's only now that i noticed that every day is marked with feast days of different saints... there's the whole lent season for march, st. martin de porres for the 3rd of november, st. ronald murialdo for today, and the holy trinity for yesterday. i didn't really think there are enough saints to fill the whole year with feast days. but then when i checked birthday, for the vanity of it, it only said 33rd Sunday Ordinary time. ordinary time, i sighed. my 18th birthday, according to the roman catholic calendar marks just an ordinary time. or maybe i don't know what 'ordinary time' meant? apart for the impression it gives me that it's just your ordinary 'ordinary time'... i couldn't think of anything else to alleviate the jadedness of it.

and now on to the people who make the most sense to me

i could thoroughly judge if a book made enough sense to me but i can't always relay that information and judge the author by that as well. but you see, Neil Gaiman is something.

maybe he struck me with his humor and unintended puns in writing, but for the most part... his explanations of things, mostly random, just made a lot of sense. it's like when he explains it, 'aaaah, i didn't know such simple explanation could go without any loopholes'.

i seek for people who make a habit of not complicating things. because biased as i may sound, they're always the best people to open up to. people who would interrogate you with the simplest questions and draw interpretations that strikes straight to home. they are good listeners, at the same time gives sensible advices. these people are more logical than analytical, i've gathered. and even though being analytical saves you more time in school, it doesn't save you from life much more than it did for your grades.

well you know, my standards are not well structured as i only base it from the way i spend time with them to just TALK. and you know what i've found?

A LOT OF PEOPLE ACTUALLY MAKE SENSE. and it's surprising me.

well, i have this friend whom i became really close to when we were in junior high. to me she's one of those people who makes a looooot of sense (sorry! i can't rephrase it well enough to sustain meaning). i enjoyed talking to her back then (not that it changed yknow), we have so many ideas, and i can openly talk to her about anything under the sun, even if it's weird. i feel like she'd become a good psychologist because she's quite observant too. in fact, she likes to observe! and i think that's one of the things that broadends her image of life.

there's another person too, she's a batch older than i am but we became quite close during my sophomore year in highschool, we also became clubmates for 2 years. many times we would just sit on the benches at the parking lot waiting for our fetches and just talk... be anime freaks, discuss about fics, and delve further into trivial things about life. life.life.life.

i wonder. i love talking with people who are very open about life and it's complex simplicity. it's meant to be an oxymoron, but i find balance in such words. and i also figured that the reason why i consider these people as such is because at some point, we actually share the same brainwaves.

so to soothe myself because i'm about to close my mind into thinking that the only people who make sense to me are those people i've talked to about deep matters... i imagine myself talking to some people whom i'm not realy close to. i image myself talking to a certain batchmate who is always bubbly and funny, talking about problematic stuff and petty things. and in that scene that i made up, i realized it's not hard to draw her into talking seriously, and quite simply too (given that they're not too proud about themselves). in fact, most of the people i imagined actually makes 'sense' naman pala.

but there are some that doesn't, no matter how hard i try to keep things at pace.

i.am.talking.gibberish.

sometimes, i just don't understand myself. maybe i'm thinking too fast for my hands? but that's the purpose of a blog, it's not exactly your space in the web where you can freely let everything out. it happens to me most of the time, that i try to condense my thoughts, even though i practically mention everything i do here, because my mind's just too fast for my typing hands... it results to me just sort of clustering things up in a single notion. it's not healthy to give everything away, anyway. but i still blog a lot and do tremendously long entries. i doubt if i have a regular reader who can actually keep up with the frequency of my reports. in fact, i am searching for that sole -yeah, even just 1- reader who visits my blog regularly... i have my ways, i'm tabulating the datas already :) --aaaah, i'm always in a constant need to flatter myself.

hello. sense. where are you. i'm confused.
i think i'm better off called the mistress of incoherency.

what a brutal enlistment procedure

probably the mainstream statement of elbizens for this week (could be a hundred times worse under an exeptionally creative mind). i never really had problems with online enlistment before, i was always given enough units for the sem but this time i guess luck was lagging behind, or maybe i am lagging behind luck. the 08s are so effin lucky. they got full load! all of them! yeah, but it serves them right anyway. hahaha

i only got 5 units on my preliminary schedule. good thing they loaded my recommended courses with aceptable subjects. i just love variety. oh, thank you Lord, i have enlisted another subject. yehey. 8 units now!

i just have to hate those people who got full load this sem. what are they, s1 favorites? people who have large political ties with the geek working behind s1's seemingly stupid algorithms? i'm not supposed to bash the person you know, but i guess my raging nerves permit me to act really childish on this matter.

i guess their reason behind making things brutally impossible for us is they want us to value our frkn schedules, our subjects, our courses, and of course our tuition fees. i will now, thankyouverymuch.

plus, i'm #1 on all the subjects i waitlisted to! yehey! well, it's not worth a celebration but i'm happy. really happy. and the most credit goes to...

Twilight by Stephanie Meyer.
now i want my own vampire, my own Edward Cullen ♥

ifex @ smx (MoA)

quite an eventful day. hehehe. we went to church this morning and headed to mall of asia after to witness the IFEX (international food exhibition). actually, we were just invited by one of mom's friends, who happen to be a retail exhibitor there with the stall name 'Pamana Ni Ka Mila'. they manufacture nipa food products and other organic supplements as well and my mom is so cheerful about it because she loves anything 'organic'. hehehe, they own a 6 hectare nipa plantation in bulacan which is so cool because they offer educational tours for free and man, i am just so intrigued on how they process such products! they even have a thesis about it made by thomasian graduates and dmmt, it was my first time to actually read a thesis book... because i never really thought i had to. and i felt happy because finally! i'm building interest with stuff related to my course. hahaha

however, the exhibition isn't free. you have to pay 100 php to register (pero sulit parin, if ever!). luckily though, mom's friend (mrs. enriquez i guess) gave (well, lent) us free passes! hehehe they were exhibitor passes though and we only utilized it for a while cos we have to return it to the 'legitimate' exhibitors. hehe

pero ang saya! the hall is sooo big and there were hundreds of exhibitors! the best part was actually the loads of FREE TASTES that we got! lol. mga patay gutom nga naman! as in, waaaaaah! ang daming foooooood! sa sobrang dami, busog na busog na kami ni terai! haha bitin pa nga e... (ok, so nag-tagalog na ko!) i had 2 cups of free coffee, lots of candies, biscuits, sardinas, bacon, tuna sandwich, sansrival, banana chips, boy bawang, fita, cubee, ahahahahaha define! my favorite though was the brazilian 3in1 coffee... grabeng langit ito.

but then, our parents called us na. they need the passes na kasi so my sister and i reluctantly made our way to their stall. awww... ang sad, and we couldn't roam around without a pass becauase there are men in barongs with walkie talkies checking up on people without passes and shoving them out of the hall. huhuhu... but anyway, we got by with a lot of sneaking. gosh, pati CR kailangan lagyan ng strategy because may guard! haynaku talaga we were so tensed, and we had to avoid a lot of places for the fear of being caught. nakaka-nerbyos, having to walk around like that and turn to your heel at the sight of a guy in white with one black earphone on connected to a wakie talkie clipped at his belt. grabe, parang ewan lang. hahaha

so yun. masaya naman. nakakapagod! haha

we tried to find the book twilight by stephanie meyer sa nat'l bookstore, fully booked and powerbooks pero wala kaming nakita. huhuhu. dibale, pa print ko lang sa elbi at ipa soft bind... mas mura pa! hahaha :)

ehehehe